It's late April, even in the northwest is also a strong spring, it rained all night, the next morning the sky is still a little gloomy, just into the office Xiao Shen said that when he came to work in the morning, he saw a car accident on the road, a child was thrown out of the car, his head hit the curb stone, and his brain came out, so miserable.

When I browsed the website of the Qingzhou City Public Security Bureau, I saw a message that a car from the special police team of the Qingzhou City Public Security Bureau had a car accident when he went out on a mission last night, and a special police officer died on the spot and two were seriously injured. As soon as I saw this news, I hurriedly called Chen Yixiao, but the phone was always busy, and I knew that something so big happened to his department, and the phone must have been blown up.

When I got off work in the morning, I called Chen Yixiao again, his phone was turned off, I hesitated to call Gan Xin to ask about the situation, I saw Zheng Duo walk into my office with a calm face, I was uneasy to beckon him to sit down, I sat opposite him and said: "Chen Yixiao someone from their SWAT team had a car accident on duty last night, and sacrificed a special police officer, I couldn't get through when I called him today, and I just called and turned off the phone, and I don't know what the situation is?" ”

Zheng Duo looked at me silently and speechlessly for a while, and said in a deep voice: "Three were sacrificed, and two seriously injured were not rescued."

Seeing me open my mouth in surprise, Zheng Duo paused, choked in his throat and said with difficulty: "Chen Yixiao was also in the car, he also sacrificed, they went into the mountains to arrest people last night, and on the way back, it was raining and the road was too slippery, and the car overturned into a ditch."

When I heard Zheng Duo say that Chen Yixiao had sacrificed, I only felt that my head was buzzing, and my mind was suddenly blank, looking at Zheng Duo's mouth moving but I couldn't hear what he was saying, when my brain gradually regained consciousness, I felt my hands and body tremble uncontrollably.

Zheng Duo had already stood up and walked to my side to support my shoulder, I panted and tried my best to calm my feelings, letting the colic in my heart hit me one after another, Zheng Duo gently shook me and shouted: "Still, still."

I stared at Zheng Duo's face, my mind became clearer and clearer, I stood up and picked up my bag and walked out, Zheng Duo grabbed me and said, "Still, where are you going?" ”

I calmly pushed his hand away and said, "I'm fine, I'll go out and stay alone for a while".

Zheng Duo pulled me very resolutely and said, "No, you can't drive out alone."

I tried my best to break free of his hand, tried my best to suppress the grief in my heart, and controlled my trembling voice and said, "You don't care about me, I'm fine."

Zheng Duo didn't let me go, but pulled me out of the office building through the back door, pushed me into his car, and drove the car to a nowhere near North Park.

Zheng Duo and I sat quietly in the car, I buried my head in my arms and began to cry loudly, and at this moment only crying can vent my inner sadness.

In front of Zheng Duo and Qiao Qidong, I don't have to hide my inner emotions, they know that Chen Yixiao and I appreciate each other and know each other, even if we have no part in this life, we have never thought about it, but it does not hinder the affection between us, these Zheng Duo and Qiao Qidong know it. When I knew that Chen Yixiao beat Wu Tianyang for me, I could only cry loudly in no one's place, I always knew his affection for me, but we met late, and we lost the opportunity to be together forever when we met.

After Wu Tianyang abandoned me, I knew that Zheng Duo and Qiao Qidong thought that I would be with Chen Yixiao, but I understood that I couldn't do this, I couldn't walk into Chen Yixiao's life with a broken body and a scarred heart abandoned by Wu Tianyang, it was too unfair to Chen Yixiao.

I soon married Li Jiaming, and Chen Yixiao later married Gan Xin. Others thought that I got married in a hurry because of Wu Tianyang's betrayal, but in fact, only I knew that it was to cut off my extravagant hopes for Chen Yixiao and his affection for me. We rarely contacted and never wanted to be together after marriage, but we both knew we were in each other's hearts.

The next day, Zheng Duo called me and asked me if I would attend Chen Yixiao's funeral, but I refused, and now I don't have the courage to face the fact that Chen Yixiao is gone.

Half a month later, I came to Chen Yixiao's house alone, Gan Xin saw me hugging me and crying, and I could only hold her and cry silently.

"Still, why is this happening? He was always so energetic and energetic, I never thought he would disappear from my life so suddenly."

I don't know why, and I don't know why he disappeared from our lives in this way. As I stood in front of his portrait, I could still feel his burning eyes looking at me, smiling at me, and I could even feel the power and warmth of that gaze.

