The sons are gone, Jiang Xinya is also gone, and my life is empty. I used to think about finding some time to read a book when I was busy, but now I don't want to do anything after work.

My parents are gone because of Li Haoyu, and they are even more idle, the weather is cold, I put them in Linshui Village, let them dry some spicy skins and dried beans with their parents-in-law to pass the time, and I often stay in Linshui Village on my days off.

Cheng Shaojie's eldest sister Cheng Yanhua married in this village, her son Sun Linbing was a very honest young man, because he was bullied by Liu Xinlong several times in the village, Cheng Shaojie knew that Liu Xinlong fell horizontally and vertically on the ground and couldn't climb up, and since then he has been obedient to Cheng Shaojie, and he dares to play in front of others but is obedient in front of Cheng Shaojie. Sun Linbing therefore envied his uncle's good skills in the army, and when the county recruited soldiers, he ran to sign up for two years as a soldier. After coming back, I didn't have much talent, and I didn't want to stay in the countryside anymore. In the past few years, I have worked as a security guard and an assistant police officer in the county, and now I am driving for the boss in a company. Not long ago, I brought back a girlfriend to show us, the girl looks good, and the dress is also very fashionable, with long hair, long legs, and makeup on her face is a little thick but also very delicate and beautiful.

I asked her, "What school did you go to?" ”

She knew that I was a police officer, so she looked at me very seriously and said, "I am a secondary school in Northwest City."

As soon as I heard that I was in a secondary school, I knew that I would not be a good student in school, but I still asked with a smile, "What major did you study?" ”

"Business management," she said, with some color in her words.

I think it's a little funny to see her smugness, and I don't know which business she plans to manage.

"Where do you work now?"

"I don't have a job, so I'm at home," she said, indifferently

Sun Linbing, who was on the side, said that there was only one daughter in their family, her father worked in a bank, and her mother opened a steamed bun shop.

The girl stretched out her very beautiful nails and looked at them and said, "I can't pay a few dollars, and I still manage people, which is annoying to death."

Lying in bed at night, Cheng Shaojie asked me what I meant, and I stared at the book in my hand and asked noncommittally, "What did your mother say?" ”

"My mother doesn't like it very much," Cheng Shaojie said very dryly.

"Because her name is Lu Tingting?" I smiled and asked, I saw my mother-in-law frowning when she heard that the girl's name was Lu Tingting, she should have remembered Lu Lina.

Cheng Shaojie said with an unnatural expression: "No, my mother said that this doesn't look like a woman who lives a life."

"That's the eyes of the elderly, but young people nowadays don't think so, they think it's good as long as it's fashionable and beautiful."

"Then you think it's okay too? The eldest sister thought it was very good, and said that the conditions of the woman's family were good, and the eldest sister said that the woman was an authentic city person with a higher education, and if the two of them were going to get married, they wanted to buy a house for Sun Linbing in the city, and they didn't want the woman to look down on her."

I looked at Cheng Shaojie and listened to him continue, he paused and said, "I borrowed 200,000 yuan from her when I married you, or we should give her back, and let them buy the house with more."

I squinted at Cheng Shaojie and said, "When I left, your eldest sister pulled you and said that's all, it seems that I am still the daughter-in-law who your family raised money to buy, who else did you ask to borrow money?" ”

Cheng Shaojie smiled and said, "I also asked the second sister to borrow 200,000 yuan."

"Didn't ask Cheng Yanling to borrow it?"

"Nope"

"Why?"

"No why, enough is enough".

I raised my head and smiled and thought for a moment and said: "Money is not a problem, there is no hurry to buy a house in advance, let's put this matter aside, Sun Linbing is a good young man, he is very honest, he is not very old, not in a hurry."

Cheng Shaojie turned his head to look at me and said with a suspicious look, "What do you mean by this?" You don't like that girl? ”

"There's nothing to like and nothing to dislike, girls are pretty much the same now, they all want to be a princess, but who is a servant? Sun Linbing is essentially a very honest man, but he has no backbone, what kind of woman does he live with, so it's better to be cautious. The reason why your sister is so enthusiastic is that she feels that she has climbed a high level of in-laws in the city, and wants to buy a house in the city to raise the value of her family, but how to live in the future? Don't say they never expected their son to die in the future. But do you think this girl will get along with her in-laws? ”

"Then you still don't agree?"

"That's their business, neither you nor I have the power to decide"

"You say wait and see, don't you just disapprove? Doesn't that count as a decision? You cultural people love to talk around corners like this."

"When I say wait, what I mean is that things that we don't have the right to decide and don't want to do can be decided by time, and that it is necessary to be cautious about lifelong matters. Since you asked me this, I only provide reference opinions, not make decisions for you" I remembered Cheng Yanling's way of deciding other people's family affairs categorically, and smiled to myself.

