"Is that really what the queen said?"

The imperial physician nodded: "It's true, the queen uses the ether hospital to tempt her, but the minister doesn't dare to bully the king." ”

Gongsun Er waved his hand, and the imperial doctor retreated.

Cao Yu said: "Your Majesty, what to do with those two baby girls next?" ”

……

Zheng Yuan dragged a swaddling cloth with each arm, looked down to the left and right. The two children slept soundly, and she smiled and said to Chunxi, who had just walked in, that her two daughters were very well-behaved, neither crying nor making trouble, they liked to sleep, and they were two little sleeping worms. Chunxi smiled and agreed, not daring to repeat the words of the imperial doctor to her.

"Where's my sister?" Zheng Yuan asked again, "Who is talking outside?" ”

"Outside," Chunxi pointed outward, "Cao Nei's servant is here, and the queen mother has asked the slave maid to come in and accompany you." ”

"Cao Yu?" Zheng Yuan sat up in shock, the baby in her arms woke up, and cried one after another, although her voice was not high, but your voice, my voice, noisy, drowned out the sound of conversation outside. After a while, the queen came in with a hesitant face, followed by two middle-aged women with round waists and fat waists.

"Mother, who are they?" Zheng Yuan saw at a glance that the two women were nursing mothers in the palace, could it be that they came to take away the child? Subconsciously tighten the swaddling clothes.

The queen comforted her and said, "Don't worry, they were sent by His Majesty to feed the children, and they will live here from today." ”

Immortal birds

A little over a year ago, I was asked to write a manuscript by a publication with a title that had already been specified: "If you only have three months to live, you

What will be done? "I thought about it for a long time, but I didn't answer this exam paper.

When Jose heard about this, he asked me curiously, "What are you going to do?" ”

At that time, I was kneading dough in the kitchen, I raised my white powdered hand, gently touched his hair, and said slowly:

"Fool, I won't die, because I have to make dumplings for you!"

After saying this, José's eyes suddenly darkened, and his arms came up from behind me and hugged me up to the dumplings

The table was released before it was opened.

"Are you nervous?" I asked him with a smile, and his eyes suddenly turned red again, and he smiled too, and then he was on the opposite side of me without a sound

Sit down.

Later, when I thought about this omission, my answer was still as simple and stubborn: "I want to keep my home, protect it."

My husband, a responsible person, has no right to die. ”

Even though foreseeing death is a way of ending my life, I still refuse to die. There are three in this world

The life that is firmly connected to my personal death is my father, my mother, and Jose, if any of them were there

I cannot die even if I live on earth, not even God can take me, because I will not, and God understands.

A while ago, I was talking to my parents in the middle of the night, and I suddenly said, "If you choose the path of ending your own life, you will too."

I have to think clearly, because for me, it will be a happier destination. ”

When my mother heard this, tears burst into her eyes, and she did not dare to say a word that irritated me, but murmured over and over again:

"You try again, try to live again, it's not that you don't have a choice, but I ask you to try again."

The father was different, he sat in the dim light, his tone almost out of control, and he said, "You don't talk about it."

If you say it, you will let my father live in hell, because since you have spoken it today, you will make me, this father

Man, I have to live in fear every day, and I don't know that one day, I will suddenly lose my daughter. If you dare to do such a devastating self

The things of my own life, then you are my enemy, and I will be my enmity not only against you in this life, but also in all generations

Hatred, because it was—you, killed my most beloved daughter——。 ”

At this time, my tears flowed like a waterfall, and I sat on the bed, unable to answer my father, and the room was in the room

There was a dead silence, and then my father stood up and walked out slowly. My mother's face, looking at me in tears, seemed to be quietly pumping

Sinews.

Heaven above, I must be crazy to say such things to my parents.

Once again, I realized that my life is so important in the hearts of those who love me, and my thoughts have made me go through so much

Many vicissitudes and life parents almost collapsed, in front of their daughter, they were unwilling to defend me to stab again and again,

And I, on the other hand, seem to be like that only in front of my husband. Many nights, many times in the middle of the night, I hid

In the dark, thinking of Jose became almost crazy, lovesick, and slowly gnawed at my body like a worm until I became empty

Big hole. The night was so long, so dark, and the rain outside the window was a tear in my heart, a day that would never end. I

I always think about Jose, and I always say to myself in my heart: "Thank God, I am the one who lives today, and I am the one who is in pain,

If Jose were to endure this minute and minute of the night, I would never have to. Thankfully, none of this was his turn

If he lives like me, then I have to fight with God to replace him. ”

I lost Jose, and if I had taken the first step today, what would my father, mother, and Jose be

What's the situation? I never doubted their love for me, and made my parents give them their all after half a hard life

After that, if they lose their beloved daughter, then their comfort and happiness will also be completely lost, and such a sharp blow is not allowed

It would be too cruel and unfair for them to bear it.

