It was already dusk when the car drove to the flower shop. The setting sun paves the streets in warm colors, but the autumn wind is slightly cool.

Zhang Jijuan was sitting at the door choosing vegetables. When he saw Qin You, he greeted with a smile, "Xiao Qin, here." ”

"Auntie." Qin You said hello, "Lu Ning is inside?" ”

"Hmm." Zhang Jijuan said, "Did you quarrel? She didn't look very good, and she wasn't interested in it for the past few days. ”

Qin You was silent for a moment. Because he couldn't tell what happened to Lu Ning. It's sad to say, he has been with Lu Ning for five years, but to this day, he still doesn't know what Lu Ning is thinking.

Different dreams in the same bed, but that's it.

Zhang Jijuan sighed, "Xiao Qin, ......"

Every time she spoke in this tone, Qin You would feel as if her neck had been lifted by someone, and she subconsciously straightened her back.

"Auntie, you say."

"We Lu Ning, like her father, have a stubborn temper. The twist came up, and it was useless for anyone to say anything. Zhang Jijuan said, "I don't know what's going on with the two of you, but since you're together, you have to live a good life." You say, don't you? ”

"Yes, you're right." Qin You nodded.

Zhang Jijuan said again, "For Lu Ning, you can't be too anxious. You have to take your time, little by little, and follow her momentum so that she will do what you want. When two people are together, they must always tolerate each other. Auntie also knows that it is difficult for you......"

"Don't say that." Qin You said in a low voice, "I envy Lu Ning for having a mother like you. ”

"No......" Zhang Jijuan shook her head slightly.

Qin You's heart sank. He knew that Zhang Jijuan's health had been poor since the operation, and he had lost weight visibly in the past year. Fate did not favor this gentle, loving elder. She looks worse by the day.

Qin You knew what that meant, he just didn't dare to think about it.

"Xiao Qin, we will hand it over to you in the future. She doesn't have anything wrong with you...... Be patient. Zhang Jijuan said, without waiting for Qin You to speak, she patted his hand, "Go in, she's inside." The kimchi you love, I made a new jar, you take it back. ”

Qin You had no choice but to push the door and enter the house.

Although it was still sunny outside in the evening, the light inside the house had dimmed a lot. Lu Ning didn't turn on the lights either, and sat quietly in the shadows. She's always been like this lately, so quiet that it's sometimes hard to detect her existence.

Qin You knew that there was a problem like this, but he didn't know how to solve it.

Hearing the footsteps, Lu Ning turned his head and saw that it was him, so he stood up. She had a backpack at her side, and that's all she had to wear.

Sometimes Qin You felt that Lu Ning was like a traveler who was ready to leave at any time. She refused to invest any energy and enthusiasm, as if she had been watching from the sidelines, so naturally no matter what kind of feelings she had, she could not be shaken.

The two of them were silent on the way back, but fortunately, Qin You had to concentrate on driving, so that he didn't seem too embarrassed to get along like this.

But there is always a question lingering in his heart - how did he and Lu Ning get to where they are today?

The first meeting with Lu Ning, Qin You can still remember it. At that time, Lu Ning was wearing a white shirt and a short skirt, her long hair was scattered, and her slender fingers jumped on the black and white piano keys, like a musical note incarnated into the world.

For the first time, he had a strong urge to get to know someone. Even if this person is out of step with his circle.

He gave Lu Ning a business card and waited for her call since that day. Then he waited.

Lu Ning came to beg him.

At that moment, the sourness in his heart could not be described, and Qin You almost couldn't wait to ask, "What do you want?" ”

When he asked this question, he didn't think that Lu Ning would take something in return. -- Or rather, he didn't think about the so-called return. He wanted to be nice to Lu Ning, that's all.

But when he accompanied Lu Ning in the hospital, when she cried in his arms again and again because of the doctor's critical illness notice, Qin You's mentality changed.

He wanted this man, and he wanted it to death.

