After March, the weather is getting warmer and warmer, Xiao Shen wears a light yellow thin shirt, looking youthful and bright, I smiled: "It feels like I am back to eighteen years old."

Xiao Shen said: "I'm old, I can't go back, I can only go back by dreaming"

I threw a paper ball at her and said, "You are a little nurse in your twenties who shouts old in front of me, and you still don't let me live."

Xiao Shen smiled: "Sister Lin, you don't look old at all, you don't look less than thirty!" ”

I laughed and said: "No matter how clever you are, I won't be young enough to do that, the vicissitudes of life, how many women just want to look young, just afraid that they can't turn back time and start again."

Xiao Shen pouted and smiled: "It's not just a woman, it's not the same for a man, didn't Dong Youguang, who reported illegal detention in your village two days ago, cry and shout and say regret?" I can't wait to chop off my own hand."

Dong Youguang came to report the case the day before yesterday, saying that he was tied up and dug a pit on the back mountain and almost buried alive. Because he borrowed someone else's loan shark and couldn't repay the money, the creditor found two people to pull him to the back mountain and let him dig a pit for himself, and the two buried him in the pit for more than half an hour, until he promised to repay the interest that day, and the rest of the money must be paid off this month. He said he was scared to death as he watched the soil go from waist to chest and then to neck.

I smiled disdainfully: "He is a dog who can't change his eating, and no matter how much money he gets into this vice, he will lose it."

"His wife doesn't care about him?" Xiao Shen asked puzzled.

"As far as I know, his wife used to be unable to control him, so she gambled with him, and now her husband and wife are good at gambling with both of them."

Xiao Shen said in surprise: "What about their children?" ”

"Their two children have been messing around with their grandparents, and now they are not studying well and are running around."

Xiao Shen said: "I really don't understand these people, why can't they quit when they know that their families have been ruined by gambling?" ”

I said, "What's wrong with that?" Most of the people who indulge in this kind of vice are weak-willed people who can't withstand the temptation, and the most important thing to get rid of the bad habit is willpower, what do you tell them to use to change? There are indeed repentant and re-emitted people, but there are very few, don't look at him crying and screaming now, and he wants to chop his hands again, and he will relapse in a few days."

Xiao Shen sighed and said: "Fortunately, you can still get a divorce now, if you want to start from the beginning like in the past, if you meet such a man, you won't be ruined for the rest of your life."

I sighed and said: "What can I do if I can get divorced, it's hard to recover, time is gone and there is no going back, in this life, men are really afraid of getting into the wrong business, women are afraid of marrying the wrong man, and the old life is not bad at all."

You can feel the smell of summer seeping into the air little by little, and it's the season of flowers and willows. We have also entered the busy season of work, and there is a high incidence of cases, and both good and bad people may feel that they can't live up to this good time to be idle in this season.

A female taxi driver reported that a woman died by the Yuxi River, saying that she had brought the person in the morning, and when she went to pick up the person at noon as agreed, she found that the woman was dead.

This is a quiet inlet by the Yuxi River, not too far from Linshui Village, the grass and trees in early summer have new vitality, the Yuxi River has a cool breath and flows tinkling, looking at this woman lying quietly in a flower and grass, my first feeling is very beautiful, she is wearing a white dress, her body is slender and convex, the fluffy and slightly curly long hair is loosely braided at the back of the head, her head is slightly deviated, the braids are scattered on the side, one of her hands is slightly stretched over the top of her head, and one hand is placed on her abdomen, A small wreath woven from wildflowers slipped down the waist. Her skin is slightly dark but smooth, and even with her eyes closed, you can feel her beautiful facial features, and she looks very healthy with a white dress, no matter how you look at it, she looks like a sleeping girl here.

Technician Xiao Wang is taking pictures of the corpse, and forensic doctor Xiao Shi is looking at the small medicine bottle left next to the corpse.

Seeing that I had been staring at the corpse, Xiao Shi asked, "Do you know her?" ”

"It feels familiar, but I can't remember it," I said, I did feel familiar, but I couldn't remember who it was.

Xiao Shi looked at the corpse and said: "Female, about forty years old, she doesn't look like a rural person, she may be a rich person if she is well maintained."

I was surprised and said, "Is it that old?" I look like she's in her twenties."

Xiao Shi pointed to the face of the female corpse and said: "Look, there are fine wrinkles at the corners of her eyes, and now she can't see clearly from a distance with her eyes closed, but she can still see clearly when she looks closely, and there are a little bags under her eyes, and now her eyes are not obvious."

I also approached the corpse and looked at it carefully, and a name "Hai Lizhu" suddenly popped up in my mind, and I was immediately startled by this thought.

