Zhou Jiyou took Shen Feibai to Zhou Qiyang's chain restaurant.

As the plaintiff before, Shen Feibai accompanied him, and she briefly introduced them to him. The two nodded to each other, and in a brief conversation, it was mainly Shen Feibai who expressed his gratitude. Zhou Qiyang's smile was plain but not rude, with an inquiring look in his eyes.

She didn't bring him to see him again, she just came over for dinner, and his food was always good.

Shen Feibai couldn't eat seafood, fish and shrimp couldn't be ordered, and the two of them couldn't eat too much at night, so she quickly scanned the menu and reported one meat and two vegetables to the waiter waiting on the side, plus an after-dinner dessert.

Zhou Jiyou didn't have much appetite, so he put down his chopsticks in less than a quarter of an hour after eating, supported his arm, tilted his head slightly, and stared at him.

When night falls, the lights in the restaurant are full of lights, and it is always good to look at others in a darker place, not to mention, he is indeed an eye-catching type.

Life is the most jokeful, and she hasn't seen enough of him.

Shen Feibai ate the dishes in silence, and above the corner of her eyes, her faint gaze did not leave for a moment.

When he was on hold, he would raise his eyes to look at her, even if he didn't say a word, there would be a question in his eyes: Why don't you eat? Have something to say to me?

But now, don't look, don't ask, or rather, don't dare to look, don't dare to ask.

He deliberately avoided it.

She kept looking at him, he kept eating, there was no taste in his mouth at all, everything he ate tasted like chewing wax, but he just tried to make a very fragrant and serious appearance, not looking at her, never looking at her, afraid that after passing a look, she would suddenly open her mouth.

However, it doesn't necessarily take a look or a question to start a conversation, she wants to say, anytime.

So, his heart hung in the air, and his nerves stretched in a straight line.

From that day on, when they were alone together, he was always in this state, cautious, walking on thin ice.

"Shen Feibai."

Unable to hear a soft call, he held the chopsticks in his hand, his slender fingertips tightened, he didn't raise his head, and said in a low voice: "Hmm." ”

Zhou Jiyou smiled long: "Are you very hungry, or is the food here particularly to your liking?" ”

He paused, a little relieved, his dark eyes were slightly raised, the corners of his lips were hooked, and he responded: "It tastes really good." ”

Zhou Jiyou looked at his calm and calm expression, and felt that he might as well not laugh, so strong, not tired.

Her heart was sore, he lowered his eyes and continued to eat, she pursed her lips, was silent for a moment, and said in a relaxed and pleasant tone: "Then you can recommend it to your colleagues and advertise for my brother." ”

"You don't know." He put a piece of beef brisket in the bowl, changed his expression and raised his eyes, "I often have colleagues recommend it to me." ”

A pair of dark and bright eyes, clear and warm, were the final impression he gradually accumulated in her heart.

Zhou Jiyou suddenly seemed to be pointed out by a master outside the world, and his whole body froze.

If you could do it all over again, if you could go back to the early summer of two years ago......

[Give me a chance.] 】

[I don't want to wait any longer. 】

[When can you need me?] 】

I'll give you a chance.

I won't let you wait.

I need you anytime, anywhere.

Love was on the verge of getting out of control for a moment, she blinked quickly, lowered her eyelids, and smiled: "Yes." ”

After checking out, the time is still sufficient, beckoning to take a taxi on the side of the road, the driver asked where to go, Zhou Jiyou didn't think about it, and said directly: "Go to the CCTV Tower." ”

Shen Feibai looked at her sideways, she pursed her lips and smiled: "I want to see Beijing." ”

In the back seat of the dim carriage, her fair face was blurred, and her smile looked ordinary and unusual, but Shen Feibai suddenly had a bad premonition.

He turned his head slowly and looked out the window.

The neon flickered, the light and shadow floated on the car window, he pursed his lips, his silent eyes dimmed, and the cold wind raged in his empty chest.

He couldn't say anything, some pictures, some words, were as cruel as fate to be placed in front of him, and he could no longer turn a blind eye or hear it.

His shadow loomed in the window, and he stared at himself inside.

Red light, car stops.

In the quiet carriage, he breathed slowly.

Escape again, since it has been foreseen that the CCTV Tower will not be able to go, it will be evaded again......

His heart pounded, and he tilted his head, looking between the driver's seat and into the driver's eyes in the interior mirror.

"Master, don't go to the CCTV Tower, go to the Lido Garden."

"No, the destination remains the same." Zhou Jiyou's attitude was tough for a moment.

The driver took a Baoding sip, and the eyes in the car mirror glanced at the oblique upper corner: "You didn't discuss it?" Hurry up and discuss, the green light should come on in a moment. ”

Zhou Jiyou didn't move his neck, and simply said neatly: "Go to the CCTV Tower, master, listen to me." ”

Shen Feibai didn't argue for half a word, he leaned on the back of the chair a little weakly, and his heart seemed to be floating in the cold sea.

Her words and deeds speak for themselves. The dinner before was nothing but the calm before the storm.

He closed his eyes, his neck tilted back, his chest dull and buzzing; As soon as he spoke, there seemed to be grit grinding in his throat: "Where you start, you will end." ”

The driver twitched his eyebrows and silently glanced in the rearview mirror of the car.

Zhou Jiyou shrank his cheeks lightly and bit inside.

It was so dark in the car that if it weren't for the light and shadow flowing on the side of the road reflected in the small part of his face through the window, he would be like a sculpture in the seat, motionless and soulless.

"No......" she said, looking away, hearing her own voice, "haven't you heard the word 'to be continued'?" ”

In the 225-meter TV hall of the CCTV Tower, there is a studio for broadcasting news, a white anchor station, a CCTV logo printed in front, and five big characters written in the lower row: CCTV.

Backdrops, cameras, ...... The scene is well laid out.

After paying, you can take pictures, Zhou Jiyou pulled Shen Feibai over, and the staff was stunned for a moment, staring at Shen Feibai again and again.

The two lived on the left and right sides of the anchor desk and took a group photo.

The first shot was not satisfied, Zhou Jiyou's fist landed on his chest, "Didn't you make you laugh." ”

Shen Fei looked at her expressionlessly.

She looked away and paid for another one.

Pulling him back, she reached over to touch him with her feet under the cover of the anchor station.

Shen Feibai sensed under his feet, he tried to pull the corners of his mouth, it was too stiff, he didn't need to look at it to know that it must be ugly. The moment the shutter was pressed, he still couldn't laugh.

Zhou Jiyou got the photo, looked down, and didn't say anything.

Speechless all the way, when she arrived at the observation deck, she stood behind the iron fence and overlooked the lights of thousands of homes.

She tried to find the location of the Lido Garden, the dense forest of houses and the river of sporadic lights that she could not see.

Beijing......

I still remember him saying: "Wait for the opportunity to have a home. 】

She didn't speak, and Shen Feibai was even more silent than her. He was like a pine tree whose roots had rotted strictly, and his waist was still straight.

"Does it have to be like this......" Zhou Jiyou caught his mournful voice in the whirring wind.

The wind blew her hair and caressed her hot eyes, she took a deep breath and raised the corners of her mouth: "Shen Feibai." ”

Shen Fei tilted his head, and at night, he saw her with red eyes and a soft smile, like the moon on the horizon.

"Give me a real home in five years, okay?"

Five years later......

He stared at her without blinking for a moment: "I can give it now." ”

"Nope." Zhou Jiyou shook his head lightly, "You know that the current life is not what I want. ”

Yes, but he doesn't understand. His heart sank at an irretrievable rate: "Why five years? ”

Zhou Jiyou couldn't give him an answer, she kept smiling and asked jokingly: "Then how long do you want me to wait, ten years?" ”

For a moment, Shen Feibai only felt that it was difficult to breathe, and he still said the same thing: "Give me a little more time, and I will solve it." ”

Zhou Jiyou said: "I gave it, five years." ”

The air was stagnant, and even though there were other tourists around, there was only a dead silence between the two.

