83. Hard

Ye Xuan had a long, long dream, in which she still lived in Jiyue Palace, practicing the piano with a bitter face every day, playing the same song over and over again, miserable, but she liked it in her heart, because Yan Xu would come to see her every day. She sometimes deliberately plays the wrong tune, as long as she plays the wrong tune, Yan Xu always takes the trouble to demonstrate in person, and even teaches her hand by hand around her waist. Whenever this happens, she always steals joy in her heart and is proud of her cleverness.

It was a jolly day...... Until one day, Yan Xu's name for her changed from "cherishing the moon" to "Xuan'er", why Ah Jinyun, she asked puzzled. He said, because you were originally Xuan'er, I was mistaken. She asked blankly, I don't cherish the moon, so do you still love me? His cold fingers caressed her face and said softly, No matter who you are, I love it. She breathed a sigh of relief, and her hanging heart relaxed.

The dream changed, her hand was grabbed, and she kept running forward, and the man was dragging her to run, and said in her ear, Yezi, I am comfortable, why don't you remember me? You're so ruthless. But it doesn't matter, Yezi, you'll remember it soon, I'll take you back, and we'll go back to Wubarren Mountain......

She saw the barren mountain standing high in front of her, but no matter how she ran, the mountain was still far away from her, no matter how close she was, she ran exhausted, comfortable, I can't run, let go of me.

An Yi refuses to let go, Ye Zi, you hold on a little longer, it will be there soon. She was uncomfortable, she moved her legs as if she had collapsed, she saw that the barren mountain was in a sea of fire, and she was rushing towards the sea of fire, the flames were scorching her body, she shouted Yan Xu's name in panic, Jinyun, Jinyun, save me......

Just when her body was about to burst, a cold trickle slowly injected into her body from her fingertips, and soon spread to all her limbs, which was the temperature she was familiar with, she subconsciously clenched her palms, felt a burst of relief for no reason, and then opened her eyes.

As far as the eye can see, the simple house, the broken and peeling rammed earth, the roof with several holes, the dawn of the morning, the faint white sky light penetrating through the leaking cracks, and the chirping of birds in the ears, and the mat under him is covered with a thick layer of hay...... Unfamiliar and familiar, she frowned, and turned her brain with great effort, it turned out that this place she had been to not long ago, on the mountain forest on the outskirts of Yucheng, where hunters temporarily lived.

All the things that had happened before came to mind, and she sat up straight suddenly, "Jinyun ......"

The palm of her hand seemed to be tightened, and she realized that she had been holding Yan Xu's hand tightly, and Yan Xu was lying beside her with his eyes closed at this time, his face was terrifyingly pale, his eyes were blue, and there were residual blood stains at the corners of his mouth, if he hadn't shaken her hand just now, she really thought he was out of breath.

"Jinyun, what's wrong with you? Where are you hurt? โ€

Yan Xu opened his eyes with difficulty,

He took Ye Xuan out of Xiangwang's Mansion last night under the cover of Yunshan, and the chasing soldiers behind him continued, and after a roundabout, he actually returned to this dilapidated house where he woke up when he was reborn. didn't have time to sigh at this providence in the dark, he immediately dredged the rampant true qi in her body for Ye Xuan, and when it was finally over, it was already dawn, and he himself had suffered internal injuries, and he was so tired that he was unconscious at this time, and he fell asleep as soon as he finished speaking.

Ye Xuan was so forced to fight last night that she almost went mad, and she was also extremely physically and mentally exhausted at this time, seeing that Yan Xu was fine, her heart was relieved, and she fell asleep next to Yan Xu.

When I opened my eyes again, the discomfort on my body disappeared, and the originally faint sky was completely dark, and I had slept all day. There was a firewood burning in the house, and the light of the jumping fire lit up the dilapidated hut, and she heard a small clatter in the corner of the house, and smelled some tempting scents.

She looked sideways in surprise, Yan Xu was half-kneeling in the corner of the house, making a pot of soup that was burning with white smoke.

Yan Xu saw that she was awake, smiled at her, scooped a bowl of soup and sat down in front of her under her surprised gaze, "It's the first time in my life to cook by myself, and I don't know how it tastes, you are the first person to try it." โ€

He blew carefully, and handed her the half-worn clay bowl, she probably wouldn't know what her bowl of wild mushroom soup meant to him when he was reborn, and when he took her to this broken house again, exhausted, he wanted nothing more than to repay her for the same bowl of soup. Born rich and noble, he has never done rough work with his hands, even if he was out on the march before, there were people from Yunwei who were close to serve him, and it was the first time that he made a fire to cook by himself.

Ye Xuan held the bowl, the bowl was steaming, there were blurred lumps floating, her nose was a little sore, and she drank the soup with her eyes closed before tears welled up in her eyes.

Yan Xu saw that she drank it all the time, and her face couldn't hide her joy, "How does it taste?" โ€

Ye Xuan said: "It's hard to drink." The eggs were put too early, boiled, and the wild mushrooms did not burn the water and were astringent. โ€

Yan Xu was stunned, she couldn't help but look disappointed on her face, she looked at him like this, but smiled, "Although the taste is not good, it is unforgettable, I will remember it for a lifetime." โ€

He pursed his lips and laughed at himself: "In vain, I boast that I have a world-class talent and are good at learning, but I didn't expect that the first time I cooked in my life, it was remembered for being unpalatable." โ€

The two looked at each other and couldn't help but smile.

Running away overnight, his already ragged clothes were even more torn, so he simply took off his coat and only wore a neat undershirt. When I lit the fire just now, I was in a hurry, and there was a lot of ash on my hands and face, describing a wolf bรจi, but a pair of phoenix eyes were still bright and bright.

