Chapter 52

"Going to the Soup and Fire" / Call me Meow

In my life, the most feared thing is not being able to meet someone who makes you have the urge to go to the soup.

Finally finished the day's work, Chen Ziang sat in the empty office, his eyes kept falling on the mobile phone on the table.

One minute, two minutes, five minutes, ten minutes. Half an hour later, the phone was still black and the screen did not respond at all. He rubbed his brow tiredly, and took the initiative to pick up his phone and dial a number.

When the phone was answered, he eagerly asked, "How is it, have you found anything?" ”

All I had to do was say, "I'm sorry, General Manager." ”

His eyelids jumped, trying to calm his emotions, "It's okay, keep checking." ”

Although City C is only a medium-sized city, it has a population of several million, and it will definitely be difficult to find a person in the vast sea of people.

"General manager, at present, it is certain that there are thousands of women named Shen Bai in City C. I will try to rule it out in the shortest possible time. ”

"Hmm." Chen Ziang answered and put away his mobile phone.

Shen Bai, his girl, where the hell is she?

For five years, the thing he spent the most on after work was to find her in the vast sea of people. City Q where they used to go to school, City A where they used to live, and City H where she always wanted to go once.

No matter how much human and financial resources he spent, he got nothing.

Chen Ziang left the company and drove to the bar alone. Over the years, he learned not only to smoke, but also to drink. He drank so hard that he couldn't even walk steadily one night. He was accustomed to using alcohol to numb his nerves and hangovers to hide the pain in his heart.

He found his place as usual, and as soon as he sat down, a waiter brought him bottles of opened spirits. He didn't look at it, took out a stack of bills and gave it to the waiter, and drank it alone.

Next to his place sat a group of young people, laughing, and a girl sitting in the corner, drinking and smoking. There were several men sitting next to her, smoking cigarettes and reaching out to her naked. Lu's thighs were stroked back and forth, and some even leaned in to kiss her on the mouth. The girl shoved the man and scolded him with unpleasant expletives.

The man was unimpressed, grinning, his hand still on the girl's back.

Chen Ziang went to the bathroom and came back to see such a scene, he had long been accustomed to it, but what stopped him was the girl's bright eyes.

In the glamorous world, she sat in the dark, wearing heavy makeup, but she was extremely stubborn. A hint of strangeness slipped across his indifferent face, and a trace of pity flowed through his eyes.

The ghost walked towards the girl, frowning as she got closer. Under the heavy makeup of the girl was a young face, and she was only about twenty years old.

He stood in front of her, looked at her for a long time, and when she reached out strangely and touched her face, he said, "You look so ugly smoking." ”

That night, he had a night of wine with the girl. He didn't like the strong smell of perfume on women, but she did, and the reason why Chen Ziang asked her to sit next to him was just because when she smiled, she was a little similar to the person in her memory. Most like her eyes, but he didn't look at them except for the first time.

He was drunk again, so drunk that his eyes wandered. The girl next to him didn't finish drinking, she stayed quietly by his side, smoking, and smoking.

He stumbled out of the bar, couldn't really drive the car, and walked down the street alone. He leaned on the street lamp and vomited, and a tear flowed from the corner of his eye when he vomited. He thought it was an illusion, and reached out to wipe it, but it was so cold.

He sat on the ground, looked up at the dark sky in a daze, and smiled bitterly.

The girl didn't plan to leave, she didn't know where to buy a bottle of water and came back, squatted down next to him and said, "Drink some water." ”

Many images suddenly appeared in front of his eyes, all so unreal, so blurry. The face of the girl in front of him overlapped with his, and he wanted to reach out to touch her, but he couldn't lift his hand.

If it weren't for the girl pouring water into his throat without permission and choking him, Chen Ziang felt that he would have been sitting there watching her, so he looked at her quietly. But he finally came back to his senses and saw clearly the person in front of him, not her, not her.

He struggled to get up from the ground and shake her off, saying, "Get out." ”

He didn't want to see her again, he didn't want to think of the woman who had hurt him so much.

There are many stubborn people in this world, but they are all distressing. Chen Ziang thought that the girl would leave obediently, but when she was staggering, she suddenly reached out to help him, learned his tone, and whispered: "You look so ugly when you are drunk." ”

There was disgust in her tone, more like coquettishness, and a little unspeakable blame.

How similar, and the tone in which she spoke to him in those years, Chen Ziang's heart beat violently. Breathing was half a beat slower, how long had he been separated from her. Five years is not enough time for him to forget her face, her voice, and everything about her. But in the past five years, he has become sick with missing her.