Asking Jose to break his wings halfway and force him to lose his beloved wife, even if he lives in the future, he will be in his heart

What kind of scars are there and what kind of imprints will there be? If my disappearance would make José never smile again for the rest of his life

Yes, then I can't die.

These, and some more, because my death will bring great pain and calamity to my parents and husband, every time I think about it, it is

I can't bear it, I can't bear it, I can't bear it. After all, the one who left first was happier, and the one who stayed was not the strongest, but,

In this heart-wrenching pain, I still want to say-"For the sake of love, this bitter cup of eternal farewell still let me."

Let's drink it! ”

I would like to be the last one to die in the circle of life of my father, mother, and husband, and if I go first, I will take this one

I have tasted the bitter cup for my parents in the world, then I will not die, because I understand love, and how much I love

Deeply, my concern and reluctance will be as long as possible.

So, I had no choice but to be a temporary immortal, even though my wings were broken, my feathers were off, and I was gone

There is another half that can be compared to wings, but the broken heart is still the treasure of the parents, no matter how painful it is, no matter how injured it is, only they are unwilling

When I die, I don't have the idea of giving up on them.

There will come a day, beyond our time and space, there will be six arms that will gently and peacefully welcome me into eternity, that

Sometimes, I would cry and laugh and call out to them—Daddy, Mommy, Jose—and then run over without looking back.

This text was originally written for another topic, but I rejected the assumption that I only had a three-month lifespan

It's difficult, the emptiness of the heart, the heartbreak and the heartbreak when I die, it's all up to me to bear it alone!

Father, Mother, Jose, I love you more than my own life, and I ask Heaven to see my sincerity and give me my presence on earth

Over time, to protect the happiness and age of my parents, then I, under this responsibility, will no longer disappear and die lightly

Finish.

Jose, you promised you, you will wait for me over there, and with your promise, I will have one more hope.

Tomorrow is the end of the world

My friend, I said goodbye to you tonight, how many times and how many times, your eyes are silently asking me, Echo, you

What will happen to the future? You're going to be okay if you're gone like this alone? Will you? Will you?

At the sight of your pitiful eyes, my stomach immediately began to cramp, and I pleaded softly to myself - no more pain

Now, don't hurt anymore, isn't there no end to the pain?

Tomorrow is a thing that cannot be escaped, and I have no way back.

I can't answer the question in your eyes, I just know that my stomach hurts, so I cover my stomach and don't say a word, because

The pain is real.

How many times have you said, although I am high-spirited, full of confidence and thoughtful tilt of head, with a smile on my face, but,

Under the light, my eyes can't hide secrets, and my eyes are full of stubborn tears, and that one

The story of the deep love of the sea.

You say, Echo, will you live alone? I want to ask you rhetorically, have you heard of anyone in this world, no

Is it a lonely life, not a lonely death? Who? Please tell me.

You also said, don't forget to write to me and tell me in detail how your days are being spent because someone is worried

You.

My beloved friend, without having to write a letter, can tell you right now that I am gone, back to my home, and there, there is

The sea, with its empty sky, and its mournful beaches that always blow with a strong wind.

Behind the house, there is a field where no one is around, and the neighbors will only appear when they are on vacation.

You can walk for two hours without seeing people, but the seagulls are always calling.

How will my life be?

I will do the laundry, mop the floor, take care of my bonsai, and make my bed. Occasionally, I'll go to the town and go shopping

When you talk to someone, go to the mailbox of the post office, and hope for a letter from you.

Perhaps, when the weather is fine and my mood is at peace, I will take a plane to the last island and buy a handful of fresh food

Flowers, sit quietly at dusk in the place where Jose rests.

There's no more Devil May Cry, the worst has come, and there's nothing more. I just sometimes have stomach pains,

When a person eats, some of them can't swallow.

I also told you that when twilight comes, I will lock the doors and windows carefully, and I will no longer dress myself up in the daytime

Exhibition, because I know very well that yesterday's style will only increase my insecurity today, so my long skirt will stay in the box

Let's go to the son. (.)

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