Chapter Sixty-Eight: Killing Heart
In most cases, it is much more difficult to deprive an acquaintance of his life after deliberation than it is to kill a group of strangers in a fit of rage.
When you are angry, you just act on instinct, and deliberate is the result of your sanity.
Ji Heng has taught Ji Buyun strategy, tactics and various fighting techniques over the years, and has made sufficient preparations for him to set foot on the battlefield, the only thing he did not teach Ji Buyun is the determination to kill people in battle.
And this determination is perhaps the most important thing on the battlefield.
Since his cultivation, Ji Buyun has been smooth sailing so far, and he has dealt with it himself, either a mage who is not in the stream or a black magic stone puppet, and when he encounters a really difficult problem, he has Bingyi, Ying Qingyi and others to solve it for him.
Watching others kill people and arranging others to kill people by himself are completely different things, not to mention that he has only seen Bingyi killing, that scene, the shock is shocking, but it is not cruel at all, a group of people turned into ice chips in a blink of an eye, which is similar to a trick, and the people killed are people he doesn't know at all.
Thinking of the crisis hidden under the peace of the highlanders, Ji Buyun felt that once his uncle and Ji Cheng discussed the results with them, he would soon have to order these cultivators to get rid of some of the highlanders.
The thought of ordering someone to kill weighed on him like a stone, making it difficult for him to breathe.
Red blood spread out in his mind, blurring his vision.
The wine bureau gradually reached a climax, the Praetorian Guard officers and cultivators began to toast cross-toast, the familiar and the unfamiliar under the backdrop of the wine, and now they have become like-minded good friends, in the noise, Ji Buyun felt flustered, he excused himself to leave the table and came to the courtyard behind the banquet hall.
The moon is slanting and the stars are sparse, the night breeze blows through the bamboo forest in the courtyard, making a subtle rustling sound, and the faint moonlight shines through the sparse bamboo leaves, mottled and sprinkled on the ground, just like his heart at the moment, heavy and difficult to explain.
Under the night sky, thinking that he might have to arrange for a cultivator to deprive others of their lives, this was no different from killing people himself, and the people he was killed were likely to be people he knew or even close to him, and the huge psychological pressure made him sigh for a long time.
Nan Wan'er quietly followed, she knew that Ji Buyun was not in the right mood at the moment, so she didn't dare to disturb him, and silently stayed aside.
Ji Heng appeared in the courtyard at some point, he walked up to Ji Buyun and asked, "Did you encounter any difficulties?"
Ji Buyun absolutely trusted Ji Heng, and he simply told Ji Heng the words of the first shock of the Thunder God Temple and the concerns in his heart.
Then he asked, "Master, when you led your troops to fight and killed so many people, didn't you have a burden in your heart?"
Ji Heng said: "One will succeed and ten thousand bones will wither, it is false to say that there is no burden, no one wants the innocent people around him to die, but if you care about them, try to win the battle." β
Ji Buyun said: "Killing people on the battlefield and killing people now, after all, there is still a difference. β
Ji Heng said: "There is no difference, they are all enemies, we kill them to protect ourselves and the people around us, if you don't kill them, they will kill you, are you willing to be killed by them, or do you want to live?"
Ji Buyun said: "Of course I want to live." β
Ji Heng Senran said: "If you want to live, then find a way to kill them." β
This categorical sentence made Ji Buyun not know how to deal with it, he vaguely felt that what Ji Heng said was right, whether he knew it or not, they were all enemies, and they could only live and die with each other.
Ji Heng said: "You can't make up your mind to kill now, fundamentally speaking, you should blame me." β
Ji Buyun said, "You hid your secrets when you trained me. β
Ji Heng said: " Yes, for many years, the first training that every dragon man receives is to kill, develop a heart of stone, when I started training you, your uncle and your uncle hope that I can relax some discipline for you, they do not have too high requirements for you, just hope that you can spend this life peacefully, I think all the dragon people have a peaceful life, only I can't bear the loneliness to take the initiative to ask on the battlefield, to you there should be no accidents, just take the initiative not to train your killing heart, who would have thought that things are so coincidental, but to you, you must assume the responsibility of the dragon manγ β
Ji Buyun said: "Do you have to have the heart to kill to become a dragon master?"
