When the doctors injected the anesthetic into my body, I fell into a deep sleep.

This dream is very distant, so far away that I don't know the years, all the fragments that appear in the dream are fragments, those fragments are very miscellaneous, as long as the faces of people who have had a relationship in my life appear very strangely in my dreams. And I myself was like watching a movie, allowing those images to pass by frame by frame in front of my eyes.

I thought I was going to live my whole life in this silent black-and-white movie, but the good times didn't last long, the warmth around me faded little by little, I felt a sharp pain in my body, I suddenly opened my eyes, the pain in my body did not go away, and the loud cry of a baby was in my ears.

Before I could see what I saw, a pair of hands landed on my forehead and brushed away the hair that was covering my forehead. His warm voice came to my ears, and he said, "Congratulations, you're finally awake." "The ditch is dead.

I looked at him with blurred eyes, and after looking at him for a long time, I realized that this voice was Shen Boteng's, although he had heavy dark circles under his eyes, he couldn't hide his exhaustion. But there was a gentle smile in his eyes, and the smile was straight to the bottom of his eyes, without calculation or cunning, and it was a very peaceful and contented smile.

His smile suddenly made me feel a little like a world away.

But the child's crying still did not stop in the room, it was very loud and energetic. The nurse, who was coaxing the child on the side, suddenly walked over and asked Shen Boteng with a smile if he wanted to give his mother a hug.

Shen Boteng glanced at me, smiled, then took the child from the nurse's hand, sat on the chair and showed the child to me and said, "Look, is it like you or like me." ”

Because of the pain in my lower abdomen, my lower body couldn't move at all, and I could only squint my eyes to see, and the baby in the swaddling clothes was very weak and his skin was very red. Because of the hoarse crying, his facial features were huddled together.

I looked at the child for a long time before I said, "It's ugly." ”

When Shen Boteng heard my first words, he smiled, and he looked at the child with a little fat hand in his arms who was grabbing people indiscriminately and said, "Aren't all children like this when they are born?" Maybe when you were born, you weren't as beautiful as he was. ”

Hold out a hand from the child. I just wanted to take my hand and touch the child, but as soon as he touched it, he found that my hand was very cold and still trembling, he suddenly seemed to understand something, looked at me for a long time, he smiled at me and said, "I'm very excited, isn't it?" ”

I want to deny it, after all, I don't expect much from this child, but when he was really born into this world safely, I suddenly had an indescribable sense of shock.

Because this life is conceived from my body, this is ...... My child, I became a mother.

This change of identity made me scared, surprised, and worried.

In this complex situation, how do I deal with this child? To pet this child?

Shen Boteng saw that my face was a little timid, he raised my hand and said: "I was also very nervous at first, when he separated from your body, he was a small lump, covered in blood, but he was still crying loudly with his mouth open, that kind of feeling, people can't speak." ”

Shen Boteng distracted me as he spoke, and I didn't know when his hand had been placed on the child's small hand.

This moment is really magical, when my hand touched the child's little fleshy hand, he also seemed to feel the sense, after the little hand grabbed my thumb, he didn't cry, he didn't make trouble, but kicked his little feet, hummed and chirped twice, and soon fell asleep.

I stared at his little fleshy face, and suddenly found that I couldn't see enough of it, and I couldn't take my eyes off, Shen Boteng saw the desire in my eyes, so he smiled and handed the child to me, he helped me to sit up from the bed, I held the child, and he hugged me from behind.

The three of us suddenly became very quiet, so quiet that the nurses on the side did not dare to make a sound, and all stood there with bated breath.

I sat there with the child in my arms and watched for more than ten minutes, and suddenly thought about it and asked Shen Boteng: "Is it a man or a woman?" ”

Shen Boteng didn't tell me the answer, but let me guess.

I thought for a moment and said, "Male? ”

Shen Boteng said: "Daughter." ”

I said, "I like my son." ”

Shen Boteng chuckled, his laughter was hearty, I had never seen him so happy, he said, "My daughter is very good." ”

I didn't speak, I just stared at the child's face, and kept thinking in my heart, why is it not like me and Shen Boteng at all? It's ugly.

When I was disgusted like this, my body suddenly shook and I remembered something.

That's Yuan Changming, how is Yuan Changming.

