Sure enough, halfway through the cheesecake, Gu Nanfeng put down his fork, and there was a shiny diamond ring inlaid in the middle of the cake.

She raised her eyes to look at Lin Xuan, the person just narrowed his eyes slightly and smiled, and there was a hint of imperative in the depths of his eyes.

"Nanfeng, we've been dating for more than a year, what do you think of me?"

If you come, you will be safe, Gu Nanfeng relaxed himself and nested in the comfortable sofa, "It's not bad"

Talk politely, treat people thoughtfully, and be gentle and considerate to yourself, and you can't think of anything else.

Lin Xuan leaned over slightly, the distance between the two people was pulled in, he took out another box from his jacket pocket and put it on the table and slowly pushed it over.

"Nanfeng, since you also think I'm not bad, I've seen both parents, and each other's conditions are suitable, I'm thirty years old, I want to have a home, would you like to marry me?"

The light fell into his eyes, there was a very obvious sincerity, Gu Nanfeng sat up slightly straight, and let himself stay away from him, although he was telling the truth, he was not young, he was a government civil servant, he was a people's teacher, and he had seen his parents, he was a very kind old man.

As early as the blind date, my mother had told me countless times to catch this golden beetle son-in-law, and the most important thing was that his family was also rich and powerful in this small city.

Gu Nanfeng still remembered the flattering face when she said this, but she just ......

She lowered her eyes, "I'm not ready to get married."

The two have been dating for more than a year, not to mention kissing, and even the number of hugs is very small, Lin Xuan thought that this girl was naturally shy, and now she even rejected him with a marriage proposal, there are too few traditional girls like this.

Lin Xuan curled his lips and smiled, took out the diamond ring from the box, and held her hand into his palm, his skin was smooth and delicate, making him a little in love.

"It doesn't matter if you don't want to have a child a few years later, it's just that I can't wait to marry you home"

This kind of idea had already germinated when he saw her for the first time, and Gu Nanfeng at that time was also like now, wearing a wide white T-shirt, nestled in the sofa chair, half of his face hidden in the soft light, holding a book and looking at it intently, the hands on the pages were slender and white, and the joints were distinct.

When I raised my eyes and smiled at him, I found that she was a very gentle woman, with a coldness in her eyes, and she unconsciously wanted people to get close to melt her silence.

This idea gradually took root in the subsequent contact and grew into a towering tree with deep roots.

The palm covering the back of his hand had rough lines, with a thin layer of sweat, Gu Nanfeng frowned slightly and did not make a sound.

Seeing that she had no intention of refusing, Lin Xuan became a little bolder, and slowly put the diamond ring on her ring finger, and when Gu Nanfeng almost couldn't help but withdraw his hand immediately, someone suddenly shouted his name loudly in his ear.

"Gu Nanfeng!"

She subconsciously stood up, her body tensed tightly, and when the sentence "to" was about to blurt out, she swallowed it back raw, and her face turned pale instantly.

It was a middle-aged woman with big wavy curly hair shouting to herself, Gu Nanfeng stared at her for a while, and a trace of embarrassment flashed on her face unconsciously.

The woman also seemed to see that she was a little embarrassed, so she changed to a more intimate title, "Nanfeng, do you want to come and sit?" ”

"Sorry for the mistake"

Gu Nanfeng lowered his head and smiled apologetically at Lin Xuan.

"Why don't you recognize it?" The woman cut the steak into fine and chopped pieces, and then put it in front of the little girl sitting next to her, "Hanhan, call Auntie"

"Auntie is good" The girl bit her fork, her voice was soft and glutinous, her words were a little unclear, she wore two pigtails, and her big eyes were very similar to her mother, watery.

"Hello" Gu Nanfeng showed a soft smile on his lips, raised his head to meet her scrutinizing gaze, opened his mouth and slowly shouted "Sister Chen"

How could she not know it, Sister Chen was the first noble person she met in City B when she was desperate because of tuition fees, and it was also the most unbearable past to look back on.

"You're also from H City?"

Sister Chen smiled and looked at the child's eyes with love, "No, I just want to find a place where no one knows to take good care of the child."

Gu Nanfeng didn't ask the question of who the child's father was, he just smiled, "The child is very cute"

"Yes, it's been so many years in a blink of an eye" Sister Chen's eyes had traces of time that could not be covered by exquisite makeup, and she looked at Gu Nanfeng, who had faded away from her youth, and there was a trace of envy in her eyes.

"You're still the same as before, what do you do now?"

"Still a teacher"

Both of them kept silent about the past, and the topic always revolved around the child's changes over the years, although their relationship was not good, but this conversation like an old friend still made her slowly relax.

Until the topic suddenly changed to another direction, Sister Chen looked at Lin Xuan, who was sitting not far away, bored, with a slightly inquiring expression.

"That's your boyfriend, you and Xiao ......"

Speaking of which, she knew Xiao Xubai, the daughter of the famous Xiao Group, thanks to herself, although it was only a one-night stand, who would have thought that there would be so many entanglements later.

Before that incident, she had already washed her hands and was ready to go back to her hometown to give birth.

Gu Nanfeng's expression cooled down little by little, and before she finished speaking, she got up and left with her bag, her back a little like she had fled.

"I'll leave first if I have something to do"

Neon flashed outside the car window, and those mixed pictures also passed through my mind, and the people who thought that there would never be any intersection in this life again came out of another person's mouth abruptly, and Gu Nanfeng was muddy all night, and the pain like pins and needles in her temples made her hold her forehead and close her eyes from time to time.

The failure of the marriage proposal also made Lin Xuan a little unhappy, and seeing that she seemed uncomfortable, she had to say, "Why don't I send you home first?" ”

Gu Nanfeng looked at him and nodded blankly, and didn't come back to his senses until the car drove downstairs in his community, "Thank you"

Lin Xuan waved his hand to signal her to go up quickly, and watched her slowly pacing upstairs before driving away, the smile on his lips was a little bitter.

When will she be able to invite herself to sit down, instead of simply saying thank you, polite and distant.

The house of less than seventy square meters is simple and warm, with large floor-to-ceiling windows, wood-grain floors, and light-colored wallpaper, Gu Nanfeng stretched out his hand to turn the light on a little, and the familiar environment relieved her anxiety.

She kept walking around the house until she finally felt a little tired, so she fell asleep without removing her makeup, and curled herself up in the quilt.

At the end of August, H City said that the wind was rain, the shadows of the trees outside the window were shaking, the wind was strong, the lightning was thundering, and Gu Nanfeng was not sleeping peacefully, frowning tightly, and a layer of fine sweat oozed from his forehead.

In her dream, she seemed to be back to that rainy evening, clutching a piece of paper that had been wet by the rain, and sitting helplessly on the steps of the labor market, crying, the rain mixed with tears silently slid down her cheeks and disappeared into the dust.

A business card was handed over in front of him, with only one address and a string of phone numbers on it, Yunhe KTV, Sister Chen.

There was a hint of indifference in the woman's voice, "You should be eighteen years old, it's up to you whether you do it or not, but everyone has a last resort."

As soon as the scene turned, she was wearing high-waisted denim shorts, low-cut short-sleeved tops, shuttling among red men and green women, and there was a description of the obscene old man who put his hands up and down, and he seemed to feel a burst of nausea in his dreams, and his stomach cramped fiercely.

There was also a doctor in a white coat with an indifferent look in her eyes, sending the cold needle tip into her muscles, and she pleaded and cried hysteria only for more cruel electric shocks.

There were two equally beautiful bodies tightly entwined, beads of sweat rolling down the porcelain-white skin and sinking into the snow-white sheets, followed by the pain of the body being penetrated.

"No...... Don't ......" A thunderbolt suddenly sounded in the sky, Gu Nanfeng jumped up from the bed, stumbled all the way to the bathroom in the dark, and retched on the washstand.

There were bouts of spasms in her stomach but she couldn't spit out anything, her whole head was about to explode from the pain in her temples, and she grabbed the facial cleanser on the washstand and wanted to throw it out, she took a deep breath and suppressed the impulse.

She didn't turn on the light, stumbled all the way back, opened the drawer in the bedside table in the dark, rummaged around for something, but couldn't find anything, and pulled it out in a hurry, and the things were scattered all over the ground.

She fumbled around, and finally touched a small medicine bottle, her fingertips trembled a little, and when she twisted the lid, the pill fell to the ground, she didn't bother to pick it up, she stuffed the remaining brain in her palm into her mouth, and then took the cold water from the bedside glass and drank it down.

A flash of lightning flashed outside the window, illuminating the room for a moment, and also illuminating the small print on the bottle: paroxetine.

The effect of the drug finally made her slowly calm down, Gu Nanfeng touched a rectangular box again, took out a cigarette and touched the lighter to light it.

Xu was choking because she hadn't smoked for too long, and she coughed continuously, but nicotine plus paroxetine finally calmed her anxious mood, Gu Nanfeng looked at the lightning and thunder outside the window in a daze, not knowing what she was thinking.

Until the burned cigarette finally burned to her fingertips, she hissed softly, let go of her hand, and the cigarette butt slipped helplessly from mid-air, flashed and then extinguished.

At the same time, the light under Gu Nanfeng's eyes also went out, becoming deeper than the night.

Looking at the door number of the Truth-seeking Psychological Counseling Room in front of him, Gu Nanfeng hesitated, but still rang the doorbell, and from time to time, a young nurse wearing a light pink nurse suit came to open the door and led her inside.

"Hello, do you have an appointment?"

Dr. Xun's rule is to only receive two patients a day, and the second patient has just left, although the nurse is puzzled, but her good professionalism still makes her smile and ask softly.

"No, my name is Gu Nanfeng, Professor Xun's former ......" she paused, "Patient"

Miss Nurse was slightly stunned for a moment, and then the smile on her face became a little more enthusiastic, "Okay, please come here, please"

Looking at the door of the consultation room not far away, Gu Nanfeng paused and said in a low voice: "I'll just go in by myself."

"Okay, please"

There is the fragrance of roses in the air, there is no strong smell of disinfectant water, and the corridor is not painted with green or blue paint like a hospital, but is full of murals, simple and warm, and it is the same as when I first came to H City three years ago.

Gu Nanfeng knocked lightly on the door twice, and only pushed the door in when he heard a full sound of anger.

Xun Zhen was slightly stunned when he saw her, and then raised his usual gentle smile, he didn't ask her what are you doing here, just greeted her like an old friend, "Nanfeng, are you going to play sand table or go to the catharsis room to play boxing today?" ”

Because of his long-term desk work, his back was a little rickety, and the silver threads on his sideburns could be seen more clearly in the sun.

It was as if it was yesterday that the two of them were arguing over a question in the office many years ago, and in the blink of an eye, she went from being his student to being his patient.

Gu Nanfeng slowly walked to the L-shaped sofa and sat down, "Professor, I want to do the SDS scale again."