98. Am I a little better than I used to be
"Breaking the Sky" was filmed three times in a row, even if Feng Ranran and Pei Yifei cooperated tacitly, they had to be filmed at least until summer.
This drama has not moved much since the makeup photos were released, and it was filmed in another studio, so it is difficult for fans to peek into the filming on the set, and fans on Weibo are simply lonely as snow.
It's almost the Chinese New Year - the crew finally gave everyone a slightly longer vacation.
Feng Ranran wants to go home for the New Year today, but Pei Yifei can't, the agent sued Feng Ranran, Pei Yifei has to go to the party.
The original program was for the two of them to sing love songs together at the party.
Feng Ranran hesitated for a moment—she didn't know whether she should accept the offer or not. She also knows that for celebrities, wanting to be with her family during the holidays is a luxury, but she was busy filming at home last year, and she really had too little time to spend with her family...... She actually felt quite guilty. And the situation at home, her parents are busy with business, and there is no way to come to visit the class.
Feng Ranran has been a very independent child since she was a child, she helped to come up with ideas for the family's store in high school, and her parents have always been very relieved of Feng Ranran. Because of this, Feng Ranran's parents did not object much when they later decided to become a star - they felt that Feng Ranran only needed to protect herself, and if she encountered something that could not be solved, call them again, and they would help her get her idea.
Fortunately, Feng Ranran felt that he had been doing a good job, and he did not need the help of his parents.
She hesitated to tell her agent if she could go home for the New Year, but unexpectedly, the agent actually agreed.
Feng Ranran thought about it for a while, she suddenly remembered something, and she asked the agent curiously.
"What is the situation at Pei Yifei's home...... I remember that he would never mention his family in the open media. It seems that fans on the Internet don't know very well, there are rumors of everything, but no one can be sure. ”
The agent hesitated, he was not very convenient to say.
"You can ask Yifei yourself next time to see if he is willing to sue you."
Feng Ranran silently glanced at the agent's expression, and her voice was very soft: "If you say this, then I still don't ask." ”
The agent looked at Feng Ranran's expression, and he knew that she must have misunderstood.
"It's not as miserable as you imagined, and you shouldn't sympathize with him too much...... His family background is not the kind of little cabbage that is so bitter that he can't even say it......"
Feng Ranran: "Huh? ”
The agent silently glanced at Feng Ranran: "If you ask him yourself, whatever you ask him, he will definitely sue you." ”
Feng Ranran himself didn't have this self-confidence. However, the crew took a relatively long vacation for the New Year - there can be nearly ten days before and after, yes, such a holiday can be regarded as a very long time. Feng Ranran, who bought a ticket home, invited everyone to eat skewers on the set before leaving.
This was not done by her, she ordered a takeaway from a well-known local specialty kebab shop. The whole crew gathered around the small table and ate without any image, Feng Ranran took a skewer of grilled eggplant and ate it with oil next to her mouth, Pei Yifei stood next to her, and he watched her eat with a smile.
"Aren't you going to eat?"
Pei Yifei smiled and shook his head.
"I've been working out lately."
Feng Ranran sighed, she ate her roasted eggplant slowly, raised her head and looked at the set, and actually had an indescribable feeling of nostalgia.
Every time I say goodbye to the set, my feelings are actually complicated. To this day, she still misses the small yard where she protected the base in the first place.
Although she didn't say it, Pei Yifei knew exactly what she was thinking, and his voice was gentle and soft.
"We'll be back after the New Year. This drama will be filmed for a long, long time. ”
Feng Ranran sighed silently.
"I'm sorry I can't go to the party with you......"
"I still have to spend time with my family, after all, for our industry, being able to spend time with my family is very precious."
Feng Ranran looked at the ground in front of her quietly, she didn't know what to say all of a sudden, Pei Yifei looked at her quietly.
"Ranran, do you think filming is ......" he said this, and suddenly paused, and then he continued: "Is it something that makes you feel very happy?" ”
Feng Ranran "huh" for a moment. She turned her face to look at the person next to her, and his expression seemed very serious and serious.
Feng Ranran hesitated for a moment, and then she spoke.
