It was probably on the day of the results that Xu Ziran found her mother's reaction a little strange.

First in the morning, she suddenly asked, "Today's results are out, do you want to go out?" ”

Xu Ziran was confused.

You can check the results by phone, why did she go out?

So she shook her head and said, "Forget it, it's so hot." ”

Her mother then said, "Don't you want to know about Rourou's grades. ”

Xu Ziran didn't think much about it and replied, "It's okay, she will call me." ”

Her mother didn't say anything more.

And Xu Ziran didn't turn around until the afternoon that her mother's expression and content of what she said seemed to be a little wrong.

Xu Ziran is not a sensitive person, but after all, she has been outside for a long time, and this kind of Cheng Dù's observation and perception is still there, but at this time, she only thought that her mother was curious about Qiu Yurou's achievements, after all, Qiu Yurou's previous grades were so good that they were exaggerated.

By the afternoon, things were a little weirder.

Her mother sat on the sofa with a stern face, her face was black as if a dark cloud was pressing down, Xu Ziran didn't know why, and said: "Don't be so strict, I didn't lie to you, I really did well in the exam." ”

Mother Xu only nodded.

Xu Ziran is not the first time to take the college entrance examination, she still remembers that the last time her grades were much worse than this time, and she was very anxious, her mother didn't react like this.

Could it be that because she was too relaxed, her mother was nervous for her?

――It doesn't make sense.

Xu Ziran cut a watermelon in the kitchen, and when he was cutting it, a call came from his mobile phone, which was Qiu Yurou.

Qiu Yurou didn't say anything on the phone, just asked if she was checking the results today, and asked if she would like everyone to go out for a meal together after checking the results.

Xu Ziran was about to agree at first, and then changed his mind: "Anyway, there was originally a class dinner, and something was said at that time." ”

Qiu Yurou whispered something on the other end of the phone, but Xu Ziran didn't hear it clearly, so she said, "Ah? "Yes.

Qiu Yurou raised her voice slightly and said, "But I want to see you." ”

It was evident that he had mustered up courage to say this, so as soon as the words fell, there was no sound.

Xu Ziran could almost imagine Qiu Yurou blushing on the other side of the phone, because she herself was similar.

So she coughed and said, "Well, I want to too, so let's meet in the evening - I'll go to your house?" ”

Qiu Yurou said: "Really? ”

Xu Ziran laughed: "What's really fake here." ”

But after saying this, she remembered something and said, "Why don't you come over, my mother is not in a good mood today, and I am worried that she doesn't want me to go out." ”

As soon as the words fell, someone suddenly said in her ear: "Ranran, you come out with me." ”

Xu Ziran was so frightened that his hand shook, and the fruit knife in his hand fell on the cutting board.

She patted her chest with her hands, ignoring the juice of watermelon in her hands, and her voice changed: "Mom, you scared me." ”

Her mother didn't react, glanced at the phone in her hand, and said, "How long will it take?" ”

Xu Ziran was inexplicably panicked by her mother's eyes, and hung up the phone after saying "talk back".

At this time, I don't know if it was some kind of intuition due to blood kinship, she already had some guesses in her heart.

It's really because of the things she hid, there was only one one that was worth letting her mother show such an expression after she knew about it.

Although I had been prepared for a long time, the assumptions in my heart and the mood when I actually faced this situation were completely different.

Uncontrollable, a cold sweat broke out on Xu Ziran's back, she looked up at her mother's face, but she felt that she was looking at the most terrifying person in the world.

-- This is not the first time she has felt this way.

Many years later, her mother looked at her like this, and said in a disgusted tone of hatred: "You are not normal at all if you don't get married, can you not disgust me in front of me?" ”

If even not getting married is already classified as abnormal...... So what now?

Does she really know?

Xu Ziran's thoughts turned, but her expression was calm, she knew that if she was too excited or reacted too much at this time, she would provoke her mother's feelings, this was a long-term experience after many years, so she only pretended to be calm and said: "What's the matter, what are you going out for, I'll put the watermelon first." ”

Xu Mu seemed to want to say something, but after opening her mouth for a long time, she just nodded, turned around and said, "Then you come out quickly." ”

Xu Ziran took the watermelon on the plate and found that his hands were shaking.

She swore that there was absolutely nothing wrong with her hidden Parkinson's disease, but even if she pinched the wrist of her right hand with her left hand, the result was that both hands shook together.

So she had to admit that she was feeling scared.

After many years, she felt this familiar fear again, and this fear was only because she would be questioned and spit on by her mother, and she would too—and she must not retreat.

She finally held the plate in both hands until her hands stopped shaking, and then walked to the living room, first put the plate on the coffee table, then sat down on the other sofa on the side, and smiled, "Do you want to ask something?" ”

Her hands were behind her back, pressed between the couch and her back, and then clenched into fists, her cleanly trimmed nails still digging into the flesh.

Mother Xu asked, "Were you talking to Rourou on the phone just now?" ”

Xu Ziran raised her eyes to look at her mother, her face calm: "Well, yes, what's wrong." ”

"I always thought that you and Jiaqi had a better relationship." Xu Mu said.