Even he spits on himself, and at such a time, he can still give birth to such a dirty mind.

I don't know if this kind of unsightly mind was known to Lu Ning. On the day Zhang Jijuan was discharged from the hospital, she fulfilled Qin You's wish and did not stay at home to take care of her mother who had just been discharged from the hospital, but took the initiative to get into his car.

In fact, until that time, Qin You was not sure exactly what would happen. But there must be something to look forward to.

So when a qiē really comes, it's so logical.

Lu Ning became his woman, living in his house, and the two of them lived together day and night, sharing the same bed.

However, Qin You couldn't tell what was wrong, he always felt that there seemed to be something missing in this relationship, and there seemed to be something more.

This uncertainty made him uneasy, but Lu Ning's expression was as usual, and he would feel that he might be thinking too much.

It wasn't until Lu Ning said that he wanted to go back to visit his mother and might stay there for a few days to accompany each other, and Qin You proposed that his companion was categorically refused, that he vaguely understood. When he went to pick up Lu Ning, seeing the surprised expression on Zhang Jijuan's face, Qin You finally understood what the more or less things were: Lu Ning didn't let anyone know about their relationship, including her closest mother.

She refused to go out with him, and was usually reluctant to contract him more intimacy in public except by closing the door.

In her eyes, their relationship seemed to be unsightly.

When he discovered this, Qin Yu was blank, and he almost fell in front of Zhang Jijuan. But perhaps because the moment of crisis stimulated his brain, he immediately came up with a seamless explanation. He told Zhang Jijuan that he was pursuing Lu Ning, but he hadn't succeeded yet.

Is that a pursuit? Is it a success again? Qin You didn't know.

He didn't know how to break the unfamiliar relationship with Lu Ning. At first, he thought that maybe it was just because they got along less and it would be fine after a long time. But as time went on, Lu Ning became more and more silent, and in the end she didn't even want to talk to herself.

The panicked Qin You chose the wrong method, and he began to persecute Lu Ning. From forcing her to go out with him, to forcing her to accept his closeness anytime and anywhere, every time he saw Lu Ning's panicked face, he felt as if there was a volcano hidden in his heart, which would be detonated by her at any time.

As a result, the volcano did not erupt, but Lu Ling became an iceberg.

Because one day when he was messing around in the living room, Qin Ya broke into the door like this, and then saw a qiē. Any cover-up was useless, the doubts and contempt in Qin Ya's eyes, Lu Ning was not shocked

's expression made Qin You panic.

Perhaps it was from that day that the relationship between them froze before they began to get along, and then little by little it broke and melted, and finally became unrecognizable.

Looking back, he realized that in such a long few years, there were not many happy memories between them. Why did they insist on being together, even Qin You himself didn't understand. How this relationship will end is a question he can't even think of.

Qin You took a deep breath. He remembered what Zhang Jijuan said to himself just now: For Lu Ning, you can't be in a hurry, you have to take your time little by little.

There can be no rush.

Maybe he was just too eager, so he made the wrong step from the first step, and then the wrong step, the wrong step.

In the end, I got to the present, and I can't turn back, and it seems that I can't continue.

Qin You couldn't help but turn her head to look at Lu Ning, she leaned back in her seat, staring out the window blankly, and still refused to turn her head to look at herself. Is she tired of this relationship, so she is always unwilling to face him, let alone give more expectations?

Over the years, he has always been by Lu Ning's side, and even Zhang Jijuan acquiesced to the existence of his "son-in-law", saying things like "two people are together to live a good life".

It seems that only Lu Ning has not changed, and it is still the same as before.

The tidal wave of exhaustion surged up from the bottom of his heart, and in a trance, Qin You didn't notice the red light in front of him, so he drove out like this.

The sharp horn suddenly remembered, and Lu Ning suddenly rushed over and grabbed the steering wheel.

