CHAPTER XXXVIII

"Going to the Soup and Fire" / Call me Meow

In my life, the most feared thing is not being able to meet someone who makes you have the urge to go to the soup.

Falling into a quiet restaurant, Chen Ziang slowly straightened his rickety back, and his eyes met with Yao Qian. I haven't seen her for a few days, and she seems to have lost some weight. is still plain and light makeup, and his face is a little haggard.

She was looking at him, too, but at the broken corners of his mouth. Slightly distracted, Chen Ziang couldn't help but think self-righteously that she was worried about him.

The other colleagues were waiting at the door of the restaurant, unaware of what had just happened in the restaurant. Xu Ruyun was a little glad that he was holding Zigui in his hand, and witnessed the whole process.

She looked at Chen Ziang not far away, and then at Yao Qian beside her, and found that the two of them were looking at each other as if no one was around, and finally couldn't help but speak: "Ah Qian, can you go?" ”

Yao Qian nodded, turned his head, and took Zigui from Xu Ruyun's hand, "Let's go." ”

Before walking out of the restaurant, Yao Qian never looked back, but Xu Ruyun frequently looked back at the man who was standing still several times. After leaving the restaurant, after sending a few colleagues into a taxi, Xu Ruyuncai and Yao Qian said, "Corian, Chen Ziang has been watching you just now." ”

In the restaurant, Gu Jinchen walked to Chen Ziang's side, looked at the outside of the restaurant with his eyes, and asked him, "Does it hurt?" ”

"It's still bearable." Chen Ziang's voice was hoarse and low, "Did you hurt at that time?" ”

Gu Jinchen, like Yao Qian, moved his family from City C to City A because of his parents' work. But the difference is that Chen Ziang and Gu Jinchen's parents already knew each other. The two houses were also bought together, and since then, they have had a good relationship. It's more like a brother than a friend.

Gu Jinchen and Chen Ziang are two kinds of people, the former is always a raw person, and the temperament exuded by his body is difficult to approach. The latter is a different picture, described by the outside world, that is, gentle and graceful. Gu Jinchen really rarely saw Chen Ziang angry, almost none. Even when he encounters shoddy business methods at work, he has always been able to take them in stride.

Seven years ago, Gu Jinchen found his parents and helped Shen Bai change his name and surname to live again in City C as Yao Qian. After Chen Ziang knew about this, he had a fight with Gu Jinchen. In Gu Jinchen's office, Chen Ziang punched Gu Jinchen's body, and he didn't fight back.

Gu Jinchen glanced at him, just in time to see his slightly red and swollen eyes, and the corners of his mouth were gently torn apart, "Don't you want to chase after him?" ”

"Hmm." Chen Ziang nodded, raised his foot, and chased out.

Yao Qian took the bus home, and after getting off the bus at the door of the apartment, she slowly walked back with Zigui who was asleep. Chen Ziang, who had been waiting on the side of the road, also got out of the car.

He followed Yao Qian not far away, his steps were very light, but Yao Qian could hear it. In my memory, he always walked slowly, with a steady pace. Many years ago, Yao Qian followed him on the way home, and several times couldn't help but complain that he was walking too slowly.

At that time, in order not to let him find out, she had to stand in place for a little longer.

At that time, he did not notice that he was always walking behind him.

At that time, the corners of Yao Qian's mouth twitched, as if she was smiling, and she always thought of those things in the past frequently recently. She turned her head and saw the man behind her, his eyebrows lowered, and there was not a trace of blood on his face.

Finding that she was looking at him, the corners of his mouth twitched, a heaviness was condensed between his eyebrows, his thin lips opened slightly, and there was only one sentence: "I'm sorry." ”

An apology made Yao Qian couldn't help but take a step back. Looking at him in a daze, she didn't understand where his apology came from or why. His heart was beating fast, but he calmly told him, "You have nothing to be sorry for me." ”

Between them, he has never been sorry for her, Yao Qian has always been clear about this.

Chen Ziang was holding a coat in his hand, but Yao Qian could see that his hands were trembling all the time, and his clothes were already wrinkled in his hands. His silent appearance made her a little upset, "If there is nothing to say, then I'll go first." ”

She turned slightly, but his voice rang out, "I know all the things of those years." ”

It was as if her heart was being held in her hands at that moment, rubbed at will, regardless of her pain. Yao Qian trembled, not knowing how to express her feelings. Frozen there, like an immobile puppet.