Shen Fei's white eyelids were lowered, and his chest rose and fell. He took the lead and turned around, "It's not too early, let's go back." ”

Every time she left in a bad mood, he held her wrist and held it; And this time, the roles were reversed, and she grabbed him, and the bulging ulnar styloid at his wrist bone poked at the tiger's mouth in her palm.

"I'm ......" Zhou Jiyou's throat was choked, "I'm leaving tomorrow." ”

She felt the muscles in his arm tense as if she were clenching her fist.

He turned his head, his eyes darkened: "...... Where to go? ”

Someone was watching them.

Zhou Jiyou let go of him weakly, lowered his eyes, and suddenly didn't dare to look at him.

"I received an offer from Columbia...... Go for a PhD. ”

Time was so hard that he didn't say a word, but his gaze over her head gathered a thousand words.

She gritted her teeth and looked up: "We are temporarily separated for five years, I believe you can solve it, you will wait for me, right?" ”

"How long has it been preparing?" He didn't answer the question, and his voice was low and inexplicable.

She opened her mouth slightly, unable to answer.

Applying to study abroad requires long-term preparation, and he must have misunderstood that she had been planning for a long time. But she couldn't tell the truth, there was no better reason than to study abroad.

She didn't say anything for a long time, and then his second question came immediately: "Temporary separation means that you won't come back for five years?" ”

His voice was hoarse, very soft, almost inaudible in the non-stop whistling wind of the open-air observation deck.

Zhou Jiyou looked up at him slightly, and his heart hurt beyond measure; Glancing away, holding back tears, the head nodded: "Hmm." ”

Who the hell is torturing whom?

The anger and sorrow in her heart rolled and rushed fiercely at this moment.

She rushed to the cast bronze horn called "Roar" and shouted, "I want a good ending!" ”

She used all her strength, and the roar was transmitted through the trumpet, floating in the air.

On the screen on the side, an astonishing decibel value is displayed in real time.

It is a huge trumpet that expresses a wish, the color of gold, and the length of a cannon barrel.

For a long time, the wishes of countless people have been absorbed into its body, resounding in the sky.

Whoever can achieve it will fail ......

Who will sue her and whether they can have a good ending......

Through the other displays, and through the tourists attracted by the sound, Shen Feibai's eyes were bloodshot.

On the way back, the air pressure was sluggish, and the driver had a chill on the back of his neck, staring in the rearview mirror from time to time.

One after the other, go to the elevator, reach the floor, and go home.

The moment I opened the door and entered the house, the lights came on, and the qiē in front of me was both familiar and unfamiliar.

"I still don't understand...... Zhou Jiyou walked to the front and suddenly heard a low murmur behind him.

She turned around and looked into Shen Fei's white and dark eyes.

"Why do you have to separate ......?"

"Why don't you come back......"

He couldn't accept it, just like he couldn't accept letting her come to Beijing alone, and at this moment, this feeling is even stronger than then.

The mood of the two parties has long been different, at that time they were unwilling, and now they are not allowed and disagreed.

"You should—" Zhou Jiyou struggled to phrase, "just when I learn from them, I will also force you to make a choice." ”

After a pause, she asked, "You'll make a trade-off for me as soon as possible, right?" ”

"No...... right"

He thought all the way and endured all the way, not knowing how to keep her. He asked what he wanted to ask, but what he wanted to hear was never such an answer.

"If you don't force me to make a choice, I will make a choice for you, it's not a contradiction."

"Shen Feibai, why don't you understand......" Zhou Jiyou's mouth opened slightly, inhaled it in one breath, blocked it in his chest and lungs, and slowly spit it out for a few seconds, "I'm tired, you should do it and let me out to breathe." ”

He approached her.

