Mao Jue originally thought that a person like him would go to hell after death, but he didn't expect that he would open his eyes again and have a chance to do it again.

Mao Jue knew that his final choice would definitely make Su Yunqing sad, and he would make many people sad, but he still made such a choice.

Whether he is selfish or cowardly, he doesn't know how to face the future.

It wasn't the first time he thought about death, in fact he had thought about it a long time ago, but he knew he couldn't die.

He didn't finish what Cao Cao gave him, he couldn't live up to Cao Cao's expectations and trust in him, and after that, he couldn't live up to Su Yunqing, he hadn't finished what the main bus gave him, right?

And when he finished doing a qiē, he knew the time had come.

Maybe Su Yunqing will feel sorry for him, but Su Yunqing's subordinates are not short of resourceful people, even if he is missing, there will be many, many others who are willing to do things for her.

Mao Jue knew that this was his own selfish choice, in fact, if he could, he could choose to live, but he didn't.

He ended with death, ending all his pain and self-blame, and then left this qiē to Su Yunqing.

See, even at such times he is betraying the kindness of his lord.

So, how can a person like him deserve a chance to do it all over again?

If there really is hell, Mao Jue feels that he is willing to go and has no complaints.

He's pretty bad, isn't he?

The bright sunlight outside the house shone in through the half-open window, shining a golden pillar of light, Mao Jue stared at it for a long time, and finally got up and closed the window.

How can he continue to live?

When he first found himself back in the past, this was all Mao Jue's thoughts.

Mao Jue originally felt that if he could, no matter who it was, it would be his greatest wish to let him assist only one person.

But now, Mao Jue found that he was still the coward who could only escape with death, and he couldn't choose either Su Yunqing or Cao Cao.

Everybody treated him well, everybody treated him very well, but he also failed everybody.

How could he be qualified to stand in front of them again and live as if nothing had happened?

But apart from Cao Cao and Su Yunqing, he didn't want to choose anyone anymore.

There wouldn't be a better choice.

Mao Jue closed his eyes, he thought, it seemed to be a very good choice to go into hiding until the end of his life.

At least for him, he couldn't choose, and it didn't seem good to be alone in such a quiet place.

Whether it is Cao Cao or Su Yunqing, the matter between them does not need his involvement.

When he was young, he was full of pride, he saw the decay of this dynasty, saw the sadness of the edifice about to fall, he wanted to change with his own strength, he wanted to help the world, and he wanted to make contributions.

Now, he just wants to live this life in peace.

It's not that he didn't think about choosing death again, but Mao Jue found that after dying once, he didn't even seem to have the courage to die.

He didn't want to face that dark and silent world again.

Since he saw the light again, he wanted to keep watching, he wanted to see Su Yunqing, he wanted to see Cao Cao, he wanted to witness their one, he couldn't give up, and he was reluctant to choose death again.

So, Mao Jue feels that he has always been a coward, and he is such a person, isn't he?

Mao Jue quickly persuaded his family, moved to the mountains alone, built a simple grass hut in the mountains, planted fruits and vegetables not far away, raised a dog, a few chickens, and occasionally returned to the market to supplement some necessary items for life, and then listened to people talk about the big and small things that have happened in the world recently.

Mao Jue originally thought that he could stay so quiet until the end of his life.

But when he got Cao Cao to enter Yanzhou, but his subordinates had no money, no food, and no one else, and Yanzhou had a yellow turban rebellion, and the situation was very difficult at this time, he still couldn't hold back.

The situation Cao Cao is currently facing has already experienced in his previous life, and whether it is with Su Yunqing or with Cao Cao himself, they have finally solved the problem.

It's even done very well.

Mao Jue didn't want to care, but he went to Cao Cao at this time in the early days, and he gave Cao Cao a lot of ideas, so he couldn't help but be a little worried at this time.

Is Guo Jia's health okay? Can Xun Yu hold on alone? Will anyone else be able to help him through this?

There are so many questions in his mind.

Then when I went to the market next month, I heard that Cao Cao's life was getting more and more difficult, and he almost couldn't get by, and Mao Jue knew that he couldn't sit idly by.

He couldn't let Cao Cao not go down this path at the beginning of his own way.

Back in the grass house, Mao Jue finally picked up the pen.

Within a few days, Cao Cao received an anonymous letter from someone, which wrote a detailed strategy for his current situation, and even roughly planned for him how to take the next few steps.

Cao Cao's eyes brightened the more he looked, and finally he grabbed the person who sent the letter and asked, "Where is the person who wrote this thing?" Take me to him! ”

How do you know that the man shook his head: "I don't know, that person left early, just said that if I send this to the adult, the adult will reward me with ten taels of silver." ”

For a doorman like him, ten taels of silver is really not a few.

Cao Cao immediately asked people to take the silver to him, but then he ran all the way to Xun Yu with the silk silk.

