Lin Yue turned off the phone, and I didn't feel any surprises, maybe it was out of power, or maybe I was too busy with work and didn't want anyone to disturb me. If it weren't for Junzi reminding me, I wouldn't have made this call, and I hadn't even called Lin Yue a few times, and he usually called me.

Putting my phone aside, I said, "Maybe he's too busy." ”

Junko nodded and continued to chew potato chips with me.

Unconsciously, after another episode of the Korean drama, I looked up to look at the time, and Junzi had already yawned and said that she couldn't accompany him to the end, but Lin Yue still didn't come, and his phone was still turned off.

Eventually, I fell asleep to the sound of a very plaintive cry on the TV, unaware of it. The next morning, I woke up in the same cry again, this time the heroine was still crying in the arms of the second man, but it was different from the cry last time, it was more heartbreaking than complaining.

The actor's acting skills are very good, and looking at these tears alone is also uncomfortable. The last time I cried was to find out that I was betrayed by the man, this time I found out that the man didn't betray himself at all, but had a terminal illness, and when the heroine knew, the man had already braided, so she cried, despaired, and blamed herself.

Terminal illness, car accident, brother and sister, it is simply the three elements of Korean dramas, I pouted and said a word of dog blood and filmed it from the ground. Sleeping on the ground all night, really uncomfortable.

Look at the TV again, it's already the ending song, and the music is very good. Many people say that Korean dramas are bloody, but they also watch it while talking, such as me, what is the picture? Kill time? No, I can probably really find some resonance in those abuses, at least these three elements, I have personally experienced two.

Car accident, brother and sister.

Thinking about that terminal illness, I shook my head vigorously, so forget it.

It is true that my life is about to become a Korean drama, but I still hope that the ending can be a little more Chinese-style reunion, I would rather meet a scumbag who is like a fake than a sick man who pays for love.

It's like the male protagonist in this drama who silently braids himself at the end, I don't sympathize with it at all, and I don't like it. It's really not good.

I turned off the TV and went to Junko's room to talk to her before leaving, but she was still asleep, her belly was big, and when she slept sideways, she showed a round belly, but she took good care of it, so it looked quite interesting, I watched and watched, and then I felt a little stuffy in my heart. Xiaoxing was also pregnant at the beginning, but her belly didn't have time to get so big.

In fact, after the last incident, I remembered the situation when Xiaoxing was in a car accident, I don't know if this is considered amnesia, but I just think it's strange, a living person has an accident in front of me, and I thought she was still alive four years later.

I had nightmares that were the opposite of what I really remembered.

On the day of the car accident, that is, the day I went to Yu Tian to tell him that I was going abroad, Yu Tian's reaction was too bland, and I felt uncomfortable and walked around alone. So I ran into Xiaoxing, and I said let's talk. I wanted to have a showdown with her, Xiaoxing didn't dare to look at me a little, she probably had a weak heart.

Later, what Xiaoxing said was the same as I guessed, she always knew about my relationship with Yu Tian, but I didn't mean to hide it from her, I didn't say it, it was really because of shyness, after all, I was also my first love, and a kiss with Yu Tian was enough for me to blush for a few days.

So Xiaoxing drilled this crack, I didn't say she said, she directly told me that Yu Tian was her boyfriend.

That month, she explicitly hinted at me many times, and even let me see her and Yu Tian kissing in front of me, I didn't believe it, and finally Xiaoxing showed me the hospital report that she was pregnant.

I can't believe it, can she make a child herself?

After talking to Xiaoxing, I ran away alone, it was raining heavily, the road was slippery, probably the line of sight in the car was not good, the place we were in was also a very narrow and old road, and the street lights were dim and dim and had no effect. I ran a few steps and fell to the ground, Xiaoxing was still chasing after me, she was probably afraid that something would happen to me.

