It's that I'm too conceited and too confident, I thought that everyone was thinking the same as me, and even more like me, but now I realized that the heart is different. The life you envision is naturally different.

They have the way they want to live, I have the way I want to live, I just take care of myself, where can I manage others.

This is called sweeping the snow in front of the door, and don't care about the frost on the tiles of others.

After I turned off the computer, I went to the bathroom to wash up casually, and after washing, after I finished breakfast, I said to Xiaolan, "Okay, after a night with you here, I should go back too." ”

Xiao Lan kept me and said, "Won't you stay here for a while?" I don't have to go to work anyway. ”

I smiled and said, "No, I still have work to do." ”

Xiaolan wanted to say something, but I patted her on the shoulder and said, "Let's go." ”

Xiaolan wanted to say something, but I wrapped myself tightly in my clothes and didn't wait for her words.

I was walking around the bleak street alone, and I didn't know what I was going to do, so I insisted on buying a copy of this morning's morning newspaper. I found that Yuan Jiangdong's affairs were wiped clean, I sat alone on the road holding the newspaper and laughed for a long time, laughing until my tears came out, I leaned on the street sign, looked at the pedestrians coming and going, wiped the tears on my face, and stood there stupidly, in a daze.

After sitting all the way in the evening, I calmly walked back and returned to Shen's house. The servants were all overjoyed at my return, though I did not know whether they were really happy or happy, and as I passed by the drawing-room, I was about to go upstairs, when suddenly the voice of the second lady came from behind me, and I looked back at her, and she said, "You look very bad." ”

I said, "Maybe it's a cold." ”

I threw down this sentence and went straight to my room without paying attention to the second wife.

But not long after, there was a knock on the door outside us, and I leaned back on the bed and said expressionlessly, "Who?" ”

Outside the door was the voice of the second wife, and she said, "It's me." ”

I said, "I'm sleeping, you don't have to come in." ”

But who knew that as soon as I said this, the door was pushed open, and the second wife walked in from outside, holding a bowl of things in her hand, and she saw me lying on the bed. Walking towards me, she put the tray on the coffee table and said, "This is ginger soup, I just have a little cold, and by the way, there is still a little left in the pot, you can drink it." ”

I was a little surprised and panicked, the second wife was so good to me, it really made me a little uncomfortable.

I looked at her for a long time, and when she saw that I was slow to move, she sneered and said, "You think I want to harm you?" ”

I said, "No, it's just a surprise." ”

The second wife said, "Accident? ”

I picked up the bowl of ginger soup on the tray and said, "According to the relationship between the two of us, you should put a spoonful of arsenic in this bowl of ginger soup." ”

I stirred the soup in the bowl with a spoon. The second wife said: "To be honest, there are only two of us in this huge Shen family now, and once people are lonely. I feel that even the annoyance will become more pleasing to the eye. ”

I took a sip of ginger soup and said, "Two widows, to be honest, we really have the same disease. ”

I said self-deprecatingly.

The second wife said, "I sympathize with you. ”

I shook my hand with the spoon and raised my face to look at her.

The second wife said: "I sympathize with you, you can only be trapped in this house at a young age, I pity you, you will actually let yourself go a step." "Tubian Huaba.

When I heard this, I smiled and said: "It should be that I pity you, you will be trapped in this until you are old and dead, and I am still young and have a long way to go, no one can say what kind of accidents and miracles will happen in the future, so the second wife should pity herself." ”

The second wife said: "Drink well, first tidy up the wolf bèi's self, and then take pity on me." ”

After she left, I looked at the bowl of ginger soup in my hand for a long time, smiled faintly, lowered my head and took a sip, thinking, what do I have to be pitiful, I am not pitiful at all, I am just stupid, I still believe in fairy tales, and at the same time I still believe that there are miracles in this world.

But is there a miracle or not, in fact, it is like a ghost, there are too many people, and how many people have really seen it?

After I drank the bowl of ginger soup, I rested myself in the quilt, and I had no dreams all night, and when I opened my eyes in the morning, I made a man beside my bed, and I was shocked, but soon I calmed down, and after sitting on the bed, I looked at him calmly and said, "Morning." ”

Shen Boteng, who had his back to me, turned his face sideways and looked at me and said, "It's not early." ”

I glanced at the sun outside and saw that the sun was shining, it was a very good day, and I said, "It's really not early." ”

After I stood there slowly and got dressed, I walked to the window and pulled back all the half-covered curtains to let the sunlight outside into the room, and I said to Shen Boteng, "I lost." ”

Shen Boteng, who was sitting on the bed, raised his eyebrows slightly and looked at me, and I said, "You should know what I admit I lost, right?" ”

