139. Qin Yang is sorry

Qin Yang has been so busy lately that he doesn't know anything about He Jin's recent thoughts and plans, thinking that once he doesn't have classes, he will go back to his original company to intern and work or stay at home to write his thesis.

That night, he didn't go home until nine o'clock, and he didn't eat at night, he pushed open the door hungryly, but smelled a pungent smell of vegetables, He Jin actually cooked by himself!

After living together for half a year, He Jin even if he is a novice in the kitchen, he often watches Qin Yang do it, and he also learns to draw gourds in the same way, braised pork, poached eggs, moss and mushroom soup...... Looking at a table of dishes that didn't look so good, but were cooked by his sweetheart, Qin Yang was so moved!

After a wolfing meal, he felt his stomach and collapsed on the sofa, and when he saw He Jin taking the initiative to clean up the dishes and chopsticks, he suddenly said: "Wife, I found that you have been getting better and better for me recently." ”

He Jin stiffened, and almost slipped off a plate with his hand, "What's good...... he pretended to be stupid.

Qin Yang dragged his head with one hand, leaned on the sofa and looked at He Jin's back with a foolish face, and asked sweetly: "You are so good to me, what should you do if you spoil me?" Although he asked, Qin Yang guessed in his heart that he might be famous, and He Jin realized his goodness and cherished him more and more.

"It's just a meal." He Jin put the plate on the shelf, turned around and took a jar of yogurt that helps digestion in the refrigerator, and gave it to Qin Yang to eat, he didn't dare to look directly into Qin Yang's eyes, there was too much affection in it that he couldn't bear, he was afraid that he would not be able to leave if he saw it.

Qin Yang took the opportunity to lie down and pillowed on He Jin's lap, coquettishly: "You feed me." ”

He Jin: "......"

When he went back to the bedroom at night and turned off the light, He Jin leaned into Qin Yang's ear and asked, "Do you want to do it?" The low and soft voice carried a hint of shyness and temptation, no matter how tired Qin Yang was, he couldn't help He Jin take the initiative to ask for joy, and immediately turned into a beast and knocked his lover down, this night He Jin was more gentle and cooperative than the last time, and the two were entangled in death, as if there was no tomorrow.

Early the next morning, Qin Yang didn't have a job, he applied to the school to suspend classes for a period of time, and he didn't need to go to school, because he and He Jin did it in the middle of the night last night without control, and Qin Yang was still lazy and refused to get up at this time.

He has a penchant for lazy sleep, and if nothing happens, it is possible to sleep until lunchtime.

In a daze, Qin Yang wanted to hug He Jin, but when he reached out and touched it, the side was empty, He Jin had already gotten up, Qin Yang was a little lonely, and called "wife" twice with his eyes closed, but no one answered.

Qin Yang squinted his eyes and opened the bracelet and sent a message to He Jin: "Have you gone to class?" ”

didn't wait for a reply for a long time, Qin Yang rolled up the quilt and lay on the bed for a while, sat up sleepy-eyed, got out of bed and went to the bathroom with slippers, the bathroom was outside the bedroom, and he had to go through the living room...... Is it a note?

Qin Yang hadn't fully woken up yet, and he didn't wake up until he went to the toilet, and came out to look at the breakfast and notes on the coffee table.

He Jin bought him egg burritos, added Qin Yang's favorite ham and shortbread, and put a lot of sweet noodle sauce, Qin Yang took it to the microwave to heat, adjusted it for 45 seconds, and opened the paper with "Qin Yang collected" suspiciously.

Until he saw the first two lines of words, Qin Yang's eyes widened, his fingers trembled, and he woke up completely-

Qin Yang:

I really don't dare to mention this to you in person, so I can only say it to you in a letter.

I'm sorry, let's break up.

……

Vigorous and powerful, it is He Jin's word.

Qin Yang didn't dare to look down, and directly dialed He Jin's phone number, and it rang seven or eight times before he was connected.

"Where are you?" Qin Yang gasped, the background voice on the other end of the phone was a little noisy, and the signal was also very poor, "He Jin, where are you?" ”

He Jin got up, walked to the end of the carriage, and then softly called Qin Yang's name: "Have you seen my letter?" ”

"I didn't see it!" Qin Yang turned on the video, the projection was dark, He Jin didn't turn on the video, Qin Yang couldn't see his face, but he heard the unique broadcast sound in the carriage, and asked nervously, "Are you on the train?" Where are you going? Why break up? ”

He Jin: "I wrote the reason in that letter. ”

Qin Yang grabbed the piece of paper tightly and tore it in front of He Jin, he didn't know if He Jin could see it, so he slammed the shredded paper and said angrily: "I want you to tell me in person, why!" ”

He Jin: "......"

Qin Yang: "Or are your parents putting pressure on you?" You said you wouldn't break up with me because of them...... Are you kidding me? He Jin! You're scaring me, aren't you? Answer me! ”

Looking at the other party's grief and despair, He Jin felt that his whole heart was twisted.

