Speechless all the way, I parked the car downstairs in Lido Family Garden, and Cheng Shaojie asked me, "Where is this?" ”

"This is the house I sometimes come to live in," he said, and without saying anything more, he turned around and went upstairs.

Once in the room, I changed my shoes and clothes and went straight to the kitchen to boil water. Standing in the kitchen quietly watching the fire on the stove lick the bottom of the pot and keep my brain in a vacuum as much as possible, I knew what I was going to do, but I didn't want to think about it anymore, I knew that thinking about it again and again would only add to the annoyance, because I had already decided the end result.

After boiling water and making tea, I sat at the table, let Cheng Shaojie sit opposite, and said to him: "Okay, let's talk about the conditions now!" ”

He took off his suit and put it on the back of the chair, sat there wearing only his shirt, and said very manly: "Okay, you say, what conditions?" It seems that he is also mentally prepared.

I turned the teacup in my hand, watched the tea sink little by little, and asked, "Do you know why I want to marry you?" ”

"You must have your reasons, I don't know much, but there is one thing I know, you like Cheng Jiahui," he said, observing my expression.

This man is really smart, and Cheng Jiahui is indeed an important reason for me to marry him, but it is not the only one. Jiang Xinya and Xinhui don't understand my state of mind, they don't often face sudden death like me, not like me who feels the impermanence of life more deeply, I am not afraid of death, but I can't say uncomfortable when I think of my son living alone in this world. With my marriage, no matter what happens to me in the future, no matter what, my son will definitely have Cheng Jiahui, a friend, to accompany and take care of him, Li Haoyu has a gentle temperament and strong dependence, and naturally likes to get together and not like to disperse, and it is very important for him to accompany him spiritually. My parents are old, Li Jiaming also has his own family and his own children, Li Haoyu has not lived with him since he was a child, and it is impossible to rely on him in the future, I believe that Cheng Jiahui will be a responsible man in the future, and he will be Li Haoyu's lifelong friend.

I nodded: "Yes, there are many other reasons, but this one is the most important, so my first condition is that our marriage, whether good or bad, will last for at least three years until the two children are admitted to college."

"There's no problem with this, I liked you the first time I saw you, I always felt that I was delusional, I couldn't ask for it today, no matter why you are, I admit it, I agree to any of your conditions, I know you don't like me now, but you will in the future."

I smiled faintly and said: "You don't have to agree so soon, there will be more, second: no matter what kind of relationship you have had with which woman in the past, from now on you are not allowed to have any behavior involved, it's not that I want to eat your jealousy, this is just a minimum of respect for each other, let this marriage remain peaceful, I don't want the children to get involved in those messes of right and wrong, if you like someone or who you have had before, go and stay in three years, but you must regulate the distance for these three years, I don't want to have any right or wrong."

"Don't worry, I will never like any woman again, I will never have anything to do with any woman again, you must believe me," he quickly promised.

I smiled noncommittally, I have seen too much, how many people can do it? I want to believe in his current determination, but what happens to him when he doesn't get reciprocal affection in return? And I don't have the confidence to reciprocate him, so I have to draw this hard line.

"Article 3: It is absolutely forbidden to do anything illegal, you will not steal, kill, or set fire, but you are also not allowed to be contaminated with drugs and gambling, and you are not allowed to drink alcohol."

"I drink wine occasionally, I don't drink too much, occasionally play mahjong to play money for entertainment, right?" He asked tentatively.

"No, I don't like to play mahjong for money, and I also hate it very much that others are addicted to it, now there are two young men in school at home, I don't want the bad habits of adults to affect them, you also make it clear to your family, if they want to play somewhere else or when we are no longer at home, but the children are not allowed to play these when they are at home."

"People in our family usually just play during the New Year's holidays, and they don't have a lot of fun."

"Do you like gambling?" I stared into Cheng Shaojie's eyes and asked rhetorically.

