Song Yaxian stood at the door of the company, watching Shen Yi'an's car get closer to her little by little, from far to near, from a point to a real thing in front of her. She looked at Shen Yi'an, who was sitting in the driver's seat unclear, her hands clenched slightly, this was the third day, she took the initiative to contact him. She knew that she should have thought too much, and he seemed to be like this before, but she still couldn't help but wonder, as long as she didn't contact him, he wouldn't contact herself? When did this begin? If he was afraid that Su Meilin would find out when he got along with Su Meilin, then what is it now?

Those uneasiness turned into countless threads, wrapped around themselves, and the more they were wrapped, the harder they worked, and they couldn't imagine what the final result would be. She walked over, sat in the passenger seat, and offered to fasten her seat belt, "Have you been busy lately?" ”

"Why do you ask?" Shen Yi'an glanced at her lightly.

She laughed a little, in a joking tone, "Because I won't call you, you won't contact me!" ”

Shen Yi'an seemed to wrinkle his brows, "Really?" Where to eat? ”

Her heart cooled a little, every time he felt guilty, he would invite himself to a big meal or let himself go shopping, and he stayed alone for a long time, so he even knew his habits, "My family, I will cook a big meal for you with my own hands." ”

"Hmm."

A monophonic word, no superfluous words. She wanted to know how he and Su Meilin got along when they were together, and she searched for the press releases she had seen, he accompanied Su Meilin to a certain resort, and he accompanied Su Meilin to the beach to blow the wind

Shen Yi'an sat on the sofa and flicked the remote control boringly, and his face couldn't see any emotion. Song Yaxian was constantly busy in the kitchen, she was vigorously cutting vegetables, the sound of the range hood covered up her venting voice, and the oil splashed on her hands when stir-frying, she endured the pain and continued to stir-fry. She had been with Shen Yi'an for too long, and she understood very well that his current state was very abnormal, and she was too sensitive, just like she wasn't really so ignorant that she didn't know about the matter between him and the female anchor, but he didn't care about it at the time, so she knew that the woman didn't have any influence, and she just needed to be by Shen Yi'an's side, and this time, Shen Yi'an's appearance made her very uneasy.

When the meal was ready, she put it all on the table and took out two bottles of red wine.

Shen Yi'an picked up the chopsticks and held the dishes she made, "Yes, the craftsmanship is getting better and better." ”

"When you meet someone as picky as you, can you take your stomach off if you don't have good craftsmanship?"

Shen Yi'an chuckled lightly and continued to eat, but Song Yaxian felt something, "Yi'an, do you remember the first time we met, you were wearing exquisite clothes, and I was full of wolves."

She spoke very slowly, talking about the first time they met, about her despair at the time, about her gratitude to him and the bits and pieces of their relationship, that scene seemed to be yesterday, but in a flash, a few years had passed.

Shen Yi'an remembered that the people who were with him at the time said something - this unlucky child. is talking about Song Yaxian, because Song Yaxian was deliberately assassinated in the first college entrance examination, and finally repeated but because of her mother's illness, she delayed the exam and gave up going to college, she didn't even have a diploma, and she had to work hard to make money for her mother's treatment.

"What's wrong with you today?" Shen Yi'an also seemed to notice that she was unusual today.

"No, I'm just lamenting how fast time flies."

After eating, Song Yaxian cleaned up the dining table and kitchen, while Shen Yi'an took a bath in the bathroom. She cleaned it up, heard the sound of water in the bathroom, and sat on the sofa in a bit of confusion, she had always thought that as long as Shen Yi'an was by her side, what was the reason for the panic now? She wanted to stop herself from doing this, but she couldn't, and when she saw him take off his coat on the sofa, his heart pounded violently

She didn't smell the perfume on him, and she didn't hear the rumors of him and others in private, which made her even more uneasy. Picking up his coat, he pulled out a wallet in his left bag, which contained a small amount of cash and countless black cards, and there were no photographs or anything like that, the same as before. In the bag on the right, it was obvious that there was a mobile phone, and she took it out and brought out a few pieces of paper. Putting the phone down, she pulled the paper away

The blood in her whole body coagulated at this moment, making her almost unable to breathe, just the three words "Su Meilin" had already made her heart ache, and the words "abortion" made her tears slide down like this. How could she be so stupid to think that he and Su Meilin had nothing, how could she think that their relationship was innocent, and whether his abnormalities these days were all because of these lists, because Su Meilin beat the child, so he became incomprehensible, and ignored himself again and again.