Xu Ziran nodded: "There is nothing better or worse, I have a good relationship with both of them." ”

Mother Xu raised her eyes: "I know, the girl's previous relationship always seems more intimate, just like me and your Aunt Chen, the relationship has been very good since I was a student." ”

"Well, yes, I know." Xu Ziran pretended to laugh easily.

However, the more she pretended to be relaxed, the heavier she felt.

She knew that her mother still had a guess.

It's as if after suddenly taking off the previous coat of whitewashed peace and revealing the naked/naked/naked truth, Xu Ziran suddenly felt that even the self who was now hypocritically reconciled was unbearable.

She suddenly had an urge to simply admit this matter here, to loudly announce her relationship with Qiu Yurou in front of this person who undoubtedly loved her but could not understand her without a doubt, and told her that this matter could never be changed.

And then what? ――As for then...... And then what happened, Xu Ziran had already experienced it once.

She might be kicked out of the house, locked in her room, cut off her relationship – she'd been through it all.

Because of the difference in concepts, this short period of peace and harmony will eventually end, which is something Xu Ziran already knew from the beginning.

She had tried to change, she had said a lot to her mother, a lot of things that now seemed out of the way because they seemed ahead of her time, but they were still too superficial and shallow for a man in his forties with a fixed idea.

Words may be enough to change a teenage girl, but for adults who already have their own worldview, it can only be said to be a child's whisper.

So, although Xu Ziran was sure that he had brought up the topic of homosexuality in front of his mother more than once, Xu's mother still said at this time: "...... A good relationship may make you delusional, but the real kind of relationship is only produced by men and women, you should know, right? ”

Xu Ziran knew that he might have to pretend to be stupid at this time, but when the words came out, he still became-

"It's not like that, love can also arise between people of the same sex."

After these words came out, Xu Ziran realized that saying this sentence at this time seemed to have admitted something, and she suspected that there would be a violent storm, but unexpectedly, her mother did not even change her face.

The other party only said coldly: "You are still young now, you may not understand it yet, but you will know later." ”

Xu Ziran didn't know whether he should breathe a sigh of relief or sigh.

Her mother's reaction was much smoother than in the previous life when she didn't want to get married, but for now, it seems that the reason is simply because she is not an adult.

Because I am still underage, all my thoughts are of course not worth mentioning.

Although the boundary between adulthood and juvenile is only one day.

Xu Ziran suddenly calmed down.

She realized that she already had more opportunities than in her previous life.

She may or may not have had more time for her mother to adjust and understand—or she may not, and she may have more time to adjust to disappointment.

So she stopped talking, just nodded indifferently.

Xu Mu breathed a sigh of relief: "I knew that you would figure it out." ”

Xu Ziran wanted to swallow his anger, but when he saw Xu's mother as a matter of course, he couldn't help but want to refute, and when he was about to speak, the doorbell rang.

Xu Ziran stood up faster than Xu's mother, and she didn't know why, she thought of Qiu Yurou at the first time.

But she soon realized that even if she drove over, Qiu Yurou would not be able to get to her house so quickly, so this was undoubtedly her thinking too much.

But she went out anyway to open the door, because if she didn't go out again, she would have to argue with her mother—it would definitely lead to some unmanageable consequences.

She walked through the courtyard and opened the door, and saw Tian Jiaqi standing impatiently at the door.

Sure enough, with such a slight and imperceptible disappointment, Xu Ziran spit in his heart how could he have that kind of idea of living in a TV series.

Tian Jiaqi was wearing a T-shirt printed with cartoon patterns, hugged her chest and said, "What's the matter, your mobile phone is broken, let Qiu Yurou call me and call me over." ”

It was as if he had drunk sweet spring water in his thirst, Xu Ziran laughed suddenly: "Yurou called you?" ”

Tian Jiaqi raised her eyebrows and showed a questioning look: "Didn't you call me over?" What are you guys up to? ”

Xu Ziran shook his head: "It's nothing, I just asked you if you want to eat some watermelon." ”

Tian Jiaqi had a ghostly expression on her face, and finally followed Xu Ziran into the door to eat melons with the mentality of not eating for nothing.

Because of Tian Jiaqi's arrival, the original calm atmosphere gradually dissipated, Xu's mother went to make dinner, and Xu Ziran and Tian Jiaqi watched TV in the living room.

Xu Ziran saw that on the mobile phone that he didn't pay attention to just now, there were two text messages from Qiu Yurou-

:What's wrong? Was it Aunt Xu just now?

: I'm not here at night, you can call me.

Xu Ziran looked at the phone screen, and his eyes couldn't help but become gentle.

If there is someone who is smart and empathetic enough to be like this, is he really worthy of her?

While such an idea flashed by, Xu Ziran edited the text message and sent-

: A qiē will be fine.

As soon as the text message showed that it was successfully sent, Tian Jiaqi patted her on the shoulder and said, "Ah! You can check the results......"