The night after Shen Boteng left, Sister Xu came to the hotel to accompany me, as soon as she came, she saw the food on the bedside table that I didn't touch, so she went to the kitchen without saying a word, tossed in it for two hours, and came out, holding a hot aroma of stir-fried and soft white rice in her hand, she brought it to me, and said to me: "How much to eat, people are iron, rice is steel." ”

I still maintained the sitting posture when Shen Boteng left, and asked expressionlessly, "Who asked you to come?" ”

Sister Xu said: "Shen Boteng." ”

I said, "Let you persuade me?" ”

Sister Xu seemed to know what was going on, she looked at me and sighed for a long time, then went to sit on the bed with me, she held my cold hand and said, "I know what you are thinking, and I also know what you can't get by now, I don't understand what is going on between you and Shen Boteng, but I know my identity very well." ”

Sister Xu pulled me over to face her, Sister Xu looked at my red and swollen eyes and said: "Liang Sheng, you have always been a smart person, smart people should not be stumped by feelings, to use an analogy, if you are still in the clubhouse, you have not met Shen Boteng, now you should be no different from Xiaolan They are no different, you have to accept all kinds of guests, such days are heaven and hell compared to you now, not to mention, you don't need to be like Xiaolan and them now, you should know what kind of character Shen Ting is, Following him will definitely do you good and harmless. ”

Sister Xu said: "In fact, in the final analysis, whether it is with Shen Boteng or with Shen Ting, it will not affect you. ”

I said, "How can it not have an impact?" Sister Xu, I've been with you for so long, and what I've heard you say the most is to treat yourself as a person, others don't treat us as people, but at least we can't belittle ourselves, but now? Shen Ting and Shen Boteng are father and son, let me serve their two fathers and sons? ”

Sister Xu heard my words, and suddenly sneered, I don't know if she was laughing at me for being naïve or stupid, the sneer on her face exuded a thick irony, she said: "Liang Sheng, it seems that you have never put yourself in the right position, I have sued you, others don't treat us as people, we ourselves at least don't look down on ourselves, but you seem to have forgotten it, you can look up to yourself, but have you ever thought about your value in the eyes of others?" Liang Sheng, don't always use your courage to collide with reality, you must know that all your future needs to rely on Shen Boteng to support, without him to provide you with medicine, you will die in less than two months, in the final analysis, your little life is just a transition from the club to his hands.

Do you think there is a free lunch in this world? Do you think you can rely on your beauty to win him a lifetime of favor? Liang Sheng, Shen Boteng will not be your backer for life, can you guarantee that no one will take your place in the future? Can you guarantee that you will always be young and loved by him? You are not sure to guarantee these things at all, but it is different with Shen Ting, although he is a little older, but older age also has the advantage of being older, you don't have to worry about being old and decrepit, you don't have to worry about losing your favor, if you can please him, after his death, you can also get a guarantee from him, which is much better than you follow Shen Boteng to the end of the bamboo basket to draw water. ”

Sister Xu said: "The reason why you refuse is because you have feelings for Shen Boteng that you shouldn't have. ”

I immediately denied it sharply and said, "No! ”

Sister Xu said: "If not, why don't you want to weigh such obvious interests?" Everyone knows that choosing Shen Ting is more beneficial to you than following Shen Boteng, but what about you? ”

Sister Xu looked at me aggressively.

I explained, "They are father and son!" My morals don't allow me to do that. ”

Sister Xu said: "Do you see less things in the club that are more morally depraved than this, what is this?"

She said, "You can lie to us, but you can't lie to yourself!" If a person even deceives himself, I sue you, Liang Sheng, you are called self-deception, this is a stupid way to deceive your own thoughts, you don't have any illusions about Shen Boteng, he will never marry you, how can someone like them marry a man in the dust? When he has a wife, you still have to get out, and at that time I sue you, you really have nothing, and at that time, you will regret your choice now! ”

Sister Xu's words were like a knife chopping wood, directly slashing down on my heart, making my head dizzy, my limbs weak, and my whole body suddenly collapsed on the bed.

I suddenly realized that I had been deceiving myself for so long, and everyone saw it very clearly, and I was the only one holding an unrealistic fantasy, imagining in that direction, and at the same time falsely accusing myself in my heart, and in the end I was just binding myself as a cocoon, absurd and ridiculous?

Where do people like me have human rights? How could he have different feelings for me? Why should I be so resentful and resentful of what he has done to me? I'm just an object to him, it's never me who makes the rules of the game, in front of him, in the end, I only have to obey and obey orders, for so long, I have actually forgotten my identity, forgotten my position.

It's ridiculous and pitiful.

Suddenly, I was woken up by Sister Xu's scolding.

When I got to the back, I shed tears, Sister Xu held me in her arms, patted me on the back like a big sister, and whispered: "Think about it tonight, Sister Xu has nothing else to say, I can only advise you, don't waste your feelings on some people who are destined not to get, we should learn to love ourselves, because there are only people in this world who don't dislike our identity or our background, only ourselves." ”

I leaned on her shoulder, and after a long pause, my voice was hoarse, and I said, "I know." ”

Sister Xu sighed and let go of me, handed me the bowl of cold rice again, and said, "Eat some, I made your favorite stir-fried pork with green peppers." ”

This time, I didn't refuse, but calmly took the bowl in her hand, picked up the bamboo chopsticks, and ate the bowl of cold rice one bite at a time.

After seeing off Sister Xu the next day, I returned to the door of the hotel room from the elevator and said to the two bodyguards standing outside the door that I asked to see Shen Boteng.