If it had been before, she would have put these things back in their place, and then pretended that she didn't know anything, and wept silently after he left, but now she couldn't pretend that she was okay

Shen Yi'an walked out of the bathroom, he looked at the lonely figure, "What are you doing?" ”

He walked over and saw her tearful face, and she still had the slip in her hand, and she held up a slip, but her voice was low, "You're out of shape because of this?" ”

Shen Yi'an didn't know how to face her eyes, and even he didn't know why he cared so much about this lost child, like some kind of deep imprint, always reminding him that he had killed his own child with his own hands. How could he not know that this was Su Meilin's purpose, to make him subconsciously think that he had killed his own child, to make him feel painful, and to let Su Meilin breathe a sigh of relief. He knew the purpose, but he still didn't push the Su family to a desperate situation as planned, keeping this list, and it seemed that only this was the only evidence that the child had come to this world.

He didn't refute, how could he not refute? If he smiled indifferently and said that this thing was just casually put in his bag, and he didn't take it seriously at all, she would definitely believe him, even if she lied to herself.

Her hand hung down, "You touched her?" How can you touch her? Didn't you say you had nothing but use her? I believe you so much, how can you lie to me"

She leaned weakly on the sofa, the thick despair on her face was like a thick fog that could not be dispersed, "I was really happy when I was a child, although my father would not always be by my side, but every time he came to see me, he would buy me a lot of gifts, I could feel his love for me, and that was also when my mother was the happiest." Later, my father looked at me less and less, and my mother stopped laughing, and I saw them arguing, and my father scolded my mother, and my mother cried sadly. Later, when I grew up, I realized that I and my mother were just unsightly deposits, and they should have been invaded in the pig cage in ancient times. When I was in junior high school, I finally saw my dad at the beginning of the school year, and he came to my school, and I was so happy that I thought he was coming to see me. I ran over, and before I could shout, I saw him gently arranging the hair of the other girl, and squatting down to tie the girl's shoes."

"I envy her, she has the fatherly love I crave, and the identity I will never get. I often see her, she is so beautiful, as soon as I enter the school, everyone knows that there is a big beautiful woman, and they line up to see her. Later, during the parent-teacher conference, I saw my father again, he was holding her hand all the time, and at that moment I completely understood that she was his precious daughter, and I was nothing. As a result, she took her father's hand and turned her head and pointed at me. When I got home that day and saw my father, I thought he was coming to see me because he saw me, but he came to ask me to change schools because he didn't want his baby daughter to see me. ”

"I transferred to another school, stayed away from her, and then met Ji Chuange, he said that I always have unspeakable sorrow in my body and wanted to protect me, so I believed it. When I was in high school, I thought I would be fine with Ji Chuange, but she transferred to another school. It turned out that she had always known about me, and even when I was in junior high school, she asked me to transfer on purpose, and she told my father that I was nervous and always paid attention to her, and she was afraid, so I had to transfer schools. She deliberately harmed my friend, and even snatched Ji Chuange I don't understand, Ji Chuange obviously knew what I had experienced, and she also knew that Su Meilin deliberately targeted me, why could she still be wholeheartedly devoted to her? I don't understand and don't understand. They say that if you do something wrong, you will be punished, so I will punish me with all of this. Lose your lover, lose your eligibility to go to university"

"Then I met you, and I really thought you were God's gift to me to save me. I'm careful with you, it's not that I'm stupid, it's that I don't want to lose you. I don't know what your feelings are for me, it seems that I can't live without you, and you can leave at any time. You have to calculate her, I have been preventing, not so kind I don't want to see her make a fool of myself, I just don't want you to contact her. I'm afraid that the people I love will eventually be snatched away by her, and my father will become her good father, not even looking at me, treating me as a stain on his life, saying that Ji Chuange, who will protect me, fell in love with her, even if she still loves her after a few years, I am afraid that you will become them"

Her tears slipped down drop by drop, as if she was desperate and seemed to see clearly, she didn't want to say how pitiful she was, but if pity could keep him, she was willing to be so pitiful all the time.

"It's impossible for me and Su Meilin to be together." Shen Yi'an finally said this firmly.

He stood in front of her, and she threw herself into his arms, "Shen Yi'an, I love you, don't leave me, I can't leave you." ”

"I know." He reached out and rubbed her hair.

Song Yaxian said that he was not normal now, Zuo Minghe also said that he was abnormal, and even he felt that he was abnormal, otherwise how could he follow Su Meilin and Ji Chuange to watch them pick out wedding dresses together, and then drive away. This shouldn't be the trajectory of his life, he shouldn't be in such a situation, he picked up that list and tore it up little by little

Song Yaxian looked at him with teary eyes, and the deep despair in her heart finally dispersed at a slow speed. When she met him, she fell in love with the famous novel, the male protagonist is handsome and handsome, and his family background is excellent in all aspects, while the heroine is just an ordinary girl, and the heroine has been silently staying by the hero's side, and finally won the recognition of the male protagonist, at that time she thought that she could also be that heroine.

Later, Song Yaxian realized that the story of Cinderella is no longer popular in this world, and it is more popular to be a door-to-door match, so that those delusional girls should not daydream as soon as possible.