Ou Xiaoyu, the boy who smiled very warmly in his memory, Nanxi has never forgotten his last smile, which is still as warm as ever.

In his senior year, Nanxi went to the United States as an exchange student, and because he intended to be admitted to the graduate school of this university, he ran very closely to the graduate school, so he met Jiang Yiheng, who was in his second year of graduate school.

Deep abroad, when I met classmates of the same race and skin color as myself, I felt more intimate, not to mention that Jiang Yiheng also took good care of her at the time, and the first thing that came to mind was her.

After that, Jiang Yiheng took her to meet his best classmate - Ou Xiaoyu, Nanxi thought that Ou Xiaoyu and Jiang Yiheng were both graduate students, who knew that although Ou Xiaoyu was the same age as him, he had not yet graduated from this university, and he could not take enough credits due to physical reasons, so he is currently a senior like Nanxi.

Ou Xiaoyu has a very shy personality, especially when talking to girls, his ears will be very red, and they will be so red that they are dripping blood.

For a while, every time Nanxi saw Ou Xiaoyu, she would deliberately tease him until his ears and face were red.

Later, I don't know when, Jiang Yiheng began to "chase" her, insisting on delivering breakfast from Monday to Friday, never stopping, giving her a gadget or something at every turn.

The surrounding classmates all said that he Jiang Yiheng was chasing Nanxi, Nanxi shook her head very affirmatively, no, she saw it very clearly, there was no love in Jiang Yiheng's eyes, but what was this qiē for?

So when Jiang Yiheng sent her something again, Nanxi simply singled out: "Senior, just say it, what's the purpose?" ”

Jiang Yiheng smiled, and smiled meaningfully: "What do you think my purpose is?" ”

Nanxi raised her eyebrows: "Others say you like me, but I don't think so." ”

She is a smart girl, Jiang Yiheng said bluntly: "Yes, Ou Xiaoyu likes you." ”

Nanxi felt particularly incredible, "Heh, how is it possible? ”

Jiang Yiheng shrugged: "Why is it impossible?" He made all those breakfasts with his own hands, let me bring them to you, and those trinkets, gadgets were all bought by him, don't ask me why he didn't give them to you himself, because he is shy and introverted. ”

Nanxi still felt unacceptable, "It's my own business to like a person, and I feel weird to let others do it for me." ”

Jiang Yiheng shrugged his shoulders and didn't say anything more, but Nanxi didn't expect him to tell Ou Xiaoyu about this as soon as he went back, and instigated Ou Xiaoyu to confess to her in person.

So the next day, Ou Xiaoyu asked her to meet in the school playground, Nanxi still went to the appointment very generously, and when he saw Ou Xiaoyu again, he blushed and stammered: "Nanxi, I'...... I like it...... I like you, can I ...... Stay with me! ”

It's not the first time Nanxi has been confessed, but it's the first time I've seen a boy so nervous, and he can't even speak, at that time, looking at Ou Xiaoyu, who was as simple and clean as a blank piece of paper, to be honest, Nanxi's heart fluctuated a little.

After living for twenty-two years, Nanxi has never had a relationship experience, and the only long-lasting crush was strangled in the cradle, and there was no chance to say it.

At that time, Nanxi thought that the reason why she couldn't forget Yin Beiwang was that she had never been in love, and she didn't have feelings for Ou Xiaoyu, so she agreed to his pursuit.

Sure enough, after being with Ou Xiaoyu, she is warm and happy every day, although Ou Xiaoyu is shy and introverted, but she is very good at taking care of people.

When she got up in the morning, Nanxi never thought about whether to eat breakfast or not, because Ou Xiaoyu would bring her one.

When going out shopping, Ou Xiaoyu would always worry about whether she was thirsty, hungry, or tired, and asked her vigorously behind her.

went out to work part-time, and when she returned to the dormitory at night, Ou Xiaoyu was afraid that she would have an accident when she walked alone at night, so he would pick her up on time every day.

Even on Nanxi's birthday, Ou Xiaoyu made her a birthday cake with his own hands, although this was not a difficult task for him who grew up in the United States.

Therefore, Nanxi will "do" from time to time now, and it is estimated that there is a bit of a reason why Ou Xiaoyu was always used to her at that time.

Nanxi once thought that she and Ou Xiaoyu would go to the end, but it backfired......

After four years, when Nanxi once again opened the diary full of Ou Xiaoyu's love, her heart would still feel sour.

That Ou Xiaoyu-style love brought countless touches to Nanxi, and gave Nanxi the purest and true first love, so that she had no regrets from now on.

Looking back on the past 28 years of life, her crush on Yin Beiwang made her feel pain, struggle, and contradiction, but every day with Ou Xiaoyu was full of sunshine and actively thinking about the future.

If Yin Beiwang is her disaster, Ou Xiaoyu is a ray of sunshine in her life, which is unfortunately very short-lived.

Yin Bei looked at her and looked at the diary in a daze, sometimes smiling, sometimes sad, and her heart was also twisted with the change of her expression.

Yin Beiwang had a feeling that if Nanxi hadn't returned to China, maybe they would have been so wrong, and this kind of cognition was not particularly good.

