When I thought of the old man who was so kind and lived so peacefully, but because of my chatter and entanglement, I hated myself and slapped myself twice.

It's because I'm too selfish, I didn't expect that the current situation is not within the scope of my ability to deal with it at all, and I may bring great trouble or even disaster to the people around me anytime and anywhere.

No wonder, Chen Wei is always reluctant to talk to me too much, not that he doesn't want to say, but he understands that my vision is too narrow, I have seen too few experiences, and I can't handle the situation I encounter well, for example, if he tells me that there are many things in this world that he is helpless and powerless, no matter how I answer at the time, deep down I will still take it for granted that those have nothing to do with me, and Chen Wei will handle everything for me, because I can't define those correctlyHow helpless is 'helpless'.

For example, now, not only him, but also Lian Tiandu clearly showed that he was powerless to save me, and although I was afraid, there was still the idea in my bones that they would definitely be able to protect me.

Looking at Chen Wei, who had fallen asleep beside him, he was wearing a white T with a somewhat loose neckline, just enough to reveal the terrible scar left by the previous shoulder injury.

Chen Wei almost didn't leave a scar, when was this terrible scar left, I can't remember for what reason, I wanted to reach out to touch the scar but I was worried about waking up Chen Wei, the hand that was just stretched out paused for a while and then put it back on the quilt.

From the beginning to the present, my mentality of taking it for granted and the trouble I have brought have made Chen Wei pay too much

We always seem to have an explosive growth, an explosive awakening, and an explosive understanding of the truth that we may not have been able to understand for many years in the past

The next day, I got up very early, made breakfast for Chen Wei and them, and after eating, I went out with Chen Wei and walked towards the research building, on the way there, Suotian seemed to be very puzzled by my sudden incurable insomnia, and asked if there was anything special about yesterday's experiment.

I pretended to think seriously for a while and said, "It's nothing, it's the same as before." ”

When I got to the building, everything was the same as before, I went into the sterile room, Dr. Min was already waiting inside, and I looked at her a few more times when I went in, and she kept talking to the middle-aged doctor in front of the chaise longue, completely ignoring my gaze.

It wasn't until I was lying in the recliner and they were putting the instruments on my head that I turned to Dr. Min and asked, "How long is this going on?" ”

"Not sure, can't answer."

There was no trace of emotion in the words, and in a trance I even wondered if the person I was talking to yesterday was her.

I couldn't stop my nervousness at the thought of having to face that sharp and painful movement, and I could only keep reassuring myself that this research would not cost me my life.

In fact, this kind of comfort did not do much use, but made me more nervous.

But what should be faced is still to be faced

A few minutes later, when the middle-aged doctor pressed the button, the screeching sound reappeared.

I covered my ears and felt that although I was mentally prepared, it seemed that this time I was more sad than the last time, I gritted my teeth and stayed up minute by minute, but I didn't last half a minute, and the pain was unbearable at all, and I shouted at the top of my throat that I couldn't stand it, I couldn't stand it, and my head was going to explode.

But on the premise of making sure that I couldn't get rid of the things on my head myself, they kept standing not far away with a blank face and no reaction, watching my muscles bulge and almost roll on the ground without dignity.

In the midst of extreme pain, the picture I saw in my mind yesterday finally reappeared, only this time the picture appeared more completely, and there was even a picture in the middle of the woman whose pupils had shrunk as if she had become a walking corpse sitting at the table holding chopsticks and preparing to eat.

After jumping several times in a row, the scene in front of me suddenly shifted, and the next scene was the woman pushing a doctor to the ground and biting off a large piece of flesh connected to his throat.

It may be that the picture appeared too suddenly, I was frightened, there was a sudden shock in my brain, and when I opened my eyes again, I found that I didn't know when I had fallen asleep, and Dr. Min and the middle-aged doctor seemed to know that I would wake up at this time, and they had already begun to prepare to pack their things.

After asking me a few questions, the middle-aged man nodded to Dr. Min and signaled that it was over today.

When they removed the things from my head, I started slowly, but I always felt that somewhere on my body was uncomfortable, but I couldn't tell what was wrong with staring at myself when I looked around.

Leaving the sterile room, Chen Wei and Suotian were already waiting outside.

They still don't seem to see the picture of my anguish just now, and I don't know how they managed to hide it from them.

But I didn't plan to let them know anyway, so I didn't have to think of a reason to lie to them.

After I went back, I had a rare good appetite when I had dinner that night, and I looked at me who couldn't pick up rice in my mouth, Gao Yu smashed his mouth and said, "It's really not a woman at all." ”

I ignored him, it was rare to be relaxed and I could eat more, it was too unpleasant to quarrel with him.

Thinking so, I aimed at the shrimp meat in front of me, stretched out my chopsticks to clip them, and suddenly my hand went weak, and the outstretched chopsticks fell directly to the table.

"Look at you, look at you, I can't hold the chopsticks, what's the use of eating so much? I didn't even make it up in my head. Gao Yu sneered on the side, Chen Wei took the chopsticks aside and handed me a fork and said, "Be careful." ”

Taking the fork, I looked at my right hand suspiciously, tried to clench it and released it a few times, and after making sure that I had regained consciousness, I shook my head and hit Gao Yu back a few words, and continued to eat with the fork.

After eating, I had a bloated stomach because I had eaten too much, so I dragged Chen Wei out for a walk with me.

Walking and going swimming on a whim, Chen Wei almost responded to my request and took me to the pool to swim.

My swimming posture has nothing to do with grace, which can be seen from Chen Wei's eyes, I think he sees his wife swimming wet, and his eyes are exactly the same as watching a bullfrog fluttering in the water.

After fluttering for a while, I swam to Chen Wei and asked him, "You come down and teach me how to swim to look good." ”

I readily agreed, but before entering the water, Chen Wei asked me: "Who did you learn to swim from?" ”

"Self-taught."

Hearing this, his eyes once again flashed with the same look as when he saw the stray dog he had raised at home taking a bath

Chen Wei Sometimes you are not satisfied with him, you can't quarrel with him if you want to, his words are in his eyes, and he is half dead in his popularity, but he can't say it, I can't pinch my waist and ask him: "Why do you look at me and look at the bullfrog with the same look?"

After almost an hour, Chen completely gave up the idea of changing my swimming style.

Crawl out of the pool silently while I'm thrashing, and stand far away with the attitude that I'm waiting for you here.

The result of the study is obvious, some of them came out of the water in frustration, probably because they had stayed too long, and their bodies were a little white.

rubbed his arms, wrapped himself in a gauze skirt for external decoration, and followed Chen Wei home.

It's very hot here, and when I get home, I can't tell whether it's water or sweat, so I rushed into the bathroom to adjust the hot water and just stood up to wash my face first, and my raised arms were numb again, so stiff.

At first I thought it was a cramp and tried to control my arms twice, but soon I realized that it was not as simple as a cramp at all, because my brain was completely unable to control my arms, and unlike when I was eating in the afternoon, this time it was two arms.

I thought I would be able to recover after a while, but a full minute passed, my arm remained in its original state, and the hot water rushed on my body, and a layer of cold sweat broke out on my back, and I couldn't feel the presence of my arm up and down