158.Chapter 158
Wang Zixian has not closed his eyes for almost two days and two nights, and he is indeed extremely tired. After hearing Li Hui's response, he felt a little relieved in his heart, and then felt sleepiness surging up one after another. After a while, his eyes seemed to be open and closed, and he was about to fall asleep, but he immediately struggled to wake up. Moreover, he still held Li Hui's wrist tightly, as if he was still panicking in his heart that he would leave him.
"Sleep." Li Hui sat beside him until he closed his eyes and his breathing gradually became steady, and then carefully withdrew his hand. Wang Zixian seemed to be aware of it in his sleep, and his brows were furrowed, and his expression gradually changed. So, he had to take the initiative to hold his palm, and then he saw that his expression was relaxed.
After a long time, Li Huifang sighed lowly: "I don't want to leave you...... It's just that Zixian, the love between men and men, how taboo. In an instant, you are enemies of your family, with other people, and against all the etiquette of the world. You are the youngest head of the dynasty, and I am the king of the dignified clan, once you are ruined, there will be no day to turn over, and maybe you will lose a qiē. When that happens, what will happen to you and me? Even if we are willing to endure hardship, do we still have the ability to protect ourselves? ”
He believes that there must be a love of life and death in the world, and at the same time, he feels that he should cherish this life that has been so hard to come back. Fighting for power is to protect the family, and the road ahead is already full of dangers; If he loses his family due to personal affairs, and is unable to protect himself or even his loved ones, he will have nothing. What is the difference between such a life and being trapped in Junzhou in the previous life, lonely and tormented, and having nothing to rely on?
"Perhaps, only by taking a step back and maintaining the brotherly affection and the righteousness of friends, can we be—"
He whispered, as if trying to convince himself. However, his gaze fell irrepressibly on Wang Zixian's face. At this moment, he realized very clearly that he had a deep love for this person. Between them, there may not be any "brotherly love" or "friendship righteousness". Perhaps, they are also doomed to not be able to go back.
In the flickering lights, the face of King Xin'an flickered and dimmed, as if it was gradually clouded, but in the next moment, it was shining again. Reluctance, pain, and suffering made him feel a little more depressed. It doesn't seem that Li Hui and Li Xuanqi, the king of Xin'an County, who has gradually broken free from the shackles in this life, are more like the person who was depressed and died of a serious illness in his previous life.
The night passed, and Li Hui almost didn't move. It wasn't until Mother Zhang came in with the maid that he pulled his hand out of the prince's palm without a trace. Xu was in a position for too long, and when he got up, he was a little shaky and almost fell to the ground.
Mother Zhang was shocked, and hurriedly came over to support him: "San Lang, what's wrong?" ”
"It's okay, Mother Fu can rest assured." Li Hui smiled bitterly. It's just that I've been sitting all night, and I'm sore and numb, and it's really fine. It's just that when he asked carefully, he couldn't clearly say why he stayed up all night and why he couldn't sleep well: "Today should not be the Shuowang Dynasty, but the Chang Dynasty." ”
He glanced back at Wang Zixian, hesitated slightly, frowned, and said, "I don't worry about Zixian, just send someone to take a small vacation." "There are still many things that have not been explained last night, and perhaps there is still some misunderstanding between the mutual understanding. The two of them really need to be more open-minded, so that they don't feel more painful when they break off in the future.
Mother Zhang was slightly stunned and sighed: "Today is the third day of the first month of March, and it is the day of rest, why is San Lang still thinking about official business?" "I'm afraid that what can make the heart of my little county king chaotic is not just official business, but Wang Langjun who is resting peacefully on the couch? On weekdays, Wang Langjun always wakes up earlier than San Lang, but now he is still asleep, which really makes people have to think a little more......
The well-informed Zhang Fumu glanced at Li Hui, who looked very surprised, and couldn't help but say again: "If Wang Langjun is unwell, he doesn't have to go out today, just purifying by the lake in the back garden is enough." The old slave will later tell the servants to decorate our own garden. ”
"That's fine." Li Hui didn't know what she was thinking, and breathed a sigh of relief, "I didn't expect that it would be the Shangsi Festival in a blink of an eye, and the lunch would be placed by the lake." ”
"Is Wang Langjun okay? Do you need to call a doctor to take a look? Mother Zhang couldn't help but ask again.
Li Hui looked at Wang Zixian's sleeping face and shook his head: "Let's wait for Zixian to wake up." Of course, he is not an ignorant and ignorant ordinary young man, but no matter how smart he is, I am afraid that his mother would have seen through the mutual affection between him and Wang Zixian. Now, she even misunderstood the progress of the two of them, feeling relieved and relieved, but she couldn't help but worry and get nervous.
So, when the prince woke up from a good night's sleep, he found that Zhang Fumu's eyes seemed a little strange. However, when he looked more closely, she regained her normal appearance, and naturally asked the maids to bring water to serve them to wash, and let the kitchen carefully prepare the morning food that was easy to restrain herself.
After the morning meal, the two went to the study to discuss matters.