Thinking of this, I didn't dare to delay for even a second, and immediately threw the child into Shen Boteng's arms, grabbed his arm and said, "What about Yuan Changming?" Where did Yuan Changming go? How is he in health? Is there a danger to life? ”

Shen Boteng saw that my face was full of anxiety, and he couldn't even care about the child, and it was for Yuan Changming, whom he hated the most, he was naturally unhappy, the smile on his face disappeared, and he didn't answer any of the questions I asked just now, but asked me instead: "He is so important?" ”

I said, "Don't you know, if it weren't for him at that time, the people who died would have been me and my child, do you think he is important?" ”

Shen Boteng said: "His life is not in danger. ”

Ignoring the pain in my body, I got up and got out of bed.

After Shen Boteng handed the child back to the nurse, he stopped me and asked, "Where are you going?" ”

I said, "I have to go see him." ”

Shen Boteng said: "He's not here. ”

I thought I had misheard, so I asked with a surprised expression, "What?" ”

Shen Boteng said: "The bullet did not hurt him, but only hit him in the shoulder, the wound was not very deep, he stayed in the hospital overnight, and then left by himself, I sent someone to find him, but I don't know where he went." ”

My first instinct was denial, and I said, "How is that possible?" There was so much blood at that time, I saw that he was shot in the chest, how could it be the shoulder? ”

Shen Boteng squinted his eyes slightly with some displeasure and said, "It seems that you don't believe what I just said." ”

I was a little angry, and I couldn't control the nameless fire in my heart and said, "Shen Boteng? Can you please not be so narrow-minded? I said that there has been no relationship between me and him for a long time, and the reason why I am so anxious to see him is because this time I really want to thank him if it weren't for him, your child would be more auspicious at this time, and then again, the person who should thank him is you. ”

Shen Boteng sneered and said, "Liang Sheng, do you think I am really as narrow as you think?" If you think that I deliberately wanted to hide Yuan Changming and prevent you from meeting, you can go to him now, and if you find him, I will let you take the child and leave with him. ”

Naturally, I won't believe Yuan Changming's words, I have to see him in person, and I have to go to him in person, until I see him in person.

Now that something like this has happened to Yuan Zi, he is injured again, how can he go far, he will not disappear like last time.

I stubbornly crawled out of bed, and Shen Boteng stopped stopping me.

I rushed out of the ward, looking up and down the inpatient building, and when I walked to the back room, which was Yuan Zi's room, I stopped, stood in the closed doorway and hesitated for a long time, hesitated for about four or five minutes, but I still stretched out my hand and pushed the door open.

When they were completely opened, Yuan Zi was not on the hospital bed, nor in the room, I thought she was transferred to the hospital, how could Shen Boteng let me live in the same building as Yuan Zi at the same time?

As I was thinking this, I suddenly smelled a strange burning smell in my room, which seemed to be the smell of burning the contents of the paper.

I rushed in directly from the door and ran to the balcony in the room, where Yuan Zi was squatting in front of a brazier, constantly throwing the paper in his hand into the burning brazier.

I couldn't hear what was being said in my mouth, it was very quiet, and it was very upside down.

I stood there and watched her for a long time, and she burned so focused that she didn't even notice my presence.

The light of the fire reflected on her face, giving her pale face a hint of blood.

After she burned the paper in her hand, she found that it was gone, so she got up in a panic and wanted to go to the room, but as soon as she turned around, she found me standing behind her.

She looked at me for a long time, and as if nothing had happened, as if she hadn't noticed me, she walked directly past me, and said in her mouth: "Where is the money, where does the money go, I want to burn a lot of money for them, otherwise what if they are hungry?" ”

As soon as she walked to the table, she suddenly said, "Yes, there are still quilts, there are no quilts, what should they do if they are cold, I will burn them over." ”

After she said this, she pulled out a sheet from the bed and walked into the balcony, I followed her and asked, "Yuan Zi, where is Changming?" Have you seen Changming these days? ”

When Yuan Zi heard my words, she wanted to throw the sheet into the brazier, but she turned around and asked me, "Changming?" ”

I said, "Yes, what about Changming?" ”

I saw that her expression seemed to have seen Changming, but who knew that in the next second, she laughed out loud, laughed so much that she cried and said, "Changming? You ask me Changming? ”

I didn't quite understand what she meant, so I could only wait.

But I knew that she just wanted to open her mouth to speak, her eyes suddenly glanced behind me, her pupils were instantly full of fear, she covered her head and trembled all over her body and said: "I don't know where Changming went, I haven't seen him, don't ask me, don't ask me, I don't know, I really don't know." ”

After she finished speaking, she remembered that she had nothing to do, and quickly threw the sheet in her hand into the brazier, and the fire suddenly burst out.

When I looked back, I found Shen Boteng standing behind me.