"What you said makes sense, let's slow down the matter of buying a house first!" Cheng Shaojie looked sideways at me and asked seriously, "Then what kind of life do you want to live in the future?" ”

I put down the book in my hand, looked at him and looked up at the white wall in front of me and said, "I want to live a simple and quiet life."

"So you don't want me to do anything, you just want me to farm honestly?" Cheng Shaojie looked at me with doubts in his voice.

"I didn't want to sway you, our ideas and lifestyles in the past were obviously different, but since we live together, I don't want us to be too far apart, isn't it good to farm?"

I wanted to say that if you don't want to, I won't force you, but the words came to my mouth but I didn't say it, Chen Yixiao left, Jiang Xinya left, and the children were thousands of miles away, I have never felt lonely like now.

Cheng Shaojie saw that I was no longer talking, put his hand on my hand and said: "Still, I want to change for you, I really like you very much, and I like it more and more, I want to live the life you want with you."

I looked at him: "You like me, what do you like about me?" Do you know me? ”

He stared into my eyes for a moment: "I can't say anything else, I like you to be beautiful and kind, okay?" The first time I saw you on the side of the road, I thought you were surprisingly beautiful, the kind of refreshing and proud beauty that I particularly liked. Until now, I feel that you are getting better and better, you are not only a beautiful woman, but also very intriguing. When I'm alone, I think of the way you speak and the way you read. Your attitude towards being a person and doing things, sometimes your demeanor in doing things is inferior to that of a man like me. Still, sometimes I think that even if you don't really love me and don't be close to me, I like to stay by your side and watch you, just like Jiahui wants to be with you for a lifetime."

I looked at him sideways, his persistent eyes full of longing, though the affection that only boys and girls have long since disappeared from my heart. But I was still impressed by the look in his eyes. When he reached out to me, I obediently leaned into his arms, and he whispered in my ear, "Still, a lot has changed since you got sick."

I said "um".

"I've become gentle, but I don't have the spirit I used to have, and I'm always tired."

"I'm tired," I said, and for a moment an unexplained ache welled up in my heart, and I turned my face to his chest.

Cheng Shaojie said that he wanted to change the car, and asked me what kind of car I wanted to change, and I said: "Whatever you want, you can change whatever you want, as long as you think it is useful, the car is just a means of transportation for me."

"The car also represents identity, if you go out in a Mercedes-Benz or BMW, others will look at you differently," he said disapprovingly.

I didn't take my eyes off the book, pouted and smiled: "Oh, that's it, if you go out in a Mercedes-Benz or BMW, others will look up to you and say, 'Cheng Shaojie is really famous', and drive a Mercedes-Benz or BMW to farm."

"What's the matter, what's wrong with driving Mercedes-Benz and BMW, I'm spending my own money, no one cares, I'm willing, I'm happy."

I turned my head to look at him with a strong neck, as if he was competing with someone, smiled and shook my head and said, "I said, whatever you want, buy whatever you want, you can just think it's interesting."

A few days later, the car was bought, and there were still two, one was a Great Wall pickup truck and the other was a Volkswagen SRU, and he drove the pickup truck himself, and he wanted to change the Volkswagen SRU to me to drive. I smiled and refused, saying that he would do both by himself.

I asked him, "Why don't you buy a Mercedes, BMW?" ”

He said: "After thinking about it carefully, it's a bit stupid to drive around in such an expensive car in the village, who to show off? I'm not Cheng Shaojie what kind of car I drive, or the pickup truck is practical, and you can pull people and things."

I smiled and said: Zi said: Scholars are determined to be in the Tao, and those who are ashamed of clothes and evil food are not enough to discuss.

"What do you mean? Can you say something I can understand! Cheng Shaojie glanced at me and said with a frown.

"Confucius said: Scholars aspire to the truth, and those who are ashamed of coarse cloth and light rice are not worthy of talking to him".

"I don't understand what you're talking about," Cheng Shaojie said.

"In the future, you will slowly understand, what Confucius said sounds profound, but the truth is very simple, as long as you can settle down and be an ordinary person, you will understand, just like what you say about what kind of car you drive, you are Cheng Shaojie, what kind of person you are and what kind of car you drive has little to do with it."

"If I understood what the saints said, wouldn't I become a saint?" Cheng Shaojie said disdainfully

"The Buddha is the one who came in the past, and the person is the Buddha of the future, you know? Even if we are not saints, isn't it good to understand the principles of saints? ”。

Cheng Shaojie pulled me into the car and said, "What you say is what it is, anyway, I don't understand, how about trying our new car, why don't you want to change cars?" How many years has you been driving that car? ”

"It's been more than five years!" I thought about it and said.

Autumn is getting stronger and stronger, the crops in the field have been harvested, Cheng Shaojie and his father-in-law have successively beaten some grass, because the two children are not less lively, Cheng Shaojie said that some grass is enough for his livestock to eat, his father-in-law raised two cows, five sheep, and his mother-in-law raised a group of chickens, although the field is not alive, but they are still not idle, no matter how much money in the family seems to have little to do with us, we still live our previous days.