Yu Tian said that he missed me, and I can't tell whether this sentence is true or false for the time being, but I know very clearly that I like to listen to it because it sounds good. He has a good voice, he speaks well, and most importantly, I am willing to listen.

I think even if he says he loves me and he likes me, I'm sure I'd be happy to hear it. Of course, whether you accept it or not is another matter. It's like when Lin Yue asked me if I wanted to be with him, I was also sincerely happy, the girl's little caution is vanity.

Yu Tian hugged me for a while and let me go, I guess he was tired, the previous injury was not minor, and the serious illness was not healed and he was in a hurry to find me, and then he went on a business trip for a few days.

His face seems to have lost a bit, but it's still pretty good.

But soon, I found that Yu Tian began to stare at my mouth, and there was no other meaning, just staring, looking at it as if I had found some clues, and I was very weak. Lin Yue kissed me, and I was sad for a while, and it was nothing, but when Yu Tian saw it, I felt a little dishonorable and desperately wanted to escape.

"I went to sleep."

"Wait a minute."

He didn't have a particularly tough tone, but still had a little discussion. I hesitated and walked back.

I said, "Didn't you say you wanted to talk about it last time, but I also have something to make clear to you." Yu Tian looked at me, and I continued, "You understand, if you make it clear, you don't have to meet again." ”

Yu Tian nodded, I understood that his small action was also quite difficult, and I had already given him a clear answer before it started. It's like an exam, knowing that even if he gets 100 points, he will be eliminated, he has to go to the exam room.

I scolded in my heart, Si Xi you really did it.

Regarding talking about that matter, Yu Tian and I were going to go out to say, it was not appropriate at home, and it was even more inappropriate to enter my room, I was really a little afraid that he would suddenly become animalistic, Yu Tian also gave me a tacit understanding to give me a look to agree to go out and say, as if he could really restrain himself as soon as he entered my room.

But we all ignore one thing, when it should be posted, it is sent everywhere.

I took two umbrellas from the closet, and Yu Tian came over and looked at me with disgust, and then put one of them back, so we both went out with one umbrella in hand.

The rain outside was still quite heavy, so I had to forget about Yu Tian's side in order not to get wet, and the closer he got closer, he simply hugged me directly, and laughed.

That's what he was holding an umbrella for, I knew it for a long time, but I didn't like to say it.

I poked Yu Tian in the stomach and said in disgust, "What a chicken thief!" ”

Yu Tian continued to laugh, "Then do you like it?" ”

I like it, of course I like it, what's not to like, even if Yu Tian posted that and I still like it, people are sometimes very cheap, this disease is not easy to treat, but what comes out of my mouth is not like.

We found a small pavilion to sit down, and Yu Tian took off his coat and put it on a stone bench before letting me sit. He is really careful, he didn't let me drink raw water after I was with Yu Tian, he didn't rain, and he wasn't allowed to sit directly in a cold place, because my menstrual period was not too normal, he often brought me some brown sugar water, and also helped me remember the date.

Yu Tian thought about it for a while, and nodded really seriously.

Thinking about it now, the kind of little happiness that was a bit of a mother-in-law at the beginning was really rare.

After really sitting down, our direct topic is a little difficult to develop, I want to ask Yu Tian, but I feel a bit like interrogating a prisoner, and where should I start the trial, it should be Xiaoxing.

As for that child, I shouldn't have given birth either, and when I think about it, I don't think I'm kind. In the past few years, I have thought countless times, one day I see a child who looks like Yu Tian, what should I do, the answer is that I definitely won't like it.

He was born to someone else, why do I like it?

As a result, Yu Tian asked me first, and I found it difficult to answer his first question, and he asked me why I wanted to break up with him.

Yu Tian's question was a slap in the face for me, I always thought that what he said was his apology or explanation to me, but I didn't expect that as soon as I opened my mouth, it turned out that it was actually me who was interrogated.

I was not happy, so I ran out regardless of the umbrella in Yu Tian's hand.

Yu Tian grabbed me, he was anxious, "What are you doing?" ”

I was even more anxious, "What do you say I'm doing, you're stepping on two boats, and now you're coming to judge me!" ”

"When did I step on two boats?"

Yu Tian pulled me back, and then directly pressed me to let me sit down, his eyes were quite innocent, but I didn't believe it, and few murderers directly confessed to their crimes, and he was hiding it from me at the beginning, I suddenly felt very disappointed.

