When I returned to the county seat, it was already dark, and instead of sending me home, he drove the car to a building in the easternmost corner of the Lido Jiayuan community and stopped.

"Where is this?"

I was puzzled and asked, "This is my dormitory, I lived here when I was not in the factory."

He said.

"Oh"

My heart pounded, and I sat in the car and didn't move.

He got out of the car, closed the door, came over to me and opened the door on my side and said, "Aren't you going to come down?" ”

Knowing that if I went down, our relationship would change substantially, and I had no room to back down, I looked out the dark window, closed my eyes, opened my eyes and looked at him, and got out of the car.

Actually, I didn't see anything, I just thought why hold back when I've come this far?

This person may be worth the risk, I've been alone for so long, I need someone to walk with me for a while.

I looked at my watch, it was already past twelve o'clock, and when I saw that I was going to get up and get dressed, he asked, "Are you going back tonight?" ”

"I have to go to work tomorrow"

I say.

"Can't you go to work from here tomorrow?"

"I still have a son at home, and the first thing he does when he gets up every morning is to run to my room and hug me.

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"Do you want to do this for the rest of you?"

He also got out of bed and pulled me into his arms and asked.

"Friday and Saturday may be able to stay, he sleeps in the morning"

I said with a smile.

He kissed me on the cheek and sighed lowly and said, "Got it, still, can you call me when it's convenient?" Don't leave me without your news for a long time"

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I smiled and nodded, although we had gone to bed, I was still a little uncomfortable with his affectionate words, I could accept the longing of two men and women who had been lonely for a long time, but I was not used to the sudden closeness of the emotions of this man who had always given me a faint feeling.

He sent me to the door of the family home, stopped the car and turned off the fire, turned his head to look at me, reached out and gently brushed his fingers on my face and said: "Still, I know that our relationship is a little fast, I wanted to give you some more time to think about it, but in the morning I saw you standing on the stairs of the office building looking at me so strange and so far away, I am afraid that you will completely retreat, I know that our relationship is unfair to you, but I really don't want to miss you"

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I looked at him and smiled and said, "There's nothing unfair about it, I don't want to miss you, I think that's good"

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I got out of the car, waved my hand at him, and turned around and walked into the family home.

I finally took this step, nothing good and nothing bad, he is not Li Jiaming, he is a man I chose with my feelings instead of reason, his attitude of being like leaving, if there is no affection, I feel relaxed and safe, he is not a person here, whether in life or emotionally he is just a "passerby"

, there is no pressure when we are together, and I hope I don't miss it when I leave.

Yes, I've been lonely for too long, I need someone to keep me company, and he's wise and generous and doesn't demand too much from me, that's the most important thing.

Standing in the family courtyard looking at the dark window of my house, I didn't want to go home, the lights of all the houses in the courtyard were dark, and people were sleeping quietly.

The sky is full of stars, they are so lively, and I am standing alone under the night sky, tears involuntarily gushing out, at this moment I really hate Wu Tianyang, from the moment he abandoned me, my fate is destined not to run on the normal track.

The short marriage with Li Jiaming, and the affection that seems to end at any time with this lover who is about to leave is my life, I admit it.

But I don't know where I will be in the future and who I will be with, do I really have the courage to die alone?

When this matter was a foregone conclusion, I was relieved and no longer entangled in it, pulling Zhang Zhiqiang to teach me to practice for a few days, in the end, I learned it seriously, and I picked it up quickly, and I felt that I could go on the road and bought a car.

He heard me say that he bought a Santana Lavida for more than 100,000 yuan, looked at me for a while and said, "The money you give you can buy a better car, can't you be reluctant?" I can give it to you when you need money in the future."

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I looked at him and said disapprehantly: "It's not reluctant, I'm not short of money to spend, but I don't want to be so public, there's no need for people all over the world to know that I have a lot of money, right?" Besides, I like this car, the cars of our Public Security Bureau are basically this series of cars, this car is very durable, it feels very friendly and easy to drive, this car is not conspicuous where it is parked, for me the car is used for transportation, not for showing off, OK? ”

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He lowered his eyes and was silent for a moment, and I knew he understood what I had just said about the fear of revealing our relationship.

After a while, he took my hand and smiled faintly and said, "Whatever you like, change it later if you don't like it!" ”

I squinted at him and said unhappily: "Don't talk to me in this tone, I'm not a person at your level, and I don't imagine living like you, changing cars, watches, and women at every turn!" ”

He reached out and touched my face: "Why are you so sensitive?" It's a little stingy! But it's like a little woman."

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I also felt a little embarrassed, turned my head and smiled and avoided his hand.

We get along very indifferently, not often together, never talk about love when we are together, he likes to hold me in his arms to read books and movies together, not the passion of young people, just gentle companionship, I can feel that he has been lonely for a long time like me.

