My dad fainted when he was unwell in class, and his students took him to the school doctor, where he was taken to the hospital after taking some medicine but vomiting and diarrhea and not seeing good makeup.

When I received the call, I was booking a plane ticket, during that time for the midterm exam, and Roy took a TV series to film in the next province, I thought about going to her after the exam, I don't know if she has anyone to take care of her over there, and I want to surprise her.

My mom was talking and crying on the phone, and I tried to listen for a while before I could understand what she was saying, and in an instant I felt cold from the soles of my feet to the top of my head.

When I arrived at the hospital, my dad had already entered the intensive care unit, and the family could not go in, and the doctor said that the situation was strict now, and that it needed to be observed, saying that the recurrence of the previous illness was even stricter, and he did not give us a specific statement, but just told us to wait.

The most unpreventable thing in this life is illness and death, even if you are alive and □□healthy, with a regular schedule and rest, it is coming to you, what can you do, you can only fight it on the weak side.

During that time, I obviously saw that my mother was a lot haggard, and she was so beautiful that she didn't clean herself up and guarded the hospital every day, but the doctors gave me the bad news that they were getting stricter and stricter.

Although this disease is not uncommon, it is tricky, and the hospital has been discussing and observing for a few days and does not know where to start, and many experts have been invited but it still does not improve.

A week later, my father was finally able to come out of the critical illness, but after we moved to the ward, we could only look at him through the glass window, and could not go in, and watched him lie motionless from a distance, with his eyes closed, and when he first came out, my mother was desperately banging on the glass and shouting to wake him up, but the nurse dragged him away.

From beginning to end, the doctor only talked about observation, just observation, no matter how my mother threw money and how she gave red envelopes, it was like this.

I was going to sue Sù Roy about this, but she often stayed up late during filming at that time, and every time she called me, she was obviously tired, and I couldn't bear to disturb her, I didn't want her to be distracted by me, I could avoid it, why let the annoyance add another one.

Just when we were at a loss, Roy's mom came to the hospital and called to see me privately.

At that time, I was in a complicated mood, and I cried with my mother for several days, obviously thinking that crying was useless, but I still wanted to cry, thinking about how loving we used to be in our family, although my parents occasionally quarreled, but they both loved each other.

Once people are depressed, it is easy to recall, and when I can't sleep at night, I will think about my father's kindness to me since I was a child, and he will take a set of ways in his bones to educate me, on the one hand, tell me that people can't be greedy, and on the other hand, satisfy all my greed and buy me many things I want.

When I saw her mother, I was very haggard, and I would have been very enthusiastic if I had been ordinary, but I couldn't even laugh that day.

Her mother first chatted with me for a while, and then began to care about my father's condition, and her appearance was a big turn for my family, she not only helped us contact foreign doctors who specialize in treating this disease, so that the hospital took special care of us, up and down, and paid for the medical expenses in full.

Can I refuse?

I wanted to say no, but I couldn't.

She had my father's life in her hands. No matter how rich we are, we can't afford to make a phone call like her to get us what we crave, not to mention that we are not very rich.

After more than two months of treatment, my dad finally woke up and was transferred home after a period of time in the hospital, and gradually recovered after a year.

I never told my mom about it, and I kept Roy's mom a secret, and my mom and dad only knew which doctors were called from Roy's house, and none of the others, and they didn't suspect it by telling me about it.

I finished in a flat voice, during which Roy did not interrupt me, listened without any expression, and when he finished speaking, I pinched the hem of my dress, lowered my head and whispered, "That's the way it is." ”

We are sitting on the bed facing each other at the moment, and my bed is not big, and it is bound to lead us to a very small distance.

Still expressionless, she asked me, "What did my mom tell you at the time?" ”

In fact, her mother talked to me a lot, and we talked to me for more than an hour that day, and I barely opened my mouth for more than an hour, just listened to her, and she probably said that she had recently heard that Roy and I were very close, and then said a lot about same-sex rejection, in fact, I didn't listen to any of this, I think my dad is sick now, what are you going to do with me.

But she changed the subject and told me that she could help me get a better doctor.

My heart sank and I said to Roy, "Your mom told me to leave you." ”

Roy was not in a hurry, and said, "And then? I don't believe she's so simple. ”

That's right, Roy, you really know your mom.

Anyway, I've already said it, so let's talk about it thoroughly.

"Your mother also made me swear that if I don't break up, if I pester you again in the future, then my dad will never wake up."

Roy frowned and asked, "You agreed." ”

I nodded, it was my dad.

People are not afraid of wishes and curses, she cursed so hard, can I not do it, during my father's illness, my mother burned incense every day, prayed to the sky, knowing the possibility of this, but still holding hope.

So how can I disobey, I'm afraid that God will punish me.

Almost silently, I whispered, "I'm sorry. ”

I've always wanted to say this apology, but I haven't had the chance, and this time I finally said it, but after saying it, I didn't let go much, I was very sad, and retelling it seemed to tear open my old scars.

A few seconds later, she suddenly called out a big hand to my head, and I didn't hold it steady and fell on the covers.

Roy said, "Xue Lingyi, why are you so stupid. ”

Yes, I'm stupid, but if I had to do it all over again, it would still seem like the only way.

I think Roy will meet someone better, whether it is the same sex or the opposite sex, that person will be very good to Roy, they are the right person, Roy will be happy, she will forget about me, we have been together for a short time, how memorable it can be.

In the end, this matter is just my pain, but Xue Lingyi, how much is your love worth?

I didn't get up after being pushed down by her, I couldn't help crying when I was stuffed under the quilt, and I couldn't help but let out a low cry after a few seconds.

She pulled me up, my vision was blurry, tears kept flowing, I couldn't see her expression clearly.

This thing has been pressing in my heart for a long time, and today I finally said it but I didn't feel released, I just want to cry.

It's useless, I just want to cry.

She pulled me up and reached out to hold me, and when she patted me on the back, I was already running and crying, and she whispered, "Okay, don't cry." ”

When she finished speaking, I cried even harder.

Don't look at how plain I talk about it, I'm actually very sad.

I think I haven't suffered any setbacks since I was a child, my parents are both university professors, you don't know how many people envy me, they say that my family is very cultured, for which there are often guests coming to the house, and I have to pretend to be a little. The teachers in our school also have my parents' students, they take care of me, I was hardly bullied at school, and I graduated from high school peacefully and happily, how lucky I am to grow up in this environment.

College wasn't much surprised when I found out I liked Roy, I've always been a brave and forward-looking person, I chase if I like it, nothing is impossible, and you see, we're not together anymore.

Although this kind of life is very light, I am very satisfied, and the people I like are by my side, and there is almost no distress. I don't understand the rebellious nature of adolescent girls, and I don't understand how suicidal people often want to commit suicide.

I can imagine how hard my dad hit me, I can't help, I feel useless, as a daughter, all I can do as a close relative is to be anxious, which makes me desperate, I watched my mother have several more gray hairs overnight, but how uncomfortable it is to pretend to be strong in front of me.

At that time, I wondered if God thought I was too happy, so he gave me such a big difficulty.

After such a long time, every time I think about it, it is like a stone pressing against my chest, and I can't breathe.

I'm going to feel wronged, too.

So how sad I am, how uncomfortable I am.

I don't care, I'm going to cry.