She thought of the countless nightmares she had woken up from over the years, sweaty clothes, tear-soaked pillows, and the endless tears that had flowed at night. She spoke awkwardly, her voice hoarse, "Who told you that?" Gu Jinchen? ”

Chen Ziang's chest rose and fell violently, he knew that she would inevitably feel uncomfortable when he mentioned those things, but if he didn't mention those things, there would always be an invisible wall between them, he stepped forward slowly, stretched out his hand, and wrapped her and Zigui in his arms, "I once believed your lies, I'm sorry." ”

At that time, she and he proposed to break up. His roommate cautiously asked him, "Ziang, has anything happened between you and Shen Bai?" And told him, "I'll accompany my girlfriend to go for a check-up, and you know, there are only two kinds of places where girls go to the obstetrics and gynecology department." One is pregnant and the other is for the purpose of terminating the pregnancy. ”

He had never been so intimate with her, and his roommate's words gave him a big shock. At that time, he did not believe it, and he did not dare to believe it. Even if he finally saw Yao Qian come out of the hospital, he still didn't believe it. However, when Yao Qian covered her lower abdomen and told him, "Here, there was a child before, and I took it away." ”

Looking at the indifference on her face, he believed it.

Because I believed her lies, I haven't found her for so many years. Perhaps, this is a punishment for him.

It's just that he has anger in his heart. Angry that he didn't believe her, and angry that she didn't believe in herself. In that kind of thing, she didn't even give him a chance to know, so she selfishly decided the future of the two people.

When there were cars driving by and bright headlights shining on them, Yao Qian came back to her senses. Twisted around, smoothly got out of Chen Ziang's arms, raised his head to stare at him, and said to himself, "I have long known that I shouldn't believe that he will keep his mouth shut, what is the relationship between you, I can't even call him friends." ”

"You don't want me to know until now, do you?" Chen Ziang's eyes were dark red, and his eyes were full of sorrow and depression.

It's been seven years, and he's been looking for her for seven years. If there was anything wrong with him at the beginning, then seven years was not enough time to smooth the resentment in her heart? She kept such a secret and endured such pain alone, couldn't she confess to him in seven years? He doesn't understand, she once said that he is the most beloved person in this world, is it really her who loves someone?

"Don't you already know?" Yao Qian felt that her lower abdomen was throbbing faintly, and she couldn't hold her daughter at all, so she could only hold her daughter tighter.

Her face turned pale, the corners of her mouth curled suddenly, and she smiled miserably, "I have had surgery after surgery, and I can't get pregnant for the rest of my life, are you satisfied?" ”

The pity in Chen Ziang's eyes seemed so abrupt and dazzling in Yao Qian's eyes. She thought that sooner or later this secret would not be kept, but she kept thinking that day she should have her own to say, standing calmly in front of him, maybe that day they both had their own families, maybe that day they were all gray hair and sideburns difficult to recognize.

On that day, she must not have cried again, but as if she was talking about a small ordinary thing. However, on this day, she still cried. Tears after sneering slid down.

"That's what you thought of me throughout, didn't you?"

The breeze was blowing gently, Yao Qian opened her misty eyes, looked up at Chen Ziang, his collar turned up, and the smile on the corner of his mouth was a thousand times more bitter than hers.

"You've never believed me since we started dating."

His mood was unpredictable, his voice was low, and he closed his eyes, "You go back." ”

Looking at his more and more depressed body, Yao Qian's nose was sour, but his eyes inadvertently fell on the corner of his lips and his left eye. Those places, all with wounds. It was clear that it was worn and bleeding, but he didn't care at all, just looked at her.

She believed him, but not completely. She believed that he would protect herself, that he would spend many birthdays with her, that he would not hurt herself, but she did not believe that he would fall in love with her, and that he would give up everything for her.

She hugged the child and turned away, reminding herself in her heart that she was not allowed to be soft-hearted, not to turn back, not to let him see her tears again. As she walked forward, her eyes falling on the shadows reflected on the road, many images flashed before her eyes.

I remembered that once after class, she blocked him on the way back to the dormitory, and the sunset stretched his shadow very long, and her feet stepped on the black, and she was reluctant to move a few steps to the side. The hand hanging below him couldn't help but be raised, and the warmth of the palm seemed to caress his soft hair.

Now his shadow was also stretched long in the night, and she stepped on his shadow, but she left him step by step. All the things of the past are in the past. Now she is no longer the girl who only likes him.

Chen Ziang has always been excellent, and now he is even better. He shouldn't be restrained by her, and even if she did it again, she would choose to break up with him. If he did it again, she wouldn't let him find her again.

"Wait a minute."

He caught up, and she stood straight there. Watching him spread out the suit in his hand and drape it on her and Zigui's bodies, blocking the cool breeze that was blowing slowly, her body stiffened, and the hand on her shoulder was obviously tight.

She took a breath and looked ahead with a blank face, and she said, "You know what? I've walked after you countless times, and each time I wish you had turned around and waited for me. But you never. Chen Ziang, in fact, from that time on, our end was already doomed. ”

Yao Qian's heart tightened, I don't know if it was because of the clothes on her body, or because of the apology, her heart hurt so much that she couldn't breathe. Zigui moved in her arms and muttered, Yao Qian violently stretched his hand away and walked forward without hesitation. 166 Reading Network