32. Tears
After resting all night, Shen Yu's feelings at this time have calmed down, and she is not heartbroken and entangled after yesterday's big ups, and her face is very calm.
It's just that after a few days, I saw every grass and tree in the Lingering Garden, but the mood was completely different.
When he arrived at the study, Xu Yan was standing beside the desk with his hands in contemplation, and there was a topographic map hanging on the wall. There were a few places marked with a vermilion pen, and when she saw Shen Yan coming in, Xu Yan casually pulled the silk rope next to her, and a bamboo curtain fell, covering the topographic map.
Shen Yu only glanced at it, then hurriedly lowered her head, stepped forward and curtsied, and said in a hoarse voice: "The people girl greets His Royal Highness King Duan." β
Xu Yan looked back at her, waved his hand to tell people to retreat, and slowly paced over and said, "It's not a small courage, you dare to rush into the sea of fire to save people." β
"Mr. Zheng is my father's best friend, and I have the grace of mentorship and apprenticeship." Shen Yan smiled faintly and looked up at Xu Yan, "When His Highness came back from looking for him before, did he go crazy?" β
"There's a little bit of a sign of it." Xu Yan bowed down to Shen Yan and asked, "Are you blaming me?" β
"The women don't dare."
Xu Yan looked at her angry and low-eyebrow appearance, whether it was a blame or not, he knew at a glance. He leaned back, leaned on the big sandalwood case, took the teacup and sipped it casually, and looked at Shen Yu, "You have a gloomy color on your face and resentment in your eyes." β
Shen Yu did not deny it. It's not that there are no complaints, it's just that they don't dare.
But what's the use of resentment, the sage has a cloud, "life and death change, father and son can't help", His Royal Highness Duanwang is not related to her, and has nothing to do with Zheng Xun, and has no obligation to rescue Zheng Xun.
The only thing Shen Yu could do was that he promised to take care of him, but in the end he failed to save Zheng Xun's life.
She hadn't reached the point where her heart was like water and her joy and anger were completely restrained, so she peeked at Xu Yan and said in a low voice: "I just think that His Royal Highness is obviously capable of taking care of Mr. Zheng, but Mr. Zheng was finally persecuted to death by Xue Wanrong." β
Xu Yan looked at her silently, a little annoyed, brushed his sleeves and wanted to turn around, but he couldn't help it, thinking that he, a twenty-year-old man, suddenly got angry with a little girl?
After a while, Xu Yan said coldly: "It's Zheng Xun who is extreme, and he is in a hurry to seek death if he can't wait for the result, can I still stop him all the time?" Besides, Xue Wanrong is something, Zheng Xun was not forced to death by him. After a pause, he added: "After all, my manpower is limited, and I was transferred to another place at the time of the incident, and it was also my negligence that I failed to rescue Zheng Xun." β
It was rare for him to explain so patiently, so Shen Yu nodded. Butβ
It wasn't Xue Wanrong who killed Zheng Xun, who else could it be?
Xu Yan ignored her question, and said instead, "Is your throat still uncomfortable?" The tone was much softer.
Shen Yan didn't come today to question, but to ask him, both for Zheng Xun and for his brother, so he didn't dare to be angry and make Xu Yan angry, so he lowered his head and hummed aggrievedly when he heard the words.
"My voice is almost hoarse, and I am in a hurry to ask for an explanation." Xu Yan snorted coldly and beckoned, "Come here." β
Shen Yu stood still, glanced at him, and asked in a low voice, "Xue Wanrong, does His Highness really care?" β
"The matter went to the capital last night." Xu Yan looked at him angrily, "A little girl's family, aren't you tired of caring so much?" β
"It's Xue Wanrong, it's so hateful! The battle is pressing, and human life is sloppy! Shen Yan bit her lip, Mr. Zheng will come to this point today, Xue Wanrong has not made a lot of contributions! However, Xu Yan said that Zheng Xun was not forced to death by Xue Wanrong, so who else could it be?
A shadow suddenly appeared in her heart, and she asked with some uncertainty: "What Your Highness just said, is it Lord Qin who really persecuted Old Mr. Zheng?" β
Xu Yan didn't answer, but said, "Did Zheng Xun say anything before he died?" β
Speaking of this stubble, Shen Yu didn't dare to lose her temper, and described Zheng Xun's state at that time, and said, "Does Your Highness know what this Xuan Sutra is?" Although Shen Yu said that she loved to collect books, she mostly followed Shen Ping into contact with Confucian books, and her knowledge of Taoist classics was limited.
After waiting for a long time and not seeing Xu Yan answer, Shen Yan looked up in surprise and saw Xu Yan staring out the window, not knowing what he was thinking.
She asked again in a low voice, "Does Your Highness know what the Xuan Sutra is?" β
"It's a book about the cycle of life and death." Xu Yan said, "It is said that hundreds of years ago, someone built a nine-story platform, and made a yin and yang fish on the top of the platform, to understand the mystery of reincarnation and life and death, and to find the love of his life. β
Shen Yan was stunned, and then heard Xu Yan muttering in a very low voice: "He is painstakingly lonely and obsessed with Taoism, and he doesn't have such thoughts. Sighing, he turned to Shen Yu and said, "I will explain Zheng Xun's matter to you, there are intricacies behind this, and it is not for you to interfere." Shen Fei, obediently go to the academy to see the book collection, and I will arrange the rest. β
"Oh...... Thank you, Your Highness. Shen Yan lowered her head, vaguely understanding what Xu Yan meant.
