42. You are still you, and I am still me

After taking the taxi back to Zhao Zheng's apartment, the two sat in the back seat along the way, holding hands and not letting go. Because of the driver sitting in front of him, he spoke honestly.

Jiang Yi could only care about whether his work was progressing smoothly, and what he got was a positive answer from the man. Both of them had a little bit of a heart at this time, and they couldn't teleport back home. However, Shanghai's traffic is getting worse and worse, and now it is congested even on weekends.

After more than an hour, we finally arrived at our destination. Zhao Zheng dragged the luggage with one hand and led Jiang Yi to the door with the other, to swipe the door card, he said: "If you can't free your hand, you take it, the left pocket." ”

There is no pocket in his jacket, that is the pocket of the suit, Jiang Yi has a different look, and without saying a word, he stretched out his magic grasp and stuffed it into his pants pocket, although Fang touched the edge of the magnetic card as soon as he entered, but he deliberately swayed around. Zhao Zheng's lower abdomen suddenly jumped up with evil energy, and she didn't remember the consequences again and again, which was simply contempt for him.

"Enough is enough." Zhao Zheng's voice was tantamount to a threat.

Jiang Yi knows how to grasp the balance best, and at this moment, he put forward the door card in a pretentious manner, and said, "Your pockets are really deep." ”

She just has the ability to roll serious words in her mouth, and then she will be full of flattery.

After entering the door, she planned to stuff the card back into his pocket, but Zhao Zheng said, "You keep it." ”

Jiang Yi couldn't help but raise his eyebrows, thinking in his heart whether he should accept it, and was hesitating, when the elevator arrived, the door opened, and Zhao Zheng took the lead in dragging the suitcase in. Jiang Yi followed up.

He pressed the floor, took the card and wallet in Jiang's hand, inserted the card into the free card slot, closed the wallet, and stuffed it back into Jiang's hand.

Before Jiang Yiyi could comment on his behavior, he had already pressed against the wall and kissed down. His whole body was so hot that he wanted to wrap a soldering iron around her, steaming her so dizzy that she had no ideas, only impulses.

The two of them hugged each other, the elevator door opened, Zhao Zheng hugged Jiang Yi, took out a hand to take out the luggage, the lips of the two were still together, and they hit the door step by step.

When they entered the house, the door was closed, no one cared about their luggage, they only had each other in their eyes, and when they lost their shoes, they began to peel each other off each other's clothes that were in the way. If you don't see each other for a day, you won't see you for a few autumns, of course, it's hard to give up love.

The lights were not turned on, the curtains were drawn, and only a gap remained, and the sunset entered the room in a red manner, and they were entangled on the sofa. The lipstick has long been spent, and a touch of blush is beyond the corners of the lips. The sofa was facing the TV, and the black screen was like a blurred mirror, and they could see their confusion.

Jiang Yi looked at herself in that reflection, she was undoubtedly enjoying, wave after wave of happiness, and her heart was full of this man who was combined with her.

She was on the edge of heaven until, when he finally released her body from her, she fell hard back to the mortal world.

Sex. Love always gives people the illusion. Thinking that the body is connected together, it breaks through the boundaries of the self. But you always have to separate, and in the end you are still you, and I am still me.

Turning sharply from extreme happiness and adjusting his breathing, Jiang Yi felt a moment of loss and emptiness.

Zhao Zheng glanced at the clothes scattered on the ground at this time, and said to Jiang Yi: "Seeing is believing, it's dark." ”

Jiang Yi retracted his thoughts: "Didn't you notice that I only wore black all along?" ”

Zhao Zheng's eyes turned upward, recalled for a while, and shook his head: "At this time, how can you care about this." ”

It's also a big truth, Jiang Yi laughed out: "I like your honesty." ”

Zhao Zheng's neat teeth bit her lip: "Take a bath?" ”

"You go first, I want to smoke a cigarette."

“……”

The man's expression was speechless, Jiang Yi smiled strangely, she knew that smoking was not a good thing, and smoking afterwards was not, she said: "A cigarette after a meal, just one." "Don't forget to kiss him, it's a coquette.