Ji Heng said: "The dragon warrior is not as simple as simply practicing with the dragon, if you really want that, why should I bother to teach you battlefield strategy? If the demon clan invades the world again, the dragon warrior will take on the responsibility of leading the human alliance to fight against the demon race. β
Ji Heng raised killing to a kind of responsibility, and regarded the heart of killing as confidence in himself and determination to do things.
Ji Buyun said: "Master, aren't you more suitable than me to take on this responsibility?"
Ji Heng sighed: "You are benevolent by nature, in my opinion, you are actually not suitable to take on this responsibility, but Yu Longpei chose you, and you can only bear this responsibility, no one can do it." β
Ji Buyun remembered that Ji Heng had said that the Ji Clan's ancestral temple shook when he was born, and asked, "Master, how does Elder Longwei know that I am the Dragon Emperor?"
Ji Heng obviously didn't want to say much about it, and said vaguely: "One day you will go back to the Ji Ancestral Temple to ask for the Fulong Sword, and you will know when the time comes." Okay, the eldest princess is waiting for me, this killing heart can only be slowly cultivated and comprehended by yourself, and the master can't help you now. β
After Ji Heng left, Nan Wan'er walked over, hugged Ji Buyun's arm with concern, and said softly: "Little brother, don't be upset, killing is an inevitable thing in cultivation, if you can't be ruthless at that time, people will help you." β
Ji Buyun said: "How can you help me?"
Nan Wan'er said: "After the people and Sister Duo'er agreed, use your name to find those cultivators directly, if you don't go through you, people don't know them anyway, just let people erase a symbol." β
Speaking of such a heavy topic, Nan Wan'er's words and expression were extremely relaxed.
Ji Buyun couldn't help but ask, "Wan'er, have you ever done these things?"
Nan Wan'er shook her head and said, "No." β
Ji Buyun asked, "Then how did you say it so easily, without any burden at all?"
Nan Wan'er said: "How can there be no burden, after all, there is no difference between ordering to get rid of a person and killing people by yourself, people have never killed anyone since they were young, but the little brother is unwilling to do these things, so they have to do it for you." β
Ji Buyun couldn't help but feel moved in his heart, and he asked Nan Wan'er, "Do you think Duo'er will agree to do this?"
Nan Wan'er said: "Yes, Sister Duo'er is in that position, there are some things she must do, and she has to do it if she doesn't want to." β
Thinking that the high priest who was as pure as a white lotus flower in his heart would soon have to personally order the elimination of his compatriots, and thinking of her wish to "create a flower bloom and the taboo is still there", Ji Buyun couldn't help but feel a kind of amazement in his heart.
Nan Wan'er said: "Little brother, you don't have to think too much, you and Sister Duo'er are both good people, and you are doing this to protect more good people." β
Ji Buyun has long understood this truth, but he can't get over the hurdle in his heart.
Nan Wan'er continued: "Little brother, you are the one chosen by God, these things are your responsibility, are you willing to take these things yourself or push them to Sister Duo'er?"
Ji Buyun smiled bitterly: "Of course I did it myself, how could I be willing to let Duo'er do these things, in fact, I don't want to take these responsibilities at all, if I can, I'd rather be an ordinary person, and so is Duo'er." β
Nan Wan'er said: "Little brother, you are still young after all, it would be good to experience some things more." β
This sentence is old-fashioned, and Ji Buyun knows that according to the age of human beings, Nan Wan'er is actually much older than him.
He smiled bitterly again: "Do you need to experience more to kill people?"
Nan Wan'er said: "Yes, little brother, you will kill more people in the future, as long as you guarantee that the people you kill are all heinous people, you can kill them, which is equivalent to saving a lot of good people." β
Ji Buyun said: "Then who do you say is the good guy and who is the bad guy?"
Nan Wan'er said with a smile: "Anyone who goes against Little Brother, Sister Duo'er, and others is a bad person. β
This childlike sentence made Ji Buyun laugh, his mood instantly relaxed, and he smiled: "In this way, the little princess is a bad person." β
Nan Wan'er said seriously: "Of course, little brother, people ordered you to kill her in a while, and you are not allowed to use knives, wine, or wine to kill her, so that she can always turn around in front of others because she knows how to drink." β
Ji Buyun said: "This is easy, I'll go and toast him a few jars of wine in a while." β
Nan Wan'er hurriedly said: "No, no, no." β
Ji Buyun said deliberately: "Didn't you let it?"