Maybe I didn't guard against it, I would suddenly ask him, Cheng Shaojie was stunned for a moment and didn't answer me immediately. Looking at the hesitant expression on Cheng Shaojie's face, I felt a little unsure, I always felt that there was some gambler's character in this man, is this man really a gambler? Thinking about this, I suddenly felt that I was too reckless in what I was doing, and that addicts and gamblers are the hardest people in the world to change.

Cheng Shaojie saw that my face changed, and hurriedly said: "No, I just occasionally play mahjong to play a little money when I am not working, if you don't like me to play, just do it."

I stared at him suspiciously, he saw that I didn't believe him very much, he raised his right hand and said: "I swear, I will never play cards and gamble for money again, I will do what I say" Looking at his eyes as firm and persistent as Cheng Jiahui, I felt that I believed in him a little.

I said, "Okay, as long as you can do these three, even if we separate in three years, I will return your one million yuan to Zhao."

"No, I really like you, I want to be with you forever, I will work hard, and I won't let your friends look down on me in the future" Cheng Shaojie said in a hard tone.

I know that the person at the table who walked away today made him understand my friend's attitude towards him. I looked at the tea leaves in the cup and smiled slightly for a while, then raised my eyes and said, "It always depends on the fate of the two people, I don't know how deep the fate of the two of us is, you say you like me, you don't know me, how do you like me?" ”

"I know you?"

I tapped my fingers on the table and pulled the corners of my mouth disapprovingly, chuckling: "You just know my appearance, my job, my looks, you know what I think?" Do you know what I'm looking for? ”

Cheng Shaojie looked at me and didn't know how to answer, I looked into his eyes and said: "Anyway, we have three years, I won't look down on you because you are a farmer, I think farmers are very good, the real gap between us is not here, if you really like me as you say, then you try to understand me, I will try to adapt to you, but I will not change myself to bow down to you, the three years I said is not only the time for the two children to study in high school, but also the time for the two of us to adapt to each other, If after three years we still can't adapt to each other, we can only separate, and we don't have to struggle with each other."

"No, I will be with you, I will always be with you, I think there is fate between us" Cheng Shaojie insisted.

When I came out of the bathroom, I saw that Cheng Shaojie was still sitting at the table and didn't move, so I said to him, "Aren't you taking a bath?" ”

Cheng Shaojie looked at me with some surprise, but quickly understood what I meant, a smile appeared on his face, he opened his mouth to say something but didn't say it, I didn't talk to him anymore and wiped my hair with a towel and walked into the bedroom, hearing the sound of him getting up and going to the bathroom, I felt uncomfortable with my hairs tied all over my body.

I took out a bottle of wine from the cupboard, poured myself half a teacup, and drank it in one gulp, a stream of heat flowing down my stomach and back to my choking throat.

When I woke up in the glimmer of the morning light, I knew that a new day had begun, and that the new life I was about to face was about to begin. Gently leaving the sleeping man next to me to the floor-to-ceiling window of the living room, I gritted my teeth and walked through the whole process of this marriage in one go. I knew that I had to go through the whole process before I could really put myself into this marriage. Only by leaving no way back for myself can I really start a new life, and only then can I escape the pain left to me by Chen Jingde's eternal departure, and hold the real days so that I will not let myself fall into the despair of nothingness again. I chose to start my new life here in order to completely bury the past that happened here, face the wall and see the true Buddha, I want to forget him in the place where I lived with him, I don't want to and can't turn this place into an altar of my emotions for the rest of my life.

The sky is getting brighter and brighter, and a glimmer of dawn is rising from the horizon, and the colorful morning glow in the east is getting darker and lighter, and the sun is about to rise. Sunrise and sunset, here I have experienced the most beautiful spring, summer, autumn and winter in my life, that short year seems to have passed the happiness of my life.

As soon as the sun jumped out of the horizon, the golden sunlight instantly sprinkled the earth, and in an instant tears poured out of my eyes, and at this moment I really wanted to pounce on the earth, merge myself into the golden sunlight, let myself be reborn in the depths of the earth, and pray to the god of fate to give me a new life