The June afternoon sun was a bit harsh, with an overheated temperature sprinkled on every corner of the earth, and the scorched air made people can't help but yawn. It has been more than a month since the beginning of summer, and the summer solstice is even more late with a yawn. is the so-called spring sleepiness, summer lack of autumn nap, winter and March when she can't wake up, such a day for Cui Xiuying can't help but want to lie in bed and turn on the air conditioner to be decadent.

Decadent? It seems like it's been decadent for two days.,It's rare to have a life like this since your debut.,Hiding in the room alone in a daze.,I always feel like I'm back in the confused days when I came back from Japan.。 At that time, I didn't know what I was going to do, and I didn't know what the future would be, so I continued to stand on a high stage and look down on the audience below. Or is it the dream that standing under the stage and looking up at the stage has always been?

Pick up the album and watch it over and over again, full of memories. There are two girls printed on the front of the small album, one on the left and one on the right, and the immature face knows at a glance that it is a little ghost head that has not grown. A few letters of English were printed in the middle of them, and the large letters took up four-fifths of the width of the album. RouteΦ, a name that only exists in memory, is probably the only album left in this world, except for the one in his own hand and the one in another person's hand, the rest may be waiting for the light of day in some knots.

In the year of the millennium, he went to participate in the S.M-Open-Audition without telling his family and successfully became a trainee, taking the first step towards his so-called dream. I thought that the life of a trainee would be very different from the life of ordinary people, but it was just an extra training course. The intensity of practice and the pressure of studying overwhelmed me, and I would always ask myself late at night if this was what I wanted. I thought about giving up at one point, but when I thought of the hard work I had put in before, this thought was forgotten again. Since they are already climbing, why not continue to climb, how can you easily give up if you haven't seen the scenery above? Cui Xiuying has never been a person who gives up when she gives up, and the fall on the way is just a test of herself, and if she persists, she succeeds.

Two years later, TV Tokyo's Japan-South Korean duo battle gave me a shortcut to the top of the mountain. Debut because of this temptation. I was confused to participate, I thought I had just been there, but I didn't expect Lady Luck to take a fancy to me. Then, naturally, with this joy, I left my friend who climbed the mountain together and embarked on this shortcut alone. On the way, I met a Japanese young lady who was about the same age as myself, debuted together, and stood on this stage together.

In the end, because of their youth, because of the change in the situation, they failed. The scenery at the top of the mountain is seen, but the scenery from above is not seen, and there is a higher mountain waiting for you on the mountain. The mountain had only just begun to climb and let itself grunt back to where it had been. After falling, I realized that the mountain was more difficult to climb, and I couldn't climb it by myself, and I could only climb it with people and help each other.

With disappointment and a little confusion, I returned to the far point, and in those lost days, the company of my family and the 'provocation' of my friends from time to time allowed me to regain my confidence, and I started to climb again in the strange eyes of outsiders. This time, there will be no shortcuts, and even if there is oneself, I will give up, because I know that I don't have that strength yet.

Slowly climbing and climbing, I found the scenery that I hadn't found before, some scenery that was more beautiful than the scenery on the top of the mountain, that is, the group of friends around me. The little eldest sister who is too mature in terms of psychological age is not the same, the second sister who is cold on the outside and hot on the inside from time to time, the little third sister who always quarrels with herself, the fourth sister who is stupid but very shrewd, the fifth sister who seems to be reckless and unobtrusive, the sixth sister who is dark and delusional about whitening, the little sister who is staring at her food all day long, and the little friend who is unhappy when they don't curse all day long. The scenery composed of this group of people made me forget the tiredness and hardship of climbing the mountain, and I unconsciously climbed the higher mountain, but when I looked back, I found that oh, the mountain of my dream is not difficult to climb.

Walking noisily all the way, a huge ditch is in front of you, the opposite side of the ditch is a more beautiful scenery, but there is only a dilapidated suspension bridge on the ditch, and one will fall into the abyss if you are not careful. Now that she is in the middle of the suspension bridge, whether to move forward or backward, or choose to fall, Cui Xiuying is confused.

There is no way to see the future ahead, at least you know what kind of road it is. Stepping back is another way, a road that the family knows but doesn't know, and from then on he is also the one he looks up to. If you choose to fall, you won't be far from decadence, and you will live in this shadow for the rest of your life and look at the brilliance on their bodies.

"Marina, do you think I'm going to crawl over slowly or go back? Marina, if it were you, what would you choose? He stared blankly at the other person on the album, hoping to get an answer from her, but the room was still his own voice in addition to his own voice.

In a trance, Cui Xiuying seemed to hear it a long, long time ago, so long that she almost forgot what her voice was:

"Xiuying-chan, if you don't want to give up, then keep going, whether it's success or failure, you don't know until you go on, I'm waiting for the moment when Xiuying-chan sets foot on this land again, I hope to see Xiuying-chan again when it's on TV, it's Xiuying-chan on this stage, dry daddy!"