Nan Wan'er said: "People are angry, it's better for you to have less contact with her." β
Ji Buyun said: "What's wrong with contacting her? She's not a monster, what are you afraid of?"
Nan Wan'er bit her lip and said, "Little brother, she must have taken a fancy to you, beware of people telling Sister Duo'er." β
Ji Buyun said: "Don't talk nonsense, why do you have a fancy for me in your mouth? I didn't know that I was so attractive." β
Nan Wan'er snorted angrily: "If you don't believe in other people's words, little brother, let's bet." β
Ji Buyun said: "What bet?"
Nan Wan'er said: "Let's go back in a while, that little princess will definitely come over to toast you." β
Ji Buyun said: "My identity today is the host, she is a guest, it is normal to come to toast me." β
Nan Wan'er said: "She will definitely toast you with three glasses of wine." β
Ji Buyun said: "Last time she toasted me three glasses of wine at the Prairie Pavilion, which is not unusual. β
Nan Wan'er said sourly: "Yo Yo, I still remember the last time I toasted you three glasses of wine, little brother, people treat you a lot more than her." β
Ji Buyun said: "It hasn't been long since this happens, besides, is the relationship between her and me the same as yours?"
When Nan Wan'er heard this, she immediately became happy, and said with a smile: "Of course, little brother, she is your little wife." β
Ji Buyun said: "Wan'er, don't talk nonsense, I have always treated you as a sister." β
Nan Wan'er jumped to her feet and said fiercely: "Little brother, you don't talk again, but there are witnesses, if you don't admit it, tomorrow I will go to the Senate Square to find your subordinates to testify to others." β
Ji Buyun thought of the last time he was set up by Nan Wan'er in public on the square of the Senate, he was embarrassed, and habitually changed the topic: "Wan'er, are you still betting?"
Although Nan Wan'er occasionally scolded Ji Buyun, she has always been shallow and never self-conscious, she saw Ji Buyun change the topic, and immediately followed: "Of course I did, people also bet that she would definitely talk to you a lot during the toast." β
Ji Buyun said with a smile: "I don't need to bet on this, I also know that toasting is just a formality, chatting together and being polite is true." β
Nan Wan'er said with a straight face: "She will fill every glass of wine for you first." β
Ji Buyun said: "Wan'er, these are the normal etiquette you said, of course she came to toast me because she poured me wine." If nothing else, there is no need for us to make this bet. β
Nan Wan'er said: "What's the hurry, little brother, people still know that she will touch your hand intentionally or unintentionally when she toasts you." β
Ji Buyun said: "Drinking and clinking glasses, occasionally touching hands, is not unusual. β
Nan Wan'er said: "You lonely men and widows, isn't it a big deal to touch hands?"
Ji Buyun looked at Nan Wan'er and said, "The highlanders don't care about this, you still hold my arm every day?"
Nan Wan'er smiled: "Of course Sister Duo'er won't be angry, she has already promised someone to be your little wife." β
Ji Buyun said: "Don't talk nonsense, Duo'er won't be so ignorant." β
Nan Wan'er hugged his arm and shook it, "Why are people not sensible? β
"Little brother, people are the most obedient, what do you say, people are what they are, can't they?"
"Little brother, don't dislike others, they are wholeheartedly good to you. β
The chatter princess once again turned on the long-lost chatter mode, such as dozens of sentences, Ji Buyun was overwhelmed, and hurriedly stopped her and said: "Do you have anything else?" If not, we don't have to make this bet." β
Nan Wan'er rolled her eyes and said, "Of course there are still people, little brother, people bet with you that this little princess will hold your arm during the toast." β
No matter how shallow the defense of the highlanders and men is, the young men and women will not openly hold each other's arms in public, which is a public show of love.
Ji Buyun has always allowed Nan Wan'er to openly hold his arm, because in his heart, he has always regarded her as a younger sister, and of course it is not a big deal for a sister to hold her brother's arm, and the high priest also knows about this matter.
Although the little princess of the turkey horse has a bold personality, she is a noble royal girl after all, and her behavior is measured, Ji Buyun didn't believe that she would hold her arm in public at the banquet, he said to Nan Wan'er: "Okay, I'll bet with you, what do you say?"
