Xiao Jinyu remembers very early, when he was more than a year old, he was able to recognize all the people in his neighborhood, and he called everyone correctly and eloquently, but unfortunately, his early wisdom was not praised by the elders, but he came into contact with the dark side of human nature earlier.

In Xiao Jinyu's memory before he was 5 years old, his father was equivalent to the devil, he would kick him for no reason, regardless of the part, wherever he kicked his foot, and warned him not to shed tears, but he was just a child, how could he bear the pain? Seeing that he was disobedient, his father naturally attacked him more ruthlessly and heavily, and he was always bruised and purple, like a rag doll.

Occasionally, my father was in a good mood, he was too lazy to beat people, and he would scold and say something ugly in his mouth, he was young at that time, and he couldn't understand the meaning of the words, but he still felt a strong malice in the eyes of the neighbors, he hated their fingering, and hated their unclear laughter.

As he grew older, he began to be beaten more and more, once or twice a day in the past, but now two or three times a day, and his father was no longer satisfied with just kicking, picking up a stick, wicker or something as a weapon to teach him a lesson, and he also learned to endure, or rather, learned how to do it, in order to make the pain lighter.

First of all, you should quickly hold your head at the first moment when the stick is on the verge of the head, second, you must not stand and be beaten, because then you will fall down and even accidentally hurt your face with the weapon, and finally you will grit your teeth and endure it, at least a few minutes, at most ten minutes, and when your father finishes getting angry, he will be safe for the rest of the few hours.

As for the mother...... He couldn't give an exact definition, the woman who would rush over and hug him because of distress at first, and then it was rare to even cry for him, unless he was too seriously injured, she would quietly give him some medicine, and then say sorry while touching his head with her hand over and over again.

He knew that this was the limit of what she could do for him, it was not that she was unwilling to defend him, she was not capable of protecting him, so she had to choose to ignore it to disguise, he remembered, when his father pumped his face with blood on his face with a belt, his mother rushed up to his father and tore and bites, as a result, he was stripped naked by his father that night and locked up in the firewood room all night.

The autumn night was very cold, and before he fainted in a daze, he thought he was frozen to death in the firewood room, but unfortunately, he came back to life.

Since then, his mother has never dared to fight against his father, and slowly, he no longer hopes for his mother when his father teaches him, anyway, his father will not kill him, and patience will always pass.

At the age of 5, the dividing ridge of his life, one ordinary day, his devil-like terrible father was crushed by a stone and broke two legs, lying down and being carried back.

Quietly looking at his father who was crying tears and snot on the kang, he ran out of the house in a long time, laughing and jumping in the small cave he often went to for a long time.

If his father has a broken leg, he can no longer chase him, and if he can't stand up, he won't press his mother to move around, and he always has to see the end from the beginning.

Don't think that he doesn't know what his father is doing when he is young, the cats and dogs in the village are so cubs, and the father wants his mother to give cubs too? That is to say, I will soon have a younger brother?

Great, he has long wanted to have a relative who really belongs to him, preferably a younger brother, a younger brother who will not think he is dirty and smelly, and will play with him and not let him be alone, a younger brother who will blow him when he is in pain, and will hug him to sleep when he is cold, he will spoil him with all his love and give him all the food he saves, but after waiting and waiting, the younger brother is still not born, and the mother is getting thinner and thinner day by day, as if the wind can fall.

He stayed in the cave until it was dark before he slipped home, and as soon as he entered the courtyard, he heard his father scolding his mother again, and stood in the courtyard for a while, and he was a little relieved, and his mother began to look into the house again through the crack in the door.

With red eyes, the father was pointing at his mother's non-stop scolding, and when he finished scolding, he threw the pillow on his mother.

The mother, as usual, let the father get angry, her head bowed slightly, and she sat in the chair without moving, until the father was tired of scolding, and then she raised her eyes a little bit.

"You're right, I'm just a broken shoe, the shoe that you played with, you ruined my happiness, but you still dislike me for not being loyal enough to you, why? What qualifications does the rapist/rapist have to win the victim's heart? ”

He remembered every word his mother had said, and even the look on her face was clear, because that was the last time he heard her voice.

Ridiculous, right? Even in the end, his mother didn't leave him a word, she was so resolute that maybe she didn't want to live for a long time.

Wide-eyed to see the mother with an axe to chop the father full of kang crawling, blood flowing everywhere, pushed down by the father, the mother will quickly get up, ride on the father's body and continue to cut, and then when the neighbor heard the sound coming, the father had already been unable to move, lying on the ground on the ground twitching and trembling, both eyes straight up.

The mother stood beside her father with an axe in her hand, panting and laughing intermittently, like a madman, probably in the eyes of everyone, the mother was crazy, right?

"Mother." Calling gently, she didn't let him call her mother, he actually rarely even called his mother.

Standing behind several adults, fists clenched tightly, he had a feeling that his mother was leaving, leaving forever.

Perhaps hearing his voice, his mother glanced at him through the gap in the crowd, and the expression in her eyes was complicated, and he didn't understand, and then she raised her axe and slashed at her head, and the blood splattered so high......

