Children are always in awe of their fathers, who are tall, handsome, omnipotent, and omnipotent. You are naughty, and he will teach you to be afraid as soon as he raises his eyebrows, but when he is happy, he will also lie on the ground and let you ride a big horse.

Even if he is as unruly as Lin Han, when he mentions his father, he is proud, and when he has nothing to do, he likes to pat his chest and show off to his friends: "My father is a well-known diplomat in China!" ”

Older children love to wet the bed when they sleep at night, and no one knows what a diplomat is. Xia Ran was one of the best people who didn't understand and asked, and immediately raised a tender little arm and asked, "Brother Lin, what is a diplomat?" ”

Lin Han was so angry with this girl who didn't grow up that her brain hurt, she crossed her waist with one hand, plucked her ear with the other, and said, "How many times have you talked about it, Xia Ran!" A diplomat is an official who handles foreign affairs on behalf of our country! Do you still want to ask what is foreign affairs? ”

Xia Ran hurriedly covered her bloodshot ears and shouted sharply: "Brother Lin, it hurts, it hurts!" With two bright tears in his eyes, he stared at Lin Han awkwardly and nodded, he wanted to ask.

Lin Han sighed for a long time, pushed her soft little shoulders, and said, "Go back and play your playhouse, little silly girl, you can't understand it after explaining it to you, it's a waste of my time." ”

When I went home, Xia Ran cried into a little tearful person, her mother asked her why she was crying, and she said that Brother Lin on the other side bullied me and scolded me for being stupid, just because his father was a diplomat!

Her mother immediately raised her eyebrows, thinking that the Lao Lin family opposite was unreliable, and she began to engage in privileges at a young age, you can bully others, why do you bully my daughter. It's bearable, I can't bear it, so I pulled my daughter to my side, wiped her tears, and said, "Don't cry, what's so great about a diplomat, your father is also an official!" ”

Her father was shocked when he heard this, and came over to hug his woman and said: "Wife, this child can't be deceived, Zengzi killed pigs to get credit, I don't have the ability of Lao Lin, when did I become an official, I am hehehehe......"

Her mother immediately glared at him and said, "Why aren't you an official?" ”

The person was still confused: "Eh, please show me?" ”

Her mother laughed and said to Xia Ran in front of her: "Your father, like the monkey in the TV series, is a Bi Ma Wen." But the monkeys raise a large herd of horses, and your father will raise one. ”

Xia Ran was dumbfounded when she heard this, but she didn't expect her father to have this ability: "Then Mom, Mom, can Dad ride a horse?" ”

Her mother glanced meaningfully at the man who had pondered on the side: "Ride, ride every night." ”

Someone choked: "Ahem, cough...... Don't teach your child badly! ”

Xia Ran jumped up: "Dad is so good!" ”

At that time, at home, even if it was a small fight, it was extremely happy, the parents respected each other like guests, and Xia Ran was cute and obedient. Dad guarded the only horse in his garden, idyllic, leisurely in the south mountains, all hope was to be able to go from beginning to end, black hair to white head.

No one thought that the good wife and mother who loved the family would cheat, and once the soft-hearted person in the past made a decision, he would not be able to pull back ten cows. They had a very busy time, and just when Xia Ran hopelessly felt that this kind of life would last for a long time, her parents quickly divorced.

Xia Ran was sentenced to her mother, who was superior to her father in all aspects, and on the day she packed up her things and left the house, her father stood in her room, and was pulled out by the evening sunset on the ground.

She stepped on the top of the shadow, carrying two suitcases, and when she looked back at the world, she felt for the first time that this small space was so empty, so desolate, and that his drunken father was so depressed.

Xia Ran didn't leave, she stayed behind to take care of her father, who was already a heavy drinker. Without saying a word, she made the bed, swept the floor, straightened her clothes, and restored the room to its original appearance little by little.

He chased her a few times, hurried out of the yard with a broomstick, and said that one day you would regret being with my useless father.

He didn't give her the key, and let her shut her out of the house on a hot day, saying to find your beautiful mother who has money and ability.

He knocked over the rice bowl, pointed to the one with a straight face, and said that if she feels wronged, get out early, I can live well without you cooking for me.

He hated the Du family deeply, and forbade her to have more contact with Du Xisheng, saying that if you still want to recognize me as a father, you don't want to associate with that stinky boy.

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As for her secretly changing her college entrance examination volunteer, she wanted to chase Du Xisheng to Sui Xing, but he finally picked up the ring ruler and chased her all over the yard.

He said that girls should have self-esteem and self-love, did Du Xisheng promise you, can you believe Du Xisheng's promise, he is unwilling to resist his mother for you, and you will only make him feel that you are worthless now.

If you want to be together, let him come out and pick you up in a sedan chair, if you dare to chase him now, you will never come back to see me again in your life, I will never have your daughter!

