CHAPTER XXXIII

"Going to the Soup and Fire" / Call me Meow

In my life, the most feared thing is not being able to meet someone who makes you have the urge to go to the soup.

Basically all parents will hope that their son will become a dragon and their daughter will become a phoenix, and Jiang Xiaoxi is ready to study abroad in his third year of high school.

After graduating, she left City A alone for London. She was a slow child and quickly adapted to the slow pace of life in London

of the city.

At first, she was able to keep talking on the phone with her family and friends every day. But as an international student, she also encountered more problems. Occasionally, I can only find time to contact Yao Qian by phone once a week or two to tell her about the joys and pains of studying abroad, and Yao Qian will also mention her college life with her after a few words of comfort.

The days abroad are getting longer and longer, and the pressure of studying is getting heavier and heavier. Jiang Xiaoxi began to have a stable life circle of her own, and Yao Qian also began to enter a period of love with Chen Ziang, during which time they had little contact.

After a long contact, every time Yao Qian would mention Chen Ziang, but as time went by, she mentioned that person less and less, and her mood changed accordingly.

After going to college, Yao Qian told Jiang Xiaoxi that she would run to the university next door every once in a while, about once every two days. Sometimes when class is full and there is no time, she will go to the classroom to sign in first and sneak out. She can always meet Chen Ziang in any corner of Q University, the first two months she found him first, but the second two months became the first time he saw her.

Jiang Xiaoxi smiled and said that maybe Chen Ziang was already interested in her. Yao Qian said it was impossible, but she kept giggling.

Chan is no longer as cold as he was in high school. In Yao Qian's narration, Jiang Xiaoxi seems to be able to see the picture of a young man falling in love. He would take Yao Qian around the entire Q University without saying a word, he would agree to let Yao Qian study with him in the study room, and he would also bring Yao Qian a cup of hot milk when he bought drinks. But more often than not, he would listen to Yao Qian's endless words very quietly, patiently answering her strange questions one after another, although sometimes he would ignore them.

On the day they were together, Yao Qian said that she looked at the stars on the balcony of the dormitory, which was very bright and dazzling.

In the first summer after entering college, Yao Qian and Chen Ziang have been officially dating for almost half a year. Yao Qian signed up for the school's sports day, the women's 100-meter sprint. She is very good at it, but she brushes shoulders with the first. She got down from the track and cried aggrievedly when she saw Chen Ziang waiting there. Chen Ziang must not have known that Yao Qian wanted him to see his excellent side, so he didn't have time to comfort Yao Qian. That day, Yao Qian and Jiang Xiaoxi's tone on the phone was obviously very bad.

The two of them, one can't hold back something in his heart, and the other has something he doesn't want to say. There are more and more small contradictions, and Yao Qian's complaint is getting louder and louder. Yao Qian skipped class on a date, and Chen Ziang would be angry. Chen Ziang always doesn't like intimate actions in front of acquaintances, which makes Yao Qian very incomprehensible.

In the third year of college, although there are fewer courses, everyone is busy with various examinations. Chen Ziang is no exception, he is busy with various exams, and he can't find time to date Yao Qian at all. And Yao Qian, it took three years to barely pass the English level 4 exam, and the English level 6 was only a name.

Whenever Yao Qian took the bus to find Chen Ziang with great interest, he always saw a good student sitting in the library. A pen in his hand and a book in front of him. Yao Qian would occasionally sit with him for a while, but it didn't take long for him to clamoring to go out. Once or twice, Chen Ziang came by her. After repeated times, Chen Ziang refused her with a straight face and asked her to go back to school.

The number of times Yao Qian called Jiang Xiaoxi suddenly increased that year, and I remember one time, Yao Qian cried low on the phone. That was the first time Jiang Xiaoxi found out, and it turned out that this girl would also cry. She sobbed and told Jiang Xiaoxi that the gap between her and Chen Ziang was so big.

From the joy at the beginning to the frustration at the end, Jiang Xiaoxi couldn't imagine how much had happened in between. And she only listened to part of it, and this part was only from Yao Qian's point of view.

It is said that when a woman falls in love, there are only lovers and feelings in her life. When a man is in a relationship, lovers and feelings are just a part of life. Perhaps, the contradiction between Chen Ziang and Yao Qian gradually formed at that time came from this.

Jiang Xiaoxi thought that this was a stage that every couple would go through, and as long as the two of them were patient and ran in, it would eventually pass. Unexpectedly, the last thing that passed would be the relationship between the two.

After Chen Ziang and Yao Qian broke up, Yao Qian called Jiang Xiaoxi. At that time, Yao Qian's tone was very flat, but Jiang Xiaoxi felt that she was very sad in her heart. She thought about letting Yao Qian calm herself down for a while, and then comfort and comfort her. But after that phone call, Yao Qian disappeared into Jiang Xiaoxi's world like evaporation from the world.

Jiang Xiaoxi tried to call Yao Qian's home, but Yao Qian's parents told Jiang Xiaoxi not to worry, and they would take the initiative to contact her after Yao Qian changed her new contact information. In the days that followed, Jiang Xiaoxi received several calls from Yao Qian, very rarely, because they were very busy with each other. Yao Qian took a leave of absence from school and then went back to school. Jiang Xiaoxi asked the reason, Yao Qian repeatedly diverted the topic, she didn't want to say that Jiang Xiaoxi would not force her, she only felt that the breakup probably hurt her too much.