He asked politely, "Is it convenient to tell me why you broke up after that?" After speaking, he frowned and asked himself the reason why his wife broke up with her ex, which seemed to be a little bit owed.

"There was no breakup." Nanxi opened his mouth and said this, Yin Beiwang couldn't react for a while, and didn't break up, so what is this......

"He died, Alzheimer's disease, commonly known as Alzheimer's disease," Nanxi said. ”

She knew that Ou Xiaoyu had this disease at Christmas, and it was only on that day that she knew why Ou Xiaoyu didn't confess to herself before, just because he knew that his time was short, and he thought about it, but he didn't expect Jiang Yiheng to be in the middle, and finally let him confess.

Ou Xiaoyu's illness became very strict in the later stage, from not being able to remember people or things, to being unable to take care of himself, Nanxi looked at him lying on the hospital bed, and cried several times.

On the day Ou Xiaoyu left, only Nanxi was accompanying him, and the two of them sat side by side on the bed, looking at the cloudless blue sky outside the window, with occasional birds passing by.

That day, Ou Xiaoyu's mind was especially clear, he leaned his head on Nanxi's shoulder, his eyes still maintained a warm smile, he looked at the sky and said: "Nanxi, the day I met you, the sky was also as blue as today......

He also said: "Nanxi, I fell in love with you at first sight, what about you?" ”

Nanxi smiled lightly, "Ou Xiaoyu, you are a bright sunshine to me, irreplaceable." ”

As soon as the words fell, Nanxi felt that the collarbone was hot and humid, and she knew that Ou Xiaoyu was crying.

Nanxi clenched Ou Xiaoyu's hand tightly with red eyes, and at the same time felt the faint strength of his hand.

Ou Xiaoyu's breathing was weak, and his voice was very soft: "Nanxi, I'...... I'm satisfied......"

He has two most regrettable things in his life, one is that he did not get a college diploma, and the other is that he cannot accompany Nanxi to continue, but at this moment, what is surging in his heart is not regret, but satisfaction.

It didn't take long for Nanxi to feel that the faint strength of Ou Xiaoyu's hand holding her disappeared, and at the same time, the tears that had accumulated in her eyes could no longer be controlled, and poured out in an instant.

At that time, the only thing that supported Nanxi was to hold Ou Xiaoyu's hand tightly.

Now, Nanxi lowered her eyebrows, her fingertips stroked the black-skinned diary back and forth, and her tone was sad: "This diary is the best gift I have ever received." ”

Since the day Ou Xiaoyu met Nanxi, he began to have the habit of writing a diary, because he was afraid that he would completely forget her, so the diary did not have a password lock, so it was always placed in the most conspicuous position in the bedroom, and he had to read it from the beginning every day when he woke up.

Regarding the diary, Nanxi also learned about it later.

In fact, Yin Beiwang was a little surprised, the probability of Alzheimer's disease happening to young people is not very high, but it was touched by the boy named Ou Xiaoyu.

To tell the truth, Yin Beiwang was a little jealous of the sunny boy described in Nanxi's mouth, jealous that he would always occupy a place in the depths of Nanxi's heart, and he would never forget it for many years.

He said with a bad feeling in his heart: "This is a relationship experience of yours in the United States?" It seems that your parents didn't know that you had been in love in the United States before, and so many things had happened, why didn't you talk to your family and carry it alone? ”

Nanxi sighed: "Hey, what's there to say about this, there's no reason to let your family worry about it." ”

Yin Beiwang: "He is your first love?" ”

Nanxi: "...... Well. ”

Yin Beiwang frowned and let out a long breath: "I suddenly remembered that since you came to Beijing to go to university, the contact between the two of us has become less, and there are many things about you that I don't know." ”

Nanxi didn't care much, "I wasn't in Beijing when I was in high school, and you don't know my high school life." ”

Who knew that Yin Beiwang shook his head: "No, I always feel that something has changed, I can say that I don't know anything about your life after college, and you were very willing to share it with me before." ”

Nanxi was stunned, thinking that it wasn't because you were with Ai Qing at the time!

I didn't want to continue to dwell on this topic, now was not the time, so Nanxi took the notebook and prepared to leave the study, wanting to put it somewhere else.

It's better that this diary doesn't appear in their lives, it's not about love, it's just respect for each other's lives.

Yin Beiwang watched Nanxi leave his field of vision, and he wanted to ask her a question in a mess, but he felt that he didn't know how to speak.

But when Nanxi was about to close the door of the study, Yin Beiwang finally did not suppress the doubts in his heart, and said hurriedly: "Xiaoxi, why did you marry me at that time?" ”

She has a deep first love in the United States, and she guessed that she had a crush from childhood to adulthood, and some time ago she was saddened by the bookmark confession, and now Yin Beiwang recalls the absurdity of that night in Yunnan, and feels that something is wrong, but she can't find a suitable answer to explain.

At this moment, Yin Beiwang felt that Nanxi's whole person seemed to be shrouded in a layer of mist, which was really incomprehensible.

In response to the question that Yin Beiwang just asked, Nanxi gave the answer.