He became an orphan, an orphan who no one wanted to adopt, and he didn't want to go to someone else's house to live, he had a home, although he was the only one left in his home, and everyone wanted to take a detour when he saw it, but he was not afraid, there was his mother's blood, and his father's screams, the former he was nostalgic, the latter he liked, no wonder the adults and children in the village said that he was also a madman, he didn't care what they thought of him, if there was no pain and suffering, what if he was a madman?

One day, two days, he counted the days with his hands, the weather gradually became colder, and when it was winter, he had no way to go to the mountains to find something to eat, but fortunately, there were a lot of people at home, and the cotton clothes left by his father were very thick, and he would definitely not suffer from the cold again this year.

Just as he was thinking about his thoughts, a female guest suddenly came to the house, standing in the courtyard with a high belly, looking at him sitting on the threshold with very gentle eyes.

She said that she was a friend of her mother, and she received a letter from her mother and rushed to pick him up to live in City B, and she also said that he would have a new home, with grandfather, grandmother, uncle, father, mother and brother, and she was his new mother.

Brother? Like a chubby man with a stone? Thinking back to what Chubby did, he snorted coldly and didn't like it.

New family? There are so many people, he can't stand it when one person beats him once a day, and he still doesn't like it.

New dads and new moms...... Glancing at the female guest's bulging belly, he hesitated.

If she recognizes her as a mother, is the cub in her belly her younger brother? But what if it's my sister? He hates his sister who cries when he touches him, and besides, his sister can't pee farther than himself, and the boys in the village like to compare the 'range', and he has been envious for a long time, just waiting for the day when he will compete with his younger brother.

"Is he a younger brother?" It has to be asked, he asked, gesturing to the belly of the female guest.

"Yes, he is your younger brother, look, he is moving, which means that he also likes you to be his older brother." The female guest held his hand on his belly, God, my brother was really moving, and I felt the impact of my palm again, and my heart beat more than twice as fast.

I couldn't help but lean my face closer, and the heartbeat of 'bumper bumper' seemed to gradually overlap with my own heartbeat, and that feeling of happiness was floating in the sky.

He decided that for the sake of his younger brother, he was willing to call the female guest mother, and he was willing to be beaten every day, as long as he was allowed to stay by his brother's side, it didn't matter how many times he was beaten.

As it turned out, he was right in his decision.

The new father and mother don't beat anyone, and the rest of the family doesn't beat either, they dress him in clean clothes, eat delicious food, and buy him gifts, and carefully hide all the gifts, he wants to wait until his brother is born and then transfer them all to him, so that his brother will like him more, right?

I want to see my brother earlier, and the most common thing he does every day is to say to his mother's stomach, 'When will you come out to see me', and the family will always laugh when they hear it.

Of course, there are also those who don't laugh, such as Xiao Jinhan, they don't like each other, why......

He dared to rob his brother with himself! No-can-forgive-forgive!

On the first day he came to the house, he had a fight with Xiao Jinhan, but it was a shame that he lost, but if he lost, he didn't want him to give away his younger brother, and worked hard to strengthen his body and continue to fight.

The days passed in a flash, and finally the day his younger brother was born, looking at the little soft baby, he and Xiao Jinhan were a little blind.

How can you at such a young age? Look, he hasn't grown teeth yet, how can he eat?

Although he was lost in his brother's thinness, he still gave his brother all the love in his eyes, changed his diaper, fed him, talked to him, was in a daze, and the beauty of his little day was bubbling, if there was no Xiao Jinhan's interruption, it would be even more perfect.

From his younger brother turning over, to sitting, to learning to walk, he is by his brother's side all the time, and since his younger brother has quit breastfeeding, who sleeps with his younger brother has become an important factor in his and Xiao Jinhan's daily battle.

However, with his own physical fitness, it would be good to win at most three of the ten battles, even if he used the strategy, it was useless, the little kid Xiao Jinhan didn't know how to think about force, no matter what you said, it was time to sleep and he had to ask under his fist whether he won or lost, hum, reckless, he didn't admit that he was jealous!

"Brother, blow."

The chubby white and tender little boy pouted his bright red lips and blew hard, and every breath of hot air would be converted into electricity to hit his whole body, clasping his younger brother's waist tightly, "Xiaoxi, you will always care about and like me, you will not leave like your mother, and you will not treat me like a stinky mud like the children in the village, right?" ”

"Well, I like my brother." Nodding his head heavily, the little boy kissed him and began to blow hard, looking really cute.

"My brother also likes Xiaoxi, I only like you, and when my brother grows up in the future, he will move out with Xiaoxi, and the two of us will never be separated."

"Well, not apart."

Why? How can Xiaoxi, who clearly promised not to leave him, not keep his promises? He left faster than his mother, and suddenly disappeared, and even if he searched all the places where Xiaoxi could hide, he couldn't find it.

Xiaoxi, my brother's hand is broken again, you blow it for your brother, okay? Just a moment, okay?

Hugging Xiaoxi's quilt and smelling a faint breath, he looked at the bleeding fingers and begged sadly, but this time, Xiaoxi didn't run over and hug him, and he couldn't change the familiar figure even if he hurt his fingers again and again, and he finally became the one who was abandoned.