"The cigarette is there, in the first drawer." After he finished speaking, he got up, Jiang Yi hurriedly made up another kiss, and went to get a cigarette in the direction he pointed.

Zhao Zheng looked at her from the light. Retract your bare back and go to the bathroom to wash up.

Jiang Yi found the cigarette case and opened it, there were two missing, which they had smoked together before. She quickly picked up her clothes from the ground and put them on, pulled open the patio door and stepped out, lighting one.

Last time, it was a matter of smoking to annoy her grandmother, but this time, it was Cheng Ke, a person who knew her well? Or Zhao Zheng, the one who makes her want everything from the soles of her feet to the tips of her hair? She has a sense of emptiness after being lively at the moment, and she can't be chic.

She thinks about herself, what to use to retain family affection, and what to support a possible long-term relationship between men and women.

I have been working in Shanghai for more than four years, and I haven't saved a penny of my salary, if I hadn't become a Weibo celebrity, I am afraid that I would have been in debt. At that time, my grandmother was there, so I couldn't think about it, but now I don't have to fill in the medical bills, and I think about my future seriously, but I am even more confused.

I can't go back to my hometown, but the housing price in Shanghai, even if I buy it in the outer ring, will cost 30,000 square meters. It's no wonder that Cheng Ke's parents resolutely oppose her entering the door, not to mention that the door is right, the family room can be described as a world of difference.

She has almost broken off the idea of marriage since Cheng Ke, and is focused on making money. But now that Cheng Ke is back, more than three years later, she looks at herself again, and she is still poor. She was a little scared that she wouldn't be able to get out of this cycle.

There is an essential difference between love and marriage. The former is mostly hormonal, and the latter is an eternal contractual relationship, which cannot be stripped of material considerations. Jiang Yi's beauty and means can make her enjoy love easily, but when she stepped into marriage, she really peeled off her family's roots, and those terrifying things, I am afraid that there will not be a single one among ten thousand men who will not be scared away.

In love, she and Zhao Zheng are on an equal footing, evenly matched. But if they want to go further, sooner or later they will touch her family, her financial situation, even if Zhao Zheng is the only person who can accept her, but Zhao Zheng still has his family behind him. Of course, she can take one step at a time, she is mentally prepared, but what should Zhao Zheng do?

Jiang Yi swallowed the smoke and spit out the fog, and couldn't think of a reason for it for a while. Hesitating, it is really not her style, Jiang Yi extinguished the cigarette, shook his head vigorously, okay little don't reunite, she is here Gu Ying is pitying herself, it's too boring.

I didn't eat lunch, and I had just arrived at dinner after more than two hours of round-trip from the airport, and the hunger pangs hit again. She turned around and went into the house and met Zhao Zheng who had finished taking a bath.

Only a bath towel was wrapped, and the eight-pack abdominal muscles on the upper body flashed the defenseless ginger. His hair was not dry, and a few droplets of water were running down his neck, and Jiang swallowed his saliva, even more hungry.

"I'm hungry, why don't you order a takeout? You seem to have only my pajamas here. ”

"Okay."

"Is there a preference?"

"Lighter."

Jiang Yi received the reply, clicked on the ordering software to select the restaurant, found a Hong Kong-style home, and ordered all the light dishes in the signature dishes. Eating with Zhao Zheng, she never needs to worry about more, this person's stomach can be adjusted according to the amount of things.

After ordering, Jiang Yi took out her pajamas and underwear from the bottom drawer of his closet and went to the bathroom.

Come out again, black lace suspender nightdress, freshly dried slightly curly long hair draped over one shoulder, and there is a style of its own in every gesture. Zhao Zhengben was reading a book, and when he heard the movement and raised his eyes, the peace in his heart suddenly dissipated invisibly. With a flattering glance, she can ruin the effect of reading a book of self-cultivation and self-cultivation.

"The takeaway hasn't arrived yet." He put down the e-book and said.

