CHAPTER XXXV

"Going to the Soup and Fire" / Call me Meow

In my life, the most feared thing is not being able to meet someone who makes you have the urge to go to the soup.

"Later, we broke up."

After Yao Qian finished speaking, the air pressure in the bedroom seemed to be extremely low. The light in the room was not turned on because of Yao Qian's request. She was afraid that when she mentioned those pasts, she would not be able to hold back her tears, afraid that her helplessness would make Jiang Xiaoxi worried.

After so long, she thought that the past was already fragmentary. But when she really wanted to think about it, she played it back in her mind intact.

She can even remember how she felt when the doctor announced her initial diagnosis. It's like when the snow melts in winter, standing outside someone pours a basin of water from the upper floor, and it's cold and biting.

The doctor sitting opposite her that day, looking at her pale face, comforted and said: "Uterine fibroids are more common in women of childbearing age, widowhood and uncoordinated sexual life, and girls of your age are not absent, but don't be afraid, this is the most common benign tumor in the female reproductive organs, and it is also one of the most common tumors in the human body." ”

Such news is undoubtedly cruel for a girl who has just turned twenty. Yao Qian opened her mouth for a long time and asked, "Then can I still get pregnant in the future?" ”

The doctor looked at her, then looked down at the case in his hand, and finally told her euphemistically, "It's hard to say for the time being, further examination is needed, and if the situation is good, we will try our best to choose the surgery to remove the uterine fibroids and preserve the uterus." However, it is not excluded that other malignant conditions may be present. ”

After the final diagnosis came out, Yao Qian's last glimmer of hope was brutally wiped out. The symptoms are obvious, and the fibroids have the possibility of malignant transformation, so they have to be excised. She lay on the bed in the dormitory, not getting up for a day and a night. I kept my eyes open, I kept looking at the ceiling, and I kept crying.

Chen Ziang has always criticized her, careless will not take care of herself, she was always unconvinced and talked back to him before. At that moment, she really regretted that she hadn't done the examination earlier, and she hadn't kept dragging the condition and ignoring it.

She held her mobile phone and wanted to call Chen Ziang several times, if he knew that he might not be able to have children in the future, would he still marry her? Will his family welcome her? She didn't dare to think about it, and she didn't dare to ask. I can only choose to sneak away and run back to City A.

Shen Yue and Jiang Lanfang accompanied her for the first operation, which was partially removed from the uterus. The operation was successful, and the first thought she had when she woke up after being pushed out of the operating room was that she was still a woman.

She took a month's break before she was allowed to return to school. Chen Ziang stood downstairs in the dormitory, a pair of dark black eyes staring at her tightly. He looked emaciated, and she couldn't resist rushing over to hug him. All the grievances, all the pain, just when he hugged her back, all disappeared.

In this world, he is the only one who can make her feel at ease.

That man, for the first time, was so undressed and ignored. She was in his arms, unable to help but forget her illness, and promised him, "I swear, I will never disappear for no reason again, and I will never ignore you again." She also thought that she would never be separated from him for so long.

She thought that all this would be settled, but she didn't expect that after the operation, her condition continued to deteriorate. I always inadvertently feel a feeling of distension in my lower abdomen, a sore lower back, and when it is severe, I often see bright red blood after urinating.

During that time, she rarely went out and rested in the dormitory almost every day. Every day, my face is very pale, and I occasionally go to a more important class or two, and then go straight back to the dormitory after class. She also went to Q University to find Chen Ziang as before, accompanied him to the study room to study, or pestered him to take her to play.

She wanted to, but she didn't have that much energy. Chen Ziang came to her, and his figure was always so eye-catching. From afar, she could spot him in the crowd. She was very happy, but after being happy, she realized that she had to go for a follow-up appointment today. I happened to meet a senior who came down from upstairs, and she walked out with the senior.

He misunderstood, and she could see the loss slipping through his eyes at a glance. At that moment, her lower abdomen was distended and painful, and she wanted to explain it to him. Tell him everything, but in the end she held back.

The second operation, she fainted on campus. The senior sent her to the hospital, and Shen Yue and Jiang Lanfang hurried over. Looking at the surgical consent form in the doctor's hand, Jiang Lanfang couldn't cry anymore, and Shen Yue was even more worried, the pillar of the family had no idea for the first time. He sighed, picked up the pen and signed his name weakly.

The operation, after all, was over, and when she woke up, there were no tears. She asked Jiang Lanfang to help herself up, sat at the head of the bed and watched the sunset outside the window, and didn't speak for a long time.

The only thing he said was the phone call to Chen Ziang, "Chen Ziang, let's break up." ”

If she is destined to be like a normal woman in this life, then let her live the rest of her life alone. Chen Ziang, the man she liked and loved like that, deserves the best woman in the world to match him.

The curtains were not drawn, and the moonlight illuminated the room. Such a pale moonlight adds a little sparseness. Yao Qian touched her cheeks, and after touching the dry skin, she pursed the corners of her mouth, raised the beer in her hand, and took a sip.

The beer was bitter, but not as good as her heart. She closed her eyes, trying not to think about the past again, but there was already a slight chill in her palm.