Qin Yang hurriedly asked, "Is it because I signed a contract with an entertainment company to put pressure on you?" Is someone in trouble with you? If you don't like it, I'll terminate the contract with them right away! ”

"No, Qin Yang, it has nothing to do with you, you don't have to change anything for me," He Jin choked and shook his head desperately, "It's because of me, this road is too difficult for me, even if there is no pressure, it is impossible for us to be together for the rest of our lives, let alone walk in the sun in a dignified manner...... Qin Yang, while you can turn back now, break up. ”

"I don't want it!" Qin Yang hurriedly piled up his bracelets and begged, "He Jin, don't break up, I beg you, I'll go to the train station now, buy the fastest high-speed train to Q City, you wait for me, I want to see you, I want to see you......"

He Jin immediately stopped: "Qin Yang, I've already made up my mind, be mature, don't do impulsive things, and don't come to me...... You're so good now, don't be attached to me anymore, you're going to like someone better than me, but that person won't be me...... I don't deserve it. ”

He Jin tried his best not to let his voice tremble, and after saying this, he cut the phone and turned off the bracelet.

There seemed to be a residual temperature on his body that lingered with Qin Yang last night, his shoulders trembled, he couldn't stand anymore, he slowly squatted down, holding his body, his heart seemed to be about to break.

He persuaded himself over and over again in his heart, He Jin, you have indulged, you have been crazy, drunk, staying up late, playing tennis, skipping class, skiing, and an unforgettable love...... You have experienced all the things you want to do, you have no regrets, it is time to return to the "right" path and take on your own responsibilities.

Qin Yang couldn't get through to He Jin's phone, kicked the coffee table uncomfortably, threw the cushion, hit the wall with his fist, and finally sat on the ground with his ass, desperately reflecting on what he had done wrong, why He Jin wanted to leave him again, he did everything he could, and he was also trying to become stronger, obviously everything was going very smoothly, and the figure of He Jin cleaning up the dishes and chopsticks last night seemed to be still in front of him, but today, there was only one person left in this nest, and he was abandoned again......

Trying to force himself to calm down, Qin Yang picked up the scraps of paper floating everywhere one by one, shook his hands, and some of them went under the sofa, and the gap in the corner of the table was gone, only a mutilated letter remained-

"Qin Yang, I'm sorry ......"

"Two months ago, my dad came to me and told me that my mom was sick and was suffering from severe depression, I went back to see her, she was in a very bad mental condition, and her mind was a little unclear, I originally wanted to fight for the freedom to be with you, but she didn't even agree to let me stay in City A to work, I mentioned it, she was like a great stimulus, so let alone with you......"

"My dad knew that I was with you and slapped me, this was the first time he hit me since I was a child, he was disappointed in me, I didn't want to complain to you, but I wanted to sue you, we were together, it was too difficult......"

"She gave birth to me at the age of thirty-nine, and when she was forty-four, my brother was gone, and I am now their only son and their only spiritual sustenance...... They are all in their sixties now, and if I continue to be willful, it will only worsen my mother's condition and make my father's pressure even heavier, so, forgive me, I can't be so selfish and only pursue my own happiness. ”

Qin Yang clenched his fists and continued to look down with blurred teary eyes......

"I might listen to them, find a stable job in my hometown, and then maybe get married...... But I don't know if I'm still capable of liking a woman, because the traces you have left on my heart are too deep......"

- I don't agree, He Jin, I don't agree, you are mine, I don't allow you to get married!

"Qin Yang, your father once asked me not to hurt you, I broke my promise, I'm really sorry, I can't hurt my parents, so I can only choose to hurt you...... Sometimes, I envy you too, you are full of courage and self-confidence, you are full of sunshine, and you are very happy to be with you...... I'm so jealous of you, so I'm leaving, and I want you to know that the world doesn't revolve around you alone...... Am I mean? Yes, I also think that I am too bad, inferior and cowardly, so don't like me anymore. ”

"I curse myself to spend a lifetime of pain to atone for the sins that hurt you, and I also bless you to meet someone who is a hundred times and a thousand times better than me, I hope that person will not leave you again and again like me, and I hope that he will always be by your side, love you, protect you, and cherish you."

- I don't deserve to be liked by you, Ah Jin.

"Stupid...... Stupid He Jin ......" Qin Yang held the pile of shredded paper, tears rushed out, like a lost child, he couldn't hold back his fear anymore, and cried......

I don't know how long I cried, Qin Yang felt that a part of his body was broken, he stood up and looked around, and found that He Jin's things were all there, except for his notebook and tennis racket, the books on the writing desk, the game helmet, and the clothes in the closet...... These things gave Qin Yang the illusion that He Jin had not left him, as if that person had just gone out casually and would come back soon, even if he was cold and complained about his "laziness", it was like a natural sound.

As if escaping reality, Qin Yang lay back on the bed, wrapped himself tightly in the quilt, and slept grossly for another afternoon, until he woke up in prostration, he wished it was just a nightmare of his own, but as soon as he opened his eyes, his brain was stimulated by the fact of "breaking up", there was silence in the room, Qin Yang hugged his head in pain and groaned: