Chapter 466: Introspection
In the face of Xiao Wanying's accusation, I was speechless, her words were true, how could I argue? It turns out that I have really always been an extremely selfish and despicable villain, unscrupulous in order to achieve the end, especially after I knew that Qin Xueyuan was not the unlucky girl, this idea became stronger and stronger.
How could I have so brutally persecuted an irrelevant outsider?
Xu was tired, or maybe she was tired of scolding, Xiao Wanying finally stopped the movements in her hands, but the resentment in her eyes was still there, and it did not subside for half a minute.
Seeing her panting, but still not daring to relax for a moment to glare at me, my heart suddenly ached.
I reached out and touched her head as I had done a long time ago when I was her "daddy", but the moment I raised my hand to her, she didn't shy away from showing disgust to me and took a big step back in time.
She still stared at me like that, and said to me word by word: "The murderer who killed a thousand knives spared the life of the snow kite, but you killed her heart." You, like him, are murderers! You guys are no different! ”
Me and him, the same?
Am I the same as that imposter?
Could it be that in addition to this identical skin, my heart is the same as his? Xiao Wanying's heart, am I already so dark? Sure enough, am I no longer the daddy she loved the most more than ten years ago?
What kind of pain is this? Obviously, the heart is like a knife, but there are no scars and no bleeding. Obviously grief-stricken, but even the innate instinct to shed tears has been lost in an instant.
My tone was surprisingly calm: "Don't worry, I'll be responsible for what I do." ”
"Fart! Responsible, how are you responsible? Tell me how to be responsible after ruining people's reputation? ”
I looked at Xiao Wanying's indignant appearance, listened to her hoarse roar, and said very calmly: "I will dissolve the marriage contract, and then tell the world, this qiē is a farce directed and acted by me alone, I will tell the whole world, I am a selfish, ugly villain." ”
Xiao Wanying didn't seem to expect me to say such a thing, and for a while, except for surprise and surprise, there was no other expression to respond to me.
I used all my strength and courage to force a smile that I thought was natural as a goodnight gift to say goodbye to her tonight, and then walked towards Mochen's room without looking back.
"Wait a minute."
I stopped, but didn't look back: "Is there anything else you don't like?" ”
"I ......"
I don't know what kind of expression Xiao Wanying has on her face at this time, but her desire to speak at this time stops, which makes me understand that at least this is not a happy expression.
"Don't worry, I will do what I say."
"I didn't mean to say that."
I took another step because of Xiao Wanying's words and stopped again.
"I ...... Tsk - bad guy, I was too heavy just now. You ......"
I shook my head weakly, "It's okay, you're right, good night." ”
"I've said it all, wait a minute!"
This time, instead of listening to her, I continued to walk in the same direction as I had been.
But I only took one step when I felt the restraining force at the corner of my coat, and I lowered my head to see a small hand tugging at it.
"Bad guy, let me ask you, how did you meet Snow Kite?"
I sneered with feigned disdain: "Does this question make sense?" ”
Yes, there is no point, this acquaintance was a farce of my wishful thinking from the beginning.
"Of course it makes sense! Bad guy, I entered the Moon Tower before Snow Kite, and since she came, I have never seen her come into contact with other men unless it was necessary for the demon hunt. I'm sure we haven't seen you all these years, so why did you marry a snow kite? Have you known her from the past? ”
Know...... Is it? Speaking of "knowing", everyone is looking for her - but Xiao Wanying, do you know that the person I "know" may be you!
"What if you recognize it or not? The beginning and end of a relationship does not need to be judged by 'acquaintances' or 'strangers'. But you didn't scold me wrong, I was really wrong, ridiculously wrong. It turns out that I have always been cocooned and self-contained, living in a dream that I have made up myself. ”
I knew that Xiao Wanying couldn't understand what I said, so I didn't intend to get a response from her from the beginning.
"Also, how can you be sure you haven't seen me? You don't even know what I look like......"
I hadn't finished my words yet, and I hadn't had time to blurt out the last word, but at this moment, I couldn't wait to break free of Xiao Wanying's restraint and go straight back to Mochen's room.
It wasn't until the door was closed and my back trembled against the door panel that I dared to raise my head, and my thoughts didn't return to normal until then.
The moment I suddenly broke free, I used a lot of force, and I don't know if Xiao Wanying was injured by me. I put my hands on my cheeks and rubbed them vigorously, the cold touch under my palms was the cold sweat that poured out of me at that moment.
I turned around stiffly and pressed my face against the crack in the door, trying to see through the barely zài gap to see through the barely zài gap.
I didn't have a voyeurism, but I was forced to open the door.
My mask, along with my unfinished words, was ripped off by Xiao Wanying!
I can't imagine Xiao Wanying's reaction after seeing my face, and I can't imagine the choice she made when facing her two fathers.
That's why I chose the most cowardly way to do it – to escape.
My heart was still beating erratically, and for a few moments, I even suspected that it would suddenly jump out of my body.
I wandered to the side of the bed in despair, and fell backwards with a limp of my body, originally trying to use the hard touch of the bed board to knock my temporarily dysfunctional head to wake up, but I didn't expect that what came from behind me would be a soft comfort, and ...... The screams that followed!
"Ah——!h
I suddenly got up in response, and sure enough, I saw Mochen with a pale face and a coughing face.
"Ahem, ahem, ahem—Xiao Yueyue, you, you, bastard, bastard! Ahem—"
"Shut up!" I didn't want to raise the bar with him, and I couldn't afford to argue with him, so I slapped him in the face, slapped him all over the place, and then rolled over on the bed, kicked him into the corner of the bed with both feet, and looked at the ceiling in a daze on my back.
It seems that tomorrow it is better to make it clear to Qin Xueyuan directly, sue sù her, the gambling contract is invalid, the marriage contract is invalid, as compensation, I will tell the world as I just said to Xiao Wanying, the so-called "marriage" is just nonsense, and I also know that once I really do this, the rumor of marrying the demon king will also come to an abrupt end. In the final analysis, every qiē is a sin of my making. If...... I mean, if Qin Xueyuan feels that this is not enough, then I can go against my long-standing principle of "never suffer" and continue to help her take revenge, so as to "atone for her crimes".
My thoughts were very confused, the cold sweat all over my body stuck to my clothes, I wanted to take it off, but I didn't want to move, I could only continue to stare at the ceiling in a daze, but the more I was in a daze, the more I couldn't sleep, the more I couldn't sleep, the more I continued to be in a daze. So, I plunged headlong into the loop I had created.
Mochen's snoring was like thunder, which made me a little angry. Seeing that Xiao Wanying helped him clean up the mess, he slipped back to Mengzhou Gong alone, leaving the master and I was there alone, it's too fucking unrighteous!
Foxes have excellent night vision, so when humans use the phrase "I can't see my fingers" to describe the boundless night, I always scoff at them. But disdain is disdainful, I really wish I could have their "weak vision" ability. Now, it was late at night, and there was not even a trace of hazy moonlight in the room, but I could still clearly see the surroundings.
I saw Xiao Wanying's hesitant figure outside the door. By now, it has been a long, long time since I was separated from Xiao Wanying, so long that I have completely lost my sense of time. I don't know why she hasn't been back to the house yet, and I wonder why she's insomnia: Could it be because she's angry at me for running away? Because of my cowardice for a while, she finally failed to see my true appearance. Or is she worried about Qin Xueyuan? Or is she thinking about her "daddy" ......?
I'm such a masochist, and any of the above speculations will undoubtedly only bother me more, so why should I continue to dwell on this?
I finally realized that "no heart and no lungs" can be called a compliment in a sense, at least for me now, if I can do this, maybe I can live more freely.
Thinking about all this, I still had insomnia all night. By the time I came back to my senses, the "heartless" Master Mochen had already half-opened his sleepy eyes, and he didn't know how long he had been staring at me.
"Damn!" I almost didn't think about it, and I slapped him on the back of the head again - scared to death! Let me have a terrifying moment early in the morning, what do you want to make trouble?
"Why are you hitting me?"
Mo Chen originally looked like he hadn't fully woken up, but now he was slapped by me again, and he seemed to be even more dizzy, and even this question was confused.
"It's you who hit you! As soon as I came back to my senses, I saw a pair of eyes staring at the master, which was terrifying! ”
"Oh." Mo Chen replied to me lightly, and then began to get dressed in a stumbling manner, and muttered by the way, "It's because you don't look like your soul is possessed, so I stared at you, but you didn't return to your soul for a long time, and the ghost knows what you thought about this night." ”
What do you think?
I scratched my head and suddenly realized that I had been sleepless all night and didn't even know what I was thinking!
I sat up and lay down all night without moving, my whole body was so stiff that I could even hear the "click" of my own bones at a simple movement of getting up.
I hammered my shoulder a little tiredly, turned my head, and saw that Mo Chen's guy was already dressed, so I kicked him lightly and said, "Go out and help me pick up the mask, and take a look at where the imposter is." ”
Mo Chen first subconsciously said "oh", and then turned over and got out of bed to put on his shoes, but he was only halfway through, and he immediately turned back to look at me.
By this time, he should have been completely awake, because his eyes were already wide to the limit, and I was even beginning to worry about whether his eyeballs would suddenly fall out in the next moment......
"Did your daughter see you? What did she say? ”
I pushed him impatiently, and then got out of bed myself: "She didn't see it. ”
"Whew-" Mo Chen also seemed to breathe a sigh of relief for me, but looking at his expression, I always felt that this tone was a little disappointed......
"It's a pity, I thought I could watch a good show."
Sure enough, my guess is still reliable, this guy is really the type of "I'm afraid the world will not be chaotic".
"you!" I smacked at him, urging him to find me a mask.
It didn't take long for Mo Chen to return to the room with a piece of dirty things. I was rinsing my mouth with the overnight tea on the table, and when I saw this thing in his hand, I was so angry that I sprayed a mouthful of water directly on Mo Chen's face.
I took the mask from his hand in the sound of Mo Chen's scolding - it seems that Xiao Wanying was very angry with me last night, looking at the messy footprints of the mask, you can imagine that she must have stepped on this unlucky mask more than a hundred times, she should have sprinkled all her anger on me, and, I can guess, she must have scolded me bloody while stepping on it......
Finally, the quality of this mask is still good, being tossed by Xiao Wanying so much, there is no damage, which makes me feel a little incredible, I didn't expect that there are still good things in the broken house in the deep mountains and old forests of Mochen.
I glanced at Mo Chen, who was still mourning beside me, and asked, "Where is Xiao Wanying?" Did you run into her when you went out? ”
"Nope." Mo Chen replied to me angrily, but after he finished speaking, as if he had thought of something, the resentment on his face temporarily subsided a lot, and the next moment, he actually showed a malicious smile at me, which suddenly made me feel a chill.
"Hey, hey—"
This guy's "hehe" shook off the goosebumps on my body.
"Damn, don't laugh so disgustingly, okay? What's the matter, hurry up! ”
"It's okay, it's okay. I just remembered something out of nowhere. ”
"What?"
Mo Chen leaned his face closer and said to me with a smile, "Didn't you tell me to see where that imposter was?" Why did you change your words and ask me about your daughter's whereabouts now? ”
I was slightly stunned...... Maybe, maybe, probably because Xiao Wanying's matter bothered me all night, so it was natural to mention her name now......
Well, it should be like this...... Even if it's not, I think so.