When I hung up the phone, the matcha cake in front of me had been cut through a thousand cuts, and its languishing appearance was similar to mine.

In fact, after Yu Tian's voice came out, I nervously took the phone over and changed it back to earpiece mode.

What Yu Tian said was that he was waiting for me when he went home, and I was still in a meeting.

Family.

There was a time when I self-righteously identified with the "home" that Yu Tian and I shared, because I never answered, and he added, "I changed the password back." ”

I finally held my breath and dug a small piece of cake into my mouth.

"What? What did Yu Tian say? ”

"Nope."

I lowered my head, with our tacit understanding for many years, Junzi saw through my vacillation, she looked at me with complicated eyes, and then shook her head, "Forget it, I can't take care of your business." ”

After a moment of silence, my phone rang desperately again, and after glancing at the name on it, I frowned and pressed answer.

Lin Yue's voice seemed to be deliberately lowered, "Where?" ”

I quietly raised my head and looked at Junko's departed back, "With Junko, we're going to have dinner together in the evening." ”

"I'm going to pick you up?"

"No need." I pinched the spoon and deliberately made some tapping sound on the empty plate, "I don't know how long it will take." ”

"Okay then, be careful, call me if you have something."

"Hmm." I was about to hang up, but I remembered something again, and inadvertently said, "Thank you for yesterday's events." ”

There was only a moment of silence on the other side of the phone, and then a busy tone rang in a hurry, probably not what he wanted to hear.

Leaving the coffee shop, I wandered aimlessly down the street alone, feeling like my mind was messy.

Yes, my second and third personalities couldn't wait to start shouting again, their tongues attacking each other, one with infinite sadness, the other bitter as if they were trying to grab someone's neck.

To put it bluntly, I'm very entangled in whether to go to Yu Tian or not. However, before I could figure out a result, a pair of my feet had already taken me downstairs to his house.

I frowned, how could it be so close.

When I opened the door by pressing the code lock, my heart was full of guilt, and I seemed to be able to see Lin Yue's 10,000-year-old ice cube face in front of me, and it was still my second personality who won the victory in the end, and I walked into Yu Tian's small house again with apprehension.

No, it's still the same as the last time I came, even the kitchen, the fridge is empty, he hasn't cooked for himself for a long time.

It was still early, so I sat down on the couch after a walk around the room with a laptop on the coffee table. Yu Tian has two computers, one of which I carry with me, and the other one is kept at home for backup, and I often use this computer.

Flipping the screen, he didn't turn it off, and E stayed on a page that I was familiar with.

No, it's not familiar to me. Because every time I see it, it's just an ordinary page, and on Yutian's computer, it's a page being edited.

It's Xiaoxing's blog. Half of the edited content has already uploaded a few photos, and it is a sea of flowers in Hokkaido.

I gently closed the screen of the computer and dialed Lin Jing's phone, and he answered quickly, and there was the sound of the keyboard and mouse crackling and the background music of the game.

"Hello? Sixi, what's wrong? ”

I asked, "Aren't you in a meeting?" ”

"No, there was originally a meeting today, but Brother Tian canceled it temporarily."

"Hmm. Did he go back? ”

"yes, what's wrong?"

"It's fine. Do you know where Yu Tian went on a temporary business trip last time? ”

"Oh, it looks like Japan......"

I hung up the phone and suddenly felt sick when I saw the cushion doll we had picked out together on the couch. I threw all the cushions on the floor and the door opened.

Yu Tian walked in and looked at me with a frown, he approached step by step, as if trying his best to restrain his feelings, and asked me in a gentle tone as much as possible, "Waiting too long to get angry?" ”

As Yu Tian spoke, he naturally took one of my hands and pulled him to his side.

I smiled and shook my head gently as he looked at his flickering gaze, "Is the meeting still going well?" ”

Yu Tian looked at me suspiciously, "It's okay, I came back from buying vegetables, let's cook together, right?" ”

"I'm not hungry."

