117. Tell the heart
Xu is brainwashing, Murong Fu, the first day of the first month of the eighth year of Yuan You, is finally clean. It was he who used the excuse that he was not feeling well, so he did not go to kowtow to Murong Bo to pay New Year's greetings, and Murong Bo also let it go gently.
In the evening, Murong Fu was sitting alone in the study and looking through the resumes of the Jiangnan Road officials, when he suddenly heard someone whispering "Son-in-law". He raised his head and followed the voice, but it was Azhu who quietly walked in, looking at him with a worried face.
Seeing Azhu's look, Murong Fu couldn't help but be stunned, so he put down the work at hand and quipped, "Azhu, what's wrong?" But when you're hungry, what do you want to eat? ”
Hearing Murong Fu's question, Azhu was stunned, and his eyes were slightly red. She still remembers that when she was a child, when she had just come to Murong's house, she didn't dare to tell her son what toys she wanted or what snacks she wanted to eat. However, for some reason, the prince can always know her intentions, and it won't be long before he can see him bring her favorite things to her and tease her. Thinking of this, Ah Zhu couldn't help but burst into tears, suddenly knelt on his knees, and cried: "Son, master...... Azhu is reluctant to give up his son! ”
"What's going on?" Murong Fu was taken aback by Ah Zhu's move, and hurriedly stepped forward to help her up. "Hurry up! What happened? ”
Ah Zhu lowered his head and wiped away his tears, raised his head to look at Murong Fu, and said in a low but firm voice: "Ah Zhu...... Ah Zhu begged his son to be fulfilled, let Ah Zhu leave the Murong family, and followed Brother Xiao from then on. ”
Murong Fu's outstretched arm immediately froze in mid-air, and he saw that he looked at Azhu with a strange expression, as if he never knew the person in front of him. He could hear every word Azhu said clearly, but when the words were formed into sentences, he couldn't understand the meaning. I don't know how long later, he asked in disbelief: "You say...... What? ”
Ah Zhu lowered his head and said ashamedly: "Ah Zhu likes Brother Xiao and is willing to follow him in this life." ”
Murong Fu's arm in mid-air fell suddenly, he could barely support his body, staggered back a few steps until he hit the table, and he could only maintain his balance with difficulty by pressing the table with one hand. "You...... Right...... Xiao Feng? ”
Murong Fu still couldn't believe it, but this was clearly something he knew early on. In the original book, Xiao Feng and A Zhu were originally a match made in heaven, and even Murong Fu has been trying to match them for many years. But when he really heard Ah Zhu admit the affection between him and Xiao Feng, he didn't feel any comfort or joy. At this moment, the only emotion he could feel was - rage! It's almost hard to contain, it's ruinous, it's furious!
"Do you like Xiao Feng? You're actually ...... Favorite Xiao Feng? Murong Fu gritted his teeth and repeated twice. For a moment, he wanted to pinch Azhu's neck tightly and roared hoarsely: "How dare you? How dare you fall in love with Xiao Feng? However, Murong Fu's sanity finally made him restrain this impulse. Until Ah Zhu clearly felt the soreness in his knees, he sighed softly: "Ah Zhu, do you know that this time is different from the past? ”
"Azhu knows." Speaking of this, Azhu's tears couldn't help but fall. "In the past, Brother Qiao was the leader of the beggar gang, a hero, and admired by thousands of people. Ah Zhu admires Brother Qiao, but he also understands that his identity is different, and he doesn't dare to climb high. Today's Brother Xiao is a Khitan species, and everyone avoids taboos, even the son...... Ah Zhu was raised by the Murong family, and Ah Zhu knew that it was really disloyal and unjust to leave the Murong family at this time to follow Brother Xiao...... Ah Zhu, Ah Zhu knows that he is sorry for his son...... "Speaking of this, she actually took out a dagger from her arms and slashed at her cheek.
Seeing that this knife continues, Azhu will change from a charming girl to an ugly monster from now on. Ah Zhu suddenly felt that his wrist was numb, and the dagger fell to the ground with a "choking". Ah Zhu's ears only heard Murong Fu say slowly in an extremely cold voice: "What are you doing here?" Since you knew that I had broken with Xiao Feng, and that it was unfaithful and unjust to follow Xiao Feng at this time, why didn't you repent? What does it mean to ruin your face? ”
Ah Zhu was pampered by Murong Fu since she was a child, when did she hear Murong Fu say such heavy things to her? I saw her kneeling forward and tugging at the corner of Murong Fu's robe and crying bitterly: "Son, you will never forgive Azhu?" Son, I'm Azhu! Childe ......"
Murong Fu stood indifferently for a long time, so long that Ah Zhu thought that he would never respond again, and he said tiredly: "Why? I can give you whatever you want, why Xiao Feng? Murong Fu always thought that he would smile and watch Xiao Feng and A Zhu enter into marriage, hold two people in three years, give birth to a football team in ten years, and sincerely feel satisfied with this. But it wasn't until the end of the day that he realized that he didn't want to see Xiao Feng develop a more intimate relationship with anyone than with him!
"Son, Ah Zhu doesn't want to either...... Ah Zhu didn't want to do that either! As long as Ah Zhu thinks of Brother Xiao's current situation, he feels indescribable pity and anxiety in his heart...... I want him to know that even though everyone regards him as an enemy, there is still a man who respects him, admires him, appreciates him, and is willing to be by his side forever, life after life, and to endure hardships, humiliations, hardships, and hardships with him......"
As soon as Ah Zhu's words came out, Murong Fu couldn't hear the words anymore. His heart was empty in an instant, and there was only one thought that was rolling like a wave: pity, anxiety, and accompanying him to face a qiē...... Don't I think so, too? Murong Fu, what are you crazy about? What exactly are you thinking? It was clear that he was in a study room that was as warm as spring, but his heart seemed to have fallen into an ice cave in the cold winter, his back was covered with cold sweat, and his mind was dizzy for a while, teaching him to not be able to distinguish what is illusory and what is real.
“…… Son, Ah Zhu can't help himself, his heart can't help himself, you kill Ah Zhu! Speaking of this, Azhu couldn't help crying.
Oh, yes! I can kill you! I could, kill you! If I can kill Murong Bo, why can't I kill Azhu? As long as I kill you, it's all solved! Thinking of this way, Murong Fu's originally suffocated heart seemed to open a crack. I saw that he gradually eased his expression, and said softly: "Ah Zhu, how could the prince want to kill you?" You confess to the prince, how are you going to follow Xiao Feng? In what capacity to follow? Xiao Feng, does he know about this again? ”
Although Ah Zhu had the courage to confess her affection for Xiao Feng to Murong Fu, she was still a little girl of seventeen or eighteen after all. Hearing Murong Fu ask, she couldn't help but have her cheeks flushed, and she hung her head and stared at the ground in front of her. It is precisely because of this that Ah Zhu has never seen Murong Fu's face, that face full of jealousy and resentment, is so deep, hideous and terrifying, as if he can burst out and kill people in the next moment, making people shudder.
After a long time, Ah Zhu replied, "Brother Xiao...... Brother Xiao, he ...... Azhu knew that Brother Xiao was a Khitan and would soon return to the Khitan. Azhu was willing to follow him, and he galloped his horse to hunt, and I tended the cattle and sheep. Her voice was like a mosquito, but the infinite affection in these words could be heard clearly even by a deaf person.
Ah Zhu's two words were like a basin of cold water, which instantly made Murong Fu sober up. Stuff the cattle and sheep with empty promises...... Since there has been an appointment for a long time, it must be wishful thinking. This time, without Mrs. Ma, the eldest brother has found out the truth of his life experience and understood the real enemy, as long as he does not interfere with it, this agreement will definitely not be empty again!
"So you made an appointment a long time ago...... Good! How good! Murong Fu said slowly with an unpredictable expression. At this moment, Murong Fu suddenly hated his excellent memory and the sense of being working all the time. Ah Zhu's words made him clearly realize: In Xiao Feng's heart, his and Ah Zhu's positioning was different. "Azhu is Azhu, the countries of the four seas, for thousands of years, there is only one Azhu." So, what's the use of me killing Azhu?
Azhu lowered his head and did not answer. In fact, this time, Xiao Feng did not go to Xianzhuang to save Azhu, and Azhu did not accompany Xiao Feng to track down the leading brother, Xiao Feng still treated Azhu like his own sister. However, Ah Zhu was saved by Xiao Feng many years ago, and a heart has been pinned on Xiao Feng. Now that she knows that Xiao Feng wants to return to Khitan, she has already made up her mind in her heart: thousands of mountains and rivers will also follow Xiao Feng; For a wife, a concubine, a slave and a maidservant, she is as happy as she is!
Murong Fu no longer had time to take care of Ah Zhu, and he remembered a lot of past events. On the battlefield of the Western Army, he and Xiao Feng rode horses in pairs, raising a glass on the empty grassland to invite the moon to discuss the past and the present; In the farmland of Xiping, he and Xiao Feng rolled up their sleeves and trousers together, digging ditches and ditches for the people like farmers to build siphons; In the study room in the capital, he discussed the battle situation with Xiao Feng, and ambushed on all sides because of the situation. and at the foot of the Taihang Mountain, he and Xiao Feng worshiped each other as brothers with different surnames, and swore to live and die together from then on...... The glimpses of those flashes came one after another, but they were still clear even after a few years. He accompanied Xiao Feng to revise the eighteen palms of the dragon descending, and he and Xiao Feng had been arguing for many years; got rid of Xiao Yuanshan, he went crazy in a hurry, and tried his best to plot for Xiao Feng to reverse the plot of the original work; Xiao Feng and Duan Yu swore a knot to him, and he is still haunted by it; Xiao Feng wanted to cut off his arm, but he grabbed the sword without thinking about it; Even after Xiao Feng learned that the real murderer of his mother was Murong Bo, he still thought about how to kill Murong Bo to calm Xiao Feng's anger...... It turned out that his feelings for Xiao Feng had already deteriorated, but he himself had always been confused and unaware, and he was still wholeheartedly matching Xiao Feng and Ah Zhu!
Murong Fu knew that he shouldn't ask anymore, this kind of feeling was definitely not acceptable to Xiao Feng. He should leave the stage in style and sincerely wish, but he still couldn't help but ask in a low voice: "Azhu, have you really thought it through?" Don't regret it? Herding horses and sheep is not as simple as you think, that will ...... It's going to be hard. The wind and sand outside the plug are very strong, and the conditions are not good...... You're still so young, you really understand what ...... Like, love? ”
Ah Zhu nodded slowly and stubbornly, and said word by word: "As long as I can follow Brother Xiao, I will kill people and set fires, rob homes and houses, and I will never regret it." As long as you can follow him, even if you endure all kinds of suffering, all kinds of suffering, you will be happy. These two sentences are even more affectionate and sincere, even if you are a stone man, you will be moved.
Murong Fu's right arm supporting his body trembled, and his heart was even more suffocated. He only felt that his eyes were black for a while, and he couldn't help but cover his heart with difficulty, silently enduring the wave after wave of continuous throbbing pain. "Get up, ......," he said in a difficult tone, "Xiao Feng, heroic and upright, is indeed a person who can be trusted for life. Since you already have a tacit understanding, how can the prince not be fulfilled? In just two sentences, it seemed that he had used up all his strength, and even his vest was soaked with sweat. The soaked silk undershirt was stuck to his back, but it gave him chills.
"Master Xie!" Ah Zhu was happy to move his color, and hurriedly kowtowed to Murong Fu.
Murong Fu moved two steps with difficulty, could no longer support it, and the whole person fell into the seat next to him. "On the fifteenth day of the first lunar month, outside the Yanmen Pass...... Xiao Feng will definitely be there, Ah Zhu, you go and look for him. From now on...... "From now on what?" Murong Fu couldn't say it. He was so confused that he couldn't think of any words of congratulations after racking his brains, and the only thought in his heart was: Since Azhu is gone, then I don't have to go again.
But it was Azhu who saw that Murong Fu's spirit was weak and cold sweat was dripping, so he couldn't help but look at him worriedly, and shouted softly: "Son? ”
Murong Fu seemed to be awakened by this sound, so he stood up with the corner of the table. He didn't look at Ah Zhu but tried to straighten his body as much as possible, and said coldly: "Since you are leaving, take Ah Zi with you!" The dowry, I have prepared it for you. You will set off tomorrow to find Xiao Feng, and in a few days, when I prepare the car and boat, I will send your dowry to Daliao. The Murong family wants to marry a daughter, no matter what, they must be beautiful! That's all, step aside! Retire! ”
Although Ah Zhu didn't know what happened to Murong Fu, he knew his temperament well after getting along with Murong Fu for many years. Seeing that he was impatient to say one more word, Ah Zhu hurriedly answered "yes" and withdrew.
After Ah Zhu left, Murong Fu suddenly broke out, casually pulled out his long sword and slashed at the table in front of him. It wasn't until he couldn't find a single intact thing in the study that he sat down exhausted with his sword in his hand.
At this moment, the cold moon hangs high outside the window, the snow is white, and the world is still empty, only the cold wind of the cold winter is still so cold and biting, blowing from a thousand years to a thousand years ago, unchanged for eternity. Murong Fu's right hand had already broken due to too much force, and the dripping blood was falling to the ground drop by drop along the blade, but he didn't realize it. I don't know how long it took, he suddenly smiled coldly and said softly: "Anger, grievance, jealousy, sadness, it turns out that this is love, I finally understand." Is there a heavier punishment in this world? ”