He said, "What do you want to say. ”

I said, "It's nothing, I'm willing to gamble and lose, just do whatever you want to do to me." ”

Shen Boteng lowered his eyes and said with a low smile: "I know what you are talking about. He paused and said, "It's just that I don't know where you threw in the towel, after all, this war is not over yet, you still have a chance to continue, and you haven't been kicked out yet." ”

I said, "If I keep going, I don't feel like I'm going to lose, isn't Yuan Jiangdong being investigated?" Although I don't know what his result was, but at least I still hurt him, and scared him, since then, as long as Yuan Jiangdong is mentioned in other people's ears, they will definitely think of the words Jiangnan Club, or he will die, but it will damage his reputation, I estimate that even if he returns unharmed this time, his future actions may not be as arrogant as before. I sneered and said: "Actually, I knew early on that I wouldn't win, I just wasn't reconciled, I wasn't willing to wait too long, I wasn't willing to let Sister Xu die, I was unwilling to be too much, so I took my life's luck to gamble, and the result was obvious, God has never stood by my side, and I have no good luck in my life, so I lost, but I didn't lose in his hands, I just lost in people's hearts." ”

Shen Boteng smiled and said, "Oh? Popularity? ”

I said with some sighs: "There is too much nonsense, in a word, I admit defeat." ”

Shen Boteng didn't speak.

The atmosphere was a little awkward, I turned around to ease the atmosphere and make myself look relatively calm, but when I turned around slightly, my eyes suddenly caught a glimpse of something outside the window, which made me break out in a cold sweat.

Directly opposite the window, there was a muzzle of a gun pointed in the direction of my room like the hand of death, I stood there stiffly for a long time, and after a long time, I turned to look at Shen Boteng, who was still sitting before, and said, "Did you know where I was yesterday?" ”

Shen Boteng looked at me with a strange face, but he smiled and asked easily: "Fortunately, it was a woman who was with you yesterday." Shen Boteng said: "If it is a man, it is estimated that you will not have a chance to return to the Shen family." ”

I said, "Yesterday you thought you were going to kill me." ”

Shen Boteng got up from the bed, walked to a table, picked up a black chess piece from the chessboard, and played with it in his hand: "For things that are not controlled, I usually choose to get rid of them, or destroy them, but I don't know why for you, such rules are always postponed step by step, pushed to the back, only to find that it almost made a big mistake, I am very troubled, how to treat you, you will be controlled by me, at my mercy." ”

The black chess piece on Shen Boteng's fingertips lightly landed on the jade plate, and he sneered: "I think, I should have chosen this method of dealing with it early on, and there would not be so many troublesome things to bother me in the future." ”

I subconsciously took a few steps back and said, "Yes, you should have done this a long time ago, and you should have made such a choice on the day you were out of your control." ”

Shen Boteng saw my sad and happy look, and he said, "Think about it yourself." ”

When he said this, he turned away from me and went out of my room, and I thought that the muzzle behind me must have been pierced through my head when he went out, and with a bang, something had pierced through my head, but I stiffened my neck and waited for a long time, but I didn't wait.

When I turned around to look, the muzzle of the gun on the opposite floor disappeared with Shen Boteng's departure.

I sat down on the ground, covered my face with my hands, and laughed, I didn't know what I was laughing at, I just thought it was very funny, it turned out that he wanted to kill me, and he had already had it.

It turns out that there has been a ...... for a long time

I smiled and looked around, laughed for a long time, the smile on the corner of my mouth stopped, and I couldn't smile anymore, just sat there with a numb expression, no sadness or joy.

After that, after such a thing happened, I basically stopped leaving the Shen family, no matter what happened in the outside world, I didn't pay attention to it, every day I wandered around like a ghost in the huge mansion of the Shen family, and the servants greeted me, and I didn't pay attention to it.

Just doing my thing and living in my own world.

I don't know how Yuan Jiangdong got out of danger, I didn't observe, but I think, how can a person like him fall so lightly, and he can't fall at all.

At this time, I realized how naïve, how stupid, how ridiculous, and how simple and incredible.

At the age of twenty-three, he still loves fantasy and imagination, and he is still too immature compared to these scheming people.

During that time, there were only two people in the huge Shen family, me and the second wife, and it was rare that the two people got along very harmoniously, when she recited the Buddha and chanted in the ancestral hall, I knelt on the futon with her, sometimes a kneel, it was a whole day, and the heart was extremely peaceful.

The second wife said that the reason why people have troubles is because they think too much, ask for too much, take too much, can't let go of too much, and hate too much.