"Zixian." Li Hui had already heard the footsteps of his best friend, but he didn't look back, he still looked at the full moon outside the window in a daze, "Grandfather's wind disease has flared up again, and I'm afraid my life will not last forever." In my mind, he is not only the emperor of the ages, but also a kind elder who loves his children and grandchildren. Whether I am learning from Grandpa to be coquettish and stupid, or pretending to be naïve and ignorant, it is all to make him happy. Sometimes, I get used to pretending to be so used to it that I even forget what I really looked like......"

However, what should the original Xin'an County King Li Hui look like? Is it a depressed and obsessive person in a previous life? Or are they cautious and pretentious people in this life? Or do your best to honor the filial children and grandchildren under the knees of your elders? Or are you occasionally unwilling to be trapped in a corner and want to be at ease?

It seems to be him, and it doesn't seem to be him—it's like a few broken clay figurines mixed together with water to form a cohesive and complex contradiction. He actually had a lot of ideas that he wanted to realize, but in the end he had to choose the most important one and give up the others. Perhaps, this is the responsibility, this is the responsibility, this is the helpless reality, and this is the life of mixed tastes.

No matter if he lives again for one life or a hundred lives, he will not be able to truly be at ease. The bloodline is destined to be so, the identity is destined to be so, and the destiny is destined to be so. Even if it is reversed slightly, it cannot be completely changed. The dream of freedom created by his grandfather is coming to an end, and he should not indulge himself anymore.

Wang Zixian listened quietly, almost with great effort, to find his composure. But all the calmness is just an illusion. At this moment, he has realized the secret hidden deep in his heart that he has never wanted to pursue, and the turbulent waves are simply beyond words.

He should probably rush out of the door, keep himself away from the person in front of him, and keep a proper distance, so that the burning passion that rushes in his blood can cool down a little. However, he was reluctant to look away, reluctant to spend every moment and moment with him. He was even more reluctant to leave him alone here in such grief.

At this time, Li Hui didn't really need to be explained, but someone just needed someone to listen quietly: "Earlier, my grandfather had been thinking about our marriage. When my grandmother died, we had not yet decided to marry, and it was one of his regrets. Sometimes I accompany him to offer incense to my grandmother, and I can vaguely hear him talking about our grandchildren. Now that he is seriously ill, in order to reassure him, we must no longer be willful. ”

"Since I wanted to make my grandfather happy, why not pay for a marriage? After all, this kind of big thing has always been decided by my parents, and I can't help myself. It's a pity that when it comes to getting married, you should be left behind me-"

After coming back to his senses, Li Hui looked sideways, and Wang Zixian had already come to him holding the small statue of a woman tightly, and his voice was hoarse: "Although it is for the joy of the saint, you don't have to be too wronged yourself." From the dozens of small portraits, select the person you like a little bit. According to the etiquette system, you can not only have a princess, but also two children and several concubines. Since then, your inner house will probably be lively. Probably no one knew that when he spoke, his heart seemed to be cut back and forth by a knife, full of blood and flesh, his lips turned white in pain, and the blood on his face had almost faded, and he was extremely pale.

Li Hui was silent for a long time, and sighed: "There is nothing to choose." Just looking at the statue, where can you see what kind of temperament it is? Besides, having a wife is enough, so what's the benefit of a lively house? I don't want to spend all my days worrying about these things in the house, listening to them attack each other and speculate about each other. ”

"Then choose a gentle and beautiful woman with the right family background. To be able to know and accompany you, it is best to understand some calligraphy and painting, and to be able to appreciate it with you in the future, and life will be interesting. The prince said again, his voice becoming a little lower and lower, and the love surging in his drooping eyes was almost crazy. The scroll in his palm had been deformed and torn by him, but he seemed to know nothing.

"You're right." Li Hui said lightly, without the slightest enthusiasm. He didn't look at any of these portraits, so he flipped them up at random. After looking at the few numbers in the corner, such as the origin of the county and the position of the father and brother, it seems that it is enough. The Yan family chose for him, not only the side daughters of the top gate lord clans, but also the daughters of the second-class families, and they were all worthy of the princess of the county in terms of identity. Moreover, the positions of fathers and brothers are generally lower, not after high-ranking officials.

Pu Wangfu really does not need a very powerful princess, so as not to cause unnecessary suspicion and endless troubles. Of course, if she is really a noble daughter of a family with a very high position of her father and brother, she will definitely not look down on an idle county king like him. If they marry into a high-ranking family, they will never lack a rich future in the future, and it will be more beneficial to the family.

"Jingzhao Wei's is not as good as Jingzhao Du's, and he can still get some favor from his uncle; The Wang family of Qixian County is good, but that great-grandmother should look down on me, and she will not allow it in the end; Hedong Liu's family is a little special, I heard that the family education is very strict, if the temperament is not supple, it should be extremely cautious in words and deeds. The daughter of the Qin family? It should be a side branch, my uncle and grandfather have a lot of prejudices against Grandpa, and they may not agree lightly......"

Wang Zixian sat silently beside him, staring at him closely, but he still didn't dare to let the emotions in his heart show the slightest. Listening to these words, he felt as if he was suffering. It is clear that he doesn't even want to hear half a word, he doesn't want to listen, but he is still reluctant to leave. Even if Li Hui had no affection for the future princess of the county, but he just obeyed the orders of his parents to marry, he couldn't feel a little more relieved.

Because, he was already doomed to be impossible to get him. Whoever got him, got his affection or whatever, he couldn't accept it. Even just thinking about it is painful.