"At first I didn't know if I could do it myself. You told me that actors are not the same as celebrities, and I think it's the same. Actors are actually not glamorous - this is a profession that requires hard work and sweat. I watched the work of the actress who won the actress at the awards ceremony, maybe she doesn't have many fans, and no one cheers for her, but she acted really well. I think she deserves a lot of respect because she is really a good actress. Of course, all professions require hard work, and for other jobs, we may get a little more than others. ”
"If it weren't for filming, maybe I wouldn't want to be a star. At the beginning, really, I just wanted to finish filming "Whistling By", just treat it as a ticket, and I didn't think about what I wanted to be a star in the entertainment industry. I don't think this circle is a good fit for me. ”
"I'm not ready to be in this circle, I'm actually a ...... It's just a pretty ordinary person. I was very independent since I was a child, and my parents actually thought I could do anything, and they were very comfortable with me, thinking that I could do everything well – but in fact, I also had things that I couldn't do well. I am also sad, sad, and inferior, and I am also fragile and have a strong avoidance of things that I can't do. ”
"I know people who stand under the lights get as much praise as they denigrate. I sometimes actually see that under Weibo, some people say something ugly...... I silently pretended not to see it. I can't make everyone like me, and I'm destined to have people hate me, and this love will be infinitely magnified because I'm a star...... But there will be a lot of people who like me.
Feng Ranran lowered her head, her voice sounding cautious.
"It's because of other people's liking that I'm in this position. I don't want to disappoint people who like me – and now that it's already started, I'm going to try to get it right. ”
"At least the current Feng Ranran is better than the previous Feng Ranran."
Pei Yifei looked at the little girl with sparkling eyes in front of her, she smiled faintly, and her expression was still a little silly.
The way she smiled like that—it was really beautiful, and that smile could spread from her eyebrows and eyes.
"I think 'Silence' is very important to me."
Pei Yifei looked at Feng Ranran, and he heard her continue to talk below.
"The play "Cold Silence" first taught me how to be a qualified actor. Secondly, it taught me a lot of life lessons. I will be grateful for this play for the rest of my life. Last year was especially important to my life – if it weren't for Cold Silence, there were many things I might never have been able to do. ”
"I can't imagine myself a year and a half ago crawling on a pile of hot sand, I can't imagine myself jumping into muddy water, I can't imagine taking a shot so many times, I can't imagine that I can do all these things. If it was the previous Feng Ranran, she would definitely cry and go home, after all, she was a cowardly and incompetent little girl who liked to escape. ”
Feng Ranran lowered her head, her voice was soft and warm.
Under the winter sun, she was wearing a bright red down jacket and a fluffy hat, she turned around and gently hugged Pei Yifei.
"I should have gotten a little bit better than my old self, right?"
Pei Yifei could only see the top of her head, he gently hugged her, the thick clothes made her look bloated like a fat bear, he touched the fluffy ball of yarn on her hat, his voice was as warm as the sun.
Well, it's reassuring. It seems that he has been buried in the quilt that has been exposed to the sun for a long time, and he has the smell of warm sunshine.
"You're doing a great job."
Feng Ranran's voice, which was buried in his arms, seemed to have a nasal voice, and he could only see her hat, but not her expression.
But it can be imagined.
Feng Ranran's voice was very soft, very soft.
"What if...... I mean, if I slack off, you have to remind me. After all, you've already won the actor, and the road I have to work is still long......"
That's how I can stand by your side. I don't want fans to think that I climbed you high-
Because you're so good.
Pei Yifei hugged her gently, and he hummed.
"I'll watch the live broadcast of the party at home! When the time comes, I will post on Weibo to support you! ”
Feng Ranran let go of his embrace—she raised her head and looked around, but fortunately, everyone was around the table and jerking off, and she was hiding in the corner, so no one saw it.
Feng Ranran sniffled. She was very weak - she was very excited just now, and the snot flowed out - and then she threw herself into Pei Yifei's arms excitedly, and then she rubbed the snot of his scarf.
She silently looked at Pei Yifei as if she hadn't rubbed her nose on her scarf, she touched her nose weakly, and then said:
"I'll go get another skewer......"
That's how she slipped.
……
At the end of the parting, the two people actually gave each other a New Year's gift.
When Feng Ranran took it out, she was fascinated.
In fact, she wanted to make another one, but it was a little too late - what she gave Pei Yifei was a cross-stitch.
The panda pattern was secretly embroidered by herself. But the last time she made a belly pocket for the flag, the people of the whole country witnessed how unreliable Feng Ranran's embroidery was, and this time she intensified it - embroidered two villains next to the panda, which were abstract and Picasso-like.
She felt very embarrassed, but the embroidery was finished, and it was too late to rush the work, so she gave Pei Yifei this unique cross-stitch in the world - she was so ashamed that she couldn't raise her head when she sent it out.
What Pei Yifei gave her was much taller - he gave her a set of porcelain with a panda pattern, which was very exquisite and worth a lot of money at a glance. Feng Ranran looked at him, and then looked at her own works, she felt that she was even more shameless.
Pei Yifei actually likes Feng Ranran's works.
Well, after all, there's only one in the world.
It's just that it's really like — it's a little uglier.