When I opened my eyes, because it was a strange environment and a strange bed, I didn't sleep very well, the bed board was very hard, only a thin cotton wool and a mat, and the cotton wool didn't know how long it had been used.

looked at Liu Yueran and the others, still meditating. There is a clock in the dormitory.,It's the kind that hangs on the wall.,I don't know if it's the school uniform.,Now there's no mobile phone.,Even if you want to watch the news or have any major events, you have to go to the special bulletin office to see.,There's a big display screen.,Electricity is very valuable in this small gathering place.,Only the city lord can use it.。

Walking out of the dormitory, to the corridor, it is now the afternoon temperature is very high, there is a wind blowing, bringing up the hair on the forehead fluttering, Li Ru looked into the distance, her eyes were deep and deep, she likes to be in a daze, and it is easy to be in a daze, looking at it, she remembered her first love.

At that time, it was also a very young age, and it was the same age as now, although I laughed at the owner of this body in my heart for not knowing love when he was young, but why wasn't he the first love that started at this age.

is a very romantic start, Li Ru is a good student in the class, and she was transferred to Li Ru's class only after her grades improved.

The teacher transferred her to Li Ru's back table, Li Ru didn't like her at first, but later gradually began to like her in getting along with her, Li Ru's grades were good, her grades were bad, and Li Ru helped her with tutoring.

Gradually, Li Ru found that she liked to see her laugh, Li Ru's life was dark at that time, her parents' business failed, and her relatives looked down on her, but occasionally a few relatives had a slightly better attitude, but the object was not Li Ru, Li Ru's brother, her own brother.

Heh, aren't the brothers in Korean dramas all very good? But why does even his brother look down on him? Punch and kick yourself casually if you don't like it.

When I was in elementary school, my neighbors were all boys, so they were all with boys, but there was always a gap. Once the friends were playing around the fire in the playground together, and a boy stepped on something burning in Li Ru's hand, and the spark flew out and splashed on his brother's hand, but he immediately jumped up and watched her kick her into the fire angrily!

Fortunately, the fire in the fire was not big at that time, and Li Ru was just blistered in many places.

But Li Ru's brother is very good at pretending, in front of his mother and neighbors, he is a good brother, and many neighbors say to their mother, "He is really a good brother!" It hurts my sister so much! Every time she heard this, she laughed mockingly in her heart, and no one would believe her at all.

Mother loves her brother Li Ru knows, she always doesn't say much to her, she is often expressionless, always gives her brother pocket money, but Li Ru has nothing, her brother can talk and laugh with her mother, Li Ru doesn't dare, she also tried, but she was scolded for not being big or small.

When I was a child, I watched Korean dramas, and I always fantasized about whether I was not born in this family and had a rich father, but fantasy is fantasy after all, and my father always does not return home, although my father is gentler than my mother.

In getting along with her, Li Ru gradually began to like her, she was still young at that time, and she thought about few things, but she was afraid that the other party would like her or not, and she would start to test it, deliberately saying that she liked others, and then she was about to graduate from junior high school.

Li Ru didn't take it seriously at that time, but unexpectedly she accepted it, during that time Li Ru was always very happy, in a daze in class, because it was a different place, so she was calling and texting, and she was always cautious about her, she was very willful, jealous, and sometimes what she said in a quarrel was very hurtful, but Li Ru was stupidly injured and begged her for forgiveness.

Li Ru's friends were all because Li Ru was not worth it, Li Ru didn't listen, and they called her every night, but the phone bill was super high, and the family was not rich at that time, so the breakfast money was saved to pay the phone bill, and Li Ru still thought about being ridiculous with her for a long time.

She came back during the first semester of high school, they saw each other every day, and they also spent a lot of money, all of which Li Ru was usually reluctant to buy breakfast and saved bits and pieces, this holiday was very happy with each other, because of shyness, holding hands and feeling embarrassed, and then one night when they were about to separate, she took advantage of her inattention to steal Li Ru's face, and then she ran away in a hurry, and Li Ru also smiled stupidly.

The winter vacation ended soon, she went back, and Li Ru was still immersed in happiness, a few days after she went back, she suddenly said that she had broken up, Li Ru couldn't accept it, crying and begging her to come back, saying that she was wrong.

But the only reason she has is that I don't love you anymore.

At first, Li Ru looked for her every day, and then looked for her once a month, and she didn't care about the bloody dog who was scolded every time.

It wasn't until later that Li Ru found out that she had already gotten along with others, no wonder it was impossible for us to be two women!

At that moment, Li Ru hated, bitter hate!

originally thought that she was bringing sunshine to herself, but she didn't know that she pushed herself down a deeper cliff with her own hands.

She must be ridiculous looking at the text messages she sends every month, right? It must be fun to put down your dignity and beg for yourself, right?

still remembers that the last text message was when Li Ru still refused to give up and sent a text message to her, and after sending it, Li Ru could even hear her own heartbeat, and her hands and feet were cold.

"Buzz ......" trembling hands to open the text message she replied, who are you?

Oh, Li Ru smiled, crying and laughing with tears in her eyes, she loved her in her heart, thought about her, and thought about her all the time, but people had long forgotten about themselves.

Li Ru was also confused during the final exam, came back from the summer vacation, fell out of the school's top class, and then smoked and drank with the fox friends he made, and his boyfriend made one after another, and even committed suicide for a while, quarreling with his mother, and in the end he stopped talking.

