58. Just go

The weather is hot, and mosquitoes and flies are starting to gather under the street lights. Jiang Yi didn't have the strength to walk at all, and sat down when he saw the first bench in the community.

She was tired, exhausted.

Of course, I haven't encountered setbacks before, and of course I haven't encountered unfairness, but I remember that some time ago, for the sake of a new customer, I drank a broken piece, even if my grandmother passed away, I still went to the appointment with a strong spirit, and in order to maintain my reputation, I took out my unbearable past to sell my feelings. She really tried her best.

In the end, the position was not given to her, but it was said that it was because of the adverse impact of her online turmoil, so the company considered other candidates. Maggie also sang white face after HR left, saying that she worked hard, but nepotism couldn't help it, she fully recognized Jiang Yi's work, and looked helpless. It seems that she doesn't remember that when she used this position to motivate Jiang Yi to fight hard to get new customers, she was not like this at all.

Jiang Yi is not stupid, of course she has considered that Maggie is just holding a carrot to seduce her, she may not be able to eat it. Just talking about her background and a malicious cyber attack, Jiang Yi couldn't accept it. She maintained her demeanor in front of Maggie, and they also treated her with the same mask of hypocrisy, but they saw that she still needed the company's resources, and she could only swallow her anger if she couldn't resign.

It made her uncomfortable, a kind of discomfort that she couldn't compete with the rules. She didn't want to talk about it, because she didn't want to admit that she had failed in the rules she didn't accept, and she had to continue to follow the rules as if she was fine. Will she be able to roll over? One day she may be able to, but when that day will come, she doesn't know.

After sitting on the bench for nearly an hour, Jiang Yi was itching a big bag by mosquitoes on his arm, and then he got up and walked back. As he walked, he groped and found three or four connected mosquito blocks. She sighed, feeling powerless that even mosquitoes were bullying her today.

When I got to the bottom of the building, I remembered that I ran out of the door in a fit of anger and didn't take anything at all, so I had to ring the doorbell, hoping that Zhao Zheng didn't leave her to go to sleep and fell asleep.

Thankfully, the door opened quickly. Jiang Yi dragged his steps upstairs and came out of the elevator, the door of Zhao Zheng's house was ajar, and Jiang Yi walked in slowly again.

Zhao Zheng was sitting on the sofa at the moment, with his hands crossed against his knees, and when he noticed her coming in, he put away his hands and looked at her.

Jiang Yi moved to him, stretched out his arm, pointed to the red and swollen mosquito pieces, and said pitifully, "I was bitten by mosquitoes." ”

Zhao Zheng's lips pursed into a line, his eyes turned around her face, and finally landed on the mosquito block, he got up, grabbed her wrist and walked to the bathroom, went in and pulled her with one hand and the other with the flower water.

Flipping the cap, he sprayed her arm a few times. In the end, I put things away and threw her a sentence: "I deserve it." Then he angrily returned to the living room and sat down in his place.

Jiang Yi followed behind his buttocks, sat next to him, raised his legs and rested on his knees, and then bent over to hug him.

Zhao Zheng, who was sticky, still said coldly: "Don't stick to me, it's hot." ”

Jiang Yi blinked twice: "Okay, then I'll sleep in the guest room." ”

As he spoke, he stopped his hand, but he really took it back, and was caught by the man again: "You are not allowed to sleep in the guest room." ”

"But you don't want to see me when you look at me." Jiang pouted.

"That's not what I meant." Zhao Zheng knotted, "You ......"

Zhao Zheng knew that her work was not going well, but her appearance of not caring for him made his heart burn namelessly, but if he really wanted to explain, he didn't know where to start. He opened his mouth and had to glare at her.

Jiang Yi sighed, sat back beside him, and lowered his eyebrows: "I know what you are angry about, but sometimes you can understand that I am very strong because I have low self-esteem in my bones." I hate even the slightest bit of inferiority, not only to outsiders, but even to myself, I don't want to admit it. If I have something you can do to help, or if I'm willing to share, I'll definitely sue you. But if I don't want to sue you, don't force me to say, okay? Just like my grandmother at that time, didn't you force me at that time? ”

Zhao Zheng met her warm eyes at this time, and instantly lost his anger, he twisted his eyebrows, and only spoke after a while: "We are in a different state now than in the past." I hope you don't leave me out. Sometimes, you give me this feeling, the feeling of excluding me. He squeezed her hand and said softly, "I like you to be independent, but I also want you to treat me as someone you can rely on, and I think that you are no longer just a person." Do you understand what I mean? ”

Jiang leaned on his shoulder and chuckled, "I'll work hard." Did you realize that this was the first time we had a fight, though? ”

"It's the first time you've quarreled, but what are you laughing at?"

"After working in PR, I always felt that I was very good at dealing with relationships. After listening to our respective monologues, I felt like emotional idiots in both of us. ”

Zhao Zheng raised his eyebrows: "Why did you bring me in?" ”

"Hey, you're meeting me and I don't care about you. Your girlfriend was so angry that she slammed the door and went out, and you didn't go downstairs to chase after her. What if I'm so angry that I don't come back? Or if you don't come back because of your face, what should you do? ”

"You went out without anything, no money, no mobile phone, no keys, you will definitely come back."

Jiang Yi narrowed his eyes: "I'm leaving, I'm going with my wallet and mobile phone key this time!" As she spoke, she got up suddenly, and was pulled closer to her arms by Zhao Zheng.

"Stop making a fuss." Zhao Zheng buried his face in her collarbone, "You're tired all day today." ”

"No, you have to be a man!" Jiang shook his hands and feet, twisted his body to protest, and Zhao Zheng held her firmly.

"It's not good for you to be so flustered."

Jiang Yi pointed at his nose: "Hooligans!" Stinky rascals! ”

"Well, I'm a rascal. I am not good. Zhao Zheng picked her up and walked to the bathroom, "In order to make up for my mistakes, I will serve you to brush your teeth and wash your face and sleep." ”

Jiang was spinning for a while, and when his vision was clear again, Zhao Zheng was already putting water and squeezing toothpaste.

"Well, open your mouth." Zhao Zheng held the toothbrush and smiled.

Jiang shook her head like a rattle, Zhao Zheng pinched her cheeks, and his smile expanded: "Good, open your mouth." ”

"Don't, don't, don't."

However, Jiang Yi said it in vain, and the toothbrush was still stuffed into his mouth, tinkering left and right. Jiang Yi's mouth was full of foam, staring at the man, thinking back to the conversation just now, hey, it's dirty.

When he finally lay down on the bed, Jiang Yi's feelings that had been depressed for a day eased a little. She is not angry with Zhao Zheng, in fact, even when she slammed the door and left, she was angry with herself.

"Zhao Zheng." Jiang leaned around him with his hands and feet, "Am I too strong?" ”

"At some point it will feel like yes. But. Zhao Zheng paused, "There is a reason why you want to be strong." I can take it. And most of the time, I like the way you look, simply. ”

"Actually, I'm probably more disappointed and a little confused today than angry. I've tried as hard as I can, but this thing still doesn't belong to me, and I'm sad. I was unhappy with the company's decision, but I couldn't seem to do anything about it, and I felt as if I was powerless. I think I can control a lot of things, but I can't control anything. ”

"Do you believe in your fate?" Zhao Zheng asked.

"Please don't tell me, it's all fate, so what else do I have to work on?" Jiang pouted.

"It's not. Striving hard is fundamental, but whether or not you can achieve the goal in the end is a comprehensive factor of the right time, place and people. You should also know that if you don't work hard, you won't succeed, but hard work won't necessarily succeed. ”

"You don't want to comfort me, encourage me!"

"Of course I can. You can completely stop working, I can afford to support you. If you want to quit, you can quit at any time. But you don't. You're not a deserter. I want to directly say that if you don't go well, don't work, I'll raise you, and you will definitely turn your face directly with me. ”

"I really don't need you to support me."

Zhao Zheng rubbed her heart: "You, you just need to know that if you are in good times, I will support you, and you don't have to worry too much about adversity, I still support you." ”

"Now, that's in my heart." Jiang pinched his chin with a finger, "Okay, I'm going to admit my mistake now, it's my fault to slam the door and go out." In the future, we will have something to say. ”

"Hmm." Zhao Zheng kissed her forehead.

"I saw a young couple in Wu Haoran's store a few days ago, the woman encountered problems at work, and complained for a long time, the man was impatient to listen, and then the two began to accuse each other. Actually, I'm quite worried, I'm afraid you'll think I'm useless. Jiang Yi paused for a moment, and then suddenly said again.

"How do you have that thought?"

"I know it's ridiculous. But they later talked and reconciled. Jiang Yi turned around and said, "Actually, I think it's good to have a fight like this today." It's like a real couple. It's awkward, but it's reconciled. ”

"You've got a lot of weird ideas in your head." Zhao Zheng scratched her nose, "Don't think nonsense, go to bed obediently." ”

"Hmm."

The next day, Jiang Yi didn't go to work as usual, and ran back with Zhao Zhengchen, and she took a shower and put on makeup slowly. returned Zhao Zheng with clothes, and Zhao Zheng was fiddled with by him like a model, saying, "I don't want to go to work today?" ”

"Hmm." Jiang Yi replied.

Zhao Zheng raised his eyebrows: "Really not going?" ”

"I worked for four years, and I didn't even get out of the firing line when I had a fever of 38 degrees except as a last resort. But why bother? It's just a job, you don't have to be 200 percent. Take a day off and the world turns. ”

"Where are you going?"

"I don't go anywhere, I read a book at home, drink tea, and waste time."

"I'm so dressed up for tea at home." Zhao Zheng hugged her waist, "I don't even want to go to work." ”

Jiang Yi hung around his neck: "Can you not go?" ”

Zhao Zheng thought for a while: "There is no meeting today, so it's okay not to go." There are a few projects, and you have to look at the drawings in the computer. ”

"Hey, why are you so undetermined? Can the company be better? Jiang Yi smiled strangely.

"You don't know what to do." Zhao Zheng turned his head, "I'm leaving, let's play by myself." ”

Jiang Yi dragged him: "Haha, why do you turn your face when you don't agree." No, I'm going to have to be self-willed today, I won't go to work myself, and I won't let you go to work. Let's drive out and play, the weather is good today. ”

As she spoke, she wrapped her arms around him and smiled foolishly: "That kind of isolated two-person world, just the two of us, throw away everything else, and leave the day." ”

"Then I have an idea."