How should people stabilize their feelings when they are experiencing despair?

Apathy is undoubtedly one of all reactions, a very terrible one, when the frustration does not find a suitable target for attack, then the anger will be suppressed, the expression is cold, the reaction to the outside world is very low, this kind of indifferent repression is more damaging to the mental and physical health, if not mediated at the appropriate time, it will deteriorate into some kind of mental illness.

Yong Qingfan's worries are not unreasonable, Wei Dongyi's half of her life has been too stable, although she has experienced life and separation, she has not felt that there is still hope for death, but there is no hope for death, that person, the person who loves you and loves you, and finally turned into a pile of white bones, no one in the world will ever love you like her, and no one will kiss your face again, tell you that the sky is falling, and there is a mother.

Wei Dongyi is now caught in this kind of self-blame, nostalgia, resentment and anger, which has made her anxious, indifferent and morbid and stubborn attitude now, Yong Qingfan put away a qiē business entertainment, and sat quietly beside her, accompanying her uneasiness.

Maybe at this time, she should be left alone, but this person is Wei Dongyi, admitting death, thinking too much about the temperament of the person, the person who goes with the flow will live very well, fall down and get up again, it is all a thought, often people who can't get up, are those who go to death on the road, Wei Dongyi is like this, the persistence that ordinary people can't understand, it is very clear in her, Yong Qingfan is close to her, his face is getting closer and closer, and his lips fall on her cheek "Baby, sue me, what are you thinking?" ”

"If you don't sue me, then I'll sue you, okay?" Yong Qingfan touched her smooth face and said, Xu has not maintained it for a long time, Wei Dongyi's skin on his face is a little dry, and he lacks moisture, "I used to have a girlfriend, I worked under Wei Baishu, she was a servant in Zheng Chengfeng's family, at that time I was still friends with Zheng Chengfeng, my girlfriend's personality is very good, people are good, there are more people who like her than me, in addition to me, there are many people who like her, and many big people are pursuing her more than me, I was too pursuing my career at that time, ignoring her situation, Then one day, she suddenly disappeared, I looked for her for a long time, disappeared until now, I thought, she may be dead, may be long gone, every time I think of this, I will have a similar feeling of liberation, I don't understand why this is happening, I love her, she is the first person I love, it is my hope, it is my goal, why do I have the idea that if she really dies, I will get liberation? Why? ”

"Later I thought that love will be strengthened with time, but also with time, and her disappearance has completely locked her in the past, imprisoned the past, and imprisoned me." Yong Qingfan lowered his arms and sat in his arms with Wei Dongyi in his arms, "I ask myself now, do I love her?" Of course love, so do I hate her? Of course I hate, what do I hate about her, I hate her for not saying goodbye, I hate her ruthlessness, I hate my own inability, Lao Han said, anger is a manifestation of incompetence, baby, I was very incompetent when I was young, it turns out that I hated my former self, madam, that is, your mother talked to me a lot, I suddenly thought, if someone sues me now, that person is dead, she is already dead, she doesn't hate you, she always wants you to live well, then I will be forgiven, I will be unloaded, I will be free, you know baby, Death is not the end, the people who are left behind are always abandoned, not abandoned by the dead, they are crushed by themselves, their own hearts, and then they stomp on them, stab them, sprinkle some salt, and ask others if they look good. ”

Yong Qingfan's voice stopped, and the room was suddenly silent, only the sound of her own undulating breathing remained, Wei Dongyi did not react to her words, Yong Qingfan smiled bitterly, "I used to suspect that she was in love with Zheng Chengfeng, and now I also suspect that you are also in love with Zheng Chengfeng." ”

People who have stories don't like to mention their own stories, this is also the most distinctive thing about Zheng Chengfeng, she has never talked about her affairs, the past, family, feelings and loneliness, Yong Qingfan has no sense of security, she is in awe of Zheng Chengfeng's existence, but she personally pushed Wei Dongyi in front of her.

"I just wanted to try her reaction, and I knew she knew it." Without waiting for Wei Dongyi to ask, Yong Qingfan took the initiative to explain, "I've almost investigated that matter, I just want to know where Liu Zinong went, I want you to help me find an answer, I took advantage of you, Zheng Chengfeng gave me the answer, and also gave me a choice with no way back, baby, will you forgive me?" ”

Zheng Chengfeng became a horizontal ditch between the two of them, Yong Qingfan's eyes were dark, he picked up the red wine glass on the bedside table and took two sips, "I don't want you to leave me, if you are still willing, I can accompany you anywhere." ”

The sky was bright, Wei Dongyi went out, Yongqingfan was still washing, Wei Dongyi's face was not washed, wearing the coat he wore yesterday and went directly into the elevator, took a taxi and ran to the hospital, she was very haggard and met the very haggard Xiao Ke, Xiao Ke yawned and was on the phone, he saw Wei Dongyi coming from a distance, he didn't believe his eyes, quickly hung up the phone, and ran over with a click, "Miss Wei, you came over so early." ”

"Where's my mom?"

