095. When I didn't say

He Jin's brain was dizzy from being blown up by the words of the fire, and what he had a premonition about finally came......

In fact, since giving birth to a baby in the game, He Jin has obviously felt the changes in the relationship between the two, extending from the Internet to reality, from the sweetness of love online to saying that they miss each other offline, to the companionship of every night after returning home, as well as the little care after encountering difficulties, and even the act of spending a lot of money...... Yes, they are already too much, but He Jin also enjoys it, he likes fire, just because he doesn't dare to develop such a relationship in reality, so he pretends not to see this qiē change, and only selfishly grabs the other party's phantom to absorb a moment of warmth.

But He Jin knew that this laissez-faire relationship would sooner or later burst and lose control, but he didn't expect it to come so quickly.

"Am I embarrassing you?" Seeing that He Jin didn't react for a long time, Mourning Fire couldn't help but ask.

He Jin looked at him, and he couldn't be as calm as he was at the beginning: "We, didn't we say okay...... The game is the game......" he said with difficulty, the last five words almost squeezed out of his throat, because against his will, he also wanted to develop a real relationship with the fire, he wanted to know this person, and he didn't want to be affected by another person with the same voice as him......

"I'm sorry, realistically, I can't." But what he really said was so rational and resolute.

"Why?" Yan Huo frowned, his face couldn't hide his loneliness and disappointment, but his tone was a little excited, "Because you're a straight man?" Heterosexuality? ”

He Jin didn't answer the question of the fire, but asked in an almost pleading tone: "In the game...... Isn't it possible? ”

Death Fire said with a gloomy face: "What if I say I don't? ”

He Jin was stunned and looked at the other party in surprise.

Flame: "Huada, huh?" How many boys in your school are named He Jin? I remember you were one year older than me, junior? It should be easy to find, and if I really want to go my own way, what can you do to me......"

"Don't!" He Jin interrupted him in a panic, "If you do this, I will ignore you again and stop playing games in the future!" ”

Yan Huo breathed heavily, his face turned pale with anger, he didn't expect He Jin to really threaten himself with "don't play games", he smiled bitterly in his heart - then you have to know that I am Qin Yang, do you plan to ignore me forever?

He Jin also seemed to realize that his words were a little hurtful, and finally explained: "Death, listen to me, in fact, from the beginning you said that you liked me, I was very confused, what do you like about me, you said that you waited for me for eight years, which made me feel flattered and made me feel very guilty, so I want to compensate you in the game and play with you...... But even eight years ago, we didn't have much contact, I sometimes think, in fact, you don't understand me so well, I don't know you very well, in reality I'm just a very ordinary person, maybe you too, but the Internet has made us good at adding our own fantasies to virtual characters, so, I think your liking for me may just be a stubborn obsession......"

Yan Huo listened to He Jin's painstaking explanation funny, and asked rhetorically: "So you think that the 'Ah Jin' I like is not you, but what I look like in my fantasy?" ”

He Jin nodded slightly, this was one of the reasons why he refused to be honest, and the most important reason, the feelings of the fire for him were too unreal, so unreal that He Jin was afraid to be honest.

Qin Yang smiled bitterly, if He Jin's words were put before he had seen him, it might make him powerless to argue, he admitted that the past eight years of waiting have made his feelings for this person an obsession, however, after seeing He Jin and also having a good impression of him in reality, Qin Yang is really "must be him" regardless of virtual reality.

Flame: "If you don't think I know you well enough, we can get to know each other a little bit better." ”

He Jin shook his head and plucked up his courage and said: "No, Death Fire, this kind of fantasy is very good, I also have this fantasy about you now, I don't want to break it." ”

Flames: "......"

In the final analysis, He Jin still can't ignore the inferiority complex from the depths of his heart, although he has recognized his sexuality, but in the previous twenty years, He Jin's concept of love is still between men and women, as a man, he is examined by another man from the perspective of a "lover", even if he looks good and excellent, he will be timid...... He was afraid that he would disappoint the fire in reality, and he was also afraid that the fire would disappoint him.

He Jin refused very simply, Qin Yang felt like he was stuck in a wall, unable to move forward or retreat, and his heart was panicked.

Last time, he pushed himself away with the reason of "not gay", and this time he changed to something else, He Jin always had his reasons, but Qin Yang was unwilling: "Do you remember that we chatted before the Chinese New Year, you said that I don't dislike your gender, and you won't dislike what I look like...... Is this sentence from the heart? ”

He Jin was stunned, lowered his eyes and said: "Yes, but if it's just a game, as long as you can play it, no one cares if the playmate on the other side of the computer is a dog, but if it's reality, it's definitely false to say that you don't care." ”

Let's play it, He Jin selfishly thought that instead of being disappointed in each other, it would be better to let this beautiful relationship stay in the virtual game world, at least in the game, they don't have to be responsible for anyone.

……

Mourning Huo had nothing to say, nodded and said coldly: "Okay, I won't force you anymore, the previous sentence, when I didn't say it." ”

He Jin saw the other party's gray appearance, and his heart felt astringent and aching for no reason.

After a long stalemate, he said, "Dead fire...... You see, we are also connected in reality, and we can already be regarded as friends......"

The fire didn't react, He Jin lowered his head, and said: "We will often say goodnight to each other now, I never thought that we would be like this before......"

There was still no sound on the other side, and He Jin didn't dare to raise his head: "You said the reality all of a sudden, it scared me a little." ”

He blushed, clenched his fists, and said in a trembling voice, "We...... Is it okay to take your time? "Doesn't that give hope to the fire?

It's really too difficult to develop the reality now, I have nothing now, and I broke up with my family, I have to study and work at the same time, and the future is uncertain......

There was silence all around, and He Jin looked up hesitantly, but saw that the figure opposite was already in a "standby offline state".

He Jin: "......"

was attacked in the air and suddenly went offline, and the others probably had no intention of playing again, and the fence sent a message to ask where He Jin was and if he wanted to PK, He Jin refused, saying that he would make an appointment another day.

Passing water and others probably also saw the offline status of "Dead Fire", and after sending a message to He Jin to confirm, they went offline to sleep one after another.

He Jin guarded the body of the "Dead Fire" and disappeared, and stood stunned for a long time at the resurrection point, but he didn't see the other party's name light up again, Tang Yuan didn't know when he appeared beside him, flying quietly behind him, maybe he was there when he was chatting with the Dead Fire, but like a well-behaved system pet, he didn't make a sound to disturb.

He Jin beckoned Tang Yuan to fly closer, hugged him, and Tang Yuan made a soft "chirp" sound and waved his wings twice.

"Little fool......" He Jin touched its wings, the fluffy touch, "Dad is not a coward?" ”

Tang Yuan tilted his head and "chirped" again, as if to say, "Yes." ”

He Jin smiled, but his smile was more ugly than crying......

The time passed midnight, and the game flashed an announcement, reminding everyone that today is February 14th, Valentine's Day in the West.

He Jin flew to the game store with the dumplings and picked 9 roses.

999 flowers, he can't afford it, but 9, like 999, represents "long-term", talk about it.

He Jin chose the flower shop express service, and the gift object was "Dead Fire", which was given away the next time the player went online.

Sorry for the fire.

After going offline, He Jin eagerly checked the bracelet, and saw that there was no unread message on it, and the fire didn't send him anything, not even "good night".

He hesitated to send a "Happy Valentine's Day" to the fire, but he felt that he was not qualified to say such a thing if he hurt and rejected the other party like this...... The fire is not happy.