It turned out that something really happened, a small car drove in front of me, and at that moment, it was estimated that Xiaoxing was the same as I thought, and I was about to be hit and killed, so she ran over and wanted to pull me. In fact, Xiaoxing didn't pull me either, and even if he did, it was too late to pull me up. When Xiaoxing ran over, the car on the opposite side probably saw me, but I didn't expect that a person would suddenly rush out of the road, and the car turned and crashed into Xiaoxing.

Really, I didn't think it was fatal at that moment, at least it wasn't like it was on TV and flew out a few meters, Xiaoxing was lying on the ground, still talking, she held my hand and said sorry.

I also panicked, the people in the car also panicked, I was stunned for a long time before I remembered to knock on the car window, at that time, of course, it was not to find trouble with the person who was driving, but to find a way to send Xiaoxing to the hospital, such a heavy rain, Xiaoxing and I ran outside for so long, the mobile phone had already entered the water, it was impossible to call 120, and there was no other person on the street.

The car ran away.

Later, Xiaoxing was sent to the hospital, lost too much blood and was not rescued, she was indeed pregnant, nineteen years old, one corpse and two lives.

I hugged her and cried for a long time, and I said that I would forgive her and bless her when she woke up, but it was useless, and it rubbed my blood. Later, Xiaoxing's family came, and her mother slapped me, and I didn't stand firmly, and I fainted when I hit my head on the corner of the table.

Si Datong returned to China the day after the accident and found me a psychiatrist. I don't know if it's because of the knock on the head, and I can't say anything when the police come to ask me, I really don't remember.

Actually, it's not that I don't remember, but the images in my head, all of which are that I pushed Xiaoxing into the car, and I don't know why I think so, but I'm scared, so I pretend I don't remember and don't dare to say anything.

I still remember that when I was suffering from depression, I was filled with a handful of medicine into my mouth, if it wasn't for the pain, I guess I would cut my pulse and jump off the building. It's a shame to say that a failed love affair really made me loveless.

The psychiatrist's suggestion at that time was to let me change the environment, and Si Datong also thought so, although he had been abroad for a few years, he still had some connections in China, so I went abroad, and in order to facilitate treatment, I also brought the psychologist with me.

When I first arrived in Japan, I committed suicide again, at that time I had forgotten about the car accident, maybe because I took the initiative to escape, I didn't want to live at that time or because of Yu Tian, I really missed him, especially wanted to, called him every day, but he hung up directly, he didn't answer once, I thought he didn't know it was me, so I sent him a message, and after a few days, that number was down. Junko and Google also said that they couldn't contact him, and I was wondering, did he really just want to see me? I thought about it too much, so I went to drink, and when I got drunk, I ran to the Tama River near the apartment and jumped into the river. Luckily, there are often joggers on the side of the Tama River, and as soon as I jumped down, someone caught me up.

After that time, my depression got better. You may really feel that you have died and lived again, which is something to be cherished. Under the care of the psychiatrist and Si Datong, I lived a very healthy life, and slowly the things that I was not allowed to do before were also allowed, I was able to surf the Internet, and I went to read a lot of people's blogs on the first day of being able to surf the Internet, and I did not update it for the rest of the day.

Xiaoxing's update, I really don't remember what it is. I only remember that I said to Si Datong at that time, "Dad, I had a nightmare, and I thought something had happened to her." She's fine. ”

Regarding my misunderstanding that Xiaoxing is still alive, maybe they were afraid of irritating me, so they didn't tell the truth according to my thoughts. And although I had nightmares for four years, I didn't tell my mother and Si Datong except to tell the psychiatrist.

Until now, I don't understand whether I pretended to be a bad brain, or if I made up such a dream for myself, just because I don't want to admit the fact that Xiaoxing had an accident to save me.

At that time, we were really young, so we did so many wrong things, but those mistakes really didn't need to be paid for with our lives. Now I really don't blame Xiaoxing at all, and I even feel sorry and sad, she used to be my best friend. But she is gone, and her child is gone, it is Xiaoxing and Yu Tian's child.