I reached out and stroked his face in the photo, and the tears couldn't stop flowing down my face, the only time I expressed my affection in front of him.

Gan Xin leaned on my shoulder and said sadly: "Still, I sometimes wonder if he would have been happier if you had been with him in the first place?" When Wu Tianyang left you, I thought he would leave me and be with you."

I put my hand around her shoulder, shook my head and said, "No, you are his angel and I am not, I was not when I met him".

I stood silently, when I followed Wu Tianyang to Qingbei County, I thought we were partners in this life, and I gave everything I had to love him and didn't care about the world's eyes. All our affection is unabashedly presented in front of the world, and at that time we were the envy of many people. When Wu Tianyang abandoned me, all the affection we once presented to the world became a shame and was deeply engraved on my body. I can't be with Chen Yixiao anymore, I can't let my every act of love for him, every affectionate gaze, in his heart be a repetition of me and Wu Tianyang. Because those have already fallen deep in his eyes, and in the eyes of those around him.

Looking at me looking at Chen Yixiao's photo and crying, Gan Xin wiped away her tears and said: "Still, I know that Yixiao has always regarded you as a confidant, but I have never been jealous, Yixiao's character is so unruly and unruly, but because of you, he doesn't feel lonely." That year, he was not the captain of the city traffic police brigade, and many people said that he was stupid and would not be an official to lose such a hot position, and even questioned his ability to work, he was very indignant, but when I told you about it on the phone, you laughed on the phone and said that he was finally out of the sea of suffering, and it was too boring to stay in a place where there was no challenge and water could not be washed white. Still, even after living with him for nearly 20 years, I still look up to him and worship him, just like when I first saw him, whenever I see him unruly, bumpy, and intolerable in the world, I think it's good to have you in this world, there are always people standing with us, so that we don't feel lonely."

I wiped away the tears on my face, took Gan Xin's shoulders and sat on the sofa, Gan Xin looked out the window and said: Still, do you remember how he got into the Public Security Bureau? He has always been very nostalgic for the life of the army since he came down from the army, and you sneered and said, 'What do you soldiers do, have you ever fought a real battle in the army for more than ten years?' What regiment commanders, division commanders, generals, no matter how high you climb in the army, you can't just have a few more beans on your shoulders, in fact, you are not even as good as a big soldier in the United States, and those soldiers have been on the battlefield. In China, in peacetime, only we policemen can be regarded as real soldiers who have been on the battlefield', I sometimes think that Chen Yixiao gave up several units and chose the Public Security Bureau not because you are in this line."

I shook my head and said: "It's not all like this, Gan Xin, Chen Yixiao is upright and vicious by nature, if you want to be in our industry, you can choose to only ask right and wrong, you don't have to speculate on the work and lifestyle of the camp, he doesn't love money or is obsessed with that kind of illusory power, he is naturally chivalrous, this profession is the most suitable for him." Gan Xin, you don't know how good you are? It's good to have you by his side, you and Yuexin are the best gifts God gives him, Chen Yixiao really loves you. ”。

Gan Xin leaned on me and said sadly: "I know, back then, you have been urging me to work hard, keep changing myself, without you there is no me today, Chen Yixiao has always been the goal of my life, still, what should I do, I don't know how I should live without Chen Yixiao."

I hugged her tightly: "Don't be so Ganxin, you are no longer the Ganxin who could only be attached to others twenty years ago, you are already a big tree that can go hand in hand with Chen Yixiao, you still have Xinyue, I am still by your side, you and Xinyue are my relatives." ”

"Two trees, Shu Ting's "To the Oak Tree", you taught me, you taught me a lot, you urged me to keep moving forward, I was just a little nurse from a nursing school, I just wanted to have a stable job and find a man who did my duty to live with a husband and children, but I met Chen Yixiao, met you, everything was different. Still, it took a long time for me to understand that you paid so much for me for Chen Yixiao. You have done everything you can to make me grow into a tree like a great tree, to make me his soul mate, to make him happy. In the past, I always felt that he loved you very much, but in fact, you have a deeper affection for him and do more for him."

I gently stroked Ganxin's black hair with my fingers and smiled sadly: "How can a man as good as Chen Yixiao not be loved, how I envied your purity and flawlessness at the beginning." When you little bird stood beside Chen Yixiao with affection, it really made me ashamed of myself, I have no other choice but to stay away from me, you are his angel and my angel, because with you, although his life is short, he has not lived up to it."

Chen Yixiao, he fixed his life forever at the age of forty-three, he is like an outstanding iron tree. Refuse to bow to the world, and refuse the aging of life.