Because he didn't say it explicitly last night, Li Hui asked Wang Zixian about the process of learning the truth. After Wang Zixian said without concealment, he couldn't help but sigh lightly: "If it weren't for this Zeng family to expose this matter, maybe the old Fu Mu and Cheng Suo and Qing Suo would continue to wait for the right time." They don't want to avenge your mother, but they just don't want you to suffer because of it. ”
"This is destiny." At this moment, Wang Zixian had completely calmed down and remained calm as usual, "I have already set up a game for Xiao Yang's family, and I will never let her spend the rest of her life in a good manner." Now that we know the truth, it doesn't hurt to use some means. The qiē she had obtained by exhausting her tricks at the beginning was naturally impossible to keep. After the dreams of husband, children, wealth and glory are shattered one by one, she will have nothing left. As for Wang Chang, he will naturally get the end he deserves. ”
"Where's Zimu?" Li Hui asked again, "If the brotherly relationship between you and him is in trouble because of Xiao Yang's family, it would be a pity." From what he saw, as a son of man, there was no fault in the prince's determination to take revenge, and if Wang Zimu wanted to protect Xiao Yang's family, it could be regarded as human nature. It's a pity that the brotherhood between them is very likely to cease to exist because of this.
"I don't want to hide it from him." The prince bowed his head, "But I don't need to tell him what I have done about it. As for how much brotherhood will be left in the future, I don't force it. He hooked the corners of his lips and raised his eyes again, "Xuanqi, as long as you stay with me, I will be satisfied." ”
"......" The two looked at each other, their eyes mingling. After a while, Li Hui slowly turned his gaze away.
Wang Zixian narrowed his eyes: "Xuan Qi, do you remember what you promised me last night?" "Last night, he broke the kettle and said everything that should be said and shouldn't be said - but why was Xuanqi's reaction so capricious? Could it be that what he said is not clear enough? Xuan Qi still plans to continue to cover his ears and steal the bell?
"I remember." Li Hui replied in a low voice, his gaze still wandering, obviously unable to convince himself even of himself, "It is precisely because I remember to promise you that I will never be separated in this life, that I think that there must be no more rules between us." Otherwise...... If you deviate from the scriptures, you will not be tolerated by the world, let alone accepted by your family. ”
"So what?" Wang Zixian smiled softly, the corners of his eyes and eyebrows revealed a strong obsession that no one could shake, "What if you are not tolerated by the world?" What if you are not accepted by your family? Don't we still have each other? Xuanqi, you are always like this, looking forward and hesitating; You are always overthinking and are not willing to take risks; You always think only about others, your family, and never think about yourself. ”
He stared at him with clear eyes, as if he could radiate, calm and confident, and even a little aggressive: "You might as well ask your heart, can you please me?" Would you like to stay with me for a long time? Would you like to grow old with me? If you want to, we should be together, and there is no need to worry about any difficulties and obstacles, and we will have our own solutions in the future! If you don't want to, then we'll be just friends, just brothers!! ”
Li Hui was silent for a while, and his face became more and more gloomy.
It is precisely because he has questioned his heart that he is now so entangled in contradictions. The road was too difficult, and he feared that the two of them would not make it to the end, and that they would end up scarred and left with nothing. Perhaps, as Zixian said, he has always lived too forbearing, and he has become accustomed to living in the rules, and he has gradually lost the courage to try.
He is like a prison bird with his wings cut off, even if he yearns for freedom, it is difficult to spread his wings and fly out of the cage and rise into the sky......
At this moment, Wang Zixian, who was sitting only across the bookcase from him, suddenly approached. Before he could react, he clasped his jaw and kissed him on the lips - since it had been ruined last night, he didn't mind breaking it again!!
The lips are pressed together, not only soft and warm, but also with an inexplicable power that makes people tremble from the bottom of the heart to the body. Li Hui only felt as if he had drunk the sweetest and strongest liquor in the world, his mind was blank, he couldn't think about anything, but the hot feeling burned from his lips and mouth to the depths of his heart. Then, there was a wave of dizziness, that is, drunk and unwilling to wake up.
Their lips and tongues intersected, tasting the liquid in each other's mouths, and storing them warmly. Sometimes they are very gentle, as if they are carefully trying to lick each other's little beasts; Sometimes it was extremely intense, as if they had to completely tear each other apart.
From beginning to end, the two looked at each other, and all kinds of feelings fell in each other's eyes, empathizing.
When the long kiss finally ended, Li Hui sat in place in a daze, and never came back to his senses for a long time.
Wang Zixian calmed the clamor in his chest, and said with a low and magnetic gasp: "It is long overdue to kiss you like this, lest you continue to think cranky." Xuanqi, you should understand, we are destined to be together. No matter how much reason is suppressed, the body's reaction is always deceiving-why can't they be together when they both want each other?
“…… I need to think about it again. Li Hui replied in a low voice.
Hearing this, the prince hooked the corners of his lips and said, "It's okay, you can think about it." "If you press him too hard, you will most likely force him to escape. He knew him too well, and once he didn't have any scruples, he naturally knew when to enter and when to retreat.
"I'll go out first, and I'll leave you alone to make a decision." With that, Wang Zixian simply got up and left.