I want to say it, but I find it difficult to speak, what should I say, shout to him openly, you are shameless for the rest of the day, you slept with my best friend, and slept her belly big? I can't say it, some words, really pick out it seems that we really can't go back to the past, if Yu Tian doesn't have a girlfriend now, if he and Xiaoxing also become a thing of the past, maybe, maybe I can lie to myself that nothing has happened.

After all, I love Yu Tian, and this feeling has increased unabated in the past four years, and I have never stopped loving while hating. If he really owes me anything, it will be enough for him to pay it back for the rest of his life.

And what I want most is actually an innocent person who loves me deeply and only loves me for the rest of the day.

I didn't say anything in the end, but Yu Tian seemed to see something in my eyes, and he crouched down in front of me, rubbing his fingers against the corners of my slightly damp eyes.

"Si Xi, you sue me, did you misunderstand something four years ago before you had to break up with me?"

I looked up at him, misunderstanding, this is the first time I have heard this word appear between me and Yu Tian. I still told Yu Tian about Xiaoxing's things as they were, including what I saw, what I heard, and told him completely, I felt uncomfortable while talking, that kind of discomfort came from the bottom of my heart, and the things I didn't want to recall for so many years often turned into nightmares, but now, I said it myself. Yu Tian always held my hand, and he just listened quietly until I finished speaking, and he asked me, "If I sue you, I don't know her at all, do you believe me?" ”

I shook my head, I didn't believe it, I saw them kissing under the tree, and the day after Christmas, he had the scarf I knitted for him around his neck, and I wouldn't be mistaken.

Yu Tian saw that I didn't mean to say anything to him again, so he held my hand.

"Four years ago, something happened to me, but it wasn't what you think," he said. At that time, you suddenly said that you were leaving, I thought you were just going to study, I wanted to keep you, but I couldn't do that. I also thought you would come back, but then you left for a month and sent a message saying that I was breaking up. That was the first message you sent me after you left. ”

I looked at Yu Tian's eyes, he really didn't look like he was lying, his eyes were like a layer of fog.

"Later, I sent you a lot of messages, and you never replied."

When I first went abroad, my mental state was very bad, Si Datong even found me a psychiatrist, and it took me more than a month to recover, I sent a message to tell me that I was going to break up in the next few days, and then threw away the mobile phone card.

Even cut off the way we could get in touch with each other, and at that time I really thought that Yu Tian and I were over, and I thought I had fulfilled him.

"I went to see you two years ago. Google they said you had a boyfriend, I didn't believe it, but I found out when I got to Tokyo that I was so big how could I possibly find you. I stayed there for a month, went to every university and asked if anyone knew you, and then I had to come back because of the company. But you know what, I saw you at the airport on the day I returned home. You really walked out holding hands with a boy, and I wanted to chase after it, but in the end I was scared. I'm standing there watching you leave together. ”

I listened to Yu Tian's story, it was like a very distant story, he told it very seriously, and the painful expression on his face was also very serious. He, like me, had to dig up his saddest memories and put them on the table.

The rest of the matter, Yu Tian doesn't say it, I also know, after he returned to China, he was like a different person, just like Lin Jing said, Yu Tian has a girlfriend, he has more than one girlfriend in the past two years, to put it bluntly, he started a completely different life, there are more than one or two girls who can't tell him, but how long has this life lasted, is it still like this, I don't know.

I don't know what kind of relationship his current girlfriend is.

The rain stopped, but the atmosphere between me and Yu Tian suddenly became very delicate, except for explaining about Xiaoxing with two words of misunderstanding, he didn't tell me if he had a girlfriend now, and I didn't tell him, the boy he saw holding hands with me was actually my younger brother Si Chen, different from Lin Yue, Si Chen was the younger brother Si Datong gave birth to me.

The way back became a little not long enough, Yu Tian always held my hand, and I didn't mean to let go, when I arrived at my door, I was wondering, do he still want to go in, is it really as I started to say that this time I don't need to meet.

Opening the door, Yu Tian pushed me in, but he didn't follow in, he looked at me with a smile, "Rest early, I'm leaving." ”

I froze, a little overwhelmed for a moment, I don't know when I reached out and grabbed him.

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