Nan Wan'er said: "If someone wins, little brother, you have to admit in public that someone is your little wife." β
Ji Buyun didn't dare to make this promise no matter what, he hurriedly said: "This one doesn't work, change another one." β
Nan Wan'er said: "I really didn't expect anything else, so I owe it first, and then I'll tell you when people think about it, little brother, what bet do you want?"
Ji Buyun thought for a while and said, "If I win, you are not allowed to hold my arm in the future." β
He deliberately put forward this condition first, because he felt that Nan Wan'er would definitely not agree, so that he could then bargain with Nan Wan'er.
Unexpectedly, Nan Wan'er simply agreed: "Okay, little brother, a word is a certainty." β
Speaking with full confidence, Ji Buyun couldn't help but muttered in his heart, could it be that she and Tu Qiling had dug a pit in advance and waited for him to jump? Thinking that Nan Wan'er and Tu Qiling were like fire and water, he immediately denied his idea.
Seeing that Nan Wan'er looked like she was holding the chance to win, Ji Buyun was afraid that she would play some language game, so she couldn't help but repeat the betting conditions: "Wan'er, let's say it, if the little princess pulls my arm when she toasts me, you win, if not, I win." β
Nan Wan'er said: "Yes, that's it, little brother, don't cheat." β
Ji Buyun said: "Okay"
Nan Wan'er stretched out her little hand and said, "Little brother, let's high-five and swear." β
Ji Buyun stretched out his hand and lightly high-five her.
When the two of them returned to the banquet hall, the wine party had reached its climax, several deputy commanders of the Praetorian Guard and a few cultivators led by the two brothers of Wanlong Island gathered together and drew their fists; Qi Qize and several cultivators from the Three Shrines of Thunder, Rain, and Electricity gathered around a desk, drinking wine in a large bowl while catching up on the old days; Lian Fei of the Hidden Sword Ancestral Court and the two sisters of Phantom Sky Island were standing next to the desk of the chief commander of Xitu, exchanging something with him.
Only Tu Qiling sat quietly in his place, looking at the room full of drunkards with a smile, his round eyes turned around, and he didn't know what he was thinking?
Seeing Ji Buyun return to her position, the little princess stood up and came to Ji Buyun's case, she raised the wine glass in her hand and said, "Ji Gongzi, little sister respects you." β
Ji Buyun also quickly stood up and said, "Princess Xie." β
After the two drank the first glass of wine, Tuqiling poured a full glass of wine for Ji Buyun and herself, and said to Ji Buyun: "Master Ji, we still have the old rules, little sister toasts you three glasses." β
Ji Buyun said: "The princess has a life, dare not accompany her." β
Sure enough, Nan Wan'er said it, and Tu Qiling came over to salute him three cups in a row, he couldn't help but glance back at Nan Wan'er, and found that the chatter princess was looking at the two of them behind her case, her round eyes turned around, and she didn't know what the hell she was doing.
Ji Buyun suddenly found that these two princesses actually had a problem with rolling their eyes, but they still looked quite cute.
Tu Qiling raised his glass to Ji Buyun and said: "Ji Gongzi, my little sister is not familiar with life here, and my aunt often goes to see His Royal Highness the God of War, leaving my little sister alone in the hotel every day, it's really uncomfortable, if it's convenient, can I go to visit you?"
Ji Buyun said: "Convenient, convenient for adults, the princess is welcome to come at any time." β
This was a normal polite remark, who would have expected Nan Wan'er to be unhappy on the side, she said coldly: "I'm afraid that the visit is fake, and the ulterior motive is true." β
This sentence clearly reached the ears of Ji Buyun and Tu Qiling, and Tu Qiling's little face turned red, but she held back her anger and said to Ji Buyun: "As long as Ji Gongzi doesn't dislike the trouble of the little sister." β
Before Ji Buyun could speak, Nan Wan'er said on the side: "Little brother is embarrassed to say that he hates trouble, some people just don't have self-knowledge." β
Tu Qiling knew that Nan Wan'er was deliberately looking for her own fault again, and she couldn't fight with Nan Wan'er every time, so she simply pretended not to hear it, and said to Ji Buyun: "Thank you Ji Gongzi, little sister respects you again." β
After speaking, he raised his glass to Ji Buyun, and Ji Buyun also raised his glass to her, and just as the two cups were about to touch together, a Qianqian Su hand reached over.