Although I didn't make a big deal about my marriage, I believe that everyone knows about it, but all the people around me don't tell me about my marriage in front of me, even Xiao Shen never asks about my marriage. {We don't write novels, we're just porters of the Internet - working with our colleagues as always, as if there is no such thing, I am still the same person.} It made me feel very relaxed.

Jiang Xinya and Li Qiutong stopped contacting me, not for anything else, but they didn't know what to say when they met.

Half a month later, I asked Jiang Xinya to go to the house of Lido Family Garden for tea, Jiang Xinya was silent on the phone for a long time before she said: "Okay" and hung up the phone.

Jiang Xinya came here for the first time, after she looked around the whole house, we sat quietly on the carpet in front of the window, watching the tea leaves in the cup float and sink, Jiang Xinya raised her pair of black and white eyes and looked at me and said: "Still, if you really can't let him go, you can go to him, when he left, I arranged all the things here for you, I can see that he is really good to you." Why are you doing this? Why do you want to belittle yourself like this? ”

"I'm not going to go to him, I never thought I'm going to him, my affair with him is over!" I said quietly. Yes, no matter how sad I have been in the past year, I have never thought of going to him, not even the thought of him, and if we had any possibility, he would have come to me, but he has not been heard from as soon as he goes.

Jiang Xinya sneered and said, "Just pass it this way?" In the past, you swore that you could carry this matter, but you didn't expect this to be the result! You've done this outrageous, who do you want to take revenge on? Him? But he wouldn't know! You married a peasant in Qingbei County, this has become a strange story, at the beginning you were the object of admiration of many men, and you sneered at so many suitors, and now it is this kind of ending, and now I don't know how many people are gloating about your jokes."

I know that the first person to gloat and see my jokes is Zhang Minxuan, who has the same opinion of him and Jiang Xinya, but I am an outsider and I have to be polite and polite to him, but he knows very well in his heart that I despise him as a so-called **. I chuckled lightly and looked at Jiang Xinya and said in a firm tone: "I don't want to retaliate against anyone, and I don't do it for anyone, there's no need for that!" I know what I'm doing, it's my own choice, it's no one else's. So say what others want to say, and think whatever love wants! ”

Jiang Xinya looked at me, picked up the teacup and looked at the heat rising from the mouth of the teacup, and said with a distant expression: "Still, when Wu Tianyang left you, did you know that he hurt you alone?" ”

I looked at Jiang Xinya in surprise, Wu Tianyang was smart and handsome back then, and there were indeed many girls who had a crush on him at that time, but I never thought that Jiang Xinya was among them.

Jiang Xinya smiled softly at herself: "When I saw you and Wu Tianyang together, a handsome man and a beautiful woman made in heaven, you are so in love with each other, and you never hide your love for each other in front of people, looking at which of you doesn't fantasize that you also have such a beautiful love." But Wu Tianyang finally abandoned you for the future. Still, when you are sad and painful, I completely gave up the illusion of the so-called beautiful love, Zhang Minxuan has been pursuing me at that time, but I don't love him and don't want to accept him. I wasn't born so realistic, I also had a yearning for love, hoping to have the same love as you, still, how beautiful and good you were at that time! Wu Tianyang will even abandon you. Wu Tianyang's betrayal made me no longer believe in love, so I decided to marry Zhang Minxuan."

Jiang Xinya really didn't look down on Zhang Minxuan, a flashy and arrogant and self-righteous son, Zhang Minxuan had pursued her for a long time, and finally Jiang Xinya was willing to marry him just because of his family background, she never hid this in front of me, and in the years to come, she also made full use of this, and she was very popular, but her relationship with Zhang Minxuan has always been lukewarm, but she has never complained about Zhang Minxuan in front of outsiders, in Jiang Xinya's words: I have long known what kind of person he is and what to say.

I smiled wordlessly and bitterly, after Wu Tianyang left, Jiang Xinya and Yu Xinhui got married successively, Yu Xinhui once said: "Although Ding ** is a little vulgar, he is really touchable and catchy."

Wu Tianyang and I, a dream couple, had a tragic ending of happy love, and I didn't know what ended the fantasy of love among many girls around me.