The past is like smoke, and it simply lingers. She remembered on the phone, Chen Ziang's disbelief. I remember that on the day I was discharged from the hospital, Chen Ziang, who appeared at the door of the hospital, ignored the presence of Shen Yue and Jiang Lanfang, and held her hand to prevent her from leaving.

His back was slightly bowed, and his voice was hoarse, "Why did you break up?" ”

"Because I liked it, I was together, and now I don't like it, so I broke up. Chen Ziang, aren't you very smart? Don't you understand such a simple truth? She inhaled, and all she heard was the whirring of the wind and his heavy wheezing.

"I don't understand, you're sick, why didn't you tell me?" He was still so stubborn that he wouldn't let go, no matter how hard she struggled.

The sun shone slightly on the ground, but she kept staring, "It's none of your business." ”

"I want a reason."

"There's no reason." She didn't even dare to look at him, turned her head to Jiang Lanfang on the side and said, "Mom, take me home." ”

Jiang Lanfang saw the begging in her daughter's eyes at a glance, snatched her daughter's hand from Chen Ziang's hand, walked past him, and walked towards Shen Yue's car.

"Give me a reason." This boy, that's it, always has been. Without a convincing reason, he will not give up.

He stood in front of Jiang Lanfang and Yao Qian, looking down at her slightly.

"Okay, I'll tell you." Yao Qian supported Jiang Lanfang with one hand and covered her lower abdomen with the other. After being silent for two seconds, he opened his thin lips slightly, and said softly: "Here, there was a child before, and I took it away." ”

Her voice was so soft and hollow that it was scary. Jiang Lanfang looked at her daughter in surprise, not understanding why she would say such a thing. Chen Ziang was also stunned for a moment, and said in a low voice, "Child... Whose? ”

"Does it matter whose own?"

Since it's not his, it doesn't matter whose it is.

Chen Ziang closed his eyes, and the corners of his mouth unconsciously showed a sarcastic smile, "Before today, I want to be with you for the rest of my life." After today, you'd better not appear in front of me for the rest of your life. ”

The voice was so hoarse and low that it made her want to cry. Until Shen Yue's car carried her away, she turned her head to look, and outside the back window, the person had been standing there, motionless.

In the dark night, the sound of blowing his nose broke the silence in the bedroom. Yao Qian opened her dry eyes and turned her head sideways to look at Jiang Xiaoxi, who was sitting next to her. Facing the tears on her face, she gently pulled a stiff smile.

"Silly girl, what's there to cry about?"

Over the years, she has shed all her tears.

Jiang Xiaoxi pillowed his head on Yao Qian's shoulder, letting the tears flow, "Shen Bai, I... I never knew you were so bitter. If I had known, if you had told me, I would have flown back at once, to your side. ”

But she didn't know. Therefore, over the years, Yao Qian has come over alone. A person should be very scared and helpless. Over the years, she has only seen Chen Ziang's dedication to Yao Qian, so after returning to China, she has always wanted to find Yao Qian and do her best to match her and Chen Ziang.

However, now, she raised her eyes and looked at Yao Qian, who was speechless. Chen Ziang must not know these secrets hidden by Yao Qian, if he knew, what kind of mood would he have. Jiang Xiaoxi suddenly felt that such an ending was also very good. After all, in Chen Ziang's memories, there is more happiness than sadness.

Yao Qian smiled softly, revealing a calm look, "Xiaoxi, don't blame yourself, you see, I'm not very good now?" There's Zigui, and you. ”

As she spoke, she took a sip of beer, and a trace of sadness surged through her heart for a moment, reaching the bottom of her heart.

Maybe he was too tired, and after drinking some wine, Yao Qian fell asleep after a while.

Jiang Xiaoxi has been unable to sleep, and for her, the shock brought to her by Yao Qian is too great for her to accept it for a while. She sat under the bed and kept looking at the mobile phone that had been vibrating, Yao Qian's mobile phone, the call was from an unfamiliar number. This number, she had some impressions, took out her mobile phone and compared it, and confirmed that it was Chen Ziang's number.

She picked up her phone, and when she got up, she glanced at Yao Qian who was sleeping on the bed, and she kept frowning.

"Hey, I'm Jiang Xiaoxi." She walked to the living room before picking up the phone.

The other party was silent for a while before asking, "How is she?" ”

"The fever has subsided, and now I'm asleep." Jiang Xiaoxi looked at the moonlight outside the window and remembered the bitterness that had been stagnant at the corner of Yao Qian's mouth.

Chen Ziang answered on the other end, "That's good." ”

"Shen Bai, she is bitter in her heart." Jiang Xiaoxi sighed deeply, wondering if Chen Ziang could understand what she meant.

"I know, not anymore."

Obviously, Chen Ziang understood what she meant.

Jiang Xiaoxi was slightly stunned, she could probably guess that Chen Ziang already knew those things, as for who told him, she didn't need to ask. I only hope that these two people, who are very bitter in their hearts, can get true happiness.

She took the phone, went to Zigui's room to have a look, and then went back to the bedroom to cover the quilt for Yao Qian, looked at the person on the bed, and said in a low voice: "Shen Bai, you are so stupid." 166 Reading Network