"Then you can eat a little with me, huh?"

Yu Tian said with a faint smile, his other hand on my shoulder, lowered his head and gradually approached me, his burning gaze was scorching me, with a sultry aura. However, all I could feel was the inexhaustible coldness, as if it only took a moment to envelop me completely.

By the way, it also extinguished the last bit of hope I had for him.

Before his lips could touch me, I broke free and raised my hand vigorously.

Yu Tian looked at me incredulously, I didn't know if it hurt or not, but I looked at the five distinct fingerprints on his face, and I still felt distressed, mixed with nausea, and that feeling was about to go crazy.

All along, I thought I could understand him, I could see through him, I thought I really understood Yu Tianyiqi, I thought he would never deceive me. I even blamed myself countless times that I would blame him for misunderstanding him, but now, all the qiē has become a great ridicule.

Before leaving, I smashed everything in the room that could be broken, his computer, LCD TV, glass coffee table, drinking glasses, and the dishes we had bought together.

I know it's a very tasteless vent, but I can't do it anymore at this time.

"Enough?" Yu Tian looked at me with a twisted brow.

Unexpectedly, there was no blame in his expression, but there was a kind of pity, but I still felt disgusted when I saw it.

I think he was angry and angry too. In the end, Yu Tian chose to release his dissatisfaction with action, I was pressed against the wall by him, and then he leaned down and bit my lip fiercely, and despite my resistance, a pair of hands roamed over me to find it.

I remembered the day in the village, it rained heavily, and in the car......

Tears ran down her cheeks to where our lips met, and Yu Tian finally took a deep breath and let go of me. I gave him a second slap.

I said, "We're both clear." ”

"Why?"

I grabbed my bag and walked out, "Shouldn't you be clear?" ”

Yu Tian came over and grabbed me, "Lin Yue? ”

I pushed him away, "Yes." ”

This time, Yu Tian didn't catch up, and I took a few steps before I heard a heavy door slamming behind me, followed by the sound of something hitting the ground even more violently than before.

I was reluctant to expose his deception to my face, maybe we had a good time, I still believe that he was sincere to me, but now nothing can be undone.

The line under the photo came to my mind over and over again.

- Four years on, are you okay with our children in heaven?

Four years, their children, heaven.

I never thought that Xiaoxing's blog was actually updated by another person, and I never wondered why there was never her shadow in so many photos of the landscape.

I don't know what happened to her, but I understand from that sentence that four years ago, Xiaoxing and her child were gone.

Four years later, Yu Tian still commemorates them in this way, deceiving me.

I stumbled out of the building, blurry in front of me, and didn't feel when I had hit someone. I frowned and wanted to apologize, but I saw that it was indeed Lin Yue's face.

His face was not pretty, perhaps because it was already dark and the light was too dim, I couldn't see his expression clearly, I could only vaguely see that the corners of his mouth were downward.

"Come with me." He squeezed my hand and tightened it a little.

I got into Lin Yue's car, and then saw Yu Tian chasing him out.

"Can you kiss me?"

"Huh?"

"Is that okay?"

Lin Yue didn't answer, and directly expressed it with action. This is the palest kiss I have ever experienced, whether it is me or Lin Yue, it doesn't seem to have any temperature. I closed my eyes and stretched out my hands to wrap around him like vines, feeling his young body and powerful heartbeat. Although, none of this can resolve the pain in my heart.

When I separated, I couldn't see Yu Tian anymore, and Lin Yue didn't look at me anymore, and started the car directly.

When the car was about to drive home, Lin Yue suddenly reversed direction. I turned my face to look at him, "Where?" ”

"Open the room."

"Stop." I said as I reached for my seatbelt.

Lin Yue didn't mean to stop, but sped up the car.

I shouted, "Lin Yue, stop your car!" ”

"If you're not afraid of death, you can jump."