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Song Mier recalled that when Xiaohe's body was discovered, it seemed that there was such a thing, "So later, you joined forces with Liu Shuxing to suppress this matter, not to hide it for Wei Chi Yanran, but just to suppress the matter of the official killing Xiaohe, and don't want to startle the snake?" ”

"Naturally," Shen Zhan nodded, "I have not joined forces with Liu Shuxing, nor have I consulted with her. I'm afraid that it was Liu Shuxing who murdered Rosie for selfishness at that time, and he happened to meet me and took advantage of the situation, which became the result later. ”

Shen Zhan looked serious, "Mi'er, whether you believe me or not, I still have to say that from beginning to end, I did hide a lot of things from you, but I never wanted to hurt you." The hurts—"

"Those injuries, even if they are unintentional, have happened before, have they existed, haven't they?" Song Mier interrupted Shen Zhan's words.

"Let me ask, standing here today, in what capacity are you talking to me?"

Shen Zhan smiled bitterly, "Naturally, it's Shen Zhan, not the emperor." Of course, I would prefer that it could be your brother Zhan・・・・・・ but now it seems that it may be impossible. Shen Zhan silently added in his heart.

"Well, since you are not ready to use Your Majesty's identity to pressure me now, let's talk about something sincere." Song Mier smiled faintly, kicked the pastry that was broken in half on the side of his feet, and sat on the high stool.

"I've figured it out, actually, it's not very fair for you to be angry with you today. At first, when I entered the palace, I also knew why I entered the palace, and I also thought that we would be like most emperors and queens throughout the ages, respecting each other as polite as guests. You pamper your concubine, and I cherish my power. Maybe I give birth to a prince, and he will be the crown prince, but maybe I will eventually be rejected by you, and my children will become a stepping stone for others—"

Song Mi'er raised his hand to stop Shen Zhan's desire to speak, "-You listen to me, but this kind of situation will probably not happen." At least the queen mother cherishes me, and the Song family will not fall like a wind in just a few decades. There are still 3,000 nails left in the broken ship. At first I was satisfied, how satisfied I was," Song Mier sighed sadly, "My brother Zhan, cherish me, pamper me, respect me, I am gradually no longer satisfied, I want more." I want you to see me alone, I want you to be the only one standing by your side. The men in this world, who don't taste three wives and four concubines, and the sons and daughters of our Song family are probably outliers. Originally, I was not emotional, and I could calmly watch the ebb and flow of the tide in this palace. But I fell into it, and I couldn't help but think of my father and brother, how they were always by their side. I wondered, why did I enter the palace in the first place? If I don't enter the palace, maybe I can find a family that will never take concubines to marry, and I can still live comfortably. But if I don't enter the palace, I won't be able to meet you. ”

"Thinking of this, I can understand Liu Shuxing's feelings. In any case, as a person close to you, I can feel that she has no fake heart for you, so I can understand her and sympathize with her better, even if she hurts me and hates me, I can accept it. For if I were her, I would have thought it would have been the same. ”

"No, I'm not her, and during those days in the palace, I have gradually become unable to control my jealousy, my desires, my expectations, and my despair.

"Later, when I got out of the palace, I gradually discovered that there were still mountains and rivers in this world, and there was a clear breeze and a bright moon.

"Moreover, I have passed by such a place, I have seen singing and dancing, and I have also seen messes everywhere, and I have found that you are really a rare good emperor. Standing in your position, isn't it to do those things to make the great history more consolidated? Compared with those unscrupulous, brutal and unkind emperors in the history books, but they can still be remembered in history, you can be regarded as a rare Ming Jun and a benevolent monarch. The great calendar is now in your hands, and the prosperity of all nations is just around the corner. On the contrary, I can especially understand your actions, you do not want to harm others, nor do you want to satisfy your own selfish interests, but for the future of the calendar. Such a majesty, what is so bad?

"I complain to you, it's just a child's thoughts, in front of the family and the country, what can this be counted? But I'm still the same little me, and I can't really act like the past didn't happen. Shen Zhan, so be it. I don't want to mention the past, no matter what reason he has, I will call him over. I don't care anymore. We'll just be like that, living in peace and quiet, for the next ten, twenty, thirty years, until I die. All right? ”

"Not good! Not good at all! Shen Zhan was stopped by Song Mier and couldn't speak. From beginning to end, he listened to Song Mier.

From the moment she heard Song Mi'er say that she was trapped, clusters of flames lit up in Shen Zhan's eyes, beating and excited. But when Song Mier said that she could understand, she didn't care, and they got along like this until each other's deaths, the flash of fire in Shen Zhan's eyes, little by little, was extinguished.

There was no hysteria, no hoarseness, Shen Zhan didn't even feel sadness, he didn't feel despair, he just felt that he was lifeless, very tired, didn't want to do anything, couldn't do anything. He heard his own voice say word by word: "Mi'er, with my time in the next few decades, I will pay you all the time, okay?" Please, don't ignore me・・・・・・"

He didn't know that he could do this, and he could really beg someone. He didn't know that he could really lower himself in exchange for another person's pouring gaze.

Queen Mother, you are right, I really regret it.

He explained in a flustered and incoherent manner, whether it was to be beneficial to himself to pretend to be pitiful, or to return to normal seriousness no longer existed, his tone was tossed and turned, and he didn't know what he was talking about, "Mi'er, I, I, I won't ask others to have children for me, Mi'er, you're not the only one who fell into it, I know, I did a very bad job in the past, but after I realized it, I'm changing!" When I knew I was trapped, I never summoned anyone to sleep again. went to their palace, and only read the book and changed the chapter by himself. Wen Qingwan, the second child is not mine at all! I haven't touched her since her first miscarriage. In the past, I didn't see my heart clearly, but when I saw it clearly, I and I have changed, changed a lot! Mi'er, you have to believe me! ”

"I had an agreement with Liu Shuxing, and she also had her own arrogance, thinking that she could make me fall in love with her, and before that, I had never been with her・・・・・・ probably like this, so that she was so jealous of you, and did not hesitate to provoke our relationship. Even Yuan Wanyou, Qin Shuya, and even Yu Xi ・・・・・・ those who look favored have never really been favored・・・・・・"