I also posted it on the side when I watched him write, and my handwriting was far from his, but I didn't care.

He saw me crawling on the table and seriously copying a picture of flowers and birds in "Bamboo Branches of the Past Dynasties", and said with a smile: "Have you started to learn to paint?" ”

I smiled and tilted my head to look at him and said, "What do you say!" How did you start learning to draw? I have drawing skills, and when I was in elementary school, I didn't listen to the teacher's lecture in class, and I drew in the textbook and let the teacher punish the teacher! ”

He picked up my painting and looked at it, nodded his head and said with a smile, "It seems that it was the foundation of that time."

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I tilted my head and smiled: "Then I am also an all-round lady in piano, chess, calligraphy and painting."

"What do you know?"

He asked curiously, "Xiangqi and Go are slightly familiar, and checkers, military chess, and five-character chess are more proficient."

I looked at him with a smile in my eyes.

He pursed his lips and smiled: "It's already very good, it's higher than the level of painting."

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We naturally and quietly rely on each other, like old friends who have known each other for many years, and like old couples who have passed for decades, I can feel that he, like me, leaves a lot of room for our future end.

We all like to watch classic old movies, like to watch science fiction movies, thrillers, and movies that one person didn't dare to watch before are now turned out to watch.

He laughed at me and said, "Are there any movies you don't dare to watch?" I see that you don't look scared at all when you talk about the dead."

"In fact, the least terrible thing is the dead, and the terrible thing is the living"

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The weather is getting hotter and hotter, Xiao Shen shouted that Saturday and Sunday into the mountain to escape the heat, and I discussed going to the back mountain for two days, she heard that the scenery of the back mountain is very good.

I said that the scenery of the back mountain is really good, but my driving skills are okay on the asphalt road in the city, and my current level of running into the mountain is a little worse, and the mountain road in the back mountain is too dangerous.

Called Yang Lei and asked him if he was on duty this week, if he wasn't on duty, we would go into the mountains to play together, Li Hua and Sha Xiaoliang heard that we were going to go into the mountains to play and come over to join in the fun, everyone was discussing what to prepare when Zheng Duo walked in.

I smiled and said to him, "We are discussing going into the mountains on Saturday and Sunday for two days, will you go?" ”

Zheng Duo looked at me with a smirk and said, "It's too cautious to buy a car, isn't it?" Don't wait for Saturday and Sunday, tomorrow will go into the mountain, Qiao Qidong called, a herdsman in the mountain went to the police station to report the case, and found a female corpse in the back mountain, tomorrow into the mountain, can you do it? ”

"What's wrong with that? It's not like I haven't been in."

I said excitedly.

"This time it's the back mountain, the road is very dangerous, prepare enough things to enter the mountain, ropes, water clothes, and food will be prepared today, and you will leave early tomorrow morning. Forensic doctor Xiao Chai goes, technician Xiao Hu goes, investigator you and Yang Lei go, police station goes to a policeman, and the herdsman who reported the case, I will lead the team, it is estimated that it will take two or three days, and prepare food for three or four days."

Then he said to Yang Lei: "Go to the Public Security Department to apply for guns and ammunition, bring a submachine gun, bring two pistols, and apply for more ammunition."

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I smiled and said, "Are you going to go into the mountains to hunt?" ”

\t"You think you're going to play?" There are many wolves, wild boars, bears and beasts in the back mountains! It's cold in the mountains, you bring more clothes."

Zheng Duo said with a straight face, turned around and walked out of the office after speaking.

I made a grimace at Zheng Duo's back, everyone can see that he has something on his mind now, and this time he led the team into the mountain to soothe his mood.

I know that it is cold in the mountains, so I not only brought more clothes, but also a lot of snacks melon seeds, peanut candy, chocolate, sesame sugar, chicken feet, and beef jerky.

Sha Xiaoliang drove with me to buy something, and asked me quietly: "Sister Lin, don't you plan to bring two bottles of wine?" Why didn't Team Zheng let me go? You tell Team Zheng to bring me with you."

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I really want to say yes, but thinking of Zheng Duo's face of talking about politics all day and night dispelled this thought, and now he is at a critical moment, don't make trouble for him, so I had to say to Shasha: "NO, this time I went out for work, five prohibitions, and you can't drink alcohol during working hours."

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"Who knows in the deep mountains and old forests?"

"Shen Du, do you know that the gentleman does not deceive the dark room?"

Sha Xiaoliang shook his head in disappointment and said, "I don't know, I don't understand, I don't understand."

I laughed and said, "Sasha, we can't take you there, but we can buy you chocolate!" ”

"Sister Lin, I've grown up!"

Sha Xiaoliang shouted.