When Mao Jue found out that Yanzhou was implementing the policy of giving Cao Cao step by step, he finally felt at ease.

Cao Cao is indeed not an ordinary person, this kind of thing that was sent to the door by a mysterious person, he dared to use it without hesitation after seeing it, and this alone surpassed many people.

Mao Jue thought about it and went back to pack his luggage, he had been staying in Yanzhou for many years, probably because the information that ordinary people could hear was limited, and he had not received news from Su Yunqing.

Considering the blockage of traffic and the difficulty of delivering news, Mao Jue did not express any surprise at this.

It's just that if the news can't get through, he can go there in person.

Although seeing that the weather is gradually getting cooler, I am afraid that it is already winter when he arrives in Bingzhou, but Mao Jue does not mind.

Perhaps for other Yanzhou people, winter in Bingzhou is a very uncomfortable place, but for Mao Jue, he has long been accustomed to the cold winter days and the heavy snow that seems to bury the heavens and the earth as long as it rains.

When Mao Jue arrived in Bingzhou, it was indeed the time when the first snow had just fallen, so he did not go to Jinyang, but stopped in the Xiangyuan area of Shangjun.

He just wanted to know some news about Su Yunqing, and he didn't have the face to go to Jinyang to see her.

But when Mao Jue lived in Xiangyuan for a few days, he found that something was wrong, there were a lot of people talking about it, but he never had the name of Su Yunqing.

Mao Jue hurriedly inquired carefully, and only then did he find out that there has never been a woman named Su Yunqing in this world, although the fierce general Lu Bu is in zài, but the state does not belong to Lu Bu, and he even heard that after the death of the assassin Shi Ding Yuan, Lu Bu once took refuge in Dong Zhuo.

- How is this possible?!

Mao Jue couldn't believe it at all, let alone accept such a thing!

Since everyone's existence is zài, why, why is there less of the person he wants to see and the person he dares to see the most?

He didn't believe in evil and went to Jinyang in person when the weather was a little better, and to Mao Jue's disappointment, there was really no news of Su Yunqing here.

But he still didn't give up, Mao Jue vaguely remembered that he had said that Su Yunqing was from Shuofang, so he hurried to Shuofang, but he still didn't get the answer he expected.

Mao Jue looked at the heavy snow outside the window in a daze, he didn't know why.

Is this the punishment for him?

He knew Yiqiē, but he would never be able to see that person, and he didn't even have a chance to say sorry to her secretly.

If that's the punishment...... Mao Jue smiled bitterly, he admitted that this was the best punishment for him.

This punishment is not applied to **, but it hurts him more than the wound of the sword.

When Mao Jue returned to Yanzhou again, it was already the end of the summer of the second year, and the coolness of autumn came out early.

He returned to the grass house where he lived, but unexpectedly found that he had been away for so long, but the grass house was the same, even the bamboo slips in his study did not fall half a grain of dust, and every qiē was as if he had just left.

Step into the kitchen and you'll even find fresh rice noodles in the rice bowl.

Could it be that during the time he was away, this grass house was unexpectedly moved in by someone else?

Mao Jue thought so, but he didn't see anyone until the evening.

Mao Jue frowned, he looked around carefully, and finally denied the speculation that there were other people staying in.

The qiē here is the same as when he left, and even the half of the volume was forgotten to be put away when he left, so Zheng Xuan's article was half spread out on the couch by the window was the same as it was at that time.

Mao Jue finally settled here, no matter who did it, at least the other party did not have any ill will towards him, and was even full of good intentions.

Mao Jue lived here for six days in a row, and it was not until the seventh day that he finally saw the person who came, and he was stunned the moment he saw the person, until the other party walked in front of him, he could not make any more movements.

Cao Cao stepped forward and bowed respectfully to Mao Jue: "Thank you, Mr. for helping me get through the difficulties, if it weren't for Mr., Cao Cao would have starved to death in Yanzhou." ”

Mao Jue didn't react until this time, he forced Cao Cao to sit down, and then asked, "How did Gong Cao find me?" ”

Cao Cao smiled: "I found you last year, but unfortunately Mr. has not been there, I have been here every day, but Mr. is probably far away, I have not been able to wait for Mr., but ten days and a half months, I always have to come again, I only hope that Mr. will come back one day, I can talk to Mr." ”

Mao Jue looked at Cao Cao and didn't speak, but Cao Cao stood up and bowed to him again.

"Cao is here to ask Mr. to come out of the mountain to help me, Mr. is talented, how can he be buried in the mountains, forests and acres?"

Mao Jue looked at Cao Cao: "Don't you even ask my name?" ”

"I just ask my husband to promise me, nothing else matters."

Mao Jue looked at Cao Cao, he knew he couldn't refuse.

I only hope that in the next life, I will have the Lord alone, from one to the end, until death.