Ye Xuan went to the mountain stream outside to freshen up, and wet the handkerchief again to carefully wipe the dust on Yan Xu's face. Yan Xu looked down at her for a moment, and suddenly said: "An Yi asked me last night, since I gave up the Ten Directions, why do I still have to find Fuxi to gossip, in fact, I am just ......"

"To destroy it, I believe you."

She took the words calmly, her hands kept moving, her hands were still warm, and her slightly drooping pretty face was so gentle and delicate under the light of the jumping firelight, although it was weak, but at the same time it revealed tenacity and calmness.

His heart warmed, and he wanted to say something, when she suddenly leaned over and lightly imprinted it on his lips. It's just a gentle touch, like a feather brushing, so soft that it is over before people have time to reminisce, but Yan Xu is breathing stagnantly, and the whole person is stunned.

This is the first time she has taken the initiative to get close to him after knowing the truth. His heart was filled with great joy, and he was a little timid for a moment, for fear that he would be too abrupt and frighten her.

Just when he was still a little at a loss, she sat up straight and said softly: "Actually, An Yi stole Fuxi gossip in order to destroy it, and I also believe him." Maybe I really liked him before, but now I only have gratitude to him. I hated you a lot before, if you didn't sue me for that qiฤ“, I could still deceive myself and continue to love you, but if you want to sue me, what can I do? I felt like I shouldn't be with you anymore, so I went back to the Barren Mountains and tried to accept the past I had forgotten.

But the harder I tried, the more I found that I couldn't do it, I couldn't pretend to forget the past three years, and I didn't want to do it, I thought about you all the time, but I didn't dare, and I was ashamed to admit it. It wasn't until last night, when I watched you fall, that I realized at that moment that forcing myself to leave you was the real self-deception. โ€

It was also at that moment that she finally saw her heart clearly, she loved him, she always loved, just like An Yi said, she still loved him after knowing that he had done her those unforgivable things. She couldn't explain why she forgave him so easily, but now that she thinks about it, maybe she really loves someone, and there is no reason to say it. Since you can't fool yourself, try to be honest.

She took his hand and put his hand over her face, "Jinyun, I will never leave you again." โ€

The night in the mountains and forests is quiet and beautiful, except for a few occasional frog chirpings outside the house, which is silent for a while. Yan Xu clearly heard his chaotic heartbeat, he couldn't believe it, but the touch of his palm was so real, he put his other hand on her face, and rubbed her face carefully, "Then you...... Will you marry me? โ€

He saw a joyful light light in her eyes, but he still wanted her to think clearly, "I have never been a good person, I like to play with power, control people's hearts, countless people have died under my hands, I am greedy for power, I have the heart to usurp the throne, I want to be the master of the world, one day, I will call the four seas to be ministers, and all countries will worship." It's just that this road is destined to be full of thorns, and when it is successful, it will definitely be like a mountain of bones and a river of blood, if there is reincarnation, I will probably be sent to the hell of Abi, and I will never be reborn. โ€

He let go of his hand and sat up straight, distanced himself from each other, looked directly into her eyes and asked in a deep voice, "So...... Xuan'er, would you like to marry me? โ€

She looked at him and said word by word: "If this is the path you choose, I will accompany you without hesitation." โ€

For a long time, neither of them spoke again. It wasn't until a moment later that Yan Xu pulled her into her arms violently, "Xuan'er, thank you." He hugged her so hard and buried his face in her neck socket, he wanted to remember this moment forever.

He hugged him so tightly that it almost suffocated her, she pushed him and said with difficulty, "But Jinyun, I want you to promise me that if one day in the future, I remember the past, if I can't let go of the past...... You're going to let me go. โ€

After all, what she thinks and thinks now is based on the premise that she has lost her memory, but if there really is a day when she remembers everything, what decision she will make in the world, she can't guarantee it now.

He stiffened, and then said, "No, I don't agree." โ€

As if to punish her for this "rebellious" idea, he increased his strength and rubbed her into his arms fiercely, and she struggled to push him away, "But Jinyun, I ......"

He interrupted her and said resolutely: "Since you have agreed to marry me, there is no reason to leave again." I said that I am not a good person and will not give you a second chance. He pushed her down, and then pressed heavily on her, "You killed that heart for me as soon as possible." โ€

Yan Xu didn't intend to let her speak again, and lowered her head to cover her lips. He kissed greedily, tossing and turning, and she wanted to struggle, but without saying a word, he grabbed her hands and pressed them on top of her head, and untied her waist with the other hand. When his hand reached her soft and delicate skin, he seemed to detect a hot fire, and his heart suddenly beat wildly, following the graceful lines of her waist, all the way up.

His fiery lips moved away from hers, on her cheeks, over her ears, and down her cheeks...... Desire/hope gradually surging, there seemed to be a flame in his body that couldn't wait to erupt, he moaned and moaned unwillingly, and ripped off her clothes cleanly, and for a while, the delicate jade/body was exposed in the flickering firelight, and he lowered his head and kissed it.

At this time, Ye Xuan was powerless to struggle, and she didn't want to struggle anymore, she heard the pounding heartbeat, and couldn't tell whether it was her own or his, she began to respond awkwardly, kissing back gently, and the soft lip flap slid over his earlobe, and then fell to his collarbone. She was pleasantly surprised by her response, and he simply let go of her grip and her hands went up from his waist and climbed up his strong, broad shoulders. A shudder ran down his spine to his head, and he snorted softly and reached down.

After a few moments, the two hot bodies fit tightly......