"Five years, will you wait for me?"

"Yes." She's determined.

Come to her and stand still. Dark eyes locked on her, "I won't." ”

Zhou Jiyou said: "You will too." "Equally determined.

Shen Feibai smiled, silently, sadly, and misty like a mist: "You abandoned me, why should I wait for you." ”

At this moment, he was undoubtedly very unfamiliar to Zhou Jiyou, and the cold and cold that emanated from his bones seemed to spread faintly into the air.

"No why, I know you will anyway." She held herself up, her eyes persistent.

He bent his neck and leaned closer to her: "People always change. ”

Fingernails pinched flesh, and she glared at him without blinking: "You won't." ”

The eyes were facing each other, breathing in each other's breath, and the eyes of both of them began to redden.

Shen Feibai said: "Do you know how long five years is? ”

"I know." Zhou Jiyou's voice trembled.

Shen Feibai grabbed her shoulders with both hands because of her answer.

"I know you're going to be separated."

Tears swept away, her shoulders collapsed, and she roared: "Shen Feibai-!" ”

"I'm waiting for you to give me a home, I'm waiting for you to ......"

His lips covered down, and in the gap between them, Shen Feibai was still making the last touch: "I won't wait for you." ”

"You'll ......"

The trembling tail note was swallowed into his mouth, and he kissed fiercely and hard, as if all his feelings were poured into this lingering kiss.

He leaned against her against the wall, unbuttoned her blue tee, lifted it with both hands, and untied it behind him.

When they entered the house, they didn't have time to change their shoes, so they kicked off their own and hugged each other, which was difficult to solve.

He takes off hers, and she takes off his, finished, finished.

Zhou Jiyou wore white striped shorts without a belt, and slipped down to his knees first than him.

She used both feet together, kicking and stepping, freeing the two long white legs.

At the same time, she ripped off his zipper, grabbed the waist of his pants with both hands and pulled it down, and also succeeded in attacking.

He put his hands on her buttocks and pulled them up, and her legs hung around his waist, and he carried her into the house.

The chest is tightly attached, one is hot, the other is slightly cool, like water meets fire.

She put her arms around his neck and bowed her head to kiss him.

They were like two travelers walking in the desert, the sun was like fire, the iron was smelted under their feet, the air was thin and sultry, and the trials of the harsh environment deeply stirred their hearts. In the middle of the journey, backward or forward, there is no full body and spirit to retreat.

From the living room to the bedroom, there was no lighting along the road.

Under the stimulation of darkness, all the senses are infinitely magnified.

Shen Feibai supported her, knelt on one knee at the end of the bed, leaned forward, put her down, and then slowly pressed on top of her.

In the dark night, the smooth and soft skin is white and shiny.

Kissing, rubbing, feeling each other's affection. Move.

One time was not enough, and the second time, Zhou Jiyou softened into a puddle of mud, and at first he took the initiative to cooperate, and then he was completely manipulated.

Sticky and sweaty, the heat came and went, and she lay on the head of the bed, gasping tiredly, remembering in a trance that they hadn't taken safety measures.

He hugged her from behind, his sweaty face buried in her equally sweaty neck socket, and the touch of ** covered the two lines of hot tears that flowed down from him.

She won't know, never will.

The next day, Shen Feibai went to work as usual. The last communication between them stayed in the moment before the kiss.

[I won't wait for you. 】

[You will. 】

It's like a spell.

Unable to keep it, unable to accept it, he was not in good shape all morning.

Swapped the broadcast time with his colleagues, and after the meeting, he picked up a handful of cold water in the bathroom and threw it on his face. After standing still for a long time, he finally took out his mobile phone and sent a text message.

What time is the flight? 】

The reply was very fast, and it was sent in less than a minute: [At four o'clock in the afternoon, are you coming to see me]

He hung his head heavily and closed his eyes. He couldn't just see her go.