But Li Ru still thinks about her, Li Ru is not convinced, in her heart, she is so good, so Li Ru wants to recover her and get rid of her again!

After talking about so much love, Li Ru knows her advantages, friends have said before that she is so beautiful, what kind of person can't find it, why hang herself there.

But I'm stupid, I'm stupid!

Later, Li Ru called her, she had never dared to beat her before she was dumped, for fear of being scolded, but now she is not afraid, if her friend's title is lost, it is impossible to tear her face, Li Ru is no longer the same as before!

After making a few phone calls and intermittent text messages, I finally asked her out, and now Li Ru can dress up and have confidence, Li Ru knows very well where her advantages are. Sure enough, when we met for the first time, I knew from her eyes that Li Ru had succeeded, Li Ru came on a motorcycle, deliberately let her come up, took her hand and let her hold herself, she was a little dodgy.

It didn't take long for them to kiss, and then they got into bed, and they got back together.

After reuniting, I found out that I was blind in the past, I imagined her so well, she had many shortcomings, and I was very disappointed in my heart because of the difference in her image Li Ru's imagination, but I was reluctant to break up, after all, the people who had been thinking about her for so many years had not seen each other for three years.

They were still in a long-distance relationship when they were in college, in fact, they had contact with her when they applied for volunteering, but Li Ru has grown up and will not be so stupid anymore, she has to live for herself, and she can no longer change her fate for her.

Originally, Li Ru was expected to be a person who was a heavy student, and she only got a professional exam, but Li Ru didn't blame her, really, because Li Ru knew that it was all made by herself.

You are responsible for your own choices, and you can't blame others! Because in the end, the one who compromises is himself!

After a whole college time with her, she was very possessive and didn't contact Li Ru with boys, so she took care of her Li Ru didn't talk to anyone in the class, but gradually Li Ru found that every time she quarreled with her, she went out drinking with boys, and said that it was because of Li Ru, but when she asked Li Ru not to talk to boys, she mingled with the boys in the class, and even often went to drink and sing.

At that time, Li Ru had long forgotten about revenge, but after knowing this, Li Ru was cold, so she deliberately had a quarrel, and she ignored herself willfully, Li Ru went to sleep while she was actually deliberately letting her break up, Li Ru wanted to ask for peace of mind.

After the breakup, she asked Li Ru: "Can we be friends?" I don't want to cut ties with you. ”

"Impossible." replied without hesitation, the most important thing is to break the thread or something.

Li Ru's thoughts about her have been broken, she has experienced so many loves, and she is not so fanatical about her, now that she thinks about it, she is young and frivolous, in fact, there is no perfect person, but Li Ru beautified her, she once thought that she couldn't live without her, and she couldn't imagine the future without her, but she didn't come over like this.

After that, the feelings are becoming more and more calm, more and more thin, and no longer so blind, in the 21st century, everyone is playing love, isn't it? Li Ru has capital, there is no need to hang herself from a tree, she sees the handsome, the past, Zhengtai, masculine, melancholy, everything is better, but there are no more girls, she is special after all, or rather, Li Ru doesn't love women, it's just that she happens to be a woman......

After breaking up with her, Li Ru was not sad, and even felt relieved, the long-standing knot in her heart was untied, and she no longer hated her, even if she saw her again, she could face it calmly.

I don't regret falling in love with her, and I don't regret losing Yiqiē, if she didn't have those, she wouldn't be able to grow up quickly and she would still be that immature self.

But Li Ru also clearly knows that he is a contradictory person, and he is extremely contradictory.

has become such a character, and because of such a family relationship, I longed for family affection but couldn't, and I always hoped that my relatives could be kind to me and care for me a little bit......

Gradually, Li Ru saw it, this did not belong to her, and even, Li Ru hated them, and she was also disgusted with the world, until her father's business improved, and the family became the richest among the relatives, and the relatives also began to be kind to Li Ru, with a pleasant face, they would give pocket money, and they would joke.

But at this time, Li Ru looked at it coldly, and even glad that she understood a lot, was betrayed by her friends a lot, and knew a lot about the world, so no matter what her relatives were, Li Ru was still very cold, and her parents also came to persuade Li Ru, and even said good things about the people they complained about in the past, no longer complaining but comforting, and her family even said why she was cold to them.

once persuaded Li Ru from his first love, and said to Li Ru: "You are really cold, you are really willing to treat family affection, it can be said that you are cold-blooded." ”

"You haven't been in my point of view, so you don't understand, when I used to care so much and have extravagant expectations, they spurned me and looked down on me, and I rarely even got the love of my family, your family is harmonious, and relatives often visit each other to have a good relationship, and even relatives will give you pocket money from time to time, but do you know, recalling my childhood, my memories are black, lonely, twenty years, that pain is engraved in my bones, so my cold-blooded is also in my bones, everyone has different personalities and different views, so I can't say my pain, You can't understand it either. ”

The more you want, the more you can't get it, you have to know how to be satisfied and not to hope for what you shouldn't get, and you can't live long, Li Ru has deep feelings.

took a deep breath, Li Ru regretted only one thing in his last life, and he regretted it so much that he wanted to cut himself with a thousand knives at that time!