The emperor was obsessed with Taoism, and something like the Tongxuan Sutra was probably exactly what he wanted.
But if the Son of Heaven is obsessed with something, he may be able to complete it with the strength of the whole country, so it is normal for the prince and the king of Wei to try their best to obtain this book to compete for favor. Although I don't understand why a military and political official like Qin Xiong is involved, since Xu Yan said that she was not allowed to get involved, Shen Yu still has self-knowledge and decides not to trouble him.
She took a deep breath and raised another question in a hoarse voice, "Your Highness, there is one more thing I would like to ask you. β
"Say it."
Shen Yan raised her head and stared at Xu Yan's face, not wanting to miss half of his expression, took a deep breath, and asked bluntly, "Does Your Highness know a person named Shen Ming?" β
There was a crack in Xu Yan's expression, which was fleeting.
Shen Yu keenly caught those slight fluctuations, and her heart trembled instantly, as if she had captured the light of lightning in the sky in the stratus clouds on a thunderstorm night-
He knows, he must know! He knows his brother's whereabouts!
However, Xu Yan's words disappointed Shen Yan, he smiled and said casually: "Who is Shen Ming?" Listen to this name, it should be your own family. β
"He is my elder brother, and eight years ago, our family went to Beijing to pay homage to his birthday, but on the way back, he encountered a landslide and was separated." Shen Yan resisted the urge to directly pierce the mask, her hoarse voice trembled slightly, and said: "I was taken care of by His Royal Highness before, and I saw a person when I lived in the Lingering Garden, and his body and face were similar to my brother's, so ...... Somewhat curious. β
Xu Yan was still unfazed, "There are hundreds of people in the garden, but there is no one named Shen Ming." Where did you see him, why don't I call them all and identify them for you? β
Shen Yan looked at him blankly for a long time, the more calm Xu Yan's face was, the more impeccable, and the more careless, the lower her heart became, and it took a long time to barely pull out a smile, and said, "Maybe I saw it wrong......"
"There are many people with similar faces, and it is common to see them wrong." Xu Yan's voice suddenly stopped.
How sharp her eyes were, at first I thought Shen Yan was asking casually, but when she saw her stiff smile like this, she felt that Shen Yan was not quite right, and looked at her with some inquiry.
Shen Yu laughed dryly, but the smile on her face was still stiff, and even her voice was dry, "I came here rashly today to disturb Your Highness, the people's daughter said goodbye, Xue Wanrong's matter, I beg Your Highness not to break your promise." She stiffened her spine and stepped back, and there was a hint of self-deprecation on her face, as if she regretted what she had just said, and curtled her knees and added: "The people are very concerned, but they are arrogant and demanding, and I hope that His Royal Highness will forgive her sins." β
Her sudden alienation and indifferent attitude made Xu Yan's heart tighten, and she reached out violently and grabbed Shen Yan's arm, "Shen Yan, what do you mean?" β
Shen Yan pursed her lips and was silent, struggling slightly, but Xu Yan's arm was like an iron hoop, and she couldn't get rid of it at all.
She only felt sour in her heart, and her heart was inexplicably filled with grievances and hesitation-
She thought that she and Xu Yan had some friendship after getting along all the way and talking deeply several times, but now she found that the two were far apart. Xu Yan's world is too vast, there are too many things in her heart, and her mind is too deep to hide, she can't actually touch it at all.
This has nothing to do with her, but it is her brother's business......
He obviously knew that it was Shen Ming and knew the answer she wanted, but he didn't hesitate to pretend to be confused, and he pretended to be so impeccable and out of the matter.
The thin gold mask dangled in front of him, and Shen Ming left in a hurry when he looked at each other in the garden, and Shen Ming did not hesitate to knock her unconscious when he unveiled the mask outside the Zheng family library.
That bright and dazzling young man used to be a more famous Wenqu star than Qin Yu in Luling City, but now he has become an unsightly shadow, hidden under a mask, wrapped in black clothes, not daring to reveal his whereabouts, not daring to recognize his relatives.
He can freely enter and leave the Lingering Garden, and he must be Xu Yan's person.
With Xu Yan's identity, how can he not carefully investigate the details when he wants to employ people?
Shen Yan glanced back at Xu Yan, the familiar handsome face once made her awe-struck and frightened, and also made her kind, feel or trustworthy, but now when she looks at it again, it seems to be separated by a ravine, an unbreakable gauze screen, blurry and real.
After all, she coveted too much and was too naΓ―ve, Shen Yan secretly warned herself.
People like Xu Yan, talking and laughing, killing, turning over their hands and calculating, what they think about is the government and the world, and the people's battlefield, where would they take an insignificant little girl like her as a friend and treat her sincerely?
Lowering her tearful eyes, Shen Yu curtsied again, wanting to turn around and leave.
Xu Yan suddenly pulled back and pulled her into his arms abruptly.
The thousands of thoughts in Shen Yan's mind froze for a moment.
His arms were so hard that he couldn't move her in front of his chest, and his palms were hot and strong, clinging to her delicate shoulders, and there was a hint of caution. It is as if she is a light foam, and if you use light force, you will leave the palm of your hand and float away, and if you use heavy force, it will be difficult to bear the strength and burst.
Shen Yan's heart was at a loss, this ...... What is it?