Zhou Jiyou was packing her luggage, she looked at the mobile phone thrown on the bed again and again, there was no movement, he didn't reply to text messages, and he didn't call.

She was in a distraught mood, and she had been a little unsure of his attitude since last night.

When she chose to try it with him, she made a bet with herself and won.

Now that she chooses to separate from him, she makes another bet with herself......

Although she admits winning or losing, she knows that she can't afford to lose.

When recording the new episode of "Today's Focus" in the afternoon, one of the invited commentators was TV theorist Tong Anyuan.

The last online public opinion incident changed the tide of public opinion thanks to his blog post titled "On Shen Feibai's Performative Hosting". Before recording the show, when Shen Feibai, as the anchor, and the two guests met each other and communicated with each other about the content of the program, he expressed his gratitude to Tong Anyuan by the way.

Tong Anyuan raised his eyebrows slightly, slightly surprised: "You don't know? Seeing that his expression was a little dazed, Tong Anyuan smiled and waved his hand, "I don't dare to take this credit, I didn't write the article." ”

It happened that Lei An was also present, Lei An glanced at Shen Feibai and asked, "But isn't the first launch on your blog?" ”

Tong Anyuan smiled again: "In my blog, it means that I must have written it?" ”

Everyone, including the other guest, was slightly confused, and Ryan said, "It's not you, who could it be?" ”

Tong Anyuan looked at Shen Feibai: "Zhou Jiyou, you should know each other, right?" ”

Shen Fei held his breath blankly.

Lei An raised his eyebrows in surprise, suddenly understood, and sighed in his heart.

The rest of the people are guessing what kind of character "Zhou Jiyou" is, Tong Anyuan narrated the ins and outs of the matter on the side: "Xiao Zhou is my daughter's art teacher, and my daughter's art score in the college entrance examination was among the top three, all thanks to her guidance in the three years of high school." She asked me to help with this, and of course I was obligated to do it. ”

Shen Feibai's heart suddenly fell silent.

To this day, he can still remember that overstatement.

[Transmitting social information and carrying the wishes of the people, he is the little white dove in my heart. 】

Little White Pigeon......

If you suddenly grasp one point, it is easy to think of another point, and the two points are connected into a line.

The two mugs she had bought were so cartoonish that he never thought about what they meant. What he thought was a white bird was actually a white dove; What he thought was a tender green branch was actually an olive branch.

Suddenly, different thoughts were opened, and his heart was also opened.

"I'm sorry, I'm going to the bathroom."

He got up and walked out, his phone in his hand.

At three thirty-five, the number was dialed out, and his hand trembled slightly.

"Hey." The voice is flat.

Shen Feibai: "It's me." ”

"Hmm."

"Where are you?" Knowingly, he had already heard the airport announcement.

Zhou Jiyou didn't answer, she said, "Shen Feibai." ”

He was silent, his other hand gripping the metal railing in front of the floor-to-ceiling window.

"I didn't tell anyone else, I'm leaving today." She paused, "Except for you." ”

The feeling of being about to suffocate suddenly swept over again, Shen Feibai lowered his head, and his knuckles turned white from too much force.

She wanted him to see her off, that they would have one last chance to be alone.

"I won't use this phone again when I get to New York."

She spoke to him without hesitation, and said whatever came to her mind.

"Don't come to me, don't contact me, we'll give each other five years."

"What if...... If you're tired and don't want to be in a dilemma, you don't have to sue me. Because I don't want to know. ”

He didn't say a word, and she finally asked, "Don't you have anything to say to me?" ”

His throat was bitter, and he was silent, and he said, "I'll wait for you." Breathing softly, he repeated it in a low voice, like a never-ending vow, "Xiaoyou, I will wait for you, and you must wait for me too." ”

"Well......" Zhou Jiyou sat in the waiting hall, worried about leaking the situation, she kept covering her mouth, and for a few seconds, she said with a tearful smile, "A word is a certainty." ”