"I don't give up until the end, I'm already halfway there." Suddenly, she seemed to see the smile of the person who walked in front looking back, as if she saw her confusion and hesitation.

"Short-bodied......" suddenly remembered that the guy's voice could still be heard on the radio in the past two nights, and every time I heard her somewhat pleasant aunt laugh, my mood couldn't help but improve. I'm very tired, I'm short, I'm obviously tired, I'm not happy at all, and I have to pretend to be very happy, don't think you can fool us if you can hide it from others, don't forget that I often sleep with you. ”

Suddenly sat up from the bed, tore open the intact packaging on the album a few times, opened the album and took out the disc inside and put it into the CD player, and after a while, the music filled the small room.

"Since you have chosen to move on, it is better to let the memories of the past stay in the past, so as not to be entangled in it and bound to the place and unable to move. Marina, I'm sure you'll soon be able to see me on TV and on the Japanese stage. ”

The curtains were pulled back, the sunlight shone into the room, and the people in the room were busy packing up something. Picking up his backpack, he finally looked back at his room, pursed his lips and smiled. Cui Xiuying closed the door without hesitation, and walked downstairs with two long legs.

"Aba, oma, good afternoon~!" Said hello to the two pillars of the living room.

"Good afternoon." Father Cui raised his head from the newspaper in his hand, "It's decided?" ”

"Yes, it's decided!" Throwing off the backpack, Cui Xiuying sat on the sofa with a very unladylike ass in the angry eyes of Cui's mother, "That's right, Aba, S.M's ......"

Although Cui Xiuying's words were not clear, the two people present understood what she meant, and Father Cui nodded with a smile: "I have discussed it with Brother Jin, we will join forces in the next acquisition, and we have already acquired a lot of it before, thanks to the help of Shiyuan's father." I should really thank the unfair contract exposed by the Fair Trade Commission some time ago that caused the stock price of the brokerage company to fall a lot, otherwise it would have cost more money. ”

"Huh? The Origin OPPA family also made a move? Cui Xiuying smacked her tongue in a daze, Cui Siyuan's family's financial resources are not comparable to their family, it is the number one in South Korea. And Cui Xiuying, the second half of Cui's father's sentence, also knew that in the month before their incident, a piece of news caused a big 'earthquake' in the entertainment industry, and the reason was naturally very simple, there were too many people who committed suicide, and the darkness inside couldn't be hidden.

"Or else? Do you think our family has so much money that we can buy other people's shares without caring about the amount of money? Ignoring his youngest daughter's annoyance, Cui's father rolled his eyes very unceremoniously.

"Also, ABA is quite poor." Cui Xiuying nodded thoughtfully.

"Ah, who said that ABA is poor, ABA is still rich!" Don't think he can't hear what she says.

"Oh? Private money? On the side, Cui's mother raised her eyebrows very majestically, and this provocation seemed to be playing on Cui's father's fragile heart.

"Why, didn't I turn it all in." Touching his nose in a sneer, Father Cui wisely chose to change the topic, "Ahem, Xiuying, once you decide, you are not allowed to regret it, this road now is no better than at the beginning, at that time you were still young, even if you gave up there are other opportunities, but now you should understand." ”

"Yes, I understand." Cui Xiuying nodded solemnly, "No matter how difficult the next road is, I will continue, as long as they don't give up, I won't leave this road, it's a big deal to start everything from scratch." "Yes, it's just starting from the beginning, as long as you have the heart, you can continue, and you don't reach a desperate place.

"Are you sure they won't give up?"

"Of course, that's our dream, why give up before it's fully realized? What's more, there is that guy here, how can we let her down and let what she did before go to waste! "As long as that person doesn't give up first, they won't give up!

"That person?" Cui's mother knocked on the sofa suspiciously, and then suddenly realized, "It's that kid...... Looks like she's important to you? ”

"Yes, it's important!" Choi so-young is undeniable.

"Let's learn more from that kid."

"Don't do it, don't say anything in your heart, typical signs of premature aging, I don't want to have gray hair early." Cui Xiuying leaned back on the sofa with a big grin, so that she didn't want to be as stuffy as the little short body. Sao, sooner or later, one day you will either be sick or have gray hair.

"Let's not talk about that, Xiuying, let's discuss the issue of ladies."

In Cui Xiuying's eyes, her mother's smile was comparable to that of a demon from hell at this time, and a chill quickly climbed up her back. A spirit, Cui Xiuying picked up the backpack on the sofa without saying a word and disappeared into the living room.

"Aba, oma, I'll go back first~! It's too late, I'm afraid that the delicious food will go into Yuna's stomach, goodbye~! The voice quickly fell silent in the air in the living room.

"This kid ......"

I'm coming! Children, wait for the arrival of the god of food! Remember to prepare more food in the dormitory to welcome Miss Ben!!