She didn't actually know how to drive, but subconsciously turned the steering wheel to Qin You's side, as if she wanted to avoid the car that hit her.

Qin You also suddenly came back to his senses. He quickly snatched the steering wheel from Lu Ning's hand and turned in the opposite direction, and the moment the two of them twisted their strength, the other party's car had narrowly brushed them and stopped. Although it was inevitable that it would be rubbed in the end, the car just needed to be repaired.

Lu Ning suddenly relaxed, leaned back to his seat, there was still madness in his eyes, and he roared while panting, "Don't you want to die!" ”

"You're going to die." Qin You's hands were still shaking.

At that moment of lightning, he and Lu Ning's choices seemed to be opposite, but they were actually the same. They just want to let the side they sit on withstand the impact, as a cushion to protect the person sitting on the other side.

After a while, Qin You couldn't stand this silence that seemed to have no end forever. Unbuckled the steering wheel and rushed over and kissed Lu Ning, and asked fiercely while kissing, "Lu Ning, what is your heart made of?!" ”

Why will I never be able to impress you, never be able to approach you?!

Even at the most intimate time, there seemed to be a long distance between each other, and if this continued, Qin You felt that he would go crazy.

No, maybe he's gone crazy.

The fierce kiss was interrupted by the sound of knocking on the window, and the unlucky owner of the car opposite stood outside the window with a frown, "Damn! It's no wonder you get into a car accident when driving like this! ”

Only then did Qin You react that this was on the street where cars and people came and went.

He turned sideways to block Lu Ning's face, and opened his mouth to solve this oolong accident, "I'm sorry." I am solely responsible for this incident. ”

It wasn't until the traffic police and the owner of the car were dispatched that Qin You felt that the depression and restlessness in his heart had eased a lot. He sat back in the cab, buckled up his seatbelt, and drove home. However, Lu Ning suddenly grabbed his hand.

Her face was very pale, and the fingers on his arm were also very hard, her beautiful and round nails were stretched pink and white, Lu Ning looked at Qin You with a frightened face, and covered her heart with her other hand, "My mother, my mother ......"

She couldn't say anything else than those two words.

But this did not prevent Qin You from comprehending what she meant.

He chuckled in his heart, and quickly turned the car around and drove in the direction of the flower shop.

Lu Ning didn't even wait for him to stop the car, she stumbled down, and after two taps on the door and no one answered, she took out the key with a shaking hand. It's just that the more panicked he is, the more he can't get the keyhole right, and Lu Ning, who tried several times, almost collapsed.

Qin You stretched out his hand from behind, helped her insert it, and then twisted the door lock.

"Mom?" Lu Ning stood at the door and screamed tentatively.

No one answered, nothing. She paused before rushing in.

Zhang Jijuan's room did not turn on the light, but through the light of the shadow outside the window, she could still be seen lying quietly on the bed, as if she was asleep. But Lu Ning rushed over and tried to breathe, and let out a heart-rending cry.

Qin You stood at the door, his whole person at a loss, as if he couldn't be sure what was going on.

Although he has a mother, it is no different from not. So I have always been very envious of Lu Ning, and I also treat Zhang Jijuan as my mother in my selfish heart.

He remembered that Zhang Jijuan had told him before: "Xiao Qin, we will hand over Lu Ning to you in the future." She doesn't have anything wrong with you...... Be patient. ”

That turned out to be her last request.

Qin You looked up at Lu Ning again. She had calmed down from her crying and sat on the ground with a blank expression. But Qin You suddenly panicked, only feeling that her loading at the moment was worse than when she screamed in pain.

The last rays of sunset finally disappeared from the sky, and the light that came in through the window disappeared completely, plunging the room into darkness, and Lu Ning was hidden in it.

Qin You was going to step forward to comfort her steps, but she couldn't take a step anymore, and she only felt a great sadness in her heart.

He suddenly realized very clearly that between him and Lu Ning, what was now separated was life and death.

He's going to lose Lu Ling forever.