"You calm down, okay?" "Is it time to calm down?" "Qin Jingyu, there is one thing I must tell you clearly, from the beginning to the present, even for a second, I have not lied to you - I admit that I have hidden part of it from you, but I can sue you for this part, when you are willing to listen."

He said word by word.

"I don't want to hear it."

I turned my head and looked outside.

In my philosophy, since there is no sincere relationship in the beginning, no matter how hard you try in the future, you will never be able to get close to the other person.

Silent all the way, Jin Ge drove the car and sent me back to Yiyuyuan with a familiar way.

In the dark, I looked at his sculpted side face, resolute lines, beautiful lip shape, and got out of the car without saying another word.

I didn't ask him when he knew my identity, I didn't ask him how he knew my house so well...... This qiē answer may not be so important at this moment—compared to Qin Zelun's indifference to me.

I can't forget the way he looked at me, even if it was disappointment, even if it was reproach, it was better than the indifference reflected in those obsidian eyes.

At least I can lie to myself, it turns out that the man cares about me.

Aunt Chen saw me come back and asked me if I wanted tea.

I shook my head feebly, and she seemed to notice something strange about me, opened her mouth, and turned back into the kitchen.

I smiled bitterly in my heart, people who have been with Qin Zelun for a long time know how to hide their hearts deeply.

What about me?

Do you want to put my fiery heart well, hide it deeply, so that no one can know?

However, the more time passed, the hotter that heart became, as if countless flames burst into a raging fire, burning my body to ashes.

I looked at the bear sitting obediently in the middle of the bed.

"Silly melon, you were sent by him, can you sue me what should I do?"

I took the bear in my arms, rubbed its soft fluff, and murmured.

I still vividly remember the scene when he gave me the bear that year.

The heart beat faster at that moment, and the ignorant attachment at that time.

When I was a child, I didn't know what that wonderful feeling was, I just felt that every time I saw Qin Zelun, I was in a very good mood, stepping on the ground was like floating in the clouds, and when I touched the corner of his clothes, I was excited as if I had eaten honey.

Later, when I watched the girls in the class all the young and energetic boys appear around them, and listened to them talk about that kind of vague and ambiguous feelings between classes, I was shocked to realize that my feelings for Qin Zelun had far exceeded ...... It's not that there hasn't been hesitation, it's not that there hasn't been a struggle.

My early experiences have made me appreciate my current life even more, and I know that staying where I am may be the best option.

But what is affection?

It's involuntary, it's involuntary.

The more you resist, the stronger the backlash becomes.

The more you restrain yourself, the more your thoughts will sweep over you like a tide.

I don't know how long I sat there, there was a knock on the door in the dark, the unique frequency made my heart startle, and when I raised my eyes, the familiar figure appeared in my eyes, and my eyes instantly tingled.

"How long have you been back?"

The calm voice, like his people, is steady and strategic.

I looked at this face that I had seen for many years, and every line was so relaxed that even if I was blindfolded, I could sketch the lines with charcoal and bring them to life.

"It's been a while,"

My throat was filled with lead, and he nodded almost invisibly and turned away.

"Don't you have anything to ask me?"

I smiled bitterly, and the lines of his back tensed for a moment, but unfortunately the light was a little dim, I didn't see it, but I heard a sigh from him, saying, Yuyu, you have grown up.