Is he going crazy?

But when he thought of the girl in front of him as the person, when his palm landed on her face, his thumb ran over the tip of her nose, and he stroked her eyebrows, and when he wanted to kiss her, Chen Ziang suspected that he had a psychological problem. Want to find a replacement because you miss that person?

He despised himself in his heart.

He suddenly withdrew his hand, took two steps back, and warned her solemnly, "Don't follow me anymore, you can go back." ”

She didn't go back, she followed him all night, following him through the streets. Halfway through a pack of cigarettes, he stopped, looked back at her coldly and said, "You stay with me from now on." ”

He looked at the city that was slowly darkening, and suddenly felt more tired than ever. The exhaustion enveloped him and made him unable to extricate himself.

Perhaps, this girl named Wen Nan can make him happy and make him forget the girl named Shen Bai.

Since then, Chen Ziang has taken Wen Nan to attend major dinners. He took her to appear on the major TV screens in City C, and even he didn't know why he was so high-profile with a woman by his side. Until one day, he passed by a supermarket, and in the news scrolling on the screen outside the supermarket, when the figures of him and Wen Nan appeared on it, he sat in the car and muttered unconsciously: "In this way, will she be so angry that she jumps out to settle accounts with me?" ”

As soon as the words came out, he was stunned. It turned out that after so long, he was still expecting her to return to him. He never forgot everything about her. So he remembered that she hugged him and said, "Chen Ziang, you must marry me, if you have other women around you, I will not let you go." ”

She said, "At the end of the world, I will also settle accounts with you." ”

At the end of the earth, where is she now? Do you still want to settle accounts with him?

That night, he bought a plane ticket to London. He walked the streets of London alone for a long time, and he found Jiang Xiaoxi and told her that he still failed, and it was difficult to remember a person, and it was even harder to forget a person.

Shen Bai is Shen Bai after all, and no woman in this world can replace him.

Jiang Xiaoxi persuaded him to let go, but he just smiled, he had let go a long time ago, does he still have a chance to let go now?

Chen Ziang no longer goes to C City, Wen Nan looks for him everywhere, he only tells her on the phone, "You can leave at any time." ”

"Leave? Where are you going for me? ”

"Go where you want to go."

"I just want to be by your side, I just want to be with you all the time." She sobbed, "Don't you chase me away, okay?" I'll be very well-behaved, and I don't expect anything from you. ”

"Wen Nan." He called her name solemnly, "You are still young, you should have your own love, marriage, family." You shouldn't have been by my side like this. ”

Yes, he regretted it, regretted that he had kept her by his side, but he had not fallen in love with her.

"I don't want it." Wen Nan refused, rejecting his decision to be alone.

Chen Ziang's determination made Wen Nan desperate. She committed suicide in the bathroom, she cut her wrist, but she was afraid of pain. The wound was not deep, only the epidermis. But there was a lot of blood, and it was shed all over the ground.

While she was lying in the hospital, Chen Ziang finally returned from City A to City C. He smoked a lot of cigarettes outside alone, and when he entered the ward, he had a strong smell of smoke on his body.

He looked at the woman on the bed fiercely and said coldly, "What do you want?" ”

"I just want to be by your side, can't you even fulfill such a small request?" Her face was pale, and her wrists were wrapped in white gauze, which was stained with bright red blood.

Chen Zi frowned, and only replied for a long time: "You don't even cherish your own life, do you think others will cherish it?" ”

She ripped off the drip on her other hand, stepped forward and hugged him and turned around, crying, "Don't go, please, I just love you." ”

His heart was pounded hard, Wen Nan was a woman worthy of love, but this person was not him. He has nothing but pity for her, she is very similar to himself, they are just because they love others.

Loved, loved.

There is nothing wrong with love. What's wrong is that their love will never be consummated.

Chen Ziang let go of her hand, looked into her eyes calmly, and said, "Wen Nan, you have to know that I will never give you any affection in return. ”

He will never give her any affection in return, in this life, it is enough to love a woman. Such feelings are enough to repay a person, and no matter how much it is, it is not love.

A year later, he unexpectedly found his girl, who had become someone else's mother. The child was innocent and cute, but he only called him, "Uncle." ”

How ridiculous, how unbelievable.

Chen Ziang locked himself in his study for a whole day and a night. He didn't eat or drink, only remembering the familiar and unfamiliar face, recalling their bits and pieces in those years.

Suddenly it was impossible to distinguish which ones were true and which ones were fake.

If there is a god in this world, then please tell him that there seems to be a connection between him and her. He and her, who are they to each other? 166 Reading Network