"Xinya, do you think you're worth it all these years? I think that although you are rich and look at the scenery on the surface, I have never felt that you have ever been happy, nor have I felt that you want to work hard to improve Zhang Minxuan's feelings? ”

Jiang Xinya turned the teacup in her hand and nodded with a smile and said: "I'm not happy, I haven't felt happy, but I don't regret choosing me, I know very well what kind of person Zhang Minxuan is, any show of weakness in front of him feels like his noble status, so what's the point of doing those futile acts, you can only bring humiliation on yourself." Still, do you know what I admire most about you? It's not that you married Li Jiaming later, but that you divorced Li Jiaming soon. You are not reconciled, and you are not willing to compromise with fate, you have been stubbornly pursuing what you want, and you would rather lack than abuse, so quietly waiting for more than ten years alone. I really hope you find the relationship you're looking for. It's like a dream of mine, and even if it has been shattered, I hope it will come true one day. When Chen Jingde appeared, I was not unmoved, if he fell in love with me at the beginning, even if it was just a flash in the pan, I would not hesitate to accept it, and I was not willing to be exhausted in Vanity Fair in this life. Maybe people are so greedy, give up love for bread, and want love when they have bread, but the person he loves is you. Maybe others think I'm sophisticated, but it's just because there has never been a person in my life who can make me fall in love, and I even envy you and Wu Tianyang for having such a pure love. I sacrificed too many things in the first half of my life to survive, I was smart, I was beautiful, I had the same youth as you, but I never really loved, I lived up to the good times God gave me. Now I am middle-aged, but I am becoming more and more unwilling, I am not willing to spend this life like this, but what can I do in Qingbei County? Still, if there is really a love affair even if it is not yours, if he really saves in someone else's life, it will give you hope. Your hard work and perseverance are my hope, but your choice now makes me feel not only disappointed but desperate."

I tilted my head and closed my eyes slightly, letting the sun shine on my face, quietly feeling its warmth: "Xinya, I didn't make such a choice out of despair, but for hope, I am also middle-aged, and I am not reconciled." The appearance and departure of Chen Jingde ended my imagination of emotional romance, and I no longer have the resentment and grievances left to me by Wu Tianyang in my heart. I did really love Chen Jingde, although I never told him when he was there, I would not go to him, but I was grateful to him, and the experience of getting along with him also made me let go of my obsession with emotional perfection. I have my own goals in life, you know I don't like officialdom or shopping malls, and with Cheng Shaojie, I may have the ability to keep a certain distance from this chaotic world. Living in the countryside, as long as your mind is calm enough, you can just wait for spring, when a new round of planting can begin, and spring will always come - unlike some other hope that will disappoint you. Looking for a quiet place to live in peace, I don't want to experience some tragicomedy of emotions over and over again. ”

"Still, do you really think there's an idyllic life? And Cheng Shaojie? You're naïve, aren't you? Jiang Xinya sneered questioningly.

"There has always been an idyllic life, but now people's hearts are too chaotic and too strong, and they no longer have the ability to really feel its existence, without Cheng Shaojie, Linshui Village also has birds and flowers, spring planting and autumn harvest, as long as your heart is quiet enough, you can feel it. With my current status and age, I don't need to worry about my livelihood, let alone chase more fame and fortune, why can't I find a quiet retirement home for myself."

Jiang Xinya sighed long: "Still, what if the future life is not what you imagined?" In the future, you will not only be dealing with a man, but maybe a large family, and there may not be the peace you want."

I chuckled and said: "I won't lose more, I have nothing to lose, my heart has long been hollowed out, I have nothing but this skin and the so-called social identity in the eyes of others, I am a white wolf with empty gloves, and what I get is pure earning." I want to try another life, and I don't want to give up the rest of my life without trying."

"Still, have you ever thought that in this era, it is more difficult to pursue the kind of peace you want than to pursue power and money, and you will have to deal with Cheng Shaojie's family, it is not as simple as you think!"

I smiled and said, "I know, it takes to be smart and stupid."

I resumed normal contact with Jiang Xinya, Li Qiutong, and Hu Yali, but they never mentioned my marriage in front of me, nor did they mention Cheng Shaojie, as if this person did not exist in my life at all, I am still a single nobleman as before, but I know that they have been watching the person next to me in their hearts, looking at my life, and their hearts are full of doubts