"Still in the morgue." Xiao Ke smiled and replied cautiously, "Do you know when you come out?" It was too late last night, and the death certificate couldn't be done for a while, or you should go back first, I have already contacted the funeral home, don't worry, I promise that this matter will be fine. ”

"I want to take her back to Xiamen."

"Are you kidding?" Xiao Ke looked at her dumbfounded, as if he was watching a fantasy, "Miss Wei, it's more troublesome to go back now than when you came." ”

"Do you think I'm joking?" Wei Dongyi asked him expressionlessly, "I'm not crazy, don't think I'm sick." ”

"No, I didn't mean that." Xiao Ke hurriedly explained: "Does Mr. Yong know? ”

Wei Dongyi's anger came very suddenly: "Do I even have to ask outsiders about the way my mother's body was disposed of?" ”

Xiao Ke hadn't seen her get angry much, so he couldn't help but say, "Are you having an awkward relationship with Mr. Yong?" ”

The subordinate gossip about the boss's personal relationship is abrupt, not to mention that it is still the opposite sex, Xiao Ke didn't sleep well all night, and now he said the wrong thing, and swallowed his saliva nervously, "Miss Wei, I think you should discuss it with Mr. Yong." ”

"You can go through the formalities as much as possible." Yong Qingfan's voice came from behind the two, Xiao Ke turned his head and saw Yong Qingfan with sweat on his forehead, "Boss, good morning." ”

Yong Qingfan's attention was completely on Wei Dongyi's body, and he didn't want to deal with him, and replied, "Go to dinner first, and find someone to complete the formalities today." ”

"Okay, boss." Xiao Ke is very familiar with current affairs and is ready to flash people.

"I've arranged an RV, I'll go back with you later." After Xiao Ke left, Yong Qingfan put down the bag in his hand and took out a sandwich inside, "You eat something first." ”

A strange smile quickly flashed on Wei Dongyi's face, in Yong Qingfan's opinion, the smile that looked extremely like a mockery was even more terrifying than her actions today, she sat down beside Wei Dongyi quietly and asked her, "Do you want to be closer to your mother?" "Or do you want to stay away from me?

She didn't say the latter sentence, and of course Wei Dongyi didn't hear it, but even if she heard it, what could she do, Wei Dongyi lowered her head, and with a look of rejection from thousands of miles away, she completely blocked the existence of Yong Qingfan.

If this attitude had been changed three months ago, Yong Qingfan would have done it earlier, and he would have to be spanked if he didn't pinch his face, "Well, do you want to eat this?" Yong Qingfan asked her.

Wei Dongyi didn't speak.

Yong Qingfan's hand holding the sandwich quickly retracted, and he ate it by himself one bite at a time, "I'm hungry too." ”

"Want to see your father?" Yong Qingfan asked her while eating, "Do you think your mother wants him to send her?" ”

Wei Dongyi's body deviated inward, deliberately trying to avoid Yong Qingfan, but when Yong Qingfan saw this, he moved closer to her a little closer, "Baby, are you fighting with me?" ”

"I'm not that bored."

"You're in a much better relationship today." Yong Qingfan commented on her with a smile: "At least you will talk to me seriously." ”

"I'll solve the problem of my mom going back." couldn't dodge, Wei Dongyi simply stood up, "Yong Qingfan, she is my mother, not yours, you have no obligation to do that." ”

Yong Qingfan spread his hands: "I hope to face it with you." ”

"You are you, I am me, the two of them are not of the same heart, how can they face it together?" Wei Dongyi asked her rhetorically, "For you, death is liberation, for me, it is parting, Yong Qingfan, I have a different experience from you, there is no need to be tied together and understand each other, where I want to go, I can go by myself, you are not me, how can you know what I am thinking?" ”

"I know what you're thinking." Yong Qingfan stood up, looked at her face to face, and asked with a chuckle, "Do you want to break up with me?" ”

Wei Dongyi was silent.

After Yong Qingfan understood that he had guessed correctly, he didn't get angry but laughed, "Wei Dongyi, your mother just died, and you will break up with me today?" ”

"Anyway, we are still together today, and when Mrs.'s funeral is settled, we will talk about breaking up again, you have to divide and reunite, I can't force you." Yong Qingfan sighed, her expression was very tired, "You tossed and turned last night and didn't sleep, are you just thinking about this?" Baby, why give up, we can go on. ”

The person who said not to talk about it was her, and the person who talked about it was also her, Wei Dongyi looked back at the back, "I will find a way to rent a car and go back, and when I come back, I will have the opportunity to talk about it." ”