Jiang pouted, floated to Zhao Zheng, sat on his lap, naturally hooked his neck with his hand, lowered his head and bit his chin: "Then I can only ...... Eat you. ”

Her hair brushed against his face and neck, itching, he brushed her hair away, chuckled and kissed her lips: "Eating me will only make me hungrier." ”

"It's boring." Jiang Yi turned his face away and studied his e-book.

After sweeping a few paragraphs, Jiang Yi furrowed his brows: "What do you think of this book that teaches people to have no desires and no desires, and to become a monk?" ”

"It's just that I've been so eager lately that I want to read it."

"It is true that people who do not have seven emotions and six desires may live a noble life, but it is really not interesting. You're in this state, it's too good to want. She praised vigorously, causing Zhao Zheng to laugh.

The doorbell rang, Jiang jumped off the ground and was about to run to open the door happily, but was pulled back into his arms by Zhao Zheng.

"What for?"

"Sit obediently, don't move." He dropped his words without giving his beak and went to open the door to get the takeaway himself.

It wasn't until the door was closed that he said, "Come and eat." ”

Jiang Yi's eyes gurgled and he figured it out, afraid that she would look like she was wearing suspender pajamas, and she was extremely possessive and protective.

The aroma of the food hit people, and the two of them solved the takeaway food in a hurry, and the rice bag was full of wine.

Jiang Yi cleaned up the mess, took out the wine collected by Zhao Zheng, and poured a glass of it alone.

"Come, let's read the book together for a while." Jiang Yi said and dragged Zhao Zheng to the sofa, he was sitting, and she leaned in his arms holding the wine.

"You don't say it's boring to have no desires and no desires, so what else are you looking at?" Zhao Zheng couldn't keep up with her thinking jump.

Jiang smiled and said nothing, only said: "You just open it, it's not good to read with you." ”

Zhao Zheng opened the book as he said, Jiang Yi drank it without a sip, his eyes were really looking at the book, and he would remind him to turn the page after scanning. Zhao Zheng muttered in his heart, he was a little calm at the moment, and he didn't know if she was intentional, leaning on her body and always writhing a little unintentionally.

Jiang Yi asked him to turn the book seriously, and Zhao Zheng could only try to calm down and read it again, and finally really put his heart into the book. She suddenly stopped talking, Zhao Zheng finished reading a page but didn't wait for her to "turn" for a long time, while lowering his eyebrows to explore, he unexpectedly bumped into her pair of dark eyes.

"What's wrong?"

She took a sip of wine, put down her glass, and suddenly held his face, and a rush of wine rushed in. Jiang Yi tried her best to put the wine into Zhao Zheng's mouth, and she straddled his lap, admiring his "unexpected" expression.

"Is it better to read 10,000 books than to travel 10,000 miles?" Jiang Yi said proudly, "It's still a little interesting, right?" "Don't forget to wink when it's over.

"Jiang Yi." Zhao Zheng smiled, "Don't blame me for going too far today, you brought it on yourself." ”

The sky is thundering and the earth is on fire, and one is burning and the other is prosperous. Jiang was enjoyable at the beginning, but it really tasted the bitter fruit later. really hooked Zhao Zheng's desire completely, she seemed to be really struggling.

What can I say? The pit dug by yourself has to be filled no matter how tired you are. The consequence of Jiang Yi's filling in the pit is completely wilted in bed.

She was panting like a dehydrated fish, and Zhao Zheng admired it with a smile, not forgetting to ask, "Is it interesting?" ”

Jiang Yi rolled his weak eyes, and his voice was hoarse: "It's all screaming, do you mean it?" ”

Zhao Zheng scratched her chin twice with his fingers: "Will you talk nonsense next time?" ”

"The speed of the tongue is also fun." Jiang Yi snorted, still unconvinced, "It's not interesting." ”

Zhao Zheng raised his eyebrows, clasped her waist and made a gesture to fight again, Jiang Yi hurriedly raised his hands and surrendered: "Admit defeat and admit defeat!" I'll talk about it later. ”

"Hard-mouthed." Zhao Zheng didn't care about her, let go of her, and thought she was cute, so he leaned up his lips to kiss the tip of her nose.

"Jiang Yi, do you want to move in with me?"