I immediately called Hu Yali and asked her to contact Hai Lizhu, and after a while she called and said that she could not be contacted, and the people at the unit also said that they did not see her today, nor did they hear that she asked for leave.

The female taxi driver who reported the case said that in the morning she pulled the passenger to this neighborhood, and the passenger said that she came to pick her up at noon from this big rock by the river, and she was a little busy at noon, and came a little late, and when she came, she saw people lying here, and there were 200 yuan pressed under a small stone, and she was frightened when she saw the sleeping pill bottle and called the police.

Xiao Shi saw me looking at this beautiful woman who seemed to be asleep expressionlessly and asked, "Are you very familiar with her?" ”

"I know her, and I know why she is like this," I said, not wanting to say the word "death."

"Why?" Xiao Shi asked in surprise when he heard my answer like this.

I did not answer, the woman lay quietly in the green grass and calmly and serenely, like a girl who had not woken up from a spring dream, as if she had just been tired and rested here for a while. I looked up at the blue sky with white clouds, the clear water flowing from my feet, and the gentle wind blowing warmly, what a beautiful spring day, when everything was born, and she chose to end everything in this world at this time.

I don't feel sad standing here, I don't feel fear of death anymore, I feel like it's like the palm of your hand and the back of your hand, turn your hand over, turn your head and you may meet it. As a woman, she may feel that all the dreams of this life have been shattered, and she came here just to make a new beginning, just like the ignorant girl who has not yet opened her love, and choose her life again.

Only by ending the past can we choose the future, and choosing death is not necessarily cowardice, sometimes I just want to figure it out, let go of my hands with dignity, and start a new journey of life.

Hu Yali said that after the Spring Festival, Hai Lizhu sold her house and car, and she destroyed all the items related to her, leaving only her daughter with a deposit slip and a note, which said that she did not need anyone to do anything for her, and directly cremated the body, and asked the body not to leave any ashes after cremation, and all of them were scattered into the Yuxi River.

Hu Yali accompanied Hai Lizhu's daughter to the criminal investigation team, Hai Lizhu's daughter looked at the photos of her mother's death scene, and asked in silence for a while: "Can I ask for a photo, my mother destroyed everything, and didn't even leave a photo."

I wonder how she didn't keep a picture of her mother after living away from her for so long, maybe she thought her mother would be there forever, maybe she never thought she would need to keep a picture of her mother as a memorial.

I looked at her and said quietly, "Are you really going to leave yourself a picture like this?" She left nothing behind, perhaps just to make you forget her completely, to forget what happened to her life. She is gone through her life, and you should live your own life, your life has nothing to do with her, although this photo looks like a living person, she is indeed dead, leaving such a picture, except to make you sad, there is no meaning."

The girl looked at the picture and finally gave up her idea, the girl was very beautiful, but she seemed to have a somewhat cold temperament, and some of her personality was perhaps more cold and arrogant than that of Hai Lizhu.

Hu Yali said that Hai Lizhu is really not worth it, it is not worth dying for such a ruthless man, just to fight for this breath, she should live well and live happier and longer than them.

I thought of the woman who slept quietly under the blue sky and white clouds, and remembered the word "quiet as a virgin". I said lightly: "She may not die for that man, does a person have to live in this world?" Is it fun to be alive? Just to fight with that man? There's no need for that! Hai Lizhu, a woman, really has a lot of personality and self, she lives for herself and dies for herself, can she use so much effort for irrelevant people? ”

To live or to die, this is a question, and Hamlet thinks about the question that people nowadays are too busy to think about. Hai Lizhu pondered the process of this question, but there was a result. Is it really that important to be alive? Maybe that man doesn't matter to her anymore, she's just tired of her old life, she just wants to start a new life from scratch. I don't know what she thought before she left, no one knows.

Maybe it was the indifference in my tone that made Hu Yali feel surprised, Hu Yali looked at me in surprise, "Still, no matter how much you see, no matter how detached you are, this is also a life, if you give up, give up, do you really think it doesn't matter?" I really don't understand what you're thinking sometimes? I feel like I don't understand you anymore, when did you start to change? After leaving Jiang Xinya? You are doing well now, Li Haoyu was admitted to university, and his family is so rich, how can he be so decadent? ”

I looked at Hu Yali's face that was becoming more and more like a leader and smiled: "You are now actively asking for progress, and you are living in the most hard-working way to enter the world, so you naturally feel that this world has infinite meanings, and others may not think like this." Have I changed? I haven't changed, it's you who have changed, people in the world don't live in one way, and they don't have only one way to think about problems, there are too many people in this world who are different from you and me."