Later, she entered medical school with excellent grades, and met her current husband Gu Yan while she was in school. Gu Jinchen's cousin, the two fell in love for three years, and finally got married.

Jiang Xiaoxi told Yao Qian all his own affairs in the past few years, and the part about Chen Ziang was automatically omitted. Jiang Xiaoxi drank some water and moistened his throat, "Okay, now it's time for you to say, why didn't you have contact after graduating from college?" ”

She wrinkled her face and complained to Yao Qian, "Don't you want me as a friend anymore?" ”

It was like a century long, Yao Qian looked at the porridge in his hand in a daze, and couldn't come back to his senses for a long time. From the moment she saw Jiang Xiaoxi, she was condemning herself in her heart. She was so selfish that she didn't keep in touch with her former classmates and even forgot her best friend. For herself, it's just seven years of uneventful living.

However, for those who cared about her, she said goodbye for seven years without saying goodbye.

Yao Qian put aside the already cold porridge, raised her head, her eyes were a little red, and she said jerkyly: "I'm sorry." ”

Jiang Xiaoxi turned his head, looked at Zigui who was sitting next to Yao Qian and playing with toys, and frowned, "I blame you, blame you for being so ruthless, and refuse to contact me all the time, and I also blame you for leaving our relationship for so many years behind." ”

Yao Qian listened quietly and did not talk.

"However, the moment I saw you at Chen Bin's wedding, I was not angry at all. I just want to find you right away and see how you're doing. ”

She cried, and Yao Qian looked at the tears that slipped down Jiang Xiaoxi's face in a daze. When was the last time you saw her crying? It seems that it was the second semester of the second year of high school, Jiang Xiaoxi's father was sick and hospitalized, and the doctor said that if she received treatment one day later, maybe she would not have a father. That night, Jiang Xiaoxi did not go to self-study at night, and Yao Qian accompanied her to walk around the sports field.

After many years, seeing her tears again, Yao Qian was a little overwhelmed, and stretched out her hand to wipe it away for her, but she was hugged by Jiang Xiaoxi.

"Shen Bai, how have you been doing all these years? I've been looking for you. ”

She hesitated for a moment, let go of Yao Qian, and finally couldn't help but say, "Chen Ziang... He's looking for you, too. ”

"Creek, don't mention him." Yao Qian interrupted her.

The panic on her face and the uneasiness in her eyes must have been obvious, otherwise Zigui would not have pounced on her to comfort her, "Mom, don't be afraid, Zigui protects you." ”

Even Zigui can see through the fear in her heart, but the funny thing is that even she doesn't know what she is afraid of?

The child's hand rested softly on her neck, Yao Qian looked down at Zigui, kissed her daughter's face, and whispered, "Mom is not afraid." ”

After all, the current Yao Qian is no longer the Shen Bai she used to be, she sits quietly at the head of the bed, as if she has been broken by someone, and her body is full of defenses without aura. Jiang Xiaoxi glanced at Yao Qian, couldn't bear to look at it anymore, picked up the porridge at the head of the bed and went out to heat another bowl and came in.

took Zigui out of Yao Qian's arms, handed her the porridge, and instructed: "Shen Bai, you drink the porridge first, and tell me what has happened in the past few years." ”

What has happened in the past few years that has made you the coward you are now.

"Hmm." Yao Qian nodded, and slowly ate one bite at a time.

Jiang Xiaoxi was playing games with Zigui on the side, and after a while, Zigui was clamoring to listen to the story. Holding the storybook that Chen Ziang had taken yesterday, Jiang Xiaoxi talked about it seriously. But it didn't take long for Zigui, who lowered his head to play with blocks, and suddenly said, "Auntie, when will the supermarket uncle come over to tell Zigui a story again?" ”

Yao Qian, who was drinking porridge, frowned and was silent. At this time, Jiang Xiaoxi just raised his head and glanced at it, and said intentionally or unintentionally, "Zigui likes Uncle to tell you stories?" ”

"Hmm." Zigui nodded, the action of building blocks in his hand did not stop, his little head turned, and suddenly asked: "Yesterday my uncle said that I would have time to come back, aunt, when is 'time'?" ”

Jiang Xiaoxi was half-lying on the edge of the bed, and suddenly remembered the picture of Chen Ziang telling the story last night, and couldn't help but shudder, casually flipping through the storybook in his hand, looking helpless, and replied: "This question, you ask your mother, my aunt is stupid." ”

When Zigui heard this, he really turned his head to look at Yao Qian, who had already finished drinking the porridge, and asked her innocently, "Mom, do you know?" ”

Yao Qian's hand holding the bowl trembled slightly. I was stunned for a moment, and my face was still faint. She pressed one hand on the other, got up quickly, and whispered, "I'll go wash the dishes." ”

As if to escape from the bedroom, Yao Qian locked herself in the kitchen. While forcing myself to wash the dishes seriously, I couldn't help but think back to yesterday. The last man she saw in the Shen family's old house was not a dream, but a real person, Chen Ziang.

"Yesterday, he called me from the hospital. When you fell asleep, he stayed with Zigui, and after the child fell asleep, he caught a plane back to City A. ”

Jiang Xiaoxi's voice sounded from behind him. Yao Qian endured it without looking back, closed her eyes, and said softly: "Xiaoxi, let me tell you about the past few years." 166 Reading Network