Suddenly, a voice from the bottom of my heart came out, tempting: If you don't give it a try, how do you know if he is also affectionate for you? If you don't fight hard, how do you know if he will relented and accept your affection? Even if you are destined to share him with other people, at least you can "share", right? It's better than you leaving alone, and he stays in Chang'an to marry a wife and have children, and he doesn't know anything about your affection?

Shut up!! No gibberish!! I must not lose him! If you say everything, you will never go back to the beginning! If he doesn't accept it, we won't even be friends!! Even the slightest chance of losing him, I can't risk it! I'd rather ...... than lose him I'd rather watch him get married......

The voice in his heart then sneered: After he got married, didn't you lose him? After a few years, which is more important than his wife and children? He has become someone else's husband, someone else's father, how much can he share for you? After a few years of separation, there are groups of wives and concubines and children around him, what can your friendship be counted as just a year?! I'm afraid it's only better than strangers!!

Shut up!! We are close friends, friends of life and death, and people who can entrust each other with a qiē -- but this qiē does not include the affection of the other person. Moreover, after all, friends of life and death are different from ordinary friends, even if they have been separated for a long time, they will not make the friendship fade...... See you in a few years, and we won't change either!

Oh, really? Do you really believe what the gentleman says? How can his so-called friends of life and death be compared with this irreplaceable affection?! In this world, you are the only one in the world, how desperate should you be after losing him? Can you really accept it?! Let me out, let me try, you won't be disappointed......

Seeing that his friend's expression was uncertain, and the corners of his mouth were even bitten, Li Hui called softly: "Zixian? Thinking of the previous joke between the two, he only thought that he was a close friend but still couldn't accept the fact that he had "lost", so he comforted: "If you can find the person you like as a wife, it is naturally better than someone like me who has to marry on the orders of my parents." Therefore, you don't have to worry, fate can't tell when it will come. ”

No! I already have someone I love! At the moment of discovery, it was destined to be unspeakable and unpublic! Destined to never get him!!

The prince mourned in his heart, and could only smile reluctantly: "Of course I'm not in a hurry, the matter of tribute has not yet been completed, and it doesn't hurt to delay the matter of starting a family." He is already in pain enough now, and if Li Hui takes the initiative to give him Zhang Luo's marriage event, it will be even more difficult to accept. Only by temporarily cutting off the idea of friends can you avoid being caught in the future when you are defenseless, and you will receive another blow to the heart.

Li Hui said: "If you get the first place in the exam, there must be a lot of people who catch sons-in-law on the list, and then you can pick them carefully." "Although my friend's family background is high, he is a side branch, and he can only barely be regarded as the queen of the official family. Such a down-and-out son of a family is almost everywhere in Chang'an City, and there is no advantage in discussing relatives at the moment. If you take the first place, the family background is the icing on the cake, and naturally countless families flock to it in order to get this rare son-in-law.

However, thinking of the scene when the crowd surged to ask for a good husband in the future, for some reason, he didn't feel happy at all. It's as if I'm being affected by my current low feelings.。

The two sat beside the bookcase, one looking through the portrait with little interest, the other looking at each other silently, the atmosphere had never been so dreary, almost breathless. The maidservant, who wanted to enter with supper, hurriedly put down the dining table, and bowed down and withdrew, not daring to even look at them, for fear of angering them.

After a long time, Li Huifang said: "It's better to just be this Du girl." I can't say that Yue Niang will be happy. Although the rest of the family is good, he thinks that it is better to marry a princess who can make his relatives feel close. At least, the crown princess Du will take care of it a little more, and the county lord of Changning will also get along with this sister-in-law. In the future, he will return to Junzhou far away from Chang'an, and he can often give gifts, and he will not break off his current family friendship.

Wang Zixian took his eyes off his face with difficulty: "Why don't I send someone to check on this Du girl?" lest anything be missed. Her relatives should also find out clearly, and it is best not to cause you any trouble in the future. "If you have to marry, then marry a woman who won't hurt Ah Hui - no, he still doesn't want him to marry - but how can a dignified county king not marry a wife?!

"That's how it should be." Li Hui pushed the portrait aside, and when he got up, he glanced at the already cold supper, and said in a low voice, "I'm a little tired, so I'll go to sleep first...... Zixian, the rest of the things, I have to thank you. ”

"Between you and me, it doesn't have to be like this." The prince replied, watching his back disappear outside the door, and then picked up the portrait of the Du family—a young girl of their age, who looked gentle and graceful, and even had a gentle smile in it. It's just a portrait, and the jealousy in his heart has already surged out, almost wanting to tear this person apart, or completely expel him far away, and he will never be able to appear in front of Li Hui.

Such a face should be ugly. Fortunately, Ah Hui has already left, otherwise I am afraid that he will know that he has such an unsightly mind hidden in his heart. Oh, yes, he has always been a gentleman, calm and square, how can he have such thoughts about his best friend? Any ordinary person would never have affection for a same-sex best friend, or even want to completely dominate him, right?

In front of Ah Hui, he can only be the noble Prince Langya - he must not be ruthless and unscrupulous, let alone reveal his affection and disgust him!

Just as he was trying to convince himself, the voice in his heart sneered again: When you are in pain, but he is enjoying the joy of family, can you still be so restrained? Can you really watch him belong to someone else? Can you really accept the fact that you lost him? What is a gentleman? What is the calm side? What is a noble bearing? Compared to the loss of him, this qiē is not worth mentioning!!

Wang Zixian stood up abruptly and almost overturned the book case in front of him. He hurried out and walked to the bedroom on the right. However, after standing in front of the door for a long time, he finally did not push the door in, and slept with his friends as usual, but left with a slight wolf.