55. Nightmare
Song Jin's words were very ambiguous, but Du Yanyi clearly knew that the relationship between them was not as clear as he imagined.
Gu Chen said to give him time, but he didn't have the courage to spread out a qiē in front of someone other than himself.
The gap between them is too big, and all the rhythm is in Gu Chen's hands, which makes him very insecure, and every qiē in front of him is like a gorgeous castle built in the air, I don't know when it may be smashed down, and then suddenly collapse and shatter into pieces.
Du Yanyi couldn't find out what Gu Chen's position was in his heart, a lover, a couple, or just an obedient and well-behaved bed partner?
He coveted the warmth Gu Chen gave him, but he was also tired of the trouble caused by him, if it was just him, maybe he would try to follow Gu Chen to fight for it, but he also had a younger brother, a well-behaved and cute brother who made people feel distressed.
Du Yan closed his eyes, he didn't want to experience that feeling of fear again
Regardless of family background or social identity, they are not suitable to be together, and if they want to stand by Song Jin's side like Cao Ying openly and without scruples, what will be crossed by Du Yanyi is more than thousands of rivers and mountains?
Du Yan lowered his head with a smile, his long eyelashes covered the darkness under his eyes, Gu Chen glanced at him, and while listening to Song Jin's words, he reached out and grabbed him.
In his opinion, Du Yanyi is a turtle character, every day in the warm sun and has to observe for three or four days before he is willing to slowly stick his head out, once there is a little wind and grass around, he finally musters up the courage to poke out his head and quickly retracts it.
He thinks a lot, he has a lot of scruples, and all kinds of things that are a little out of the ordinary are labeled as dangerous in his eyes. Gu Chen wanted to crack his shell, but he was reluctant to be forced to accept something he needed to accept before he was ready.
Zhao Mingrui's matter, although Du Yanyi didn't say anything, Gu Chen could feel his alienation from him.
From the little temper that was unconsciously revealed before, to the current avoidance, the spark between them that had not had time to ignite just spewed out a few star points and then suddenly extinguished
Gu Chen knew that his protection of his cousin made him quietly retract the foot that he had just mustered up the courage to step out of, but the incident had already happened, and no matter how much regret he had, the only thing he could do was to stay by his side and slowly remedy it.
Gu Chen's plan was very good, but Assistant Li's news that he was quietly looking for a house was like a pebble, suddenly breaking his peaceful heart.
Gu Chen found that he was starting to get nervous
Taking Ran Ran home is to deepen the bond between the two, and bringing him back to the old mansion is also, he needs a reason to keep him openly, the original contract may be, but Gu Chen hopes that he can stay willingly.
If he could, he hoped that the paper contract would never be taken out
Song Jin said a few words to Gu Chen, and when he saw him looking at Du Yanyi absentmindedly, he smiled knowingly, and turned around to find Cao Ying, who was getting together with Qi Xiuwen and preparing to complete the moth.
Thinking of Du Yanyi's slightly envious gaze on Song Jin and Cao Ying, Gu Chen held Du Yanyi's hand tightly and gently hooked the corners of his mouth.
Since there is envy, then it is not too late, Song Jin can do it, and of course there is no reason why he can't do it if he puts it here Gu Chen!
Bent the corners of his eyes happily, and the depression that Gu Chen had pressed in his heart for two or three days gradually dissipated
Because Song Jin still had something to do with Gu Chen, in the end, Gu Chen sent Du Yanyi into the car, and asked Assistant Li to send him back first, and then he went to a small party with Song Jin and them.
When Gu Chen came home at night, Liu's mother just turned off the kitchen light and came out, "I'm back." ”
"Well," Gu Chen put down his coat and smiled, "What about Xiao An?" ”
"Let's sleep upstairs,"
Liu's mother poured a glass of water for Gu Chen, and chattered, "When I came back in the evening, I drank porridge, and I ate less than Ran Ran, no wonder I was so thin!" ”
Gu Chen took the water cup and drank a few sips, and patiently listened to Liu's mother's nagging before smiling and said, "Recently, he has been busy with work and has irregular meals, so I will try to let Assistant Li pick him up at noon to eat at home in the future." ”
"That's how it should be! Those of them who are actors are always hungry and full, lose weight today, lose weight tomorrow, and their good bodies have been tossed into malnutrition, which is too unhealthy! ”
Mother Liu took the cup from which Gu Chen drank the water, turned around and took it to the kitchen to rinse, "Okay, Boss Gu should also go up and rest, it's not too early." ”
"Hmm."
Gu Chen smiled, watched Liu's mother turn on the light again and entered the kitchen, before pinching the text in his hand and turning around and going upstairs.
Sitting in the study, Gu Chen flipped through the diagnostic report brought by Song Jin and read it several times.
He didn't understand specific medical terms, but in the end, he couldn't get it wrong. What could be the reason why a person who is mentally normal, psychologically normal, and not has a split personality, but behaves and speaks in a completely different way than before?
From the very beginning, Gu Chen had a faint idea in his heart
Remembering that last time at the door of the ward, Du Yan gave a vague answer, Gu Chen pinched the corner of his forehead, and put the diagnosis report into the study drawer together with the diagnosis of split personality last time
Back in the bedroom, the dim sconces cast a warm glow.
It was quiet in the room, and it was quiet in the bed.
Gu Chen glanced at it, closed the bedroom door and entered the child's room next to him.
The heavy cashmere carpet fell silently, and Gu Chen stood at the door, looking at the two brothers sleeping next to the children's bed.
The little jack-o-lantern at the child's bed was on, and the soft warm orange light filled the room.
Du Yanyi was lying on the side of the child's bed, with a fairy tale book spread out with cartoon animals under his arm, his head was pillowed on his arm, and he slept peacefully facing the side, the child didn't know when he was wrapped in a cute little blanket and moved down from the pillow, rubbed to his side, and slept sweetly with his forehead against his arm.
Seeing the child's unscrupulous dependence on him, Gu Chen's desire for the truth in his heart blurred a little
After Du Yanyi put the child back away, Gu Chen dimmed the little pumpkin lantern, took out the fairy tale book and put it back on the bookshelf of the small desk, gently picked up Du Yanyi and left.
Du Yanyi frowned, tugged at his clothes, rubbed his forehead against Gu Chen's chest, and smelled the familiar fragrance on his clothes before he slowly fell into a deep sleep again.
Looking at his defenseless sleeping face, Gu Chen's heart was a soft mess, and he gently closed the child's door and turned around and carried him into the next bedroom.
Put Du Yanyi on the bed, Gu Chen sat on the edge of the bed for a while, and pulled the thin quilt over to cover him.
As soon as I came out of the bathroom, I heard a suppressed gasp from the bed.
Gu Chen's face tightened, and he stepped to the side of the bed in two steps.
Really! The man on the bed furrowed his brows, and his whole body shrunk into a ball and trembled violently!
"Ann."
The eyes of the person on the bed were closed, he bit his lip and couldn't stop trembling, his pale forehead was covered with cold sweat, Gu Chen bent down, patted his cheek and screamed several times but didn't wake up, so he had no choice but to lift the quilt and pull the person into his arms, patting him on the back and slowly coaxing.
"Mama Mama"
Dark rooms, crying children, dry and hard bread
Du Yanyi stood in the void, looking at the familiar Qiqi in front of him, clutching his clothes, his chest suppressed and breathless.
Someone was in the ear, calling one after another, and the voice came from a distant place, ethereal like a puff of smoke, but miraculously dispelled all the darkness.
Du Yan's clenched chest gradually relaxed, and those memories engraved in the depths of his soul were like pictures floating on the water, wrinkled by the wind, swayed, and then suddenly dissipated
Feeling the tense body in his arms gradually relaxing, and his rapid breathing also regained stability, Gu Chen's hanging heart was relaxed.
The person in front of him is smart and sensitive, but also stoic and tenacious, Gu Chen doesn't know what kind of past he has, he only knows that from the first time he saw him like this until now, the faint distress in his heart has not weakened.
That's why I tried various methods to help him adjust his sleep, until the milk sleep aid provided by Assistant Li
However, his children don't seem to like this very much, and they will always sneak around a few times while no one is paying attention.
Smoothing the soft hair on the back of his head, Gu Chen smiled helplessly, "Just thinking about leaving?" I can't even take care of myself, and I have a younger brother."
Du Yan lay weakly in his arms and didn't speak, Gu Chen didn't expect him to answer, he sat quietly with him for a while, and saw that the person was breathing for a long time, before helping him back to the bed, went to the bathroom and wet a towel with warm water, and gently wiped the cold sweat from his forehead.
After finishing a busy day, he lay back on the bed, Du Yan slept peacefully with the pillow, Gu Chen closed his eyes and lay down for a long time, his mind was still clear, and he sighed silently, Gu Chen looked at the ambiguous shadow cast on the ceiling by the wall lamp above his head, and experienced the first insomnia in his life.
Just as Gu Chen was counting the milk cartons at home, the person next to him turned over, bent his arm and gently put it on his chest
Gu Chen's heartbeat skipped a beat, and after waiting for a long time for the man to stop moving, Gu Chen smiled self-deprecatingly, raised his hand and gently covered the hand on his chest.