When I was young, I grew up next to my grandmother, because I was the eldest daughter in the family, my mother-in-law called me a big girl, my grandmother was a shrewd old man, although she was not good for Eniang, but there was never a shortage of food and clothing for me, but there was still something missing in my heart, less Ama Eniang and less brothers and sisters. I have secretly asked Mama Nan, and Mama Nan said that my mother is a good mother and never suppresses Amma's aunts, so I have a lot of brothers and sisters, and I sometimes secretly fantasize about what Eniang is like, and the aunt who can tolerate Amma must be kind.

Soon this day came, that day I was told by my grandmother that Eniang Ama came, so I hurried over, but I was timid at the door, Eniang will not like me, the moment I saw Eniang, I knew that I thought too much, because Eniang's eyes were red and I looked at me, holding back tears, but Eniang was not good to my grandmother, I was very puzzled and later learned that I originally had a big brother, because my grandmother was gone, I think Eniang will be very sad!

E-niang is very good to me, as if to compensate me, give me any good things, but my grandmother has always been domineering and does not let me go back to E-niang, why bother, in fact, my grandmother does not say that I will not go back at this moment, because my grandmother is still very good to me after all, but then my grandmother died, I am even more regretful, knowing that E-Niang and Aunt Wuyun are pregnant, I feel the expectation of life for the first time, no one has ever told me to see my E-Niang pregnant when I feel like this, and then Aunt Wuyun and E-Niang gave birth to a little sister before and after, Watching Ama Eniang treat her like a treasure, I was jealous for a moment. It was something that my third sister did not have when she was competing with me for favor by my grandmother's side, and it was then that I realized that my heart had always longed for the love of my parents.

My sister's name is Yao'er, Hesheri Yao'er, the meaning of Meiyu, but I can't hate this kind of sister, she is the most sticky to me, sometimes I can't understand her, but I only laugh at myself How can a child have any heart, blame myself for thinking too much, sometimes I am glad that I have such a sister, Yao'er has loved to be coquettish since she was a child, this is what I don't have, she can naturally be coquettish to Ama Eniang, but I can't always feel that I can't do it, and I was raised by my grandmother to be a dignified and generous woman.

It wasn't until Yao'er coquetted me that I didn't know why Ama Eniang couldn't resist it, the glutinous voice was really sweet to my heart, so I learned cooking skills, learned simple drug identification, and learned poetry and songs, including those arithmetic from other countries. I thought that I was learning these just to make Yao'er happy, but I didn't expect that I would bring these skills to the Forbidden City, and it would surprise the young emperor again and again.

Yao'er seemed to be premeditated, I always thought that my sister was still so young and needed me to take care of her, but I didn't expect that one day I would ask my sister to help me.

If it wasn't for Yao'er to help me when I went to Guo Luomafa's house that time, I guess I wouldn't be the queen now, but I didn't expect that the second sister would be so scheming, so ruthless, presumably the palace is not darker than this, I am still soft-hearted after all, how old was Yao'er at that time, but only seven years old, I always knew that I was not suitable for the royal family, because my heart will always be soft, if Yao'er is my seat, it will definitely be better than me.

In fact, I know that Ama Eniang doesn't want me to go to the Forbidden City, but my grandmother taught me the honor of the Hesheri family when I was a child, and I am willing to go in my heart, not for anything else, just because my sister Yao'er doesn't have to go to that dark place anymore. But my stupid sister went so far away to find the emperor on a cold day.

When the emperor came back, he sued me, I just thought my sister was stupid, and I was even more angry that she didn't take good care of herself. After Chenghu's death, I do have the idea of dying, but I didn't take revenge on others who were cheap, so that other people's relatives hurt the enemy quickly, and I will not let you go of Niu Hulu.

It's just that what should Xuan Ye do, I still remember the day of the wedding, the red dragon and phoenix candles reflected my face, I think you should be very dissatisfied with such a wedding banquet, even the woman who got married can't make her own decisions, I was so nervous at that time that I couldn't do it, and I couldn't untie the knotted clothes and even caused you to fall, you smiled and said that I am not a tiger, my heart is a little more peaceful, maybe it is good to see me, you are very good to me after the wedding, and often say that you are a good queen of my Qing Dynasty, but I always feel that there is something missing between us, I generously take care of the other concubines for you, take care of the harem so that you don't have to worry about it, I don't want to be the queen of the Qing Dynasty, I just want to be the queen of your love for Xinjue Luo Xuanye, if you know that I am pregnant with twins but conceal that you want to frame Niu Hulu's family, will you be disappointed in me, remember your happy expression when I inadvertently solved the arithmetic problem you left behind, you said that the queen you always surprise me.

But this time I've let you down.

What I like the most is that you called me Fang'er before I died, so that I felt that I was your wife, not the noble queen of the Qing Dynasty, I really wanted to open my eyes to look at you, and now you have not been eliminated three times, you have lost your son-in-law and lost me, how sad Xuan Ye should be.

I left an empty posterior, who will take care of my child, there is no daughter of the Hesheri family in the palace, then my sister Yao'er is not going to enter the palace, I don't want to embarrass you, presumably the queen mother will also persuade you to stay Yao'er, after all, the country is important, I am really selfish, if Yao'er leaves my child, someone will take good care of it!

Before I died, I said sorry to my sister, but she cried and said it doesn't matter, I am her sister, she is willing, Xuanye, I Hesheri Fang'er has never begged you, never begged you to knight the Hesheri family, I just ask you to take good care of my sister.

The eyelids became heavier and heavier, and I only felt the black pressure enveloping me, and the crying around me became farther and farther away, and the lighter my body became

Xuan Ye wishes to have a heart, and his hands will not be separated

Ama Eniang, may your daughter be your daughter in the next life

Sister, don't complain about my sister, we will still be sisters in the next life, but I will take care of you in the next life.