When did he become the current Lin Jiahe?

Numb, indifferent, impersonal, moody, and seemingly unable to even feel his own heartbeat, like a walking puppet.

When is it?

This answer is not even known to him.

Since Lin Jiahe can remember, his father Lin Guangyan has been very, very busy.

At that time, Lin Zheng was just a small company that had just been established by taking advantage of the wave of reform, but in just ten years, it developed into a leading enterprise in Jiangcheng in the hands of Lin Guangyan.

At that time, he was too young to know what Lin Zheng's growth meant to him. He just knew that he lived in a big house, had a toy that Qiē wanted to own, that the teachers at the school treated him very favorably, and that the children in the class envied him. But these are not necessarily very precious for a small child.

In Lin Jiahe's heart in childhood, what made him happiest was just being as unscrupulous as other children.

In fact, before he was eight years old, because of his father's busyness and his mother's connivance, his life was indeed unscrupulous.

Until one day, when he lost a fight with other children and ran home crying, he happened to bump into his father, whom he hadn't seen for a few days.

He cried and hugged Lin Guangyan's leg: "Dad, Dad, they are competing with me to shoot slingshots, and if they lose, they are still cheating, I am not convinced, and I fight with them, but there are many of them, I can't beat them." ”

The man who had become a legend in Jiangcheng looked at his eldest son with tears and snot on his face, and suddenly realized something. Instead of appeasing the ignorant boy, he drove him to a newly built building, the newly built Lin Zheng Building.

Lin Guangyan pointed to the unfinished building and said to the boy who was still sobbing: "Jiahe, you are the eldest son of the Lin family, when you grow up, you will sit on the top floor of this building, and Lin Zheng, which was established by your father, will be handed over to you in the future." ”

The ignorant boy obviously didn't know what his father meant, and was still immersed in the frustration of losing the fight: "But I just want to play games with the children, so that they don't play tricks anymore, and they can't fight more against less." ”

Lin Guangyan shook his head at him, his face was full of sternness: "Jiahe, you are different from other children, from now on, you can't mess around like other children." ”

Eight-year-old Lin Jiahe didn't know why he was different from other children.

However, the phrase "the eldest son of the Lin family" has become a shackle on him since then. And thus began his elitist education.

While his younger brother Garmin continues to fight and frolic with other children, he must stay at home and learn from a strict tutor.

When his younger brother was in the second grade, he became obsessed with Saint Seiya, and his parents bought him a set of comics and Saint Seiya doll toys, which he co-played every day at home.

And the Transformers comics he bought back and quietly put at the head of the bed were taken away and thrown away by his father, and then told him righteously: "Jiahe, you can't waste your time on this meaningless thing." ”

When my younger brother was ten years old, he wanted to be a scientist, and the room was piled up with a lot of science books and CDs. At this time, he was only in junior high school, but he had already begun to get in touch with economics and management books.

Later, her mother was also tired of seeing her father's copper stench, so she took Jia Ming abroad to find freedom.

When she was sending her mother and brother on the plane, she asked her mother, "Mom, why didn't you take me away?" ”

His mother looked at him with pity and regret and touched his head: "Jiahe, you are the eldest son of the Lin family, your father pinned Lin Zheng's future on you, and your mother can't take you away." ”

He was only fifteen years old at the time, but for the first time he felt powerless against fate.

At the age of seventeen, he gradually became obsessed with painting and improved his painting skills, but he was suddenly forced by his father to give up and concentrate on preparing for the economics major in college.

And at that time, his younger brother Jia Ming, who was three years younger than him and was on the other side of the ocean, changed from a scientist to a rock singer, formed a band with a few fox friends, and skipped school at three or five times.

The most incomprehensible thing for him is that when Yi Jiaming performed on the open-air stage for the first time, his father even flew to the United States to bring flowers with his mother to watch.

At the age of nineteen, as his father wished, he entered the Department of Economics of Jiangcheng University, and fell in love with a beautiful girl in the same department, handsome men and beautiful women, talented women, mountains and sea oaths, like glue and paint, and a qiē and a qiē all look very beautiful.

It was his first love, and it seemed to be overwhelming.

He had just fallen in love, and he didn't tell his parents, even if the girl was beautiful and excellent, even if he knew that his younger brother, who was still in high school, was kissing in his garden with a girl with red hair and smoky eyeshadow during the recent summer vacation, and after his father bumped into him, he just shook his head and smiled and didn't say anything.