Xia Ran cried at the time, after such a year, she endured everything and swallowed everything, thinking that she could bear everything, but when her father asked her to cut off contact with Du Xisheng, all kinds of grievances in the past broke out together.

When the ruler fell, she grabbed the bamboo board with her hand and held it in the air. Dad pressed down hard, her hand pumped out hard, and when she pulled it out, she also staggered with others.

He drank too much, and his originally tall and strong body fell short quickly, Xia Ran quietly watched him hold on to the wall and pant for breath, at that moment, it seemed that the monument that had been standing in his heart for more than ten years collapsed.

There was a hot pain in the tiger's mouth, but it couldn't compare to the pain in the heart. Xia Ran didn't know what others would think, at least her heart was like a knife at this moment, in the face of the transformation of the absolute power of father and daughter, in the face of this omnipotent edifice about to collapse, she asked herself over and over again, since when has her father become so weak?

If it weren't for Du Xisheng, Xia Ran would probably have knelt in front of her father and cried for forgiveness. But the love that she didn't get always has great power, so she held her head high and shouted to her father without fear: "Don't feel that all love in the world is unreliable just because you are separated from my mother, and don't think about separating me and Xisheng because of this."

"You have your life, we have ours, why should we live in the shadow of others, separated for the sake of your face? I'm telling you, I'm just going to him, we're going to be together, I'm going to marry him. Anyway, don't you want me, you always want to drive me to my mother's side, I'll go, I'm not here anymore! ”

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Xia Ran stood on the edge of the hospital bed, the past was projected in her mind like a movie, and the angry and painful look on her father's face at that moment taught her to remember it vividly until now.

The words he cried and said back then echoed in his ears, how fearless, how naïve, thinking that he was right, he casually stabbed a knife in his hand into the hearts of others.

After having Mustard, the relationship between her and her father has always been bad, and they rarely see each other and rarely communicate. Of course, his father had reasons to resent her, and she also had a place to fear him.

When I was young, there were always people in my ears who said that you will know when you grow up, you will know when you get married, and when you step into society, you will change, and you will ...... In the first few years of her appearance, she always walked cautiously, not wanting to fall into this gloating prophecy.

But the more she passed, the more scared she became, how the scenes always seemed to respond to his father's words. Du Xisheng didn't dare to rebel against his mother for her, Du Xisheng's promise couldn't be trusted, and Du Xisheng didn't carry a sedan chair to marry her......

Later, she and Du Xisheng finally divorced, and when she thought of her father looking at her with that disdainful look, and then said lightly, "Look, I'm not wrong", she was a spirit.

If you have been pressed in your heart for many years, you are sorry and complaining, you didn't dare to say it before, but then you didn't have the face to say it, until now you can't stop saying it, when you spit it out in one breath, Xia Ran found that she was so calm that her breath didn't even change.

The room was silent for a while, only the sound of electricity emitted by the instrument, and his father lay on the bed with his eyes closed, and after a while, he slowly opened his eyelids and said, "I didn't expect that you remembered the words I used to say casually for so long." ”

Xia Ran lowered her head and flicked her fingers, staring straight at the snow-white bed with a pair of eyes, her eyes were dazzled, and her temples jumped suddenly. She said, "Yes, but everything you said has been fulfilled." I thought more than once later, if I had more self-esteem and self-love at that time, or if you broke my leg and didn't go out, maybe there wouldn't be so much to do. ”

A hand with a needle suddenly stretched out in front of him, Xia Ran was very stunned, and then walked a few steps closer to his bed, to hold the calloused hand, and he trembled and held her tightly.

Father Xia said: "You are my daughter, I am your father, no matter how I scold you, I hope you are good, what father will really want to curse his daughter." If you suffer, I will only feel sorry for you, how can I pour salt into your wounds, let alone say those gloating words. I'd rather not realize all the nonsense I said before, and you live a good life to slap me in the face, rather than watch you endure so hard alone. ”

Xia Ran flattened her mouth, her nose was swollen, she was ashamed and ashamed, and she couldn't wait to find a place to hide. As soon as she opened her mouth, she rolled down tears spinelessly, she said: "Dad, I divorced Du Xisheng, it was a long time ago, and I haven't told you." ”

Father Xia said: "Leave after not together, what age is this, divorce is not a death sentence, what dare not let others know." My own daughter I know best, it's the Du family's kid who is not worthy of you, he doesn't cherish you, naturally there will be other people who want to cherish you, why should you punish yourself for other people's mistakes. ”

It was like a child who had been lost for many years suddenly found the direction of her home and ran away, the parents waiting at the door did not blame her for being so stupid that she forgot to go home, but just opened her hands and took her into her arms.

But in an instant, Xia Ran felt that the big stone that had been stuck in his chest for many years and had not been able to come out and put it down had finally loosened at this time. 166 Reading Network