141. Can't get out

After only saying these two sentences, He Jin couldn't go on.

Father He suddenly remembered that three years ago, He Jin quarreled with him in the dormitory of BGI, and he roared his unwillingness in a sullen manner, asking them if they understood him, whether they had asked him what he wanted, what he didn't want, what he liked, and what he didn't like......

At that time, Father He didn't understand, he only felt that He Jin was ignorant, so he impulsively told him the truth about the past.

He Jin calmed down, was deflated, and went home, he was no longer rebellious, no longer resistant, and obediently cut off relations with the boy.

He now looks like an adult, mature and sensible, works hard, and goes on a blind date...... Yiqiē looks very good, Father He thought, he got his wish, he should feel relieved, but he didn't, what He Jin said when he quarreled with him three years ago repeatedly surfaced in his mind, compared with his observation of He Jin in the past few years, Father He always felt that something was wrong.

Yes, his child seems to have lost the ability to be happy, and that is not the "unhappiness" that is deliberately expressed on his face, but the pain that is suppressed in the depths of his heart, and only inadvertently leaks a little bit where no one sees it.

Father He didn't forget it, He Jin clenched his fists, trembled his shoulders, and yelled at him angrily - I don't want to become a person I hate in the future!

Recalling that scene, the old man who was nearly seventy years old was shocked, he trembled and snuffed out the cigarette butt, and asked softly: "He Jin, do you like the way you look now?" ”

He Jin's heart, which had been silent for a long time, beat heavily because of these words, but it soon became gloomy again, his father didn't know how much strength he had used to stand here so calmly.

He thought, does it matter if I like it or not? The important thing is that I am like this, you guys.

"That's it, I don't have a choice." He Jin said calmly.

Empathy, if he was born with a mental retard, a disability, would his parents abandon him? No, they will also raise him well, so no matter how many grievances and regrets there are, he will not abandon his sick mother.

The grace of nurturing and the responsibility of giving back are the things he should bear as a man and as a son of man, even if it comes at the cost of giving up his own joy and happiness.

Father He let out a long sigh, and he suddenly reacted that He Lin's tragedy and the impact it had on the family should not have been borne by He Jin......

He Jin saw that the old man frowned, and comforted him in turn: "Dad, don't you think I have a grudge against you or something, right?" Don't think about it, I'm fine, my mother's illness is much better, you should pay attention to yourself, smoke less, you and your mother are healthy and healthy, which is the most reassuring thing for me. ”

Father He nodded weakly, He Jin turned around and went back after persuasion, watched TV with his mother for a while, and went back to the room to sleep on time at ten o'clock.

Two days later, Qin Yang came to Q City, and the fan meeting was scheduled from 2 to 5 o'clock in the afternoon of the same day, at the Cultural Palace, and the local TV newspapers and online media had already begun to report on it.

In the past three years, every time he heard Qin Yang's name from the people around him, or accidentally saw the other party's image on a mobile advertisement, it was a great touch to He Jin's heart, so he never dared to watch news related to Qin Yang.

It was Saturday, He Jin didn't have to go to work, and he was arranged to go on a blind date with the niece of his father's former colleague's eldest cousin at noon, and he went out at about eleven o'clock in the morning.

Q City is very small, the most lively place in the city center, just a few roads from east to west, north and south, He Jin's restaurant is in Shengyi Square, a kilometer away from the Cultural Palace, a Cantonese restaurant with a good reputation.

At 11:45 a.m. when he arrived at the restaurant, fifteen minutes before meeting the woman, he glanced at the woman's information received in the bracelet - Duan Shurong, 27 years old, a staff member of the editorial department of Q City TV Station, graduated from the Chinese Department of Communication University of S Province, talked about a boyfriend, and had hobbies......

There was no need to look at it later, He Jin directly sent a text message to the other party, informing him of the table number, and then asked for a cup of espresso first, calmed down, and began to prepare his speech.

On a general blind date, it is normal for the woman to be a little late, He Jin thought that he would have to wait for at least half an hour, but the other party arrived before twelve o'clock!

"Who are you...... Ho Jin, Mr. Ho? ”

A simple plaid shirt, a plain gray cotton sweatshirt, and a pair of black-rimmed glasses...... Duan Shurong tried to connect this person with the white-clothed boy in his memory.

He Jin raised his head suddenly, and his eyes lit up: big eyes, pointed chin, long straight hair, simple and exquisite OL knee-length skirt suit, she was a beauty.

"Miss Duan, hello." He quickly stretched out his hand to shake her, and then calmly pointed to the seat in front of him, "Sit down." ”

Duan Shurong's gaze didn't take her eyes off He Jin's face, and after she sat down, she asked uncertainly, "He Jin, don't you remember me?" ”

He Jin was stunned for a moment, then raised his head again to stare at the other party's facial features, he shook his head and said apologetically: "Have we met anywhere?" ”

"We," Duan Shurong's fingers drew a line between the two: "The junior high school is the same school." ”

He Jin's eyes slowly widened, as if he remembered something, but they were very vague......

Duan Shurong smiled bitterly, and said: "When there are activities at school, we often partner as hosts, I liked you in junior high school, and I wrote you a love letter, but you gave it to your mother, and your mother called my house and insulted me, do you remember?" ”

"Ahh He Jin exclaimed, "It's you!" ”

He instantly became ashamed and embarrassed, looking at each other helplessly, the incident of the year was also an embarrassing shadow for him, he didn't dare to think about it, so he slowly forgot: "I'm sorry, I ...... I didn't expect that. ”

"I didn't expect me to go on a blind date with you?" Duan Shurong asked rhetorically.

"Well...... yes, because after that, he was completely hated, and if Duan Shurong still remembered him, it would be absolutely impossible for him to come to see him, so although the name was a little familiar, He Jin still didn't associate this person with the girl in the next class in junior high school.

Duan Shurong hugged her chest and smiled: "I didn't want to come, but after so many years, I'm really curious, how have you become, so this time it's more like seeing an old classmate than a blind date." ”

He Jin lowered his eyes, breathed a sigh of relief inexplicably, handed over the menu, and said, "Let's order first." ”

Duan Shurong glanced at him with a smile, and said while flipping through the menu, "You really haven't changed much." ”

He Jin pushed his glasses: "How can it, it's been more than ten years." ”

"I mean facial features, eyebrows, eyes, and temperament." Duan Shurong ordered a few dishes and asked for a drink, He Jin called a waiter and placed an order, Duan Shurong saw the coffee in front of He Jin again, and said, "Drink coffee before meals?" It's not good for the stomach. ”

He Jin smiled lightly, every time he ordered a cup of coffee before a blind date with the girl, he was used to it, just to keep his head clear.

The two chatted with each other about what had happened in the past few years, what university they had been admitted to after graduating from high school, what work they had done in the past few years, etc., the dishes came up, the two touched the cups, and He Jin suddenly said solemnly: "Duan Shurong, I'm sorry." ”

Duan Shurong: "...... Well? ”

"I didn't actually give the letter to my mother, it was my mother who turned it out herself, she has the habit of checking my school bag, I sandwiched the letter in the book cover of the language book, she still found out, maybe I was too nervous at the time, showing a flaw," He Jin smiled, "I really didn't expect her to do those things later, but fortunately, seeing you today can give me the opportunity to express my belated apology to you." ”

Duan Shurong was dumbfounded when she heard this, but she was also a little touched by He Jin's apology, and said to him: "What kind of person is your mother!" No wonder you've been back for three years and haven't found a match! ”

He Jin: "......"

Duan Shurong coughed lightly and said: "To be honest, I came this time, and I was also a bit of a mischievous mentality, in fact, I still want to see, if your mother knows, she did everything possible to ask someone to ask people to find a blind date for her son, that is, she called and scolded 'fox spirit, seducing people at a young age, shameless', how would she react, hehe...... But now I don't want to look at it, as long as it's a normal girl, who wants your mother's mother-in-law to be so difficult. ”

When He Jin heard this, not only was he not angry, but he even laughed out loud, although it was a bit rude for Duan Shurong to say this, but it was also the truth, he nodded: "You are right." "In this world, it is estimated that only her own son can endure her.

Duan Shurong was stunned, she picked up the cup and drank the drink, while looking at He Jin with those beautiful big eyes, it was hard to imagine that such a woman could teach such a gentle, quiet, handsome and elegant son.

Actually, she didn't say another reason - the reason why she came to see He Jin was because she still had the same ambiguous feelings for him as a girl.

He Jin ordered the dishes on the table with chopsticks: "Eat quickly, don't let the dishes be cold, it seems that today's meal is the atonement banquet that I invited you on behalf of my mother." ”

Duan Shurong snorted lightly: "Even if it's a blind date, it should be you who invite." ”

He Jin seemed to tolerate his bad-tempered girlfriend, and said with a smile: "Definitely, thank you for giving me face and eating more." ”

Duan Shurong ate two mouthfuls of food, and couldn't help but say: "Eh, in fact, I inquired, and the aunt who introduced you to me said that you seem to have been rejected by your blind date over the years......" She lowered her voice, "You see that Q City is not big, there are only a few people who come and go and are single, and the conditions are not bad, just a few, how did you manage to be rejected by so many people?" It's not all because your mom is hard to do, is it? That aunt also asked me to be careful, inquire, and ask if you have any hidden diseases! ”

He Jin raised his hand to cover his smile and raised his eyebrows: "Do you really want to know?" ”

Duan Shurong put her chopsticks aside, looking mentally prepared: "Say it." ”

He Jin swallowed the food, took a sip of coffee slowly, and then said: "Before telling everyone about this matter, I told them that what I want to say is true, not an excuse to perfunctory them, and ask them to keep it secret for me, because my parents don't know about this matter, especially my mother, I don't want her to know, so, I also want you to ......"

"Eun, I'll keep it a secret for you!" Duan Shurong interrupted him, she was an impatient and couldn't wait to know the truth.

He Jin looked at her and said seriously: "I have been with men. ”

Duan Shurong's expression froze, her face became a little strange, and she asked in a low voice, "Are you gay?" ”

"I don't know, because I've only liked him as a man, but this should be considered a kind of homosexuality, to be honest, I don't know if I can accept women, I want to try to find a girlfriend, but so far, the girls who heard the truth have directly rejected me," He Jin smiled, "However, they all kept their promises and didn't spread my secret everywhere." ”

Duan Shurong: "Do you know, in fact, it has nothing to do with promises, I know women, we all like gossip, and the reason why everyone didn't say it was because you ......"

He Jin: "Me? ”

Duan Shurong said movingly: "You said that sentence just now, it gives me the feeling that it is very sincere. ”

She didn't know how to describe it, she only felt that He Jin was particularly fragile and painful at that moment...... Women are always easily touched by such men.

"Hey, He Jin," Duan Shurong plucked up his courage and said, "Actually, I don't really care how you used to be, do you want to try it with me?" ”

A trace of gratitude appeared in He Jin's eyes: "Duan Shurong, there are also a small number of girls who are still willing to try with me after hearing the truth, they probably want to help me...... But," he said, looking directly at the other, "what if I say that I haven't let him go until now?" ”

No woman can tolerate her dating partner still thinking about her ex, not to mention that this ex is still a man.

Seeing that the other party was silent, He Jin sighed, looked down at the coffee cup that had bottomed out, and struggled: "Duan Shurong, thank you, but I can't do anything to be sorry for you." ”

It's been three years, and the self-curse in the breakup letter to Qin Yang has worked.

He couldn't start over with any woman, he tried, tried, and when he dated his first blind date, he almost lost sleep every night, countless caffeine, sleeping pills, and even went to a psychiatrist for half a year before he slowly supported this relatively normal skin......

He can fool everyone,