He already knew at this time that he was different from his younger brother, and never was the same - because he was Lin Jia's eldest son, the successor of a large group, and his younger brother was just the child of his parents.

A month after that first love, his father made a special trip to call him home from school and said to him bluntly: "You can't be with that girl." ”

He has always been a very obedient son, even if he has a very different education style from his younger brother, he has never objected, but this time he still can't help but question: "Why?" ”

"Because that girl is interested in who you are, not really loves you." His father calmly and cruelly sued him.

Of course, he didn't believe what his father said.

And at this moment, he suddenly grew tired of this manipulated lifestyle.

The next day, he came to the train station alone with a simple duffel bag on his back, and then called the girl he liked and told her that he was leaving and that he would wait for her at the train station.

But late at night, the girl didn't come. The only one who came was the driver sent by his father to take him home.

When he got back to school, he stopped the girl and asked her why she didn't choose to leave with him. only got her mockery: "You are so stupid, you still want to elope when you are so old." You don't want to think about it, if you really leave, you will be nothing, how can I suffer with you like that. ”

Soon after, he saw the girl kissing in the school hallway with another school boy.

I didn't feel that sad, I just felt that my heart was suddenly empty.

In fact, he knew that the elopement he had prepared was meaningless. Even if the girl did leave with him, in a few days, he himself would probably come back because he couldn't bear it.

But this first love was so real that he completely ruined his appetite for love, and even deep down, he himself was not sure whether he really loved the girl - because before long, he could not even remember the girl's face.

His first love died young, so he has been interested in love since then. Anyway, he thought, his father would always help him arrange a woman suitable for being Lin Zheng's heir's wife, so why should he waste time looking for it.

Nineteen-year-old Lin Jiahe finally accepted his fate. gradually became the person Lin Jiahe needed, no longer full of illusions, no longer tolerant and credulous.

While accepting his fate, he no longer has the sigh of unfair fate, and no longer has parents who regard him as Lin Zheng's heir, and his younger brother is their child's complaint.

In fact, when he saw his younger brother Jia Ming doing what he liked, even if he fished for three days and dried nets for two days, but he maintained his unscrupulous and clear as always, he thought: My brother can choose the lifestyle he wants, not like me. That's nice!

At the end of his sophomore year, at the age of twenty, he was sent by his father to the most prestigious business school in the UK.

The summer before continuing his MBA, he returned to China to intern at Lin Zheng.

It was a long, lonely summer, and every day was a variety of tedious business.

Even though he excelled in every subject and was loved by his mentors over the years, he never really fell in love with business. Thinking of the work in the future, year after year, day after day, he is still somewhat hopeless.

So, that summer, the part of the road that drove home every afternoon seemed to become his only salvation.

He doesn't think too much, because thinking too much will make him lose the motivation to continue, and the only thing he does is to empty his mind and run wild.

It wasn't a long stretch, passing a bustling mall with a traffic light at the intersection for 60 seconds. So, he would stop at this intersection for sixty seconds every day.

The holiday season is the peak season of the mall, and there are all kinds of promotions at the entrance of the mall during that time.

He couldn't remember the day it started, but while he was waiting for the sixty-second traffic light, he noticed one of the girls promoting a drink.

From the inside of the car to the promotion table, only a dozen meters away, he can see the girl's face.

In fact, she is not the most beautiful girl, she is about a part-time college student in the summer, because she is still young, the baby fat on her face has not faded, and her skin is a little tanned by the summer sun.

However, her smile was very, very good-looking, her eyebrows and eyes were crooked, and her eyes were clear, as if she was happy from the bottom of her heart, and he had never seen such a warm smile.

Maybe it's because of the youth, the stupid blue tight-fitting promotional suit, worn on the girl, has clear lines and a different taste. He remembered the Sailor Moon comics that his younger brother Garmin had taken from his little girlfriend when he was a child.

Sailor Moon, he smiled self-deprecatingly, looking at the girl, he actually had such a childish idea.

So, for many days to come, during the sixty seconds of waiting for the traffic light, the girl became his ephemeral landscape.

He saw her smile and greet the crowd and politely hand the drink to the customer. The chin is bent over, looking forward to the look.

For no reason, he felt warm in his chest.

At that time, he didn't think much about this kind of feeling, as if it was just a casual habit.

About 20 days later, the weather entered the summer heat. He habitually looked at the girl while waiting for the traffic light, and then clearly saw a drop of sweat on the girl's forehead.

In the car with the air conditioner running at full capacity, he suddenly felt a little hot.

For the first time, he pulled over and walked to the girl's promotion desk.

Half a meter away, he could see the girl's face clearly, including her fluttering eyelashes and the shallow smile at the corner of her mouth, and he casually pointed to the drink on the table: "I want two bottles." ”

"Okay." The girl smiled and nodded to him, took out two bottles of drinks from the box behind her and handed them to him, her voice soft and brisk, "Six dollars in total." ”

He pulled out a hundred-hundred-dollar bill from his wallet, and she carefully counted the change for him, and smiled at him, "Thank you." ”

He nodded, and never spoke again.

In fact, he wanted to say something to the girl, but found that there was no language, because they were just strangers who had nothing to do with each other.

He smiled heartily, and when the girl turned to pick up something, he turned around and walked back to his car with the drink in his hand.

Just as he was about to start the car, he suddenly heard someone tap on the window. He turned his head and saw the girl outside the car window, holding a cup and raising it at him.

He lowered the window a little inexplicably, and gave her a puzzled look.

"Sir, you forgot to take your giveaway." She handed the cup in from the outside and explained to him, "We're doing a promotion, buy two drinks, get one for free." ”

He smiled lightly and took the crudely finished mug in her hand, with a cute Bonnie rabbit on it.

"Sir, stay safe when driving!" The girl waved and smiled at him, and before he could respond, she turned and ran towards her promotion table.

He glanced at the brisk back, a smile unconsciously appearing on the corner of his mouth.

After starting the car, he opened his drink and took a sip.

He had rarely drunk carbonated drinks, and he didn't like them, but when the strong smell of lemon rushed up and cooled down his throat, he felt like a good feeling.

And the mug with the Bonnie rabbit pattern on the bridge inexplicably made him happy.

In the following days, every time he passed by the entrance of the mall, he would still subconsciously look at the girl, but he didn't get out of the car on a whim and go to buy two bottles of drinks.

For him, the girl was a sight on his way home.

That's all.

The last time I saw the girl was the day the summer vacation ended. Because of some cumbersome things, he went home a little late, and when he passed by the mall, the promotion table had been removed.

He thought he wouldn't see the girl again, but just as he turned to look at the zebra crossing in front of the car, he saw that the girl was sitting in the back seat of a young boy's bicycle and crossing the zebra crossing.

She had changed into a white dress and was half leaning on the boy's back.

As the sun sets, the corners of the girl's skirt flutter in the breeze in the glow, her face is covered with a layer of soft light, and her smile is quiet and beautiful.

At that moment, he suddenly thought that even if the girl was just a scenery on his way home, it must be the most beautiful scenery he had ever seen in his life.

Of course, he didn't think it was love. But when he realized at that moment that such a beautiful scenery could never belong to him, he suddenly felt a little inexplicably lost.

Heartbeat is really just a momentary thing. A warm and beautiful smile is enough to sink people.

Before returning to England, when he was packing, he miraculously put the mug in his suitcase.

And after returning to the UK, he began to be inexplicably anxious, haunted by dreams, always with such a vague smile, and even his young body was restless in the night, which belonged to instinct and ** restlessness.

It was then that he began dating women again and had one so-called girlfriend after another.

Even though most of the British students come from wealthy families, Lin Zheng from Jiangcheng is undoubtedly a leader. What's more, he is tall and straight, with a handsome face, and he is not a gentleman who does not learn and has no skills, so he is an absolute shining figure in the Chinese student circle. No sweet talk, no flowers and chocolates, naturally there are beautiful girls leaning over.

He dated,/had sex with them, broke up, and the cycle went on and on, and so on.

His appetite for love, which was ruined by his first love, finally ignited a certain longing because of a strange girl. But he knew that it had nothing to do with love, even the girlfriend he had been dating for almost a year before returning home, and it had nothing to do with love - until, many years later, he saw the girl again.

He hadn't remembered that smile for a long time. He even suspected that it was just a fantasy of his youth.

Unexpectedly, after many years, when he saw her again, he still recognized her at a glance.

Although I have lost a lot of weight, my skin is much whiter, and I have a mature charm and more beautiful than I remembered, but my eyebrows and eyes are still exactly the same. The only real difference is that the sincerity and warmth of the smile are completely gone, there is a kind of blankness and confusion on the face, the expression is alienated and indifferent, and there is a kind of cold that breaks ice.

He didn't know if she had experienced anything in her years of growth. Where is the young boy who once carried her on a bicycle in the sunset, making her smile smile like that?

For some reason, he felt a little sad.