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When Li Yingfan was three years old, his father died unexpectedly. His impression of his father has always come from the memories of his mother Fang Lan and his brother, as well as those photo frames hanging on the walls of his home.

His father is a lawyer, and he has handled many cases, Li Yingfan can't imagine what his father's work looks like in front of him, but like his brother Li Zhifan, he has an inexplicable deep reverence and yearning for that job.

After graduating from university, his elder brother Li Zhifan did not hesitate to choose the same job as his father, but when Li Yingfan graduated, he unexpectedly chose the procuratorate. is different from his brother's confident and flying personality, Li Yingfan's personality is a little inferior and introverted. He was afraid that because of his choice, he would find that the job that was sacred to his heart was not so good, or that he could not do better than his father and ruin that professionalism.

When Shun Lì was admitted to the procuratorate, he was just an office clerk, doing a bunch of things every day, following the prosecutor to run all kinds of complicated cases, but he received a pitiful salary. He also worked overtime, forgot to sleep and eat, and humbly consulted the prosecutors in order to handle every case well. Many times, he was so tired that he couldn't say a word, but he had to discuss the case with everyone in a clear and coherent manner.

Compared to Li Zhifan's career, the price he paid and the rewards he received are far from the rewards.

The first time he appeared in court with the prosecutor, he was so nervous that he didn't know where to put his hands, so he kept writing down the trial process carefully and word for word in the record book. But when he really returned to the courtyard to sort out the trial transcripts, he realized that all the things he had written down were useless.

Later, with the increase in the number of cases and the accumulation of experience, he became more and more calm in court.

I remember one time, a teacher from S** College took the initiative to contact the suburban court, hoping to provide an opportunity for students to observe the trial. It was a case of embezzlement and bribery, and Li Yingfan appeared in court as a clerk for the prosecutor.

Because the parties voluntarily pleaded guilty and had a good attitude in admitting guilt, the trial process was much more tedious than the students imagined. Even so, it is still a good learning opportunity for students who have only been able to learn from books.

In the process of recording, Li Yingfan would also glance curiously at the college students in the auditorium. Their eyes were fixed on the presiding judge, and from time to time they turned to the prosecutor beside him and the defender opposite. Among these children, there is a girl who is particularly special, her gaze is firmly fixed on Li Yingfan's body, and those eyes look bright and sincere.

He only glanced at it, then he was startled, and quietly withdrew his gaze, looking down at the record in front of him.

When he raised his head again, the girl was still looking at him, and her eyes were unabashedly red. Bare. The naked affection overwhelmed him. He frowned and looked at the girl's gaze with a little warning.

However, the girl stared at him as if she didn't see it. Because he couldn't stop that look, Li Yingfan never raised his head again during the subsequent trial process, and he was not at ease until the end of the trial.

Because of his father's premature departure, his mother Fang Lan was extremely strict with him and his brother. Since elementary school, he has always been required to be a 'three-good student', whether it is from elementary school to junior high school, junior high school to junior high school, or high school to university, he is required to enter the best school.

Li Yingfan felt sorry for his mother, and he would try his best to meet her hopes within the scope of his ability. Therefore, he has no time to think about things other than studying, let alone experience trying those things.

For example, the subtle emotions between men and women.

Li Yingfan has never been in love himself, and his understanding of love is obtained from his brother. Li Zhifan went to the United States when he was 13 years old, and when he returned, he would be 18 years old. Li Zhifan has never concealed his feelings for Anya, so Li Yingfan has always known what kind of existence Anya is for Li Zhifan. Even so, he still can't understand the emotions between his brother and Anya. In his opinion, in this relationship, Li Zhifan has always been talking about how much he loves, and Anya is just forced to bear it.

If all love is like this, then he does not feel that love is a necessity of life.

Later, the girl began to slowly appear in his life, and accidentally learned her name, Zhuxi.

At first, he only thought she was his elementary school sister, although he could always feel the hot gaze from her every time they met, but he always thought it was a blind worship of unborn children.

I don't know when it began, Zhuxi no longer appeared in front of him occasionally as usual, but appeared very frequently. Once, when he came home from work, he found the stream at the door that had been squatting under the corner.

He walked over and asked her if something had happened.

Zhuxi shook her head, and then stood up, probably because she had been squatting for too long, and when she stood up, her body trembled slightly, and she almost fell towards him. Li Yingfan quickly held her up, and only said, "Be careful." ”

One sentence moved Zhuxi to tears. She grabbed his hand that she didn't have time to let go, like a subordinate in the unit seeing her boss, her eyes were shining with dazzling light, and she said solemnly: "Senior Li, I like you." ”

He was stunned, and for a moment forgot that he withdrew his hand, only to let her hold himself excitedly, "What did you say?" ”

"I've liked you for a long time." She blinked, afraid that he wouldn't believe her, and held him hard, "The first time I saw you, I liked you." I was going to chase you a long time ago, but my aunt said that men like women who are more gentle and introverted. So, I held back. ”

Li Yingfan only pursed his lips, without any expression on his face, and he couldn't tell whether his mood was good or bad. He pulled his hand, but found that Zhuxi's strength was so great that he tried twice and still didn't pull his hand.

"But now I can't help it." Zhuxi said, licking his lips awkwardly to hide the saliva that squirted out in a hurry just now.

Her voice became louder and louder, Li Yingfan glanced at the silence around, and then said helplessly to Zhuxi, "Can you let me go first?" ”

"No, I'm afraid you'll run away." Zhuxi shook her head unswervingly, her stubbornness was a little headache.

Li Yingfan finally got rid of her hand, he did not accept Zhuxi's confession, but bitterly admonished her to study hard. In his opinion, the young Zhuxi was just a whim. And it's hard for him to imagine what it would be like to fall in love with her.

He didn't say much that night and went straight home.

He didn't know what it was like for Zhuxi to stand outside alone after he left. That night, he finished his work and didn't wash up until the early hours of the morning before returning to his bedroom to rest.

For the first time in my life, I tossed and turned for someone other than my family. He thought of the first meeting with Zhuxi and the process of getting to know her, which was quite incredible and funny. When I think about many things, I can't help but chuckle, but when the smile reaches the corners of my mouth, I calm down again.

That night, before going to bed, he remembered the last look in Zhuxi's eyes when he looked at him leaving, so persistent and determined. She wouldn't give up, he thought.

Sure enough, it was exactly what he imagined.

In the following days, Zhuxi was like a chicken blood, making chance encounters with him day after day, pestering him every now and then confessing to him confidently. The left sentence is "I like you", the right sentence is "I miss you", or "let's fall in love".

What does it feel like to be pursued?

If someone asks Li Yingfan this question, he will definitely tell that person that he is obviously annoying her, but he habitually calculates when she may appear and what she may say in the new day.

After graduating from Zhuxi, he entered Yangfan Law Firm for an internship. Before meeting Zhuxi at work, Li Yingfan always felt that she just had a clever mouth that made him speechless, but he didn't know that she also had a unique temperament of a legal person.

During her internship days at the law firm, she was always the first to go to work and the last to get off work, and she was as tired as a dog every day, but she couldn't get a dime, and she had to pay for the bus by herself. She rented a small dormitory near the law firm, and before returning from work every day, she had to take a car to the suburban procuratorate to have a look, and if Li Yingfan did not get off work, she would wait for him to get off work, and then ask him about various problems in judicial practice. Then he took another bus back to the dormitory by himself, and hurriedly finished the legal documents explained by the lawyers, before he collapsed on the small bed and fell asleep.

Later, she began to take over cases and appeared in court several times, but she never had the opportunity to take on the same case with Li Yingfan.

After work, Zhuxi tied up the hair draped on his shoulders high, took off his student uniform, and wore a concise and clean suit, which made it easy for people to take their eyes off.

Perhaps it was at that time that Li Yingfan began to face this woman. He's seen her crazy, he's seen her look stupid, and of course it's often funny. Only Zhuxi, who had a straight face and talked to him about the case seriously, made his heart move.

Feelings are really a strange thing, because of this heartbeat, he opens his heart little by little. Start learning to appreciate her, and then slowly like her.

On one occasion, colleagues from the prosecutor's office held a small dinner by the sea. After Li Yingfan arrived at the scene, he found Zhuxi who had mixed in with a female colleague. He looked helplessly at the joy on her face, and then indulged her to stay by his side, helping him barbecue and taking pictures of him for a while.

Later, the crazy Zhuxi suddenly walked into the sea, and when Li Yingfan found her drowning, she still lost her mind and rushed directly into the sea knowing that she didn't know how to water. He didn't save her, but he let himself drown with him.

Because of this incident, he became more clear about his feelings for Zhuxi.

Later, they got married.

Life after marriage is not as he wants, there will always be some stumbles around them, and there will always be some outsiders interfering with their emotions.

The floodgates of memory automatically opened at some point, and Li Yingfan recalled that here, there was a place in his heart that was suddenly empty, which was particularly uncomfortable. He struggled to get up from the ground and glanced at the picture of Zhuxi again before putting the frame back.

With heavy steps, step by step towards the bathroom